Sleeping Giant

 

Mornings come so slowly these days

New horizons taking up charges as they move across the sky

The unalterable visage of your smile

The seeming façade of your happiness

It makes me think you don’t know

That you’ve not noticed

That things have fallen to the wayside

Yet I still find so much of your smile

A delight to my eyes

A gentle caress on days when peace is needed

A sharp stinging blow to wake up

The sleeping giant of us

The slumbering beast that has possessed us

Watch as its chest rises and falls

Breaths fill its body

Up and down and up and down

And still you watch

Quiet repose; near reproach

Yet something seems so different

Yet something makes me feel as if there can be no more

And it keeps asking

Needing

Wanting

Keeps taking from me

Sapping my energy

Yet I continue on

I push forward

I find something to hold on to

Some small piece of shattered hope

Because I can do no less

Because I know no better

And yet

And yet

And yet it seems so futile

It shines like the sun

Moving across the sky

Highlighting your profile

As I wait

Oceans away

Worlds away

Times away

Past blending into present into future

Spinning and spinning as souls recognize one another

And the beast awakens...

 

the giant sleeps no more.

Take from me whatever you wish

I lay myself open to you

Stand defenseless against the barrage

That is your love

Fortifying the crumbling walls

Of my fort

 

You aren’t supposed to get in.

I am impenetrable.

 

I stand against the winds of your need

Pulling at the sleeves of my shirt

Tossing my hair

Left to right

Right to left.

And yet there is silence

As I stand on the precipice

There is supposed to be safety…

Cool, calm safety

But nothing is left unturned.

 

You aren’t allowed to be here.

I am the rock of solitude.

 

The drop doesn’t seem like it would be far—

The drop seems like it will be safe—

I will be cradled by the tumultuous seas

As my body falls to the ocean floor

A wasted mass

As the mind surpasses the flesh

And the gentle undulation

Of kelp wraps me into its charms

Like your arms

Like your face

Like the slow grind of your hips

Like the gentle sigh of your laughter

Like the soft touch of your lips to mine

 

And yet

You are not supposed to be here.

I am the impenetrable fortress

I am the rock of solitude

I am

I have to be.

 

 

Tomorrow holds nothing for the simple soul

As it moves from point to point

Trying to find some pattern

Some connection

Yet it cannot find that

Simple souls are like that—

They don’t understand

They don’t care to understand

And the rest of tonight

Fades away into the dark night

The tapestry of stars in the sky

Like dots in a long chain

Of cause and effect

Wait patiently to shine

Wait with purpose to shine

And we don’t care to find out anything more

 

It’s easier that way, says the simple soul—

Allowing everything to fade to gray

Allowing everything to just happen without

Rhyme

or

Reason

or

Freedom,

Because the simple soul knows not what to do

Yet it tries…

Always tries…

Strives and cannot

Make the connection

Simply…