I need you;
Can you hear me?
You’re walking away
I need to hear you say,
“I believe in you”,
“You’ll get through this”,
“Everything will be okay”,
“I love you”.

I thought you would
Always be there,
Always support me,
Never leave me
To face anything alone
But I feel like
I was wrong;
You’ve abandoned me,
Left me to fight,
Fight this pain
Alone.

Is this your way of
Dealing with
The Truth?
Ignore it
And it will go away?
“You should have left”,
“You shouldn’t have let it go so far”,
“It’s a hard lesson learned”,
“Forget about it”,
Are those words you would
Expect to hear from
Your parents?
I wouldn’t think so.

You’ve turned away,
You’re on the opposite side of this
Raging river.
You’re in a world of
False illusion
Greener pastures.

You’ve left me here
With raging lions
Closing in,
Ready for the kill.
How can I fend them off
Without you?
I can’t do it by myself
I’m not
Strong enough.

There’s one to my left, lean and persistent;
Blame, nipping at my fingertips.
One to my right, tall and hungry;
Anger, lunging at my arm.
Behind me, big and angry;
Pain, breathing down my neck.
And on in front of me, thick and strong;
Depression, bearing teeth;
All approaching, ready
To eat me
Whole.

Who can I turn to
If not you?
Come back,
Shield me from the storm
I need you now
More than ever

I won’t survive,
You’ve abandoned me,
Left me to fight this
Alone.