Papa

I do not think that I will ever be able to put down in words
the pain and loss of my heart
the day I had to say goodbye to him...

So many things left unsaid...
and I honestly thought that time cheated on me
as I felt that he was supposed to be there
to see me walk through the path of my life;
on my graduation day,
my wedding day,
and to watch my own child grow...

I wanted so much to have the chance..
the one last chance to thank him
for each and every minute
of our beautiful 22 years together...

/hds, 0401.

Forgive me, God
for being so angry to You and to the world
not because I have lost my faith in You
but more because the pain felt unbearable at that time...

Deep down I know
that You take him to his eternal home
for You have seen how hard he fought
and I truly believe that it was time for him to rest
in a beautiful place
where there is no pain nor worries...

Thank you, Lord
for lending us wonderful moments
for the time that my brother and I
played on his lap, seek for his advice
laugh at his jokes
and even argued about his strong view

We are very grateful
that You taught us, through his deeds
about respect, honesty and fairness...

Please God, let him know
that we would be okay...
don't let our tears worry him
as they are shed out of the remembrance of our beautiful memories...

Give us the strength
to follow his steps, fulfill his dreams
and to keep our promise on taking a good care of our Mother...

help us make him proud, Lord...
so when he sees us from up there
he would know that he has left us with enough love
to build our own life with our family
as beautiful as the life he lived with us