NOT THIS TIME

You ask me what I'm thinking

but what do you want to hear?

Do you want me to tell you to stay tonight

or that I can't sleep without you near?

Do you want me to say we'll be happy

and that this isn't how it has to be?

What would you have me tell you

when you're all ready to leave?

What do you want me to think?

         Because if you think I'm going to stop you

         and ask you not to leave me behind

         I'm not going to do it - not this time.

You ask me how I'm feeling

but what did you think I would do?

You just said it'd be better to end this,

that you're giving up on me and you.

What do you want me to tell you

when we know there's nothing left to say?

Would you prefer I lie to you

and say I'm glad it turned out this way?

How did you think I would feel?

         Because I'm not going to beg you

         when you've already turned your back

         I'm not going to do it - not this time.

 

 

(October 3, 2000 – 12:04am)

 

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