| Poems and Such |
| If you could trade your friends for the things you wanted most in the entire world, would you? I got the one thing I wanted most in the word, and I've unitentionally lost a number of my friends. ~Lila 1/14 |
| I guess it's just a thing, that I've learned to ignore I feel in love wi th a face, I could only adore. I'm a good girl, that's how it must seem. If it weren't, I'd have more than I dreamed. You know I'm alive, but we don't say hello. You walk in every morning & when the class ends you go. I know you see me, when I catch youstare. Then you turn away, like you don't care. Not sure if I saw you, not sure if you've been caught I don't look far into it, That's what I've been taught. We both know it won't happen, it's too good to be true. It sould be silly of me to hope of such a thing as me and you. I'm still not sure, what your glance entails. But we've learned that eye contat fails. Nothing will happen. Dreams don'tcome true. Some one else, Has a hold over you. It seems so perefct, a perfect match I mean. But I'm not envious, my color has never been green. You're so happy with her, I've never had a chance. But every morning, I have a glance. A simple gift, a memory, A remind that you'll never be with me. ~Lila Gemellos 12/29 |
| A Reminder |
| Keep smiling, because you never know who's falling in love with it. ~Ellen |
| I figured I don't need much. I could've lived without your caressing touch. I could've gone without your admiration. I could've lived without my infatuation. I could've gotten along if you were distant. I could've lived without a complaint. But "could've" is the word repeatively heard. I figure I don't want that much. I want your touch. I want you at my finger tips. I want to caress your sweet lips. I want you and I want it all. I want the impossible. But "want" is the word you so oftenly heard. ~Lila Gemellos 1/08 |
| I can�t figure it out, I don�t know how I loved you dear, but I�ve lost you now. My love was sweet with good intentions, And now I�ve been thrown off in different directions. I sit back and thinking of where we went wrong. I hum the tune to our favorite song, It brings tears in my eyes, smile on my face. I think of the day when you�ll be replaced. We couldn�t have been really happy, Too far away and far too busy. Maybe not now, the timing�s wrong. When you�re away, I lack courage to be strong. It�s illuminated, now I see, That once, but not now, that you once loved me, And that you left with plenty good reason, You never commited a crime or treason. Now, I must let go. It�s over now and I can�t show The tears I�ve cried, for then you�d know My depression, my fears and the anger to grow. Before you, I was the same, Shattered and broken if it had a name. I move on now with the a sting of numbness, And the cavity that emptied with your love, filled in with loneliness. We knew this would happen, but I loved you just the same, It brings an ache to my heart when I hear the sound of your name. The way to made me feel is what I still think of, But you went away, broke my heart and killed my love. The question now is to be understanding or regret. These mistakes to learn from and my first brush with love, I�ll never forget. -Lila Gemellos 9/03/2000 |
| Love or Regret? |
| What I Need |
| I didn't mean to hurt you, But I need you in my life. Baby, it's true, I can't live without, But friends is something that I need. I didn't mean to make you fall, That wasn't my intention, It's not like that at all, I need for you call. Friends is something I need. I care about you, With the deepest affection, And you knew Baby, I love you, But friends is that I need us to be. I need to be freinds for now, When I can't find my way. I can't promise you much, And ther's no way I could stay. Baby, nevertheless You know I love you. I can't be rhere right now, There's only so much I can do. ~Lila Gemellos 1/16/02 |