Well this is the home page obviously and I am supposed to tell all of you who I am well right now there isnt much to say but I guess since there is something I might as well say itI have had a rough life and right now I am not at a state where I am going to divuldge any information about that if some of you know something about me consider yourself lucky for I rarly tell anyone anything These are my poems Untitled To look at yourself In the lake of your own blood Smiling knowing it will all be over soon To think to yourself In the darkest corning of you mind Crying knowing you'll be alone To give you love away Watching as they squeeze your heart Die as your soul withers Away To be nothing Following as your told Living this world as an empty shell To be left alone To be ignored Is death the same? .......It is Because love loved another I sit there and watch no smile no hope To sit and think what love I have missed with no one to hold To watch your love love some one else to kiss them and hold them while you stand there bear to the world your hands cold without a warm touch your arms aching to hold You would rather die then to see there love but the best you can do is turn away to close your eyes and wish it to disappear You smile and laugh around them You think happy thoughts when really you wanna fade away You try to reach out only to be stopped by some one else a barrier that doesnt allow you near them but still the loved one talks to you and tells you how much they love them but you sit there and smile and laughed and agree when ever word they say stabs your heart wounding your soul but still you grin still you fight to live on and conquer such things You just cant take it any more you life doesnt make sense its all a blurr They where your life but someone else had to go and grab them away you are left to stand alone from then on you are left in the cold from then on you die alone from then on your loveless Just because you love loved another Fate or my death? Why is it I stand in a crowd but I feel so alone Why is it so warm yet its so cold Why doesnt it hurt when they laugh and turn away Is it because Im numb or is it because I dont care anymore This life of mine does it deserve to move on? does it deserve to see another day? only fate will decide and hopefully fate will be in my favor to end it all to lay in my own cooling blood to smile at the night sky lifeless eyes staring off fate can be cruel but death... death is gentle My cold hands burn to die Im all alone In this world of cold Looking beyond my life And into the death that would be mine I am in pain A pain no one can see It is just covered up By the mask that smiles I can no longer see I can no longer feel My body is numb My mind dead I am alone in this world of death My love has left me to die My heart is now an empty void No longer to be filled My life is is ruin To be just blown away by the wind I am just ashes I am just dirt To be stepped on To be used This is my world This is my life My mask has failed me Showing the world my pain This is my true face The face of death and pain I am dead now To no longer love Because the love I had Turned and walked away This is my world In this world we are alone Every step is a step of stone Our minds gone blurred From thoughts of home But from that point You see no way But walk straight down And look just the other way To die alone To be afraid This world or cold Every ones heart tightly bound But we are in a world of people Every step is a step on a cloud Our mind can be cleared And thoughts can be gained From that point on You see life the way it should be shown You continue forward On the path of hope Because one day Your hand wont be so cold Because some one will care and that care would make you world change My love will be the death of me I stare at your face your eyes and your lips just to think you love me as much as i love you but theres something you dont know about my love to you ill die the day you leave me ill die the day you will die i will die trying to protect you my love is yours along with my heart i love the way your hair falls around your face the way the sun hits your eyes i love the way your skin glowes during the sunset you were my angel my gaurdian but i will still die to protect you to take you from harm to keep that smile on your face to keep you precious blood run through your vains remember remember what i have said to leave me is to kill me to kill me is to hate me but i will always love you till death do us part Worthless What is hear is not what i see but what i feel is no what i hear am i confused or am i lost Why cant i stop did i even start my life is lost my eyes are blind my ears are deaf my touch is numb I walk alone no one to guide me no one can help me the world doesnt see me any more and i it i see no ones faces but there backs as they are turned to me there is no need for me to live any more for i have abandoned life for it has abandoned me my life is worth nothing and the world worth all Sleeping as i rest my head down to bed dreaming and sleeping but still i dont know what to do i wake up just screaming what have i done to you get out of my head i dont want you there i dont know you your not my friend as i lay in the corner my bloody wrists staining the wall i think to myself think nothing think nothing at all good bye this world youll never see me not at all anymore My blood and tears Tears are falling There are so many why are they falling? Who is crying? This blood that fall it is so warm Why is there blood? Who is bleeding? My hand goes to my face My cheeks are wet My hands are wet Tears fall from my hand I am crying The tears are mine I cry because it hurts I cry because I am no more This blood is mine I sit in this blood I bleed because it hurts I bleed because my heart Cant you fix this? cant my family Fix this? They cant because there the one to do this They caused this pain I promised never to cry agian They wanted me too. They did it and left me to die Well i am dead I am dead inside I am a shell of nothing I would seek death but i am dead So i sit and wait Darkness Falls and so do I Darkness falls slowly over my mind My sight fails to see any longer My breath only to be caught short To die slowly why out love in your heart To fall down never to get up To lay there with out the will to move your only family is yourself your only love is your self The darkness smothers me It begins to get cold I just stand there and stare I dont even run Why would I Is there a reason If I was left to die by my loved ones Then why not let it be I have died in my heart and my mind My body is the only thing that stops me from going to hell but i am not scared I hug this death of mine But i am scared to die with out love I lay down now to rest forever a tear falls from my face my body cold but your warm hand in mine reminds me That you stlll care about me Endlessly Falling I float in this life of my With no control of what way I go It never ends My fall to death I am always traveling to sadness and greif But I am used to it I am immuned to the cold all I can do is smile I am falling with out grace I am falling with out heart These things i do not need For where i am going there pointless My body now aches only to bleed I wait for my next chance to feel the pain If death wont kill me I will bring myself closer to him I just wait with my wrist to him I continue to fall I no longer resist because i know tomorrow it we be the same I know tomorrow there will be no change I can only wish to die To smile my last To breath my last Beacuse overall I am endlessly falling Links to other sites on the Web My Forums
To look at yourself In the lake of your own blood Smiling knowing it will all be over soon
To think to yourself In the darkest corning of you mind Crying knowing you'll be alone
To give you love away Watching as they squeeze your heart Die as your soul withers Away
To be nothing Following as your told Living this world as an empty shell
To be left alone To be ignored Is death the same? .......It is
To sit and think what love I have missed with no one to hold
To watch your love love some one else to kiss them and hold them
while you stand there bear to the world your hands cold without a warm touch your arms aching to hold
You would rather die then to see there love but the best you can do is turn away to close your eyes and wish it to disappear
You smile and laugh around them You think happy thoughts when really you wanna fade away
You try to reach out only to be stopped by some one else a barrier that doesnt allow you near them
but still the loved one talks to you and tells you how much they love them but you sit there and smile and laughed and agree when ever word they say stabs your heart wounding your soul
but still you grin still you fight to live on and conquer such things
You just cant take it any more you life doesnt make sense its all a blurr
They where your life but someone else had to go and grab them away you are left to stand alone
from then on you are left in the cold from then on you die alone from then on your loveless
Just because you love loved another
I am in pain A pain no one can see It is just covered up By the mask that smiles
I can no longer see I can no longer feel My body is numb My mind dead
I am alone in this world of death My love has left me to die My heart is now an empty void No longer to be filled
My life is is ruin To be just blown away by the wind I am just ashes I am just dirt
To be stepped on To be used This is my world This is my life
My mask has failed me Showing the world my pain This is my true face The face of death and pain
I am dead now To no longer love Because the love I had Turned and walked away
But from that point You see no way But walk straight down And look just the other way
To die alone To be afraid This world or cold Every ones heart tightly bound
But we are in a world of people Every step is a step on a cloud Our mind can be cleared And thoughts can be gained
From that point on You see life the way it should be shown You continue forward On the path of hope
Because one day Your hand wont be so cold Because some one will care and that care would make you world change
This blood that fall it is so warm Why is there blood? Who is bleeding?
My hand goes to my face My cheeks are wet My hands are wet Tears fall from my hand
I am crying The tears are mine I cry because it hurts I cry because I am no more
This blood is mine I sit in this blood I bleed because it hurts I bleed because my heart
Cant you fix this? cant my family Fix this? They cant because there the one to do this They caused this pain
I promised never to cry agian They wanted me too. They did it and left me to die Well i am dead
I am dead inside I am a shell of nothing I would seek death but i am dead So i sit and wait
To fall down never to get up To lay there with out the will to move your only family is yourself your only love is your self
The darkness smothers me It begins to get cold I just stand there and stare I dont even run
Why would I Is there a reason If I was left to die by my loved ones Then why not let it be
I have died in my heart and my mind My body is the only thing that stops me from going to hell but i am not scared I hug this death of mine But i am scared to die with out love
I lay down now to rest forever a tear falls from my face my body cold but your warm hand in mine reminds me That you stlll care about me
I am always traveling to sadness and greif But I am used to it I am immuned to the cold all I can do is smile
I am falling with out grace I am falling with out heart These things i do not need For where i am going there pointless
My body now aches only to bleed I wait for my next chance to feel the pain If death wont kill me I will bring myself closer to him I just wait with my wrist to him
I continue to fall I no longer resist because i know tomorrow it we be the same I know tomorrow there will be no change
I can only wish to die To smile my last To breath my last Beacuse overall I am endlessly falling
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