9:28pm
i'm still waiting for matt to call me back. earlier today, i called him to see if we could do something, and he said he was just going out and he'd be back later. so i told him to call me when he got in... but he probly won't. yknow he's never called me once since we've been going out? not even in the summer... jeez, listen to me bitch eh? lol. i dunno, he probly wont call cuz he'll be home at like 1 in the morning or something... there's always a reasonable explanation. i dunno. im not gonna stress about it...
but if you dont already know the story, here's what happened. friday night he came online and i asked him if i could see him the next day. he said "yeah, cuz we kinda gotta talk about something." so i'm thinkin, oh shit. wth is he gonna say, and i was all stressed out and anxious and it felt like i had a knot in my stomach. but then i got off work around 12.30 that day, so i called him and asked what was goin on, could i see him blah blah blah, but he was just gonna go out (booo) so he said he'd be home around 7. so i called at 7.30 and 810ish, and he still wasnt home, so i just gave up. but i wasn't worried anymore, because he sounded like everything was fine on the phone. so today i tried again, and here i am. still waiting to hear whatever it was he wanted to talk to me about.
there. woah... didn't mean to go into a whole big story there. but i did... so sue me.
simon told me to not worry about things i couldnt change. good advice, unless it's something i can change. like maybe i dont call enough or something (only cuz whenever i DO call him, he's sick or busy or can't go out or something.) but i dunno. all i know is i miss the kid. (in haven't seen him in a friggin month and a half! i dont even think he knows about my hair.) and if it's something dumb like that, im not gonna let it end over something that stupid... unless it's another chick. then his ass will get busted... whooped. beaten. smoted. brokeded. but i'm sure that's not what it is.
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