We are preparing to start another journey.  We will be leaving next week for Athens, Ohio and will be spending a good three or more weeks there.  We are still searching, unsettled and rootless, to find a home and happiness.  We are getting closer, but I came to realize its impossible to go outside your home, your family or even yourself to find happiness.  Love for all of these things comes from within and must come before love or healing of our culture, society or the world.  Maybe love and healing for our culture and the world comes out of love and healing of our home, our family and ourselves.  I had heard this a long time ago and in my stubborness I had to learn it for myself and maybe I will be relearning this for the rest of my life, knowing how quickly we all forget the simplest and yet most important lessons.  I have come to find that all I can really do is live my life with as little impact on the earth as possible, learn to love and heal myself and my family and out of this truly believe that in the end the earth will heal herself.  Maybe people will say that it's selfish, a long time ago I would have, but now I know I did the best I could and went through hell and high water, came out on the other side just to see that I was back where I started, everything looks the same but deep down I'm healing and the darkness is dissipating.  I'm making efforts to be open, honest and understanding with my family and those around me and hope for a better, deeper relationship.  I'm excited, really excited, about learning.  I want to learn about the goddess, feminism, Reiki, breathwork, love, singing... and I dearly hope to have a home to continue doing this in soon.  I want a place where I can have arguments loudly, dance in the living room, walk around naked and make love without wondering whose going to see or whose going to hear.  I want to get involved in a choir again, I want to sing!  I want to lay in the grass and know I am home, my home.  I want to become a certified Reiki practitioner and will be this fall.  I'm ready, I'm open and I'm overjoyed!  Life, here I am!