More Than Who We Are - Heero's Story
disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing, and if I did, wouldn't I be rich???
We grew up too fast. Placed in the spotlights at such young ages, we were posed question after question, things we did not understand. People made decisions for us, arranged things to make our lives easier. It didn't.
We became adults when children of our age were enjoying school, playing with friends. We were pushed, shoved into a life we did not ask for. Why? Because there was nobody willing to do our jobs for us.
I look back on my life. I was trained to be the Perfect Soldier, the epitome of flawless. But I was far from perfect. I was so damaged, like a broken doll who had been pulled by strings. I had nothing to call family, nobody to call friends, so I became shut out, silent. Nobody, not a single soul touched me, and if they did, they never lived to tell about it. I was that way, I couldn't help it.
Now, in the present, I have come to realize that what had happened to me all those years ago, merely helped me become the person I am today. I am Heero Yuy, a silent, stoic soldier, with a heart. Only two people helped me become this way. Relena Peacecraft and Duo Maxwell.
I met Duo many years back, almost about the same time I met Relena. We had all been going to the same school. I still remember those nasty hisses coming from the shocked upper crust students. They were not used to seeing a youth such as myself. They knew I was dangerous, but why, they did not know.
One person reached out to me. Relena. She was being so kind to me. I still remember the day she found me unconscious on the shore of the beach. I ran from her, because I was taught that if a single soul was to lay eyes on a Gundam or it's pilot, they were to die. So I set out to kill her.
I tried many times. Each time I couldn't bring myself to it. She stood there, so brave, right in the direction of my gun. She wasn't scared because she knew I couldn't do it. She was right, I couldn't and I still can't. I remember her eyes, not a single ounce of fear in them. I felt so frustrated that I couldn't bring myself to do something so simple. I later realized that killing her, would mean killing my best friend.
Yes, Relena is my best friend. She always has been. I was too stubborn to admit it, but she reached me. She melted the ice around my heart, she allowed me to feel. She was the only one who understood what pain I went through. I thank her for that, because without her, I'd be left with nothing.
It's true that she and I had feelings for each other, but it was in the past. What we thought had been love, turned out to merely be lust. It was fun for both of us, but we both realized that it was going nowhere. We broke up, quite happy, actually. After that, we just settled into becoming best friends. If we had not realized what our relationship was, I would have never found my true soulmate, Duo.
Yes, it is also true that Duo and I have something. It's something spectacular. I never realized it before, but we had something long before I had anything with Relena. I don't know what it is about him, but Duo is everything to me. He supports me in ways nobody can. He knows my darkest fears, he knows everything, just the same as I know everything about him. We fit together like a puzzle, complex, but in the end, beautiful.
Is this all shocking? Good, I'm glad it is. See, we never had childhoods. I know I mentioned that before, but it needs to be reminded. We were lucky to survive the hell they put us through. Each and every one of us. I'm greatful for everything I have. To have a best friend who understands me better than I do, to have a soulmate so dedicated, so inexplicably devoted. I'm lucky to be alive, even after all those missions.
So why am I saying all this? Because you asked. You wanted to know about me. This is my story. The story of a soldier who feels. Keep reading, because you'll learn about the other people in my life. People who have also touched me, each in their own way.
AN: Hope ya liked! I thought it might have been a tad angsty, but I wasn't getting many reviews with my other fic, so I decided to switch to yaoi and angst for a change. Please read and review, thanks for reading! OH! one more thing, please don't send me reviews that state the characters pasts are wrong. I know they are, I made them that way to fit the story. Or if they're not wrong, then woohoo for me!