A hazy feeling, surreal.
"This must be a dream."
Walking, slowly - too slowly- towards I know not what.
A box. A pretty little thing: it opens and there is music.
'Masquerade, painted faces on parade. Masquerade...'
Close the box. It's somehow sad.
Glance in the guilded mirror.
Eyes of the sea.
Earthen hair.
Pale silk skin.
Who is that?
That's not me.
Is it?
There is no sun here.
Fragments of light stolen by that dead body shine on my face.
The doors do not open.
Things are somehow blurry.
That wasn't my face. Shining back at me.
Why can't I leave?
The bed.
Lay down; wake up.
Someone's in it.
Wrinkles. Wrinkles in Time? Wrinkles of time?
Old, dingy skin.
Wrecked by life.
Silver strands steal light from the thief.
Eyes of the sea, staring back at me.
I understand.
The Doors now open.
The sun draws close to the Earth
Feel the night Betray
Know your life had no worth
The end of your mundane day
Ponder the meaning
Seek the truth
Too late your mind is clearing
The Answer was your youth.
There is nothing to stave
The approaching of your grave.
Taste the essence of the moment
Never fear the bell's toll
The shining grace of youth
Time will exit your presence
Or perhaps the other way around
There will be no warning, none
The sun draws close to the earth
Feel the night betray
How long will I wander here?
How much longer can I linger?
Life, Death what is the difference?
Roaming aimless, an unmarked path.
No footsteps in front, and none behind.
I leave no impression.
Blank, Devoid, Empty
Is that me,
Or my world?
My love for you consumes me - always
A hazy feeling - surreal.
"This must be a dream"
My breasts feel heavy.
My stomach is large.
Aahh. My little love.
I'll protect you.
Then he comes, the man.
Tall, Dark, Fake charm.
'Do as I say. All will be well.'
The lie is glued ot his face.
My little love, you'll be safe.
He is the boogie-man.
"Don't speak."
I scream.
"Don't move."
I run.
A blast of fire- pain.
Still, I run.
Blue and red lights.
My little love.
I die.
You must live.
Often as the day is long, find I seek something more
In the activity of life there lies no solace,
Perhaps caused by search for sanctuary
Depth and meaning, there is little to find
Worse, find the worlds small pool dries up.
How can I tell you the ways of my heart
So oft was it prone to lead me on strings
The drunken puppeteer bringing me to what, I did not know
Although long ago, what was done is done,
With the past innocence, naivette, my trust all gone
Now that fool organ plays again the fool of me
leading me once more by invisible strings
Only before I loved not, only was fooled
Now to my regret my love for you is true
Where before a fool hurt more easliy heals
My soul now is yours my fate is sealed
Pain taught the fool ' be fool no more'
That solemn vow I humbly swore
Trust well guarded is reluctantly given
The fool, fool that I am, fool I swore never to be again
Sits now trembling with dread, with fear, with love.
I am yours now forever, for always, my love and my life
The pain of the past nigh crippled for good,
One more blow, my trust could not have withstood
So now I am before you, open arms, open eyes
Begging you to tell me, to hold me, do not lie
I trust you, trust you with my heart
I'm asking you to honor me
With all the greatest sincerity answer me this
Do you love me, really love me the way that I love you,
Or has my heart once again made of me a fool?
So much fear
Demons in my heart
Nothing to lose
Just myself
No future
Only failure
Alternatives gone
The decision is made
This I vow to the world!
everyday is my last
becasue I will be dead tomorow I will live today with the purest of goals
I will be happy
I will discover all that I can about myself and you oh world
I renounce the laws that bound my actions
I hereby swear that the laws that guide my actions will now and forever be the laws of my heart
I let Go!
I am free!!!
I can fly. I will Fly
How much will we lose before we
Realize
Death is the only thing we can look forward to with
Certainty
I've never found it
The strings on my heart held taut
It might not exist