I don't want my life, please take it away

I've give it a try and I don't want to stay

I spend most of my life staring out at the rain

Trying to get rid of, get rid of the pain inside.

They always say that things can only get better

Try to look forward to those future times

That I'm the only one who can really make it happen

I don't know how many times I've heard those lies

They forget they're something to do with my situation

That I told them they were wrong, don't go that way

But all they did was doubt education

When all went wrong they turn to me and blame

And it's been that way all through my temptatious childhood

Chastised for correcting errors of their ways

I'd learn to be right to avoid the fight

But told to be quiet and not say

So I sat and watched in silence at the carnage

And quietly did the right things, educate their minds

But they'd smash it down and say I was nothing special

I was just like them, but I couldn't be so unkind.

Then they scoff at me and say that they've got money

The power and control it gives them forms their view

I remind them the bible says its God or money

I'd rather be me and listen and not you

Have you ever heard of a word that's called corruption?

You're blinded by your greed and find no sanctity

And that's what's behind all of your sick decisions

Then all goes wrong and in anger then blame me

But I have to turn to God and ask this question

What's wisdom if it only leads to pain?

If I can't speak to them and make them listen

Just what in life am I supposed to gain?

For all I get is people's condemnation

The scapegoat when they find that they are wrong

But don't want me to be right or be perfect

And so to God I sing to you this song

I don't want my life, please take it away

I've give it a try and I don't want to stay

I spend most of my life staring out at the rain

Trying to get rid of, get rid of the pain inside.

Written and copyright G.P. Walker / Jester Audio Music