As I walk along these streets
I see a man that walks alone
Distant echo of people's feet
He has no place to call his own
A shot rings out from a roof overhead
A crackhead asks for change nearby
An old man lies in an alleyway dead
A little girl lost just stands there and cries
What would you do, if it was you
Would you take everything
For granted like you do
A boy just 13 on the corner for sale
Swallows his pride for another hit
Overpopulation there's no room in jail
But most of you don't give a shit
That your daughters are porno stars
And your sons sell death to kids
You're so lost in your little worlds
Your little worlds you'll never fix
You turn away
As I walk along the streets
Soaking up the acid rain
Underneath the taxi cabs
I hear the streets cry out in vain
Pressure
I just need this to be all right
I can't feel this another night
I can't take this I come unglued
I might breakdown in front of you
Necessary to medicate
I'm not sleeping can't stay awake
Can't see through this
Too much pressure
Drowning in this
Too much pressure
If you need me I'll be here
Half unconscious to escape my fear
My head hurts this shit isn't getting me high
My chest is so tight I think I am going to die
My stomach's in knots and the room starts to spin
As I wait for this valium to slowly kick in
Fade
I try to breathe
Memories overtaking me
I try to face them but
The thought is too
Much to conceive
I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
That my life became 'cause
I just needed someone to talk to
You were just too busy with yourself
You were never there for me to
Express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface
I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made
So where were you
When all this I was going through
You never took the time to ask me
Just what you could do
It's Been Awhile
And it's been awhile since I could
Hold my head up high
And it's been awhile since I first saw you
And it's been awhile since I couldn stand
On my own two feet again
And it's been awhile since I could call you
And everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that are rendured
I stretch myself beyond my means
And it's been awhile since I couldn't say
That I wasn't addicted and
And it's been awhile since I couldn't say I
Love myself as well, and
And it's been awhile since I've gone and fucked things up
Just like I always do
And it's been awhile, but all that shit seems to disappear
When I'm with you
And everything I can remember
As fucked up as it always seemed
The consequences that I've rendured
Have gone and fucked up things again
Why must I feel this way
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day
And it's been awhile since I could look in myself straight
And it's been awhile since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile since I've seen the way the candles light your face
And it's been awhile but I can still remember just the way you taste
And everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be, I know its me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me
And its been awhile since I could
Hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
Change
If ever you had said to me before
That I would live this life that I am
Living now I guess it's all so strange
To feel the way I do inside but
Have so much that I could feel some
Pride for in my life so why is it that
I feel like this
How do I feel? I've been here before,
I've felt this
Retreat to a place, a place within me
I need this. Keep it all down, bottled inside
It breaks me to torment again and
Torture me like it used to
I try and try to break away from all the hate
I'm feeling for everyone of you that's ever
Done me wrong. I need to justify the reasons
For the way I'm living. I guess I can't cause
I don't feel like I deserve it
So now the waves they have subsided
And my soul is bleeding I can't take away
The shame I feel, forgive me
Can't Believe
Respect, respect what is found
Respect should abound
Respect everything that you leave
I can't believe
Can't believe
And I, I can't believe
I can't believe all the travesty
Surrounding me, I, I want to flee
I want to flee from everything
In front of me I
Can't believe
Never again, trusted in you
Fuck everything that you think I should be
I stand, never again, never again
Can't believe
Epiphany
Your words to me stay a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear
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Cuz its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
So I speak to you in riddles
Cuz my words get in my way
I soak the hole thing to my head
And feel it wash away
Cuz I cant take anymore of this
I wanna come apart
And dig myself a little hole
Inside your precious heart
CHORUS
I am nothing more than
A little boy inside
That cries out for attention
Yet I always try to hide
Cuz I'd talk to you like children
Though I dont know how I feel
But I know I'll do the right thing
If the right thing is to feel
CHORUS
Suffer
The more you see the more you do
The televisions feeding you
With what you wanna hear
Anger and fear
Because you suffer..
The hate you feel you won't go away
Your all programmed to feel this way
To live another day
Within a world
That longs to suffer..
And then I come to find
Everything's ok
Seen this all before
But that was yesterday
Try to walk right through
The messes that I've made
Just let me enjoy
The life here that I have
Tried to give this all to you
Can't take anymore to deal
With this it hurts inside I know
Why I hide
Cause I suffer
I tried to keep it all inside
Never leave me too much pride
I forced it all down inside
Forced myself
To make me suffer
And then I come to find
Everythings ok
Seen this all before
But that was yesterday
Try to walk right through
The messes that I've made
So I can enjoy
The life here that I have
And then I come to find
And then I come to find
Everythings ok
Seen this all before
But that was yesterday
Try to walk right through
The messes that I've made
So I can enjoy
The life here that I have
Safe Place
Another day
Inside my world
I'm married to you and this road
A road that never lets me sleep
So there's no way to escape these demons I am forced to keep
And then I find you here
Through your eyes, everything's clear
And I'm home inside your arms
But I'm alone for now
I mean the best with what I say
It doesn't always sound that way
I never learned to work things out
Cuz in my family all we ever seem to do is shout
And then I find you here
Through your eyes, everything's clear
And I'm home inside your arms
But I'm alone for now
Alone for now
But then I find out here
Through your eyes everything's clear
And I'm home inside your arms
But I'm alone for now
And when I try to sleep
The drugs I take are killing me
I think of you to ease my pain
But you're so far
Now it's time to say goodbye
I love you baby please don't cry
Cuz then I'll find you here
Through your eyes everything's clear
And I'm home inside your arms but I'm alone for now
For You
To my mother, to my father
It's your son or it's your daughter
Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me?
Should I turn this up for y ou
Chorus
I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything youve said
This silence gets us nowhere!
Gets us nowhwere way too fast
The silence is what kills me
I need someone here to help me
But you dont know how to listen
And let me make my decisions
Cuz I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence gets us nowhere
Gets us nowhere way too fast
All your insults and your curses
Make me feel like im not a person
And i feel like i am nothing
But you made me so do something
Cuz im fucked up because you are
Need attention, attention you couldnt give
I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything youve said
This silence gets us nowhere
Gets us nowhere way too fast
I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence gets us nowhere
Gets us nowhere way too fast
Outside
And you
Bring me to my knees again
All the times
That I could beg you please
All the times
That I felt insecure, for you
And I leave
My burdens at the door
CHORUS:
But I'm on the outside
I'm lookin in
I can see through you
See your true colors
Cuz inside you're ugly
You're ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
All the times
That I felt like this wont end, its for you
And I taste
What I could never have, it was from you
All the times
That I've cried
My intentions, full of pride
But I waste, more time than anyone
CHORUS
All the times
That I've cried
All this wasted
It's all inside
And I feel
All this pain
I stuffed it down
It's back again
And I lie
Here in bed
All alone
I cant mend
But I feel
Tomorrow will be ok
CHORUS
Waste
Your mother came up to me
She wanted answers only she should know
Only she should know
It wasn't easy to deal
With the tears that rolled down her face
I have no answers cuz
I didn't even know you
Chorus
But these words
They can't replace
The life you
The life you waste
How could you paint this picture? was life as bad as it should seem
that there were no more options for you?
I cant explain how i feel
Ive been there many times before
Ive tasted the cold steel of my life crashing down before me
CHORUS
Did daddy not love you
Or did he love you just too much
Did he control you
Did he liv through you at ytour cost
Did he leave no questions for you to answer on your own?
Well fuck them
And fuck her
And fuck him
And fuck you
For not having the strength in your heart to pull through
I've had doubts
I have failed
I've fucked up
I've had plans
Doesn't mean I should take my life with my own hands
CHORUS
Take it
I feel like this won't go away
No matter how hard I try to
Squeeze my eyes shut so I can't see
The pain in you this pain in me - in me
Chorus
But everything that I can say to you
Won't help you
Everything you need is right infront of you
Just take it
I know that I am really not here
To represent what i am not clear about in my head
Sometimes i feel fucked up just like you do - like you do
CHORUS
Try to make it through the daily pain that you feel
Maybe tomorrow wont be so bad
I know it cuz
I once felt that way
Nothing i could say
Made it go away
I lived through this
I still feel this
I just live for my tomorrow
Just make it go away
Just make it go away
She'll make it go away
She'll make it go away