Misunderstood
Confused
I can feel my sanity slipping away
Day by day
The cold sharp waves of reality, slap me in the face
The harder I try, the more I cry
More things keep slipping away
Day by day
Why?
Why can't I believe?
Why can't things go right?
Will I ever be alright?
He asked me that the other day
I just smiled and said, "I'm okay."
But I could feel hot tears spring to my eyes
And I felt some unknown pain arise
Day by day
I lay here, thinking about my life
Of the stuff I've been dealt, the pain I've felt
A pathetic little girl, who just wanted to be free
But never found the key
A prisnor to her own mind
Lost in a whirlwind of self hatred
Left to her own demise
Will it hurt? She asks...
Nevermind, nothing hurts as much as living in this world of lies.
I still remember all the times you hurt me. Soon I will show you the meaning of the word free.
I will be me.
Here's for the times I've cried and you never cared. Here's for the hell I went through trying to be good enough for you.
I will be free.
Pain sears through my tired mind
as sobs rack my body
I cant take it anymore
I feel so alone, if I bend anymore...
I will break
I fight to keep my will to live
I dont want to slip back into that empty hole
I cant stand it. Everytime I look into the mirror I disgust myself. Why am I so hideous? Why?
F*CK!!! The only word that can explain my frustration, the only thing that fills my mind. The only thing that thats mine.
You dont know how badly I want to be well
You dont know how hard I struggle
You dont know how overpowering the need to be thin is
You dont know my hell...
You never will.
