Some Good Things Never Last 

It is in sorrow that I feel more alive
For only with sadness do my emotions thrive
If not for the tears that flow through my soul
If not for this pain I wouldn’t be whole

No need for promises, tomorrow won’t stay
Just give your hand for me to hold today
No time for the future, no room left for fear
For I am used to losing the things I hold dear

I am not asking for pity, neither for disdain
No use for you to see me in pain
I live for the moment, I lived for the past
I lived my life knowing some good things never last…

Sleepless, I resist the urge

I wake up again,
its the third time this night.
Expecting a miracle.
But nothing is there except
My cell phone.
No messages from you, I see.
I resist the urge.
To key in letters,
To form the words.
(How badly I miss you my friend).
To tell you mundane things,
Impersonal, casual.
Nothing that must give away
Emotions, feelings,
Hope.

Your Eyes (your lies)

I used to look into your eyes, and I see myself in you.

I used to look into your eyes, and I see my dreams in you.

I used to look into your eyes, and I used to see forever.

till lately, when I look into your eyes, all I could see are bitter lies.

Far Beyond Miles

I love you and I always will,
I'll keep on doing that till it hurts.
And blood pours out of my aching heart,
Like rose thorns daggering through my flesh.

You left me, it hurts deep inside
And worries me
That you'll find a new love
And leave me all alone
In misery.
In this cold, dark world.

You are like a bubble
One blow and everything will be bright
One little prick and everything will be dark
And fade far…
Beyond miles away…
Like a dream.

You'll come back-I know you will
I'll keep on reminding myself
Of what you have taught me-
How to love.
And soon…
Soon…
My dream…
No matter how far away…
Beyond miles…
It will reach me.

Questions

when does one stop hoping?
when does one say that it's finally over?
how do I begin to tell of a seeming end?
from the blossoming of a promising love?
or from the withering of the feeling?
from loving to hurting to nothing?

I'm hopeful and yet I'm afraid.
i suffer and yet i go on.
i love and yet i hurt.
i'm sane but i may just be crazy.

Unbecoming

Your mind
Breathes life into me—
I am naked and hungry.
Is it sin
To drink the universe now—
Even sands have sense
In my sleep,
Without the shore.
But,—
To escape you in dreams,
I die awake;
In leaves, unfree.
Most mortals laugh,
Feting life as ever—
My skin turns hollow
In disdain.

Free,
And no word can clothe me
But Love—
Pure, palpitating its divinity
In emptiness,
Encompassing their essence.
Your rose: its stale redness
Is mockery,
Mine kills innocence.
Hush, then,
The wise and the noble
With quiet eyes;—
My wound
Shall receive them.
Then I go,
To unwrite this feat—

To where the angels are.

A Love That Wasn't Meant To Be

To love you is a sin,
'Tis not meant to be...
For you and I are different,
Never could we be free.

To love you is so easy,
Though be it a mistake...
I knew this from the very start,
But 'tis a risk have I to take.

A risk which has its price,
And now have I to pay...
For loving you is not meant to be,
I know I'd regret it someday.

Yet, to love you,
Carelessly I went on...
Into the vast oblivion,
Lay I my heart upon...

Yea I know this ocean's forbidden,
And if to drown I still care not...
For nay, never could I ever fathom,
How far a deep have I got.

For as my name you whisper and whisper,
Slowly but surely I fall...
Though I know in the end we'd be history,
The greatest tragedy of them all.

But oh, those lips so soft and sweet,
The caress the runneth a mile,
Your embrace so strong yet ever so gentle,
Made every stolen moment worthwhile.

And yes forget shall I ever not,
Those kisses... alas, this kiss...
'Tis like a criminal that hath stolen me,
Yet given me heavenly bliss.

Unfair as the Fates have spun,
To let strike Eros but one,
From his arrow I cannot run,
But you he let escape his cun.

And to his sweet poison I succumb,
Gave I my whole being to thine...
And as we bind am appeased with the thought,
For a while you were mine, only mine.

And now as 'tis about to conclude,
This affair that should have but none...
Hap'ly shall I go on my way,
Contented shall I be gone...

And so goes my love for you,
Now our time has run out...
But mem'ries last perpetually,
Mem'ries I shall fondly cherish, no doubt.

To love you is a sin,
'Tis not meant to be...
For different is what we'd ever be,
Now have I to set you free.

A love that wasn't meant to be,
Forever shall it be this way...
Forever, though, shall I be grateful to you,
Forever... come what may...

Someone

It's funny how we keep on searching
For something we already found
It's funny how we keep on looking
For something beside our ground

And all I wanted was someone
Who'd listen to things I say
Someone just to talk with,
Who'd believe me in any way

Someone who'd just trust me;
Who'd sit down and talk of life
Someone who wouldn't leave me
When I'm tormented with hurt and strife

And all the while I was looking
For someone I already knew
And strangely enough that someone
Just simply had to be you