*Here To Stay

 

This time I'm taking it away, I've got a problem

When they getting in the way, not by my side

So I take my face and bash it into a mirror

I won't have to see the pain

 

This pain is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating

Anticipating all the fucked up feelings again

 

My hurt inside is fading

This shit's gone way too far

All this time I've been waiting

Oh I cannot breath anymore

For what's inside awaking

I'm not, I'm not a whore

You've taken everything and

Oh I cannot give anymore

 

My mind's done with this

So hey, I've got a question

Can I throw it all away ?

Take back what's mine

So I take my time

Driving humbly down the line

Each cut, closer to the vein

 

This pain is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating

Anticipating all the fucked up feelings again

 

The hurt inside is fading

This shit's gone way too far

All this time I've been waiting

Oh, I cannot grieve anymore

 

For what's inside awaking

I'm not, I'm not a whore

You've taken everything and

Oh I cannot give anymore

 

I'm here to stay (bring it down)

Bring it down!

Gonna bring it down

Gonna break it down

Gonna break it

 

This pain is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating

Anticipating all the fucked up feelings again

 

My hurt inside is fading

This shit's gone way too far

All this time I've been waiting

Oh, I cannot grieve anymore

 

For what's inside awaking

I'm not, I'm not a whore

You've taken everything and

Oh I cannot give anymore

 

Give anymore

 

 

*Make Believe

 

I'm thinking of

Thanking all the fucked people

Thanking all the shit I love

They are all the things I've made

Straight from my heart

Begging all the same people

Burning is the same evil

Somehow making me feel sane

 

Waiting all this time

I've got nothing to hold on

But the faces of my life

I can see before I'm gone

 

Sometimes I feel it chasing me

All the hate that's breaking me

I realise I'm taking everything

And the kids seem to follow

 

This time I feel it taking me

To a place I'm hate to be

All along I seem to make believe

And the shit seems to follow

 

I'm thinking of

Making all the fucked people

Making the bitches I love

Make them die and go away

Pain from the start

All my dreams are ripped apart

Thanking all the fucked people

They are all the things I've saved

 

Waiting all this time

I've got nothing to hold on

But the faces of my life

I can see before I'm gone

 

Sometimes I feel it chasing me

All the hate that's breaking me

I realise I'm taking everything

And the kids seem to follow

 

This time I feel it taking me

To a place I'm meant to be

All along I seem to make believe

And the shit seems to follow

 

Your life, I hate it

Oh God, can I reclaim ?

Stop and help me

 

Sometimes I feel it chasing me

All the hate that's breaking me

I realise I'm taking everything

And the shit seems to follow

 

This time I feel it taking me

To a place I'm meant to be

All along I seem to make believe

And the shit seems to follow

 

The shit seems to follow

 

 

*Blame  

 

So I think you are a fool

Hanging on my every word

It's getting ugly

So I'm ugly

 

Tear me from your heart

Tearing me apart

 

So I thought you disappeared

Being alone is what you fear

Are you lonely ?

Yes lonely

 

Tear me from your heart

Tearing me apart

 

Rolling, and throwing, consoling

Everything that goes this far

Joking and hoping, revolting

All that shit that's who you are

Hoping, and scolding, revolving

Peel it back, reveal the scar

Loathing, exploding, controlling

This is what you really are !

 

The time is coming

God is saying

You're really happy

What a game

The time is coming

A bed of flames

Your life is over and you're to blame

The time is coming

You've gone insane

You're feeling happy

You've won the game

The time is coming

A bed of flames

Your life is over and you're to blame

 

Rolling, and throwing, consoling

Everything that goes this far

Joking and hoping, revolting

All that shit that's who you are

Hoping, and scolding, revolving

Peel it back, reveal the scar

Loathing, exploding, controlling

This is what you really are !

 

 

*Hollow Life

 

Feeding the fall

I can't help but desire of falling down this time

Deep in this hole am I making

I can't escape

Falling all this time

 

We come to this place

Falling through time

Living a hollow life

Always we're taking

Waiting for signs

Hollow life

 

Fearing to fall

And still the ground below me calls

Falling down this time

Ripping apart all these things I have tried to stop

Falling down this time

 

We come to this place

Falling through time

Living a hollow life

Always we're taking

Waiting for signs

Hollow life

 

Is there ever any wonder

Why we look to the sky

Searchin' space

Asking why ?

All alone

Where is God ?

Looking down

We don't know

 

We fall in space

We can't look down

Death may come

Peace I have found

What to say

Am I alive ?

Am I asleep

Or have I died ?

 

(Haunting me)

 

We fall in space

We can't look down

Death may come

Peace I have found

 

(Something takes a part of me)

 

What to say

Am I alive ?

Am I asleep

We fall down

 

We come to this place

Falling through time

Living a hollow life

Always we're taking

Waiting for signs

Hollow life

 

 

*Bottled Up

 

It ain't fading

Man I got to let it out

Am I quitting ?

Screaming nothing ever come out

I keep feeling lost

I'll never find my way out

I'm not thanking them

Unless the truth can pour out

 

Give me some courage

Beating me down the (?) sometime

Are you laughing at my body ?

I hate and slide

I hate and slide

 

I take this time

To let out what's inside

Cause I will panic

Sometimes I wish you'd die

Full of sorrow

You may bestow my pride

And all this hate is bottled up inside

 

My heart is breaking

Man you really ripped it out

You take pleasure watching as I claw my way out

 

The hurt rising

Soon it's going to tear my soul out

It's not kosher feeling like I'm on my way out

 

Give me some courage

Beating me down the (?) sometime

Are you laughing at my body ?

I hate and slide

I hate and slide

 

I'll take this time

To let out what's inside

Cause I will panic

Sometimes I wish you'd die

Full of sorrow

You may bestow my pride

And all this hate is bottled up inside

 

Feeling the haze as they cut down my spine

Peeling your flesh like the way you've cut mine

Do you feel happy you fucked up my mind

You're going to pay this time

 

I'll take this time

To let out what's inside

Cause I will panic

Sometimes I wish you'd die

Full of sorrow

You may bestow my pride.

And all this hate is bottled up inside

 

 

*Thoughtless

 

Going through the pages of my fantasies

Pushing all the mercy down, down, down

I wanna see you try to take a swing at me

Come on, gonna put you on the ground, ground, ground

 

Why are you trying to make fun of me ?

You think it's funny ?

What the fuck you think it's doing to me ?

You take your turn lashing out at me

I want you crying when you're dirty in the front of me (?)

 

All of my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming

So you can try to tear me down

Beat me to the ground

I will see you screaming

 

Come and fill the pages of my fantasies

I'm above you, smiling at you, drown, drown, drown

I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me

And I'll pull the trigger

And you're down, down, down

 

Why are you trying to make fun of me ?

You think it's funny ?

What the fuck you think it's doing to me ?

You take your turn lashing out at me

I want you crying when you're dirty in the front of me

 

All of my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming

So you can try to tear me down

Beat me to the ground

I will see you screaming

 

All my friends are gone, they died (gonna take you down)

They all screamed, and cried (gonna take you down)

 

I got my monkey, got my monkey back against the wall (?)

Gonna take you down

 

All of my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming

So you can try to tear me down

Beat me to the ground

I will see you screaming

All of my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming

So you can try to tear me down

Beat me to the ground

I will see you screaming

 

 

*Hating

 

Life is boring

Sleep is boring

Don't stop running

I'm here counting

 

The life, the hurt, the pain, the hate

The life, the hurt, the pain, the hate

The life, the hurt, the pain, the hate

Really can't fuck with me

There's no where else to go

 

So I walk but seem to crawl

For I'm giving in today

Now I run into a wall

Cause I cannot find my way

 

You've got to come with me

I can not stand this place

We are crawling up the wall

And I'll give in this way

We had our chance to run

And now I can't believe

We're going all the way

And now the (?) in place

 

My life, worry, lifeless story

Give up beating

I'll start bleeding

 

The life, the hurt, the pain, the hate

The life, the hurt, the pain, the hate

The life, the hurt, the pain, the hate

Really can't fuck with me

There's no where else to go

 

So I walk but seem to crawl

For I'm giving in today

Now I run into a wall

Cause I can not find my way

 

You've got to come with me

I can not stand this place

We are crawling up the wall

And I'll give in this way

We had our chance to run

And now I can't believe

We're going all the way

And now the (?) in place

 

What really do I have to follow ?

Nothing makes sense at all

Taking something for nothing

Watch me as I fall

 

I'm bringing me down

 

You've got to come with me

I can not stand this place

We are crawling up the wall

And I'll give in this way

We had our chance to run

And now I can't believe

We're going all the way

And now the (?) in place

 

 

*One More Time

 

Always it's coming

And here starts the game

Why can't this puzzle be solved ?

Each time it happens it's always the same

I look down and it starts to fell

 

And all I see

It burns my eyes

Burning all inside

 

Caught in the corners of my mind

Beginning over one more time

Taking me over

Taking all that's mine

One more time

 

Always this teasing

Sometimes I lose faith

Where is my strength to hold on ?

Facing existence

How can I relate ?

Do I stand here or move on ?

 

And all I see

It burns my eyes

Burning all inside

 

Caught in the corners of my mind

Beginning over one more time

Taking me over

Taking all that's mine

One more time

 

Falling through this space and time

Buried in this hurt of mine

Falling slowly like a dream

Falling through a world unseen

Why can I not break this spell ?

I'm in darkness

Is this hell ?

Falling towards this hole I see

This is how it has to be

 

Caught in the corners of my mind

Beginning over one more time

Taking me over

Taking all that's mine

One more time

 

One more time

 

 

*Alone I Break

 

Pick me up

Been bleeding too long

Right here, right now

I'll stop it somehow

 

I will make it go away

Can't be here no more

Seems this is the only way

I will soon be gone

These feelings will be gone

These feelings will be gone

 

Now I see the times they change

Leaving us, it seems so strange

I am hoping I can find

Where to leave my hurt behind

All the shit I seem to take

All alone I seem to break

I have lived the best I can

Does this make me not a man ?

 

Shut me off

I'm ready

Heart stops

I stand alone

Can't be my own

 

I will make it go away

Can't be here no more

Seems this is the only way

I will soon be gone

These feelings will be gone

These feelings will be gone

 

Now I see the times they change

Leaving us, it seems so strange

I am hoping I can find

Where to leave my hurt behind

All the shit I seem to take

All alone I seem to break

I have lived the best I can

Does this make me not a man ?

 

Am I going to leave this place ?

What is it I'm hanging from ?

Is there nothing more to come ?

(Am I gonna leave this place ?)

Is it always black in space ?

Am I going take its place ?

Am I going to leave this race ?

(Am I going to leave this race ?)

I guess God's up in this place ?

What is it that I've become ?

Is there something more to come ?

(More to come)

 

Now I see the times they change

Leaving us, it seems so strange

I am hoping I can find

Where to leave my hurt behind

All the shit I seem to take

All alone I seem to break

I have lived the best I can

Does this make me not a man ?

 

 

*Embrace

 

My life is such a waste

Begging on something to work this time

But why can't I relate ?

Feeling all like who is scared ?

What's mine

Holding on to faith

Never gave me nothing but despair

So why do I create just to be swallowed ?

 

I can't take

We have a star

I can't take

We got a fantasy

Come what may

We are the stars

I can't wait

I'll take what's mine

 

Believing all this time, before a crowd could side

Believing all the basics of everything that I could find

Believing all this time, too far to cross the line

Believing all the basics of everything that I could find

 

I cannot leave this place

Burning up inside this space of mine

Why can't I replace feelings I find hard to really find ?

I try but I can't taste

Memories they always fuck with me

So why do I create just to be swallowed ?

 

I can't take

We have a star

I can't take

We got a fantasy

Come what may

We are the stars

I can't wait

I'll take what's mine

 

Believing all this time, before a crowd could side

Believing all the basics of everything that I could find

Believing all this time, too far to cross the line

Believing all the basics of everything that I could find

 

All my feelings have been eating all of me

Feed inside

Is there something wrong with me ?

 

I can't take

We have a star

I can't take

We got a fantasy

Come what may

We are the stars

I can't wait

I'll take what's mine

 

Believing all this time, before a crowd could side

Believing all the basics of everything that I could find

Believing all this time, too far to cross the line

Believing all the basics of everything that I could find

 

*Beat It Upright

 

Are you ready for a good pounding baby ? (get down)

Are you ready to get it on ? (get down, get down)

Don't pretend you're not fucking freaky baby (get down)

I will spank that ass just for fun (get down on the ground)

 

Ass up high

Make a motherfucker cry

It's so good that I could die

Help me stay alive

 

The time is right

I want to feel it good tight

I'm down to do this all night

I'm gonna deel it up right

 

I'll behave

Oh my god

Make me beg

My god

Yes I'm ready for a good flogging baby (my god)

Come on beat my ass for fun (get down, get down)

Don't let up till my ass is bleeding baby (get down)

Don't let up until you are done (get down, on the ground)

 

Ass up high

Make a motherfucker cry

It's so good that I could die

Help me stay alive

 

The time is right

I wanna feel it good tight

I'm down to do this all night

I'm gonna beat it up right

 

We're gonna ride

I got my tongue inside and outside now

Don't try to run and hide

Yes it's true what they say about my kind

 

Are you ready for a good pounding baby ? (get down)

Are you ready to get it on ? (get down, get down)

Don't pretend you're not fucking freaky baby (get down)

I will spank that ass just for fun (get down, on the ground)

 

Ass up high

Make a motherfucker cry

It's so good that I could die

Help me stay alive

 

The time is right

I wanna feel it good tight

I'm down to do this all night

I'm gunna beat it up right

 

 

*Wake Up Hate

 

We got a fucked up reason to live

Who really gives a fuck ?

We're gonna wake up hate

We're gonna fuck you up

I wanna break everything

I wanna make it sting

We're gonna wake up hate

We're gonna wake it up

You gotta get it straight

We're gonna give it up

We're gonna wake up hate

We're gonna fuck you up

I wanna break everything

I wanna make it sting

We're gonna wake up hate

We're gunna wake it up

 

I am the burden of my everything

And of its scar

I'll be reborn in hatred

Feeling I can't love no more

 

I've had to suffer

I cannot wait for more

No loving and no praying

All my hate is for the taking

 

We got a fucked up reason to live

Who really gives a fuck ?

We're gonna wake up hate

We're gonna fuck you up

I wanna break everything

I wanna make it sting

We're gonna wake up hate

We're gonna wake it up

You gotta get it straight

We're gonna give it up

We're gonna wake up hate

We're gonna fuck you up

I wanna break everything

I wanna make it sting

We're gonna wake up hate

We're gunna wake it up

 

I am the falling of my happiness

It is no more

Stop loving

I'm still hating

Till I can not hate no more

 

I've had to suffer

I cannot wait for more

No loving and no praying

All my hate is for the taking

 

I'm, I'm filthy

Wasted piece of shit

I am disgusting

Take me away

 

We got a fucked up reason to live

Who really gives a fuck ?

We're gonna wake up hate

We're gonna fuck you up

I wanna break everything

I wanna make it sting

We're gonna wake up hate

We're gonna wake it up

You gotta get it straight

We're gonna give it up

We're gonna wake up hate

We're gonna fuck you up

I wanna break everything

I wanna make it sting

We're gonna wake up hate

We're gunna wake it up

 

 

*I'm Hiding

 

Maybe I'm insane

Walking on a wire

Maybe I'm the same

Nothing to take me higher

Tell me where to start

Think I'm at the end

Right now feeling pain

Make it go away

 

Maybe I'm to blame

Maybe I'm a liar

Maybe we're the same

Nothing can start the fire

I can't feel my heart

But I feel the shame

Nothing left to say

Soon I'll fade away

 

These places all I ever think about is lost in time

These faces haunting me

I'm looking back and they are mine

 

I'm hiding from the things they say

Doing time and lead astray

Thinking back to times of yesterday

I could fly

 

I'm trying to find a better way

But I'm trapped

Can't get away

All I think is about yesterday

I could fly

 

Maybe I'm insane

Walking on a wire

Maybe I'm the same

Nothing to take me higher

I can't feel my heart

But I feel the shame

Nothing left to say

Soon I'll fade away

 

These places all I ever think about is lost in time

These faces haunting me

I'm looking back and they are mine

 

I'm hiding from the things they say

Doing time and lead astray

Thinking back to times of yesterday

I could fly

 

I'm trying to find a better way

But I'm trapped

Can't get away

All I think is about yesterday

I could fly

 

 

*No One's There

 

You and me

We have no faces

Soon our lives they'll be erased

Do you think they will remember ?

Or will we just be replaced

Oh I wish that I could see

How I wish that I could fly

All the things that hang above me

To a place where I can cry

 

So why can it be ?

No one hears because

Echoes back at me

No one's there

To all these meaningless feelings

I can't deal with in my life

To all these greedy people

Trying to feed on what is mine

You've got to feel your hunger

And stop fucking with my mind

I know it's time to leave these places far behind

 

You and me

We have no faces

They don't see us anymore

Without love as they had promised

And no faith for what's in store

Oh I wish that I could see

How I wish that I could fly

All the things that hang above me

To a place where I can cry

 

So why can it be ?

No one hears because

Echoes back at me

No one's there

To all these meaningless feelings

I can't deal with in my life

To all these greedy people

Trying to feed on what is mine

You've got to feel your hunger

And stop fucking with my mind

I know it's time to leave these places far behind

 

Where are all these feelings hiding ?

Dancing in and out my mind

Burning up all that I long for

Feeding me till my decline

Where are you ?

My soul is bleeding

I am searching

Am I blind ?

All alone and bound forever

Trapped inside me all the time

 

To all these meaningless feelings

I can't deal with in my life

To all these greedy people

Trying to feed on what is mine

You've got to feel your hunger

And stop fucking with my mind

I know it's time to leave these places far behind

 

 

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