Cathy: Nice performance today Trowa…

"Hn…" I replied to her as I walked into my "so called" room.

I removed my clown mask, as I did, I can't help but look at it after every performance… It just stares at me…smiling at me as if that mask had a mind of it's own…

I briefly put it away and changed into my casual clothing…and sure enough Duo and Quatre were right there waiting for me…

Duo: "Hey nice act you put on today Tro!"

Quatre: "Yea it was the best performance yet…"

"Glad you liked it" while putting my clown costume away…

Duo: "Hey…what's with ya Tro"

Quatre: "You seemed to be more distant all of a sudden…why?"

Quatre just had to asked that question…I didn't want to answer him about the mask that I always wear…and always look at after the day…Duo wrapped one of his arms around my neck…

Duo: "Come on…you can tell us."

Again…I didn't say a word…it would probably make me feel stupid. I mean, me Trowa, worrying about a dumb clown mask. I had to say something to them…

"It's nothing…forget it." It's nothing? Forget it? Some bad wording to tell my friends I thought…but they seem to buy it…Especially for Quatre, he'll give into anything I say to him…Duo…well, I'm not going to go there about Duo, sometimes he can be a pain in the ass…sometimes but not entirely…



We decided to hang out at a restaurant. Since all of us are "former" pilots of our respected gundams, we didn't really have had the chance to eat "normally." All I had to eat were a couple of salads from the salad bar, steak, rice…the "usual" Duo well, he had a plate full of food…Quatre delicate as he is just had a salad…guess he'd prefer a healthy dinner for the day. Then Duo asked me the same question again…

Duo: "Come on…tell us Tro" eating with his mouth full.

You could tell that he's never going to give in…so I had no choice but to answer his question…

"It's about my mask." I told Duo…sure enough Quatre who was sitting next to me listened.

Quatre: "Your…mask Trowa?" With a curious look on his face.

Duo: "So…What's the big deal with it? It's just a mask right?" swallowing his food.

"I think it's more than a mask…" I stared at my plate stirring it as if I was bored as hell while talking to them…"What's a big deal about a mask?" Duo said. It made me think before I said something…Maybe it is "just" a mask…nothing more…nothing less…

Quatre: "What do you mean, it's more than a mask Trowa?" With a concern look on his face.

Duo: "Hey…betcha he's scared of it cause it keeps smiling…" Teases.

"No it's not that I'm scared of it…" I told him…I knew he was just trying to play around with my words…I didn't buy it at all.

"I can't help it, but I feel as if that mask is apart of me…somehow." I probably sound like a fucking idiot as I was speaking to them…I just spoke out words that came to my head, it was all I could really think about…what I wonder…

Quatre: "Maybe it is apart of you Trowa."

Duo: "Who cares weather it's apart of you or not…" mutters with his mouth full of food again.

Quatre: "Come on Duo…stop playing around. Trowa is our friend, and friends help out with their problems right."

Duo: "Well…you didn't need to put it that way…"

"Thanks Quatre…" I replied to his remark.

Quatre: "You say that your mask is apart of you right…"

Duo: "Maybe it's a sign of your emotions Tro." Duo interrupted.

"My emotions?" Finally, what Duo said that day made it quite clear to me…that my mask is my emotions…

Trowa's beeper sounds off

"I'd better get going…another performance." I stood and pitched in some money for the dinner.

"Thanks for the food…" I left the restaurant as Duo and Quatre said "You're welcomed"

As I was arriving back to the circus tent, Cathy was standing outside waiting for me as if I was returning from a battle. She worries about me TO much…so I comfort her by saying "Don't worry" or something like that.

Cathy: "Ready to perform again Trowa?" She asked me, as we walked to get ready.

"Yes of course." As I made my way to my room to change into my clown outfit. I opened my drawer and picked up my…Clown Mask. I stared at it again and again.

"Sent to the battlefield to destroy with no emotions…If I have emotions…I will show it to you when I put it on and perform for you…"



~OWARI~

eerrmm….not bad right?? This is my FIRST gundamwing fanfic…gomenasai if the ending is a bit…well…corny. This just shows in my opinion what Trowa's mask means…