11:57 am
but yeah. i needed a good party last night, something to get my mind off things. if you haven't heard, me and dwayne are on a "break" if you will. mind you i don't really wanna talk about it. if you ask me, i might elaborate. just might. plus all the crap with my friggin aunt... holy crap. it's like she's trtying to run my life or something. instead of letting me go through things myself, take a chance and learn things for myself, she just tells me "this is what's gonna happen to you, so just stop right now." i was friggin crying sunday night.. so much. and monday a bit too. and she was like, ok next week we're getting together again. and it wasn't just her, my brother was there too... i wish he'd move out. like really soon. so yeah... a distraction was in dire need.
tonight will serve a distractive purpose as well... there's a Gorgon at the church tonight. :o) it'll be so fun. i'll be able to run around and scream and release some stress and tension n all that jazz...
and today i'm getting my new bed delivered... woot. it's a double. :oD no more rollin' around on a cramped little old springy single for me! sigh.
*what would you say if i asked you not to go. to forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me. would you take my hand, and never let me go? promise me you'll never let me go.*
that's such a good song. but too sad. because it describes right now... i'll probly put it op on the jams page later on today... damn. i need to stop thinking about it.
but as for me, i wish that i was anywhere, with anyone, making out.
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