Just Another Heartache

Perhaps we already grew tired of each other. Me? I never felt disgruntled. I never grew tired of you. It was you who lost the feeling. It was you who became indifferent and bland.

I never thought it would arrive at that point. Before, you  cared about me more than I cared about you. And you missed me more than I missed you.

You were gone. You were suddenly gone. You suddenly had no time for me. I was suddenly no longer on top of your list. You suddenly took me for granted. You suddenly stopped remembering to call me. You suddenly had so many excuses and alibis. You suddenly started telling me lies. All the opposite, you did for the last four years.

My heart died. I cried day and night. Thinking of what could have gone wrong… thinking of my shortcomings and imperfections, thinking of the fact that I was losing you…. For some time I was feeling so sheltered and secure. Suddenly I felt so lost and my life seemed empty. I broke down at that very moment coz I never thought our relationship would ever turn out that way… I thought the relationship was faultless… I thought nothing would ever go wrong.

I opted to go away and try to find myself. I wanted to prove to you that I am strong and I can live without you. The longest weeks of my life, I strived. To understand you, to forgive you, and to help myself get you out of my mind.