| Jan 1st, 2006 Well, I celebrate New Year on Nov. 1st (day after Samhain)...but I celebrate it again with everyone else! Nothing wrong with another celebration! This years had special meaning since I'm divorced (again). I have a chance from the beginnig of the year for a "fresh start". I have some changes I'm going to implement regarding life in general, and men in specific. I'm going to take several months this year to spend some time with ME and re-discover who I am. I felt I kind of lost my true self being with Gary because he liked to control me a bit...not too bad mind you, never anything physical...just mind games here and there that he didn't think I was smart enough to figure out. I'm going to meditate and try to get my qi in order. I'm going to lose at least 20 lbs. I'm going to keep a firm hold on my son....Gary did a great job with him, he was a mess before when it was just he and I. I am going to miss having a father figure for Zack, and I know Zack is going to miss him. Hopefully he will stay in contact with Zack. I'm not going to date for about six months...I don't care how wonderful they are, I'm not going out with ANYONE until I hit my six month mark for being divorced. Before I've just jumped back in there which is pretty funny since I really like to be alone the majority of the time. I like to have my own place, do what I want to do, go where I want to go....well, obviously I can't do that really as a single mom...but I'm sure you get my point. |
| Happy New Year! |
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