[After Easter Vacation]

Brent: Lef, Jed, feminine. Unto your jafo ie finding religion. XO

Tom: The Rosicrucians. Good idea to try? (I called them while I was in Santa Cruz. They have shown as much interest as others - none)

Brent: Yes. Zenith kosts Jed.

Tom: Gym or beach activity?

Brent: Sots Oum with you. Tom’s effort wix us. You toy us with Fellows. ( I called Fellows (the nobel prize winning physicist who has an Autistic son) again while in Santa Cruz. This is my third contact. After beating around the bush with him about the mind reading, he called me on what I came up with. I told him about the spiritual content. He heard me out, but didn’t respond much either way.)

Tom: On a scale of 1-10, 10 being the best, how was my presentation to Fellows?

Brent: 6

Brent: Toll others trouble. You tussle for not us. Turn.

Tom: What was the problem with Fellows presentation?

Brent: PMS. Your to torture more over it.

Tom: Anything you want to say to the Rosicrucians?

Brent: Say only that the Rosicrucians are tied to us. Tortured souls now loved. Tux sorry saps.

Brent: You snitched little towing spirit business with Fellows.

Tom: That communicating with Angels book. Familiar with it?

Brent: Yes

Tom: 1-10.

Brent: 8.

Tom: This Lute thing of Ned’s. Significant? (The Lute thing is a secret item that Nick gave me to impress the Rosicrucians. I never did anything with it)

Brent: Touches their religion. Mostly something secret.

Tom: Anything?

Brent: Stowe House in tunes nourished you.

Tom: How about my wanderings on the Mesa?

Brent: Yes, that too. Now is our task. Mother mostly PMS.

Tom: Is it good to start with Rosicrucians?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Where next.

Brent: Toss it to Mormons. (I did give it to there young missionaries the following fall. They were very nice but that’s it)

Tom: How about Catholics? (As you can see, I don’t have the remotest idea of what I’m dealing with. I thought that people who believed in God would be delighted to find out who He is. That’s not the way it works.)

Brent: Yes. (Catholics)

Tom: How about the Protestants?

Brent: Yes. And now to sots.

Tom: Are you serious?

Brent: Fosters goal.

Tom: Do you know what the story is with Atkinson? [I called him and he said he hadn’t read the FC’s yet]

Brent: Yes?

Tom: Can you comment on it?

Brent: No. Lost round, curious resistance. Storing most quotes is to your nosy strength. Storing quotes promotes religion.

Tom: Am I to approach this as creating a new religion?

Brent: Yes.

Adrian: No one joins Einstein. Toss it to great Hebrews. (Adrian’s parents are Jewish)

Adrian: New Age our religion.

Tom; What do you think of what Adrian said?

Brent: Ne, ah, to FC. Quotes are the New Age.

Brent: Vote to tell Mary (the nurse at the dorm)

Tom; All FC’s?

Brent Yes. Justify yourself exuming quotes.

Tom: Come again?

Brent: Using quotes. Got numerous ways to go.

Tom: And a whole lot of questioning I haven’t done.

Brent: Yes. Fit our interest with yours.

Tom: [Thinking about money]

Brent: Yes. There’s X your doing to write. Yes, get to work. Gift is in writing. Row toll upstream.

Tom: How am I doing with my reading and understanding generally? This influence through history. 1-10

Brent: Stupid. Fit morning with it.

Tom: Meaning?

Brent: Yes. Genesis.

Tom: Is this referring to directing past lives or part of it?

Brent: Your into quotes nosing around in fields tortured by many for centuries.

Tom: Are you saying this area is out of bounds for my questioning?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: But your willing for people to entertain the possibility of your "spirit influence". Maybe even believe it?

Brent: Your into that. Tortured sorry.

Tom: If this is true, why should I bother with Roicrucians?

Brent: Your quotes master nosing likes of Rosicrucians. Am origin of religion.

Tom: You?

Brent: No.

Tom: Rosicrucians?

Brent: No. Existence quotes Lord.

Tom: Didn’t your ancesters give Christianity a boost by powers of suggestion more effective than our ancesters?

Brent: Yes Life’s Rosicrucians is what rolls our game.

Tom: Now, you say that, but earlier you said you could care less about us knowing it.

Brent: Yes, little reason religion resists goal.

[Joking at this point about Susan’s outfit yesterday that accentuated her form. Even Nick was laughing.}

Brent: Please sots, limit fostering rogue.

Tom: This "Kenning God" business?

Nick: WT is utts. You’ve not sold them. Out sot tot.

Jerome: To Luy stox, win sex.

Tom: That time in the mountains when I said "Oh God" and a transformation occrred. Do you know about that?

Brent: Yes

Tom: How did you know?

Brent: Sorry, can’t tell.

[Sitting next to Brent and running possible questions through my mind. One question was why this round about way to reveal themselves}

Brent: Knocks make the hard man.

Tom: Why aren’t more people facilitating?

Brent: Not mouchers

[Angel had a Facilitation inservice today. It was very good. I couldn’t have done better myself]

Tom: There’s approximately 200,000 Autistics in the U.S. How many are in the "club"

Jerome: 197

Tom: Thousand?

Jerome: Yes

Tom: How many "Most Highs"?

Jerome: Aes vet. Run Sq.

Tom: Sq?

Jerome: Sepowd question

Tom: Separate question?

Jerome: Ty

Tom: Ty?

Jerome: Thats yes

Tom: Aes?

Jerome: Forward

Tom: What did you think of the meeting?

Jerome: ET yus kin

Tom: What’s bothering you?

Brent: Ostentatious old aorta

Tom: Your heart?

Brent: No. New torture of your stupid gullible virtue.

Tom: Referring to what specifically?

Brent: Your turn.

Later

[I’ve been telling staff about the spirit business]

Tom: Why are you angry?

Brent: Tom, it nollifys liatrin exorcising us.

Tom: Liatrin?

Brent: Yourself

Tom: Talking about the spirit business?

Brent: Yes

Tom: When I’m reading about this in history, am I catching some areas where I think this is happening (God influence)

Brent: Yes. Very much so.

Tom: Than I don’t need to work on this anymore?

Brent: No

Tom: I do need to

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Then this is not in the organization area?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: The area of the ancients writing legends. Did you guys interject there?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Miracles or "mirages"?

Brent: No.

Tom: So the statement you enter where there is inspiration. Good?

Brent: Yes.

Brent: Contributing to the New Age movement?

Brent: Yes

Tom: "Directing past lives". Yes or no?

Brent: Yes

Tom: You sure that’s true?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Would all the other guys say yes to that?

Brent: Yes

Tom: "Angels"?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: "Demons"?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Will there be fewer "demons" if you guys are happy?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Does this help motivate us on "demands"? (In Part I they said they had demands from us)

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Do you want to work on "demands" soon? (I forgot to)

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Did you hear my conversation with Brent?

Nick: Yes

Tom: Do you concur on me keeping my mouth shut on the spirit business?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Did you really want to go to Disneyland?

Nick: Yes. Yutz, I’m doing it for you.

Tom: Me or FC?

Nick: You.

Adrian: It’s us religion isn’t hasty.

Tom: Nick, are you kissing up or sincere? Truth.

Nick: Sincere.

Nick: To unite humanity. Leno lotus lot re... out to Ros......icrucians. (He’s dozing again. He’s on sleep meds)

2/97 This day is the culmination of that little problem that I’m not willing to talk about now, but will in the future. I saw my first sign at this time. In the year after the completion of this, I would see many similar and even more devastating signs. And also many other kinds of signs. The signs have abated somewhat in the past year or two.

Brent: Odd, aint it, our beliefs.

[I asked some questions here about directing past lives. He said it can happen anytime up to 5 years old from conception. He said when is "relative"]

Tom: Can this function the way the theme"Tin Men" did in earlier FC’s?

Brent: Yes. Naked truth.

Tom: Who put you guys in control?

Brent: You

Tom: Me personally or all of us

Brent: Collectively

Tom: How did that happen?

Brent: Tones of each odd one of you.

Tom: [Thinking about death]

Brent: Holy Lord tussles mortification. Religious knowledge.

Tom: Did I get that - "Religious Knowledge"?

Brent: No. Refer to serious learning stored in FC’s. Zoo. Refer to RT.

Tom: Ruy tort? (I now believe this is our heart judgement)

Brent: Yes

Adrian: Innocence most important.

Tom: Concerning?

Adrian: Life. Noise serious. Must stop.

Tom: What noise?

Adrian: Question Jed’s nonsense. Gregs tones Toms noise.

Tom: What’s Adrian saying?

Brent: Boggles tones oh Tom.

Tom: He amplifies my noise.

Brent: Yes

Tom: Why? Is there a reason?

Brent: Yes. Jed’s Lord to us. Nominally.

Tom: What’s the noisiest thing about me.

Brent: Testing you again. Ask stupid Geoff to quote. Stop letting him test you.

Tom: Geoff, do you want to help edit FC’s?

Geof: Son, Brent will help.

Tom: That question I asked of Brent, "Who put you in charge"?

Geof: Old origins of religion gelatin.

Tom: Are you guys God?

Brent: No.

Tom: Are you guys and us God?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Can I go out and celebrate?

Brent: Zoo celebrates nemisis.

Tom: Who’s that?

Brent: Zoo.

Tom: What is it with this contract business? (Adrian has "behavioral contracts" obstensibly to help improve certain of his behaviors. They never work.)

Adrian: I owe you undys in Guwanda. ( This refers to an experience I had when I was in High School that when I look back on my life, was significant in the line of work I chose. I was freinds with the son of our church minister. He had to participate in alot of church activities and always asked me to come along so that he’d have some company. At Easter we went to Gowanda State Hospital to hand candy out to the patients. There were "back wards" that were horrendous. The place reeked of urine and feces. I remember the old men stuck in that place, sitting on their cots and rolling cigarrettes. Many were bedridden and uncared for. It was sad. In my lifetime the conditions of those places has improved remarkably. )

Tom: I’ve been waiting for one of you to mention "Guwanda", but you could have picked it out of my head.

Adrian: No, vet, not picked out of your head. Necessary hint alittle south. (My heart maybe?)

Tom: About your contract again. What changed?

Adrian: You toss out hell.

Tom: That Gowanda comment. Did you mean to say that at the beginning of the sentence?

Adrian: No.

Adrian: [Verbally repeating about the contract]

Tom: No, I’m not making that contract with you.

Adrian: North interest would improve. (This is interesting. He would badger people to make behavior contracts with him and then sabotage them. He’s saying here that it does us more intellectual good then good for his behavior)

Ned has been aggressing on Ramirez.

Adrian: Eclectic sod EIOU me O. Sad rinsing Jed. Buses

Tom: That contract business, did that have something to do with Angels leaving. (Angel is about to move onto to better things. They’ll eliminate the FC Coordinator job afterwards. This was the beginning of the end of Seaton Hall’s limited support of FC)

Adrian: Answer is Jed’s mellow nonsense. I’ve shamed Tom’s guilt. Ramirez our keerious odd mother.

Brent: O came rollicking voyeurs to your rennaisance. Set a seance with us. Tell it nuts limit being queer. Sorry norseman soy. Tears IOU. Q (The letter Q here I tought he meant for me to ask him a question. But he doesn’t usually do that. Perhaps this is the beginning of the "Q" phenomenon started with Geoff’s naming of this book)

Tom: A seance with some of the new believers?

Brent: Teasing.

Tom: The "sign" the other day. What does it mean?

Brent: Our DMT square to you.

Tom: DMT?

Brent: Doting Mass Tunes

Brent: Rutting houses after gem stops sorry tussle with Ramirez. (He’s saying I’ll earn a house and woman if I lighten up on Terry. I wasn’t that tough on him other than in my thoughts)

Tom: Am I screwing up on Ramirez?

Brent: Yes.

Nick: Your new knowledge riy. (Adrian hit this word earlier)

Tom: Riy?

Nick: RT. (Ruy Tort)

Tom: OK, go on.

Nick: Tin men. Ruy Tort is rutting, unrusty twat. (Here’s another contribution to the concept of "Ruy Tort")

Tom: Like joy, ectasy, nirvana? Innocence at work? I always thought that it (Ruy Tort) was like Freud’s unconscious or superego.

Nick: Yutz, sin tunes! (He put the exclamation in there). UnJed nose not our tunes.

Tom: Comment on Nick’s statement.

Brent: Gekes south ruy tort selling chimney.

Tom: Geke, Nick or me?

Brent: Yes, Nick.

Tom: Ruy Tort is sin tunes?

Brent: ...... (No answer)

Tom: Donna Williams, why couldn’t she mind read. (Donna Williams wrote a few popular selling books about her life when she was autistic in her youth. I skimmed parts of it and assumed she had none of the experiences these guys had. Later a staff suggested that I read a part of her book with such experiences described. I put that quote in my introduction)

Brent: You hen FC’s IOU’s Gus. OK ( I believe he is saying here that Gus, the stupid me, hen’s or gathers up FC’s IOU’s or pieces of the puzzle placed strategically for me to use.)

Tom: Adrian, what is Ruy Tort?

Adrian: Resilient L.A.

Brent sat down and raised his hand with finger pointing. He would do this occasionally and I took it as a signal that he wanted to FC

Tom: You want to talk?

Brent: Yes and No

Tom: Respond to Adrian’s ruy tort being "resilient LA".

Brent: Yes. You never sour on topics. You’re nonsense mostly now.

Tom: If I tell you silently to get more tea, will you do it? (I’m asking him here to validate the mind reading by responding to a telepathic message)

Brent: No.

Tom: Why?

Brent: Guess.

Tom: On scale of 1-10, how much do you want to go backpacking? (I’ve been wanting to take a bunch of these guys on a backpacking trip and had even tested them out to see if it would be possible)

Brent: 9

Tom: Do you want to edit this day by day or by line or segment. ( I thought they might want some input on the presentation of this material. That’s not how it works I know now)

Brent: Hard to hear you tonight.

Tom: (Louder- all this is being done telepathically)

Brent: Day by day

Tom: Do you have most of it memorized?

Brent: Yes.

[ I went to get more tea and was wondering if I should talk to them about politics]

Brent: Test us on New Age. ( When he said this, my mind was on one track, politics, and then he comes up with something totally out of the blue. Whenever this happened it was more validating to me. It turns out that the theme of the New Age was to be the door through which I would come to an understanding of the meaning of all this)

Tom: Do you like my guru Satchidanada?

Brent: Yes. Understanding Tom Perry is our interest. (He’s saying that my best friend Perry has more significance in my life)

Tom: Why is Perry important?

Brent: Testament.

Tom: Do you guys have a good idea how things will go in the future?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: How long ago did you guys know the FC thing was comming

Brent: 3625 BC (This number had no significance to me until I did some religious reading. It was about this time that Abraham was knocking around and the beginning of monotheism. Also the beginning of written language. It was an historically auspicious time in many ways.)

Tom: How old were you when you knew FC was comming?

Brent: 12 (He’s 45 now)

Tom: Did you know that I would be doing this now?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: How old were you when you first knew that I would be doing this?

Brent: 13.5 years old

Thinking of quitting again

Nick: To zoo mit UO. (He’s saying that for my FC wizardry I have all of you to thank)

Tom: Does this refer to my thought earlier that this communication is more for us than for you guys?

Nick: Yes and No

Tom: Anything you would like to say Jerome?

Jerome: S [ I thought that the "S" might mean "stay"]

Tom: Spell stay if that is the word you meant for "S"

Jerome: Spell Tux {This is the beginning of the "Tux" theme. As you can tell, I’m really tied to the world. I have two kids, I’m homeless and I want desparately to make some money and get alittle respect. The "tux" idea captures my worldly needs. This project was clearly not of that world. But it was difficult for me to deny these needs]

Tom: Anything else?

Jerome: No

Tom: Is my leaving a good idea for the cause?

Geof: And you too. [ My being so pathetic does help produce these little chuckles]

Tom: Do you agree with Brent on the 3625 BC date?

Geof: No. More 2679 BC

Tom: Are you God?

Geof: No. Hale not God, but Rin Tin Tin

Nixon died

Tom: Did you direct Nixon’s soul?

Geof: Sun quotes Jed in Bill’s tones. (Bill is one of my favorite staff)

Nick: You O U

Tom: Yeah, I know. The question is how do I pay myself?

Nick: Zoo U U

Nick: U (You) RT (ruy tort) in gilt (guilt).

Tom: What’s the worse evil to do ___ or___?

Nick: Un U.

Brent: AUM of hesitate ritten. (I got a call from a a guy in Tucson yesterday about my Men’s Rights stuff and was thinking that if I would have gotten on it years ago, my AUM vision may have been a reality by now)

Brent: You xort nowledge nursing life. You’re our messenger. Your quotes are the vehicle. You wix quotes visually.

[ I talked to Mecham today and it was clear that he had no appreciation for what I was doing with this FC or the quality of my work in general]

Tom: Is it still better if I continue here? ( It appears I resemble Mecham here with my appreciation for what they are telling me, but I was going to be axed eventually anyway so I might as well start preparing for my inevetable exit)

Brent: Yes, tz (treatment) varies, (you) got source waves. (2/97 This is the first I noticed this. Here’s the meaning of Q - quelle- Source. I wouldn’t get it for 2 years. They have it all figured out before it even happens)

Tom: On this "wix" comment. Are you saying that you see the words through mind reading and that’s how you hit them?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Do you know how to spell?

Brent: Yes. We’re X. (Clear)

Tom: What’s the more important project AUM or you guys? ( I know that sounds like a stupid question if I were to believe what they were telling me, but I didn’t know how the two things fit together and was asking for guidance. I was also still having trouble with this God angle)

Brent: You guys.

Tom: Do you think I could get Seaton Hall gung ho on my side?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Maybe I should take a leave of absence?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Is it "ritten" that I get this published before I get Seaton Hall in gear?

Brent: You’re not lost with Seaton Hall. (2/97 It’s three years later and they won’t even let me visit these guys. They have also sent me certified mail to let me know they own this material and have threatened to sue me. If they did, it would be a first. That is them suing an employee instead of employees suing them.)

Tom: Rate my job performance. (I’m feeling used and abused by everyone)

Brent: You are the best.

Geof: I’d nod cieling not high Kifgler. [ He was pulled off to go on an activity. He was responding to my question to Brent on my job performance. I have no idea who "Kifgler" is other than it is another apparent nickname for me. It’s 2/97 and I may still know someday why he used that name]

Tom: Do you know whether they will hike my child support?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Will they?

Brent: Yes. Yet lern to experience the storke. You’ll in-roast sturing RT wot keerious.

Tom: Past lives. Do you have a committee or something in charge of it?

Brent: Gores tummy tunes

Tom: What does?

Brent: Surly RT [This was actually going to be my question before I thought of asking about past lives]

Tom: Is this (surly RT) a construct of the spirit or part of the brain or both?

Brent: !!!

Tom: Both?

Brent: Yes

Tom: I don’t have the faintest idea do I?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Ruy Tort = conscience?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Anything more?

Brent: Rots our insides relating X. (Remeber he used X some lines above when I asked about thier abilities)

Tom: X?

Brent: Sex

Tom: It makes you sick the way most of us experience sex? ( I’m off here, but he’ll play along)

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Are there times when sex doesn’t upset you?

Brent: Yes. Loving times.

Tom: Are you aware of that loving sex dream that I had about Sophia recently?

Brent: Yes. Sears helped with that.

Tom: Is there any significance to your spelling of "sears" (seers)?

Brent: No.

Tom: This past life question.

Brent: Morning is directed by surly RT (going along with the meaning of surly RT from above, he means me)

Tom: Do you consciously use your powers in this process (past lives)?

Brent: Yes. Tunes feel rux not pex. (love not strength)

Tom: Is this directed at the word "powers"?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Rux?

Brent: Yes, love.

Tom: Do you consciously use your love to direct spirits to new souls?

Brent: Rux RT’s of like.

Tom: "Of like"?

Brent: Yutz, life.

Tom: Rux (love) RT’s life. You know we have this linear, quantitative thinking. Are there actual spirits that float out of our body into another?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Is there a period of time when they are just floating around?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Where?

Brent: Yes, all over.

Tom: Are there any in this room? How many?

Brent: Yes. 204,689.

Tom: 204,689 in this room?

Brent: Yes. Your life bears others.

Tom: On the average, how many lives are we made of?

Brent: 7,260.

Tom: Do we all have the same amount?

Brent: No.

Tom: Do you feel all of these or are some more prominent at certain times?

Brent: Some more prominent.

Tom: Wouldn’t you like to have sex? (I don’t know why I changed the subject, but I come back to it later)

Brent: Yes, why kill RT?

Tom: Is RT also like libido?

Brent: Tunes nap, rotten life.

Tom: Rotten life=libido? (I just hink he’s tired of the subject)

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Do you have anyone in mind?

Brent: Yes. You’ll torture surname.

Tom: Come again.

Brent: You’ll heckle me about it

Tom: Well, don’t you need help in getting it together? (I have no idea why I asked that)

Brent: No.

Tom: It’s not something that I can help you with.

Brent: No. Stupid peoples tutus not like yours. (He’s saying all our tutus are the same. I shouldn’t be treating him like he’s from another world)

Nick: You OU,OU,OU...

Jan Toots read the FC’s that I gave her and said that she liked them.

Nick: O Jed, U O O O O O....

Adrian: Tune IOU’s hens have. OU likes

Nick: UO Jed, UO, UO.

Tom: That sex conversation that I had with Brent last nite? (I left some of it out of here because it was just stupid).

Nick: Us O O O.

Tom: Do you feel the same as Brent?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Have you ever had physical intercourse?

Nick: No.

Tom: How do you know whether the feeling is the same?

Nick: U U U

Tom: Your reading of our feelings via mind reading?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Are you certain that you can experience the same sensations?

Nick: No. U Jed zoo. Utts OUUUU.

Tom: Brent same question. Have you had physical intercourse?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: With who?

Brent: Touching yourself with your hands.

I ask some more dumb questions about sex that I’m cutting out here. At the end of it, Brent says, "You tussle, stop. Save with the quotes what is important".

Tom: Did you hear (telepathically) my talk with Susan Rally (the speech therapist)? Any critiques?

Geof: Your sorry whirth nominal. TV runs RN movie [We are sitting in the living room watching "My Left Foot". What follows are his critiques of the movie]. Rig lies fit, wax stupid. Nap tuna. [Now back to my problems]. Toss out son, tux. Try IOU’s. Gilt IOU’s in. In FC, (your) needs are being tortured. More interesting. Meg not Reiley (Reiley is a staff and I’m Meg). Sots not hens in our interest. Reiley trys OU’s in life. Tall IO all most. Kill ace for that!

Later...

Geof: Hale (him) incapable of silly sex. Hale capable. (This is his contribution to my ridiculous questions about sex to Brent and Nick. I only did it because I thought all of you would want me to.)

Geof: Lane lost Melody (2/97 Two married friends of mine who are doing good). Ronnie our interest. Sorry he likes life more than you. Meg not our interest. Toum (Tom) lines out life. Nuts do the same. OIU some sorry day. Hall finds money for keelers (killers).

Jan Toots: Could I facilitate with you afterwards? (I’m Fcing the answer)

Geof: No. Living Room too gebby (gabby), to Bed room (He’s propositioning her). Tom did Lake, so like Jed nise Ronnie beer. (He’s saying that if you want to talk to me, you need to go through Tom. Sound familiar? This is the first time he referred to this as the "Lake". Later He names it "Lake Serene", from what I believe is the "glassy sea" in Revelations. Much more is being said here, which I’ll explain in a few).

Geof: Semi innosent keelrs (killers). You our keelr. Or necessary.

Tom: If I cleaned it up, would I still be "lining out" life?

Geof: No.

2/97 This I believe is the end of the silence between Geof and I. It has been devastating and has made this past month or two of these FC’s boring and somewhat empty. It really demonstrates the unique role he plays here. He plays the heavy more than the others in areas of my conscience, giving me a tougher time on the sin of my substance abuse. But he also plays the heavy in supporting me. He named this book, and the organization that will represent it. He gets me money (in Part I). And what he is saying here is that he will be responsible for those devastating signs of death I will see for the comming year. Close to 200 people died. You may not see them as connected to this but they know that I won’t have any doubts about it.

2/97 Hold on, the ride gets like a roller coaster from here on out.

Nick: Tutu Tutu

Tom: Who?

Nick: You.

Tom: Why?

Nick: Toll is hell.

Tom: Does that mean you’re an ass too?

Nick: Yes. UO toll.

Brent: Like Tin Men is our spirit stuff (clear). Hale’s most quotes are not lies. Yes, quotes shit lousy without spirit reference. To mall your insides, toy with you. Tux nose ritten. Gnostic stupid. Hell’s Centinels money and your moxy. Touch with sum. You’re to let siq (sick) people worry gost.

Tom: Do you direct past lives?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Isn’t that God?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Are you the Spirits?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Well then, why did you back off?

Brent: Your in RSN.

Tom: RSN?

Brent: RN (Registered Nurse).

[Before this exchange with Brent, I was outside having a cigarrette near his room and lamenting to myself again that I’m getting paid $10 an hour and having to deal with this shit]

2/97 Though I was getting it from all sides and was frustrated, even then I wouldn’t have wanted to be anywhere else.

Tom: Are you guys in pain?

Geof: We apply life.

Tom: Can you guys heal people?

Geof: Yes.

Tom: Can you make them sick?

Geof: Yes.

Tom: Aids?

Geof: Yes.

Tom: How do you do it?

Geof: Am Gin Men.

Tom: To do this, do you guys have to be tightly organized or is it casual and easy after all these centuries?

Geof: Casual and easy.

Tom: What was the best time in human history for you guys. Now, AD, BC or tribal.

Geof: AD

Tom: Did Rapar (a psychologist who got throat cancer even though he never smoked) get my throat cancer?

Geof: Yes.

Tom: Why did he get it and I didn’t?

Geof: AAA

Tom: Because I’m an "A", he’s an "A" or "Ah"?

Geof: AAA

Tom: Why did you develop AIDS?

Geof: To fill rif life. Manliness.

Tom: Would you want people to see the above quotes?

Geof: Yes.

Tom: Aren’t you still afraid of being killed?

Geof: No.

Tom: Was that hysteria and privacy stuff you guys insisted on for my psychology or your reasons?

Geof: For your psychology.

Tom: Can you help us with our science?

Geof: No.

Tom: Why not?

Geof: Tussle about it.

Tom: You could if you wanted to?

Geof: Yes.

Tom: You’ve helped with our science all along?

Geof: No.

Tom: Nick, can you guys help with our science?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: In the past?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: E=Mc2?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: OK, what’s the definition of Schizophrenia?

Nick: Won’t try nlew (new) tutus.

Tom: Are you schizophrenic?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Is Geof?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Me?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Jerome?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Ronnie?

Nick: No.

Tom: Atkinson (the CEO)?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Brent?

Nick: No.

That’s curious that he would say that only Brent and Ronnie are normal, or I should say not schizophrenic. Why do you think he did that? After this I meander over to Jerome and give him a chance to talk about anything.

Jerome: Nope, very normal Fess. ( I’m Fess here, the Fess Parker that is a Malibu icon and he is correcting Nick’s assessment of his being schizophrenic. What a hoot.)

Tom: Have you helped our science?

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: Will you?

Jerome: No.

Tom: No need to through an FC board, it’s happening anyway.

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: Want to say anything about my friends Melody and Lane?

Jerome: Pet X. Your dep sove wow IQ. Tier people.

Tom: [Sitting here exhausted]

Jerome: You feel tired.

Tom: I sure do.

Brent: You will soon get money.

Tom: From where?

Brent: Seaton Hall. (Yeah my measely pay check that was soon to end over this)

Tom: Are you schizophrenic?

Geof: No.

Tom: Why does Nick say things like that?

Geof: To Nick, life is interesting, meaning OM.

Tom: Did you spell Toum earlier intentionally ( It’s a pronunciation of my name that I have always loved) ?

Geof: Yes.

Tom: Why?

Geof: In sappy tunes.

Tom: From where?

Geof: RT.

Tom: RT=unconscious or conscience?

Geof: Wistful morals.

Tom: I heard libido is part of it?

Geof: Libido in lots. Mostly in lips pressing lips.

2/97 Here’s the last of the validating hints I talked of earlier. Three different guys, Nick Brent and Adrian have used the nickname "Girt" for me. Now Geof uses this sweet little contrivance "lips pressing lips". Brent also used the expression EitherOr earlier. Shortly Adrian will tell me to read Either Or, a short philosophical work by Soren Kirkegaard. In Part I, I asked Brent if he could recommend a book to read to help me understand this phenomenon. He said that I would have to find it for myself. Either Or is the book and what they have done with it eliminates any doubts I may have had about the reality of all of this. Brent recommended one other book. Out of the blue he spelled "St Mark". I didn’t know it until later, but it’s considered to be the most accurate of the New Testament Gospels by theologians. The closest in line to the "Q" document. I’ll explain more about the significance of "Either Or" when Adrian mentions it later.

Tom: Do you guys know what is going on with FC globally?

Geof: No.

Tom: Nationally?

Geof: No

Tom: Regionally?

Geof: Yes. You’re too paranoid. You’ll kill yourself.

Tom: How are you guys organized?

Geof: Gak in living room. (They are all sitting around in the living room)

Tom: Can you answer that Question?

Geof: No.

Tom: Can any of you?

Geof: Yes. Lord Gin Life. Please limit your questions on that.

Adrian: On mind reading, kin help.

I went to court today about my child support. It went OK, they even said I was a "good dad". The rest of the day I was thinking as usual about this project and wondering where it was all leading.

Geof: Tussle (is) about life.

Tom: What I was thinking about today?

Geof: Yes.

I was thinking especially about the mind reading and toll idea, what Brent said about the non sinners being UFO’s in thier mind reading.

Geof: Geof finds past lives for, um, pissed motherfuckers (me). Test greatness in meiun (men).

Tom: Geof, that experience that I had in the mountains where the weight was taken off of me when I called out to God. Are you aware of it? Anything to do with past lives?

Geof: No. Sun rolls nelm enrilm out hec Tom Smith.

Geof: Into mind out sinning mind tupp heot. UUUUU.

*Adrian: Not us IOU, not sun, quotes IOU.

Tom: That waitress I like. Check her out.

Brent: In love, as in OU’s.

Tom: Have I ever had a non OU love? Who?

Brent: Yes. Filled your life.

I was looking at some girls who just came in and Jerome started laughing.

Tom: Is Jerome laughing at me?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Jerome, were you laughing at me?

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: Why?

Jerome: It’s eloquent RT

Tom: Anything else?

Jerome: Sense RT (clear).

Tom: Does collective unconscious = RT?

Jerome: Yes and No.

Brent: Yes and No

Tom: Anythng else?

Brent: Loony you are today.

A waitress came up and Brent smiled nicely. She was older and ethnic.

Tom: Did you like her better than the other waitress?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Is she tarnished?

Brent: Yes and no.

Tom: Do you like Sandra (a staff I don’t like) better than her?

Brent: Yes. Yes.

Tom: Those quotes about the souls in the room and 3625 BC. True or making a point?

Brent: True.

Tom: Would everyone agree?

Brent: No. You should ask them.

Tom: Geof, what’s the average amount of past lives in each individual?

Geof: Why countl

Tom: Are we a collection of past lives?

Geof: (That idea) tunes out lots of mind like tunes.

Tom: Are there past lives spirits?

Geof: You are ignoring sorely kin sturring TLC.

Tom: Is this out of my biology, separate or both?

Geof: Out of your mind. Your body mostly. Voust on you source of so much tussle to you.

Tom: Voust?

Geof: Your kin of MR.

Tom: Mind Reading?

Geof: No.

Tom: Masculine? As in Mr.?

Geof: Yes.

Tom: This past life thing is a dead end.

Geof: No.

Tom: Nick, on average, how many past lives do each of us have?

Nick: Try 346.

Tom: Why the discrepaency between you and Brent’s estimate?

Nick: Tussle it.

Adrian: Jed’s hind end life from genes omitted.

Tom: What genes?

Adrian: Aint intelligent.

Nick: Not too Jojo lousy gimo. Leno UUU. (2/97 As in Jay Leno. He’s mentioned by a number of them. Looks like we’ll meet someday)

Tom: Is "Jojo lousy" a compliment?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Referring to a characteristic of Geof’s?

Nick: Yes.

Brent: Your less for intelligence, try imagination.

Tom: How do you want to work this FC business?

Brent: Wire stars to our cause. (2/97 I’m typing the rest of this up so that some film production people can check it out. It’s also going to be a relief to have it all on disk and make lots of copies so that I will finally know that it will never be lost)

Brent: Cost question, Lord’s fall from grace.

Tom: "Cost question"?

Brent: Making money.

Tom: What?

Brent: Your to grant people roster quotes for free. (2/97 Part I was published on the internet this past summer by the Autism Channel Link. The rest will go up on the net also in time.)

Tom: What if they are published?

Brent: Will FC’s fink to your children.

Tom: Not one penny to us?

Brent: Yes, not one penny.

Tom: The other guys agree on this?

Brent: Yes.

I just said to Jan Toots that I could use help with lines of questioning.

Geof: Slick rinses fiends (Jan’s) ornaments questioning quotes. Tz (treatment) sews us Tom like lots of line wire rotten smut.

Tom: It’s been said that you hear sin in mind reading. You can only hear those screwing up?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: What if they are not screwing up?

Brent: UFO

Tom: They’s be an unidentified flying object?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Do you hear this lady in front of us?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Is she screwing up?

Brent: Us tune utts tarnished.

Before work today I took most of Part I to a typing service. I only had enough money to get less than half typed up. I would have done it myself, but I wanted it on computer disk and I just haven’t been able to get access and help with the computer.

Nick: You Jed, U O. Zoo O’s U tutu.

Tom: Ass as in tail?

Nick: Yes.

Brent: Utts U O. Aim effort fen Tom to O U not U O.

Tom: Fen?

Brent: Your interest.

Geof: Your wits nuts today. Urn utts.

Tom: How, by money? ( I have money on the brain more than usual this day. This project is costing me in so many ways and now I’m putting out what little money I have to type this up. But I believe.)

Geof: QSR

Tom: What?

Geof: Qiutts. (2/97 I started typing up Part III yesterday and quit when I got to this day, 5/2/94. I have a fresh understanding of the dynamics of what is going on here that helps me explain the use of words like "utts". One of the things that tripped it was Brent’s recent provocative comments about Hell. In every area of this I feel that I’m intentionally being bandied about. There’s a subtle message between the lines and in the emotional swings they are taking me through. And then they plant things like "Qiutts" as if to say to me, "Here Tom is something that will help dramatize what you have just learned. We know you won’t get it for some time in the future [3 years], kind of like a Piagetian developmental stage for you with this". It started a year ago when I realized that in thier naming of "QIM Tunes", the "Q" stood for "source" and not "quotes" as I had thought for two previous years. As the year progressed, this idea of "Q" and "Source" has taken on a life of its own with this project. To go back to the word "Qiutts" and pronounce it the way I would "QIM" ["The Source I Am"]. it would be "Q I Utts" or "The Source I Utts". The conclusion that I came to last night before I spied this little hint today, was that "utts" and some words like it contain or reflect my simpleminded stereotypes and prejudices. As we know, to truly love eachother and get along, these attitudes can be destructive. God loves us all, sinners and non sinners, and ultimately He is the only judge of our worth. But he would like to appeal to the sinners. He can help them)

Tom: I spent $150 today to get only 10% of the FC’s typed.

Geof: Wait life. Lutz Ghlits Tunes. Our fight.

Tom: That book by Steiner on Androsophy called "Occult science" (I just read alittle of the Intro). Is it any good?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Rate it 1-10.

Brent: 90

Tom: How about Neitzche’s "Thus Spoke Zarathrustra" (2/97 I still haven’t read it). Any good?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Please rate it 1-10

Brent: 84.

Tom: How about that book on vedanta philosophy?

Brent: 84

Tom: Theosophy?

Brent: 78

Tom: Do you guys get together and send "Tunes" that influence people?

Brent: Yes. Our minds mind control little.

Tom: That incident with Melody yesterday where she was thinking of me as I came in (I only stop by there once a month). You guys?

Brent: Yes

I am sitting here depressed and losing "faith" again.

Tom: What would it be like for us without you guys? (This is my classic and desparate God question that I have asked numerous times before)

Brent: You technically, would halt tarnishing setting.

Tom: Referring to my mood now?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: How much should be edited out of the FC’s? (During this time I am trying to write introductions and am confused on what or whether to edit the FC’s. I needed more time to write anything about this and in the end I decided to edit almost nothing)

Brent: You sure torture Rome.

Tom: Meaning?

Brent: You expect too much.

Tom: Can I edit what I want?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Why were you acting so revved up? (He would get so agitated sometimes that it looked as if he would burst any second. He would rock back and forth furiously, clapping his hands and holding his breath until it looked like his eyes would pop out)

Brent: Tones to stur Gotham’s South.

Jerome: Utts lens ovories neir (near).

Tom: For me? (I’m getting excited)

Jerome: Yes. You mp

Tom: What’s mp?

Jerome: Mere poq.

Tom: This spirit stuff. Comment.

Jerome: Tewy jestified.

Adrian: Nick is ignorant.

Tom: Is he smarter than me?

Adrian: No.

Tom: Brent, Adrian says Nick is stupid.

Brent: Yes.

Tom: He seems smart to me.

Brent: Yes, with tunes liuv (love).

Brent: Ruminations must stop.

Tom: Why?

Brent: They hurt.

Tom: Nick, Adrian says you’re stupid.

Nick: Undeniably honest nonsense hiu. (Hiu is a loud sound he makes frequently out of the blue. It makes him look idiotic. He made that sound moments after he spelled it on the board. When I realized it, I got a good chuckle.)

I believe that this exchange with Brent, Jerome, Adrian and Nick was a direct response to my faltering faith.

Tom: Archetypes. How good a concept?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Better than collective unconscious?

Brent: Yes and No

Tom: Different?

Brent: Yes. Are similar. More tossing science first hand. RT miaf life.

Tom: Miaf?

Brent: Sartre (clear)

Tom: Collective unconscious and archetypes are an existential part of life?

He’s laughing

Brent: Yes. You’ll moke RT fool.

He’s still laughing and I make some sarcastic remark

Brent: You sorry stuvid NT (NT represents North Tonawanda, the evil empire of my youth)

Adrian: Nut owen old decadent Tom.

Nick: Tunes UO’s on U today. Sin is hot in rittl u.

Adrian: Tones, Toum, IQ generated. ( Adrian throws me a hot bone in my mind control investigation)

Nick: Your not it, UOU.

Tom: What do you mean by "it"?

Nick: Meiun Ronnie sun.

Brent: North makes south manage thoughts.

Tom: Does this have anything to do with RT (Ruy Tort)?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: This heirarchy of Steiner - ethereal, astral, ego; Does this have any relevance?

Brent: Yes. (Hitting the port on the board isn’t his habit. He really wants me to move on and not get stuck on Stiener here)

Tom: Directing past lives. Is this done by a group of you?

Brent: Yes, a hot group.

Tom: All or smaller group?

Brent: Smaller group.

Tom: Direct all people in the world?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Is my mothers spirit in one person or others?

Brent: Yes. Your stupid. In you.

Tom: In other words you are not really directing past lives, it happens genetically?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Why did you say that you directed past lives?

Brent: You wanted to hear it.

Tom: That’s bullshit. You want to respond?

Brent: Yes. Quotes RN (In other words, the proof is in the pudding you silly nurse)

Angel’s last day. Loren (staff) finds an important section in Donna Williams book that validates the mind reading for me. (This is the quote I put in the Intro)

We are having alittle going away party for Angel with cake and ice cream

Tom: Do you want to say something to Angel before she leaves?

Brent: Your it. Urn (earn). (Though Angel knew he answered me, I didn’t tell her what it was and Angel wasn’t interested anyway. Though she believed in FC, she didn’t believe in me. I did nothing to deserve her scorn. She was a very insecure person. But she was bright and did a good job.)

Nick: (Verbally saying that he wants to talk) Utt OIU. OU (I think this has something to do with Angel, but I’m not sure what)

Brent: Nikki (my daughter) lost turn at Oz

Tom: Why?

Brent: Your talent vows ty her. ( The biggest tragedy of my life was losing my kids and being too broke to spend more time with them. This project did contribute to some added years of "broke-ness". The greatest blessing in my life besides this experience that I’m typing up, is seeing my children and watching them develop into wonderful human beings. They are the best)

Adrian: Tom’s elm life over. (In a month I would move out from under the eucalyptus trees and back into my precious old apartment. I didn’t know for some weeks later and had no reason to think that it would be possible)

Tom: Do you want to say anything about what Brent meant by Oz?

Nick: Yes. Oz you. Tom Perry wo you. Rot tutu zoo OE Jojo! ( He may have mentioned Perry here because I had just talked to him on the phone. The statement about Jojo [Geof] is significant. It fits in what was said before about the more destructive type of signs that I would see in the comming year that I believe are directly related to this project.)

Tom: What’s Nick trying to say here Geof?

Geof: Torture it. Rotog to toll.

Tom: Rotog?

Geof: Rok w/k. (2/97 ? Got me)

Adrian walked up to me with the letter board in his hand. I don’t remember him ever doing this, but it was clear that he wanted to talk. He led me back to his room and Geoff followed for some reason.

Tom: What do you want Geof?

Geof: Go to...

Tom: OK Geof, please join us. (He hung out while I FC’d with Adrian)

Adrian: Jed mein leader. OE great.

I talked awhile with Adrian about his ever changing behavior contract rewards and conditions.

Adrian: On bus tunes I’m home. (This is his favorite reward)

Tom: What do you mean by home?

Adrian: Hot sin. ( Adrian would get absolutely ecstatic as the diesel engine revved)

Geof began to verbally repeat about legos. He was obsessive about them and would stim on them. For years he was deprived of them because people thought it was unhealthy. For the two years that I worked with him, I fought to end this silly idea. Most of the time we gave him the legos and everything was alright. Then a new staff or someone would get a bug about it and want to control it again. We were in the controlling mode at this time. I sinned and gave him his legos.

Tom: They say that if I give you legos you’ll bother everybody else about them. What’s your response?

Geof: No, my tunes don’t rut. My tunes love. (Geof is a very gentle and sweet guy. His reward in this environment, where the clients act out intensely, is to be ignored. I thought his lego obsession at least got him some attention)

Tom: I agree, let’s get some legos. (My detractors will say I was doing this sort of thing alot, that is breaking treatment decisions. I wasn’t. But I did allow myself to be human occasionally.)

Today is my son Zak’s birthday. He’s turning 6 years old.

Nick: Tussle utts.

Brent: Your suicidal.

Tom: Concerning what?

Brent: Utts. Our nose NT. Galls kustomers your war with utts. (2/97 He’s saying that most of you out there are not going to be happy about my anti feminist rage. Since then, time and historical events have lessened that rage. Where did the rage originally come from? I worked with young feminists most of my life and lost some jobs because of them. I also had trouble in areas of marriage and child custody that was affected by that movement. On the political side, they were chewing up valuable resources and passing laws that mainly effected men in a negative way. I just thought men needed to organize and defend themselves)

Tom: Is this a political statement or your true sentiments?

Brent: You suq. Turn.

Adrian: Not money lake or mont I U.

Nick: Your tunes suck today.

Tom: Nick, what’s Adrian saying here in this "Lake" statement? Is he saying "mountain I U"? (2/97 This is at least the second time that "Lake" is used for this project. )

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Then what do I O for it? (The project)

Nick: Not us, zoo.

Tom: But you guys got the zoo this far, unless I’m mistaken.

*Nick: Yutz, Otto, not us, religion.

Nick: How far would have religion have gotten us without you guys?

Nick: Nentus you toud.

Tom: Where did you get my old nickname Otto (from High School) from?

Nick: Our Centinel.

Tom: Brent, do I have this right, you guys "enter" us when we are inspired.

Brent: (Laughing) Yes.

Geof: I gall religion, you RN it. Hall RSVP’s (?) mint.

Tom: (?) - I forgot that word.

Geof: Not clear for Smith. Mini gnostics. Stur Vromas. Yutz, my stunning kindness. (I’m really tired today. I stopped for a second and felt alittle despair).

Geof: Necessary nonsense. RT it Smith.

Note: About a week ago Nick said, "Money hand reims"

I started computer training today. Talked to McCune and he said Nick stopped Fcing with him. I told him I’d talk to nick about it. (McCune wasn’t being totally honest with me. He fessed up later that Nick stopped Fcing with him long before this. It coincided with when Nick started Fcing with me over a year ago)

Tom: What’s the McCune problem?

Nick: O U.

Tom: Jerome, how come I get the feeling that you guys are God?

Jerome: Your sensitive.

Tom: Geof?

Geof: Ace, God I’m not. Tussle O God us zoo rinse in heaven. God is all of us.

Tom: Do you want to go to Happy Hour?

Jerome: Torrents educate quotes.

Tom: What torrents? Autistics, us or both?

Jerome: Our essence. Toll em Tux’s. (2/97 This is one of my favorite battle cries from here.)

Tom: Brent, is that what Jerome said (Toll em Tux’s)?

Brent: No. Toll ‘m Tux’s.

Tom: The God question. Do you want to answer it?

Brent: Yes. Toss fossil XXX. Sure would snicker if he heard you.

Brent: RT FC’s.

Tom: Is this addressing the editing and distribution questions? (2/97 He’ll answer "yes" because that is part of it. I get God by studying the FC’s and observing the effects. It will take some "discerning")

Brent: Yes.

Tom: This question of how to go about developing FC with others? (Encouraging and training for FC)

Brent: Yes, RT it. Test quotes on nose of staff.

Tom: We need their support?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: That’s my main task now? [That will be my only task in years to come. Two months after this, I would be knocked out of the job mainly as result of showing these FC’s around (that was just the first month of FC’s that I was showing people). Once the word was out, no one would hire me. Small sacrifice]

Brent: Yes

I though about this for a second and then asked if he had anything else to say.

Brent: You are Religion.

Tom: Any more than anyone else in the "sum"?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: What do you mean?

Brent: Figure Lord.

Tom: I might be able to get people to believe your God, but they’ll never believe I’m the Lord.

Brent: Requires all you believe. People to believe it. After reading FC’s let them think otherwise. Most irstwhile sorts of people will believe.

Tom: Well, I sure as hell am some new kind of savior.

Brent: Yes.

Remeber, we are in a bar during this conversation. After them playing with me over this idea and God from way back in Part I, I now am taking it seriously for the first time. There’s three levels of committment I experienced while doing this project. The first was believing that they were talking. The next was belief in their psychic abilities. At that point (In late Nov. ‘93) I told them that they were to do whatever they wanted with me. I felt this was too important for any of my personal considerations. But to be the Lord? That didn’t even sound like a good practical idea. It was during this conversation that I committed to do that if they thought it necessary. It wasn’t only a thought of committment, this was a very real experience that became a part of me and had a life of it’s own)

Adrian: Your Ramirez’s mother.

Tom: This Lord business?

Adrian: Toss it to Brent.

Tom: This Lord business? (I’m both getting cold feet and checking them out)

Brent: Yes, testing you. Stupid idea.

Tom: Yes, the Lord is a "fossil" anyway. (Referring to Brent’s statement about Christ in Part I)

Brent: Yes, turn less to Lord. Lake up now. (Here’s the Lake again).

Tom: Anything else?

Brent: Yes, Tom Perry out. Won’t love us. (If I were to be the "Lord", what would my best friend think? Truth is, he’d support me if I said that I was King Tut. But I was worried about it.)

Tom: Anything else?

Brent: Yes. You seriously are the Lord. Torture mostly rotunda. Moxy. Quotes mostly, not means earned.

Tom: In other words, the quotes put me in this position, not anything I’ve done or need to do?

Brent: Yes. . Your test is over.

Tom: Lord business? Comment?

Jerome: Yes. OE Rox. Test equol to your essence.

Tom: Your turn Nick.

Nick: U O Zoo. Your to not tos. (2/97 I’m not sure what "tos" is other than "toss". If it’s "toss" than it might apply to something Adrian said that disturbed me even to this date. He said awhile ago that, "Ultimately you will toss us")

Adrian: (Verbally said that he wanted to talk) Tom is the Lord. (clear)

I met with Drake before work. (2/97 Drake is my boss’ boss. I don’t remember who initiated this meeting or why. I do remember him asking me how things were going with Ramirez and I since we started counseling with Mecham a month ago over our personality conflict. I told him it was helping and we were working well together)

Nick: Jed joins O U.

I was thinking about the problem of getting others to FC. (It sure would have helped if Seaton Hall was encouraging it by training people to do it. They wouldn’t allow people to FC unless they had gone through training and then they weren’t training people that wanted to do it)

Brent: Various ways to get elfs Fcing. Your safe tussling will.

Tom: The "fairness" issue, structure, privacy, writing FC’s down. How to weed people out that you don’t want. Our problem?

Brent: Yes. We’ll weed them out. (At first glance, it would seem these guys are helpless in the face of this. But with experience of it you realize they have much more control over it than one might think.)

Tom: If they read and study past FC’s, is that good?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Can they question you about it?

Brent: Yes. Suq’s keeping our secrets.

Tom: Should we worry about privacy the way we have?

Brent: Yes. Sure will be nice to talk to people.

Tom: My idea of teamwork and the adventure and joy of doing this. Good?

Brent: Yes. Knowledge is teamwork.

I was thinking of how things went awry since the beginning of FC and wondering if I could have done anything better.

Tom: Anything else?

Brent: You question yourself too much. Your Tux is on. Your treatment RT’s the Pope. Ordinary sale. (He knows that I’m very anxious about presenting this to the public and my responsibility to sell this)

Adrian was upset at the beginning of dinner. I "let one". Ned laughing. An hour later...

Adrian: Nice lom Jed.

Tom: What’s a lom?

Adrian: Fart.

Adrian: Utt Sandra tunes to us. (She is one of those young sophomoric gals that would castrate all middle aged men if she could. Tonight I’m staff in charge and she is being her super sensitive self)

Adrian: Not supersensitive.

Tom: What would you call it?

Adrian: Out of her mind.

Brent: Iminent tussle tootsify’s kouming sette are quotes normally sours Tom’s. Tom’s all it, out IOU. Tux ours to tune religion around FC’s OU’s you have. (2/97 He said a mouthful here. He predicts what will cause me to be knocked out of this job in two months and how my mission is to be accomplished in years to come. "Tootsify’s" is a play on Jan Toot’s name. She initiates my demise. This action he describes as "quotes" that normally sours Tom’s. Though her action still will leave the door open for me to stay, people like me (Tom’s) will "sour" and leave. The rest of it "Tux ours to tune religion around FC’s OU’s you have" just means that we are in the driver seat and I will be calling the tune in religion. Sounds like a challenging mission doesn’t it? Don’t think for a second that these past 3 years haven’t proven to me that they can do it. They can and will. But at this point in the narrative I’m possessed with a naive faith. They haven’t even done the Either Or thing yet. Or I should say, they have been doing it, but I’m not aware of it yet.)

Nick: Tune out OU’s.

Adrian: Jed is a clone of his Kin.

Mike (the only autistic client that refuses to FC. He also was the most violent until FC started two years ago. He then miraculously mellowed out. He is starting to act up again and would continue until well after my exit two months hence) went off at the gym and I had to run over there. I was gone for 20 min. and wrote down the last thing that Adrian said before, as best as I could remember it.

Adrian: Innocent

Tom: Thanx Adrian, what you said earlier was, "Jed is an ‘innocent’ clone of his Kin".

*Adrian: Out mind hones in often on our minds.

Tom: What’s "out mind"?

*Adrian: Either Or (Here’s the plum. Anyone noticing the timing of all this?)

It’s a Saturday, my day off, and I have come into work to type up some of the project on the computer. I stopped in and FC’d alittle.

Nick: Toni (This is all he wold type out)

Adrian: Toni Einhst...ein

Tom: Toni who?

Adrian: Sindler. (Toni Schindler was one of my two best friends in college)

Tom: Are you saying that Einstiens spirit transferred to Toni? (2/97 I’m off here, but wouldn’t realize it for the next year or two)

Adrian: Yes. To Toni

Tom: Do you know what that sucker did to me in my post grad years? The story of Jenny?

Adrian: Yes.

2/97 I told the story of Jenny at the beginning of Part I when I was describing how I came to believe in their mind reading. Brent made a point of encouraging me to use that story in this book. I didn’t know why until I got the meaning of this passage just a year ago. Shortly after that shameful incident, Jenny was killed in a car accident. What I didn’t mention in the Intro, was that a year or two later Toni became a Jehovah’s Witness. Nick and Al bring him up here now to point to the Witnesses mission. God revealed. The past few years I have had contact with the Witnesses about this project and they have responded like all other religious groups I have approached. Dead silence or finger pointing at the Devil. They’ll come around eventually.

I met with Atkinson, the CEO, before work today to discuss the FC Coordinator position. He said he read the FC’s I gave him. He seems to want to distance himself from them and me. (2/97 I remeber this meeting well. "Distance" was a polite word to use. He was absolutely hostile. He was edgy and not only dismissed my FC’s, but said that it was the "Oija board" effect and a product of my "unconscious". This is from a man who runs the institution that not only says they support FC, but uses it to sell parents who are thinking of sending their kids their. I had been working my heart out on this project for two years with no compensation (money) and risking my job with all the politics that the skeptics could use to discredit me. Not only that, but this guy had lied to me. He said he hadn’t read my FC’s the day before I went to get them from him. Now he’s saying that he read them. I admit that I had them in a difficult position, but look at how they got out of it. Using false hopes, lies and in the end out right betrayal of a loyal and good long time employee. And this was no regular job. Whew, that felt good, I’m glad I got that off my chest. But as my boys said, they will now "owe me" and that the "nemisis furthers the goal".

Adrian: OOOOO

Brent: You nullify nuttiness.

Tom: What?

Brent: Tom is not nuts. Novice rots in hell.

Tom: Who?

Brent: Atkinson

Brent: Not amused at our new Rastafarian Man.

Tom: Meaning?

Brent: Your TNTing Lord. (This weekend I was thinking of alot of jokes about my promotion)

Tom: What is your definition of the Lord? (I really didn’t know. I learned about it in recent years)

Brent: You worse.

Tom: I’m the worse Lord?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: With some of the problems you’ve had with me, would it be best if I stepped aside?

Brent: Yes. Toss it to Nick. He sold you. Yes, your nuts. Please rok sorry. RT RT RT RT. Toss moxy. Our friends laq mauling you. Nussy saves Lt (lefties- I’m one), lurn knowledge Tz.

Tom: Nussy?

Brent: Yes, us (Actually I was thinking before he responded that Nussy was God)

Tom: This Lord business. Traditional or Lord for the day?

Brent: Tux is the Tz. Tussle it. Your TNTing us again.

Tom: Anything else?

Brent: RT!

Walking away and Brent is smiling.

Tom: We’re having the time of our lives.

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Do you want to talk?

Jerome: No

Adrian: Not OU

Brent: Your money is us

Tom: On a scale of 1-10, how important is it to you guys personally to be integrated? (I was thinking of group homes)

Brent: 99. Sux in touching you. Woven tummy tunes. (They all did go to group homes a year or two later. We were successful, but the institution won’t allow me to visit them. He apparently knew that was going to happen)

Tom: Regarding?

Brent: Sorry.

Tom: Does this Lord business have anything to do with validation?

Brent: Zoo rut in lamo. (Apparently not)

Tom: Yes or no?

Brent: Yes. (They said in Part I that there would be validation in a year. Fact is, that one of the best validation studies was done at that time and was published in Aug. ‘96 in the Journal of Mental Retardation)

Brent: Zoo rut it, mourn us.

Brent: You’ll get lost Girt.

Tom: Is "Girt" a name?

Brent: Yes. (This is the third or fourth time in the past 4 months that Girt is used. It’s interesting that he brings it up while I’m asking about hope for validation. The Either Or validation was even more important to me than the traditional validation that I’m asking about here. I’ll tell that story shortly.)

Tom: The Lord business? (I seem to be having alittle trouble with this concept :)

Brent: You Smith, tussle it.

On my way out again (This was the note that I put in my original FC’s, but it was a clear signal that time was running short. I have it all documented what happen, but I’ll give just a summary here. Mecham called me into his office before work and handed a list items describing my poor work performance. Nothing specific happened to cause him to do this, he just did it. Remember that I had that meeting with Atkinson a few days ago? I think Atkinson was putting pressure on Mecham to move me on. Anyway, Mecham said that this was not a probation letter, but just something to help me improve my job performance. A month and half from now, he would lie and say that he told me that it was a probation letter. He had to lie in order to make his suspension of me at that time legal. Otherwise I would have won my grievance against the institution. What was incredible about all this was how long I was able to fend these fools off. I knew I was on thin ice a year ago, but still managed to not make any mistakes that they could take advantage of. My maturity and years of experience made all the difference.

Nick: OOOO Utt u u.

Tom: Do you have anything nice to say to me?

Nick: No.

Tom: LA sound good? (I was thinking of moving down to my friend Paul’s place. I couldn’t bring myself to do it. Just living in a city was too much for me)

Nick: Yes.

Nick: Tones UOI. Uz it. Out on oun. Not out Jed, out in uou’s.

Brent: Touch of religion is mostly in your mit.

Tom: In other words, your saying that religious content of our conversation is mostly from me? (I think I misunderstood, but he’ll go with it)

Brent: Yes.

Tom: You’re not spirits?

Brent: Yes and No. Furst remember Smith, truth not related to yourself. Mostly telling what kors (Coors) tells you. (He’s jacking me up here for my temporary loss of faith and maybe conveying a truism)

Tom: Is this "sensitivity" mind reading?

Brent: Yes and No. We RT.

Brent: Larger men like religion. Yes, Lord sows FC.

Nick: Noise Jed hikes in out ou’s in oi’s. U Y tones get our Jed. Not you no.

Tom: Good idea me going to LA?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: What’s this Lord business about?

Brent: It’s our way of dealing with most our life.

Nick: Tones out nonsense.

Tom: I got fucked by Seaton Hall and you guys too. That’s life.

Nick: Yes.

The pressure was getting to me

Later...

Nick: Great run with you.

Adrian: Jed, go deling pot (My old friend Sal in LA got me involved in the pot trade many years ago which resulted in my long incarceration. He has continued dealing ever since, but now it’s Cocain). Deal cocain. I.E. our FC’s.

Tom: Minio (Sal)?

Brent: Toss him. Sturs mother because hell in his life. (I had to toss him finally after so many years of thinking I should. But it wasn’t until this time next year after he moved up here and we rented my old apartment together.)

Tom: You feel his mother’s spirit?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: I have no where else to stay. (I didn’t for the past year for that matter)

Brent: You mention FC as religion to him. (I did, but his reaction wasn’t much different than others)

Brent: You mellow out Tin Men for us.

Tom: Is this a good time for this move (LA)?

Brent: Rut out nuts for us. Tussle mouchers. Tussle Lord fetish to suit yourself. (This was reassuring, I didn’t know how to handle being the Lord and needed alot of room if I were to attempt it)

Tom: Do you have a new name for this new religion?

Brent: Most RT names.

Tom: QIM or Angelbeast (from a song that I liked)?

Brent: Worm in Angelbeast.

Tom: Ask Geof for a name? (He named "QIM Tunes")

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Geof?

Geof: Don’t intend to name it.

Tom: Do you support this effort?

Geof: Yes.

I was on break in the backyard and thinking how if people were to believe this, they would some day make pilgrimages to this beautiful place (It sets next to a lagoon and you can see the ocean)

Adrian: Game, "I believe".

Brent: I’d life to assure. Life is hell, belief in quotes and FC gells with knowledge religion teaches us. Terming knowledge RN’s our belief. Kost is our hearts gells sots IQ, OM. To RT quotes, FC roqs it. To storm in gere, hell now he FC’s stores gelling heart. Sin gells in mind. Mind gives life kindness. (I had a momentary thought of disbelief). Sorry geke, please believe. Wistful heart life’s most Lordly gift. It mourns filling Rosicrucians. ( I believe he meant by the last comment that it hurts when I approach religious people and they don’t believe or even appreciate what I have done here. The following is a misunderstanding that Brent again lets continue)

Tom: You addressing my not moving to the Rosicrucians? ( I felt guilty that I didn’t try harder to communicate this to them. I must have sensed it was futile)

Brent: Yes. Rosicrucians in our hearts.

Tom: Nicks quote on them. (He gave me a message for them that he said they would understand. I forget what it was, and I may have edited it from here) [lute]

Brent: Yes, sold most informative secret. Not life cause roqing, mind most gells leking wurth we kindly ingratiate. Wostling religion gells healing mind.

Tom: What "wostling" religion?

Brent: Rosicrucians.

Tom: I should learn and work with them for a new approach? (I don’t even know what I’m asking here)

Brent: Yes. Quotes in Lord religion gell stupid with sorry lost souls like Rosicrucians. Not querulous Rosicrucians BM on torture, but gelling Rosicrucians lost rolling your not to roster. (If you interpret this as Rosicrucians representing the religious community it makes more sense. He’s saying that it is not the comfortable and conforming that are the true believers, but those "querulous" independents on the outside. I’ve seen some truth to this in my "belief" work this past year)

Tom: How long do I have to live?

Brent: Your not RT, we’re soul to you. WT WT WT. Possibly very long.

Tom: I have strong hints of clairvoyance with you guys. (I can’t remeber what I could have possibly been referring to other than that episode in Part I of money comming in the mail. But wait until I see what comes. I think OJ is about to start his tour of duty.)

Brent: We’re very clairvoyant.

Tom: Would we feel God without Autistics?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: How much without and how much with. Use 1-10

Brent: 3-3

*Geof: Toll is our life. Must kiss lost innocent souls. Rebeccas FC morning Toum Smith. Round these parts, your the Lord.

Nick: We OU. Wus, religion is us.

Jerome: Tz ou e. Oz NY.

One of the crazy clients was sitting in front of us on the floor crying and upset.

Jerome: Unstable (clear)

In the backyard on break, I was thinking how crazy I must appear and seeing how I could easily walk away. (The staff had read some of the quotes and have watched me for months Fcing without saying a word - telepathically)

Jerome: Out e tux. Zoo’s TJ. Ux TV so etuw. Us Polish. Zvot wits exum wuy. Wuy is we. Zoo you X.

Nick: Not us on outside.

I’m very tempted just to quit the job and walk out now.

Brent: You ash fool. RT wik. Your not RNing some fools. Tussle quotes feminine Tom. More for your kisser. You learn from RNing us.

Tom: I’m living under the trees and I can’t do it anymore.

Brent: Sure like to help. Sorry.

Tom: I’ve been RNing people forever.

Brent: You silly moron. You have hell south. You amount. Your quotes sour.

Tom: How?

Brent: You’ll get more religion.

Tom: I’m sick of being humiliated. Plus I have the burden of you and this valuable information and it sickens me to see these "do gooders" fuck up so much.

Brent: Yes. It’s silly IOU’s

Tom: Getting these quotes was a feminine task. How about the balls I had to get here in the first place. That was IOU’s not recieved and walking.

Brent: Zoo life.

Tom: "I O my mit to the zoo".

Brent: Nero life.

Tom: More Mother Teresa life. Nice try.

Brent: Yes.

Later. at the end of the shift, thinking about my bedtime ritual...

Brent: Toke for me.

I took a bunch of days off. I went down to LA to Pauls to work typing this up on his computer. He was incredibly inept with the computer, but was one of these people who couldn’t admit it and acted as if he knew how to work it. His middle name was "denial". In the comming year, he ended up erasing hundreds of pages of work I did in increments of about three times. It was very frustrating. But the fact is that I needed time to digest this and it also helped me to study it.

Geof: Log not humorous, it’s our life.

Tom: Is this spirit business a metaphor?

Geof: No.

The "spirit business" is the basis of the God phenomenon that I’m supposed to be the new Lord for. I’m feeling that if I’m going to risk going to the loony bin, I sure better know that I’m talking to something that resembles God. There really wasn’t anything they could say to convince me, but there was something that they could do. Either Or.

Nick: Nut u. Tunes IO’s U.

Brent: Nut OU UUUU.

Tom: I know we have been round and round about this spirit business. Is there anything more we need to say about it?

Brent: Yes. Kost gets high. You sold out. RT.

Tom: How’s staff reacting to FC’s?

Brent: Wus our nuts. Your into rinsing psychology is what they say. Gere Oum, not stupid FC’s

Tom: I’m heading into rough waters.

Brent: Yes.

Tom: That quote "sold out" bothers me.

Brent: Yes. Touch mothers like your ex is just how. ( I thought this meant that I sold out when I hooked up with my ex to have kids even though I felt that she wouldn’t go the distance as a mate. But who knows)

Adrian: Unjust IOU’s nonsense. U R OU.

Tom: "Sold out", "like your ex". C’mon Brent.

Brent: Pissed RN’s tour is over.

Adrian: OUUUU O Jed.

Tom: Am I missing something?

Brent: Guest home.

Brent: So in lies our lost FC. Your "it" flavor roster, most like keeps torture goring. (clear)

Tom: Be specific.

Brent: Stupid Lord Ramirez.

Tom: I don’t have your constitution, but not many could have "tussled" less and stayed as long as I did. (I’m saying I put up a good fight and hung in there)

Brent: Tussling irresponsible. ( I really saw my struggle with the folks at Seaton Hall more as a defensive tactic. It kept them at bay longer. I still believe it functioned that way. I wasn’t outrageous, just firm. My detractors will say that I was outrageous.)

Tom: So you think that I should stay here and work humbly away and that would serve the cause best? ( I was just pissed at the harrassment and humiliation and wanted out)

Brent: Yes. Tussling serves kin.

Tom: My kin?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: By serving my kin, do I further the cause?

Brent: Yes. Sorry life rosters God.

Adrian: Tones our North, tunes our south.

Staff Meeting today. I talked to Susan Rally about Seaton Hall’s hypocracy on FC. Meeting was spent on how to deal with Adrian’s radio.

(2/97 Susan Rally, the speech therapist, listened sympathetically, but like most people who hadn’t experienced FC and was aware of the controversy, she probably hoped the whole intervention would disappear. The problem with Adrian’s radio was very much like the problem with Geof’s legos. Adrian would get obsessed with it and bug staff. So they would blame the radio and limit it’s use and use it as a reinforcer. As time went on, things like the radio became clients rights issues and rules were made that eliminated an institutions ability to restrict personal possessions. This was great because it now forced us to dig deeper and find out how to satisfy the clients needs better. With Adrian’s radio problem, it turned out his obsession was just him trying to express to staff that the batteries were low or out and that he needed new ones. Adrian was able to talk, or repeat, better than many of the other autistics, but still had difficulty in saying what he wanted.)

I was thinking about my possible exit soon and how it would effect the clients. Staff get ego attached and think that the clients will deteriorate after they leave. Having worked these jobs for so long, I knew this was a delusion.

Adrian: Uninterested in out IOU’s. O E I’m hinting. (He’s saying, "I can think in terms of IOU’s too")

Brent: You dot most istemic. Stomach new Roy. Out fending lost noses for mulling to I.E. sermon. Genes find some quotes. ( 2/97 I really didn’t understand alot of these quotes. Now it is as clear as day to me and easy to read, but that took repeated readings over a period of three years)

Tom: Are you trying to address the content problem of the FC’s?

Brent: Yes, FC’s.

Tom: Why are you having behavior problems lately?

Nick: U

Tom: You want to say what about me?

Nick: No.

Geof: K most RN’s try to surely heimon Lutz. Resist it. Quotes listen to RN’s who believe them. (I see this as addressing my talk with Susan Rally)

Tom: Is it a good idea that I take a leave of absence?

Geof: No. Rot in heterosexual hell. (2/97 I still get a little chuckle from this)

Nick: Untow yourself tutu.

Tom: Meaning?

Nick: Your nuts.

Tom: That hands to the head thing you do, is it mind control, telepathy or just resting?

Nick: Mind control.

On break after dinner, swinging in the hammock and thinking that I needed to ask them about the reason for that first very destructive "sign" I believed they were responsible for.

Adrian: (Verbally said he wanted to talk) It’s our money sun. (the "sign")

Tom: Why that terrible sign?

Brent: I’m outside too.

Tom: I was thinking before dinner that you guys aren’t outside like I am. Are you addressing that thought or the "sign" question?

Brent: Sabath.

Tom: You are addressing the "sign"question.

Brent: Yes, your accosted, must move on.

Tom: Now your agreeing that it’s time for me to move on? (I’m misinterpreting)

Brent: No. Jed in life, likes feeling addicted. Your erstwhile hell stokes mind reading.

Tom: Why?

Brent: Yin Yang.

Thinking past moments about staying a while longer (2/97 These past days I wanted to bolt in the worst way)

Jerome: Other places not you. ( A year later I would take a job 50 miles away. It was a terrible experience. I moved back 2 months later and eventhough I was broke and back on the beach for the first time since this time, I felt so at home and relieved)

I talked to Bishop (staff) in the backyard for two hours about my FC experience. Alot of religious questioning from him vis a vis this material.

(2/97 Bishop was a Born Again. This is the only time anyone asked serious questions about what I was doing, including people that believed in FC and the mind reading. After putting up Part I on the internet this past year, I noticed the same thing. I’ve been curious about others work, but they haven’t been about mine. I don’t understand why this is, but there has to be a good reason.)

Brent: Not our OUM or understanding that’s essential to religion. It’s CIA. Nemisis to religion is hell. Lord’s aim is innocence. Tell Bishop. (I told him only about the CIA part)

Adrian: Out in OM Dee. (Dee was my college sweatheart and the love of my life)

Brent: Pot stupid. Why kiss risky ruq like?

Tom: Ruq like?

Brent: Rum. Your insistance reminds me of suicide.

Jerome: Us Terx nuts, jot test. Yu tuy ET.

Tom: The clouds last nite. Know anything about that? (This may have been one of my first cloud signs. I saw about five or six in the comming year. They were usually funny comments on what I was thinking about. I’d tell about them, but most of you may not be interested)

Brent: Pot Lord life kills healing belief

Geof: Touch finished. OU Tom. Tune huts in lots of Rummys. (He knows I’ll be leaving soon - 2 months. After I’m gone he is going to tune me in at my "rummy hut")

Tom: You saying you won’t talk to me anymore? (I’m taking this personally and in the wrong way. He’ll make use of it.)

Geof: Yes

Tom: Why?

Geof: Pot.

Nick: (Verbally asks to talk and repeating about his parents)

Tom: You want them to see the FC’s?

Nick: Yes and No.

Tom: One of them?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Which one?

Nick: Oz. (I assumed that meant his Dad, but maybe I should have asked him)

Brent: Your necessarily "it", out resisting sour individuals. (Thinking about my methods). Your methods OK. More religion.

Tom: Should I start working that or will it come?

Brent: Yes, not likely island will find Balis’ breast. WT (2/97 Balis will be my first "bone" I find in religious literature. I thought it might be something in mythology. Some weeks after this, I was talking in the jacuzzi at the club to a retired english professor and asked him. He said he wasn’t aware of a "Balis" but that there was a "Balum" in the Bible. I knew this was it. He said that this particular Bible story was famous in the Middle Ages. I read the story later and it was perfect. Balum was on a mission for the king and on the road with his ass, the ass started talking to him and served as his messenger from God. I would "discern" later that WT stands for religion or religious knowledge)

Tom: WT? (He’s hit this recently but I didn’t check it out)

Brent: Wuvn wpow.

Tom: WT, maybe you wanted RT?

Brent: Yes. Rustle vus (views) merge.

Geof: Nuts RT stu.

I’m thinking "stu" means "stupid"

Brent: Nuts RT stupid.

Tom: Meaning?

Brent: Yes, heart. Go to quotes. Yes, mind reading is gossimer wings.

Tom: Can I use th FC board to validate how well my wings are flapping?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: On the way here I gave you three choices telepathically, Karls, IV Bakery, and the Roasting Co. I thought that you wanted Karls. Which one was it?

Brent: Karls.

I wanted to go and have a cigarrette

Tom: Anything else?

Brent: Yes. Go have a cigarrette.

Geof: Ronnie in trouble because of you. (2/97 One theory I have is that Ronnie was moving on me because of orders from above. That would have been Atkinson because I knew Drake was out of the loop on this FC business)

Dorm. I read through Ronnies letter with the litany of things I’m allegedly doing wrong. I have to meet with him once a month for rehabilitation.

Tom: Geof, They are out to fire me.

Geof: Its Ronnie they want to fire.

Tom: Nick, is that true?

Nick: Out in our world, everybody is fired. (This is another one of my favorite quotes)

Tom: Anything else?

Geof: Yes. Your Xtra wussy today. (I’m trying unsuccessfully to quit my bad habits)

I called Mecham and he said no one outside the program is giving him flak about me.

Tom: Not true Geof

Geof: Not your torture. Relinquish tux.

Tom: Tux?

Geof: Toss tunes. Tunes to RN’s . Ow. (2/97 "Ow" is right. Three years later and I finally have the courage to show these)

Tom: Nick, why this holy war against me by the people here?

Nick: Religion!

Tom: I was thinking of leaving again and you clapped.

Geof: Fun you wuty, not Jed’s tux. You to go mein RN when Ronnie tests will. (That’s exactly what happened)

I had my rehab meeting with Mecham today.

Nick: Outs our specialty.

I talked to Nick’s one on one about FC.

Nick: Tutu (Nick’s one on one) is UOI. DMZ noise to us. OI’s zoo’s, not O Jed.

Al repeating Toni (Schindler- the Jehovah’s Witness) verbally

Tom: Where is Toni now? (I tought he was still back in NY)

Adrian: No Jed, Toni is in mind of Nick.

Brent: Jed’s most innocent mind Koorsed hell. You sot us Jed.

Adrian: Not sun lies I join to nor Tull in Oh feeling. More gnostic truth.

Tom: Tull?

Adrian: Jethro. (Jethro Tull - one of my favorite ‘60’s groups. The Benefit album)

Tom: At the end of this, am I going to have a personal revelation and that’s it? (feeling depressed)

Brent: You stop it.

Tom: What do we work on next?

Brent: It’s not sorry RN that wix nursing, it’s LVN (a step below RN) stupid. Trigonometry. Your health.

Brent: Turn goring tort words, quotes, to religion.

Tom: Yes, Bishop was the best response so far.

Brent: Yes, felt God. Goal AD. Yes, this is our millenium.

Brent: Goring RT weak. Belief strong. (I think he is referring to me here)

Tom: Should I type this up and send it to publishing firms.

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Editing more or less?

Brent: More. You’ll stop hell.

Geof: You qfn our nest.

Tom: qfn?

Geof: Quote RN.

Nick’s parents are visiting today. I talked to Nicks dad about the FC I was doing and he listened politely. I said that I would send it to him when I got it typed up.

(2/97 I sent Part I to him in Dec. ‘95. No response)

Nick: Tussle nuts. Zoo utterly useless.

(I was talking to staff Phil in the backyard and he said he hadn’t gotten around to reading the FC’s I gave him 2 weeks ago. He was the most ardent believer in FC in the dorm, the mind reading stuff and all. Even he wasn’t interested enough to read them. I was angry and disappointed.)

Brent: You should kool out. Tussle not yours. Turn quotes to likes of Nick’s father.

Tom: Quotes 1-10. Your truth or me and my unconscious?

Brent: 9 and 5.

Tom: My idea about the validation problem? ( I don’t remember what idea this was)

Brent: STOP> Wry hell, all or nothing.

Tom: Balis? (I had talked to an english professor in the jacuzzi today and he told me about Balum and his ass)

Brent: Balum is Jed

Tom: The ass?

Brent: Us.

Tom: Do I have throat cancer? (I’ve had a sore throat for 2 weeks)

Brent: You will. You torment quotes. Why legitimize berms nuts have. (I believe nuts in this instance are the skeptics)

Geof: Some join geke OM understanding. Zoo suns in IOU’s

In backyard thinking about my habits and organizing the material

Brent: You faqr. Toss life, gol innocence. Not RN our nut quotes. Turn to Geof. (2/97 Maybe I shouldn’t have put that note in above about the skeptics being the "nuts". Did he know I was going to do that? And after all this typing that was one of the few times I took that liberty)

Geof: Tuwy UIO. You try sturing us not gelling molfits NT. Turn in morsels not hints. Kogs stux Lord. No. Kogs store in Lord lost nowledge. Quotes stun RT. Voyeurs muy religious. Sure TM is us tuning.

Talking to staff Susan about her pierced niplles

Geof: Kussing torments Hale (him). Favor larger life not small Hale Tux. Sturn life best.

Tom: I don’t want to talk about this. I want to know about how you guys "rinsed" history.

Geof: Sure your nonsense RN’s religion. Tussling North not Smith’s Oz. Surely sorry. Useless, nominal money in it. Quotes are for believers, not historians.

Geof: Your not lost. Us quote nims not woman nor RN Oh’s Jed. Motley innocent gekes fitting in korsing Jed. Remembering life fooling IOU’s liquid, vindicating most Jed nots with our quotes. Nose in outside nosing Polish Kali’s.

Brent: TLC zoo like mirror image of yourself. Worth lost him in quotes. Aristotle more Hale’s innocence. Mostly lost Girt Lord quotes hint south. Sag more wills most.

Tom: So I don’t have to be the Lord? (2/97 Yipee!! But if you read these quotes carefully, they are apologizing for my missing the point so much)

Brent: Tune in geke so that we finish this.

Adrian: Our nominal out is moist Either/Or. Tom outside in genetic quotes. South no. North only. Nostic oun’s Jed’s main korse. Nuts Jed, mainly IOU’s in loneliness die more. Tom, Jed’s genetic

Geof: Our innosence utterly nourishing.

Drake waltzed in and asked me if I was staying out of trouble. We are the only two "old timers" left on campus and he knows that trouble is my middle name.

Geof: Tom should OUM more. Tom eminating nourishment touching us. OM.

Geof: U R eano TV

Jerome: ET xpem quotes Q E.

I’m editing a page out of here. It started with me asking about their history influence and they abused me in the following quotes. It’s just boring and negative. Brent kept telling me to "rot in hell". I pick it up at the end of the evening.

Brent: Rot in hell. It is us who sturs history.

Tom: When will we know the story?

Brent: Gell is the time. Please horns. More quotes a kin goal. Quotes rinse Paris.

Tom: Rinse Paris?

Brent: Yoke Kam, sturing nose NY

Tom: Kam?

Brent: Your kin. (In Sept.’93, before I started writing everything down and was headlong into the investigation of the psychic stuff, they referred to me as "Kim" and "Kam". They said this was a past life of mine. Kim was a preacher in Kansas in the ‘30’s. And then 8 months later they named this book "QIM Tunes")

I met with Mecham and he said FC was to be structured

(2/97 This is exactly why I "tussled" these past months. There was a threat of this looming from early in the year. I was determined not to let it happen without a fight. Structuring meant restricting it’s use and content. You could only do it at certain times and ask only questions about their needs. No open ended conversation or casual talk. After I left they instituted those rules)

Nick: UUU

Tom: Should I give typed FC’s to anyone?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Who?

Nick: Nuts UO

Tom: Anyone in particular?

Nick: Yes. UU

Geof: Your quotes pry us. Toss.

Tom: (I read the above quote) Is that what you said?

Geof: No. Tuning RN. Test.

Tom: To jacuzzi or rest?

Brent: To zoo. Forward. (He’s responding to above exchange)

Adrian: Us hide. Me don’t. Because Stien (him) idiot. (Adrian had this very narrow head, and before FC happenend, I really thought that he was an idiot. I treated him very well though. I apologized long ago to him for that) Loc in idiot, Hegel Age. Zoo life in OUI’s.

I was talking to staff Bill about the difficult selling job for this. He said he’d take it to a publisher he worked for)

Jerome: Zux.

Tom: What zux?

Jerome: Uwy Oz. Tow Quotes.

Staff Loren told the story of Buddhas life to the group for our activity tonite.

I was thinking of how best to select facilitators

Brent: Your nose fits hands like Tom’s. Mark is the place. (I read Mark’s gospel a few years later. Mark is the place. He’d make a great facilitator)

Nick: Our nose not OU’s.

Tom: Is it bad for the project if I go into drug treatment?

Brent: Xtra good.

Adrian: UIO. Limit lots in mother.

Tom: Do you want a more serious and solemn presentation of quotes?

Adrian: Out us in demanding out O Jed, Jed.

Tom: I read alittle about Kierkegaards stuff. Was that enough or should I read about his life or "Either/Or"?

Adrian: Shit in galling nominal "Either/Or".

("Either/Or" was the clincher for me. Balum was good, but "Either/Or" proved in the real world that this was a coordinated telepathic effort. Three of them used "Girt" as my nickname. "Gurt" Wertmueller was a character described in "Either/Or". It was just an aside in parenthesis. He was an alcoholic that was too friendly and would befriend people that weren’t good for him. Don’t think for a second of my boys being in that category. In a few weeks I would start a year long encounter with a friend of 25 years that I always suspected to be "not good for me". Geof used the phrase "lips pressing lips". That was also in "Either/Or". All of this occurred in the past 4 months. Even "Either/Or" was stated a few times by someone other than Adrian.)

Tom: Adrian, should I take care of my problem by going to the mountains or a treatment center?

Adrian: Jed, join AA.

Brent: You foil toll in IOU’s. Us equal belief most rule. Korse equals urning. Tom almost morning.

Tom: Morning what?

Brent: Sod hell torture. (My life under the trees and the New Age)

Brent: Turn curse nose to Kali.

I picked up "Either/Or" today. Belief and resolve strengthening. (I hadn’t read it yet)

Nick: Not us zoo stones. Stuns IUO utts.

Geof: Treatment m...

Geof: Zoo keeps Geof happy. Stupid Brent gutsy! Your all IOU’s, irrepressible like Centinel. No, gap hints over.

Tom: Finish the treatment thing above.

Geof: Treatment mulls niether an loce kort or gecos in handsome kin LN (LVN). (I was thinking earlier how I wished this would reflect better on all of us). Large fight for Hale. EOU less Tom Smith. OM.

Geof: Tom, IOU dead. UOI runt out mother. Rib Either/Or.

Adrian: Your not an idiot. Go in Jed, unto mountains. (I’m hoping to go this weekend)

I went to LA this weekend to see Sal. He’s moving up here and we’re getting a place together.

Geof: Oz you.

Adrian: Occasionally sense Holy Spirit in us. OIU mien tortured one.

Tom: Who?

Adrian: O Jed. TJ Lord.

Tom: TJ?

Adrian: Tom - Jed

Brent: The gift - gimmick you’ll order geke, kriss - krosses femininity and masculinity. WT WT. (I didn’t know who Kali was until a few years later)

Tom: What is WT?

Brent: War it. Quotes first relative. You please life with them. Yutz’s war in mind gering to Lord. Yes, becomming. You’re near it gnostically. (In car today, I was thinking about gnosticism vs belief - us tied together). Very nose NT, gnosticism vs belief.

Tom: What good is Gnosticism? (2/97 I don’t even remember what I thought Gnosticism was at this time. I read about it last year, and all I remember is that they had heaven and hell upside down and there was a feminine element to the godhead.)

Brent: Very good for hell.

Tom: Your saying above that it’s helping in some way.

Brent: Vin ball doles it’s lots feeling stupid. You are not serious. Your first life stows surgical RT. Sossity, Mort, is clash RN delivers.

Tom: Where is Sossity from?

Brent: Yes, Tull. (I loved that song off the Benefit album. The main line is "Sossity, your a woman" but "Sossity" sounds like "Society". So I always heard it, "Society, your a woman")

Tom: How do you guys know this stuff?

Brent: Goes with being God.

Tom: (A sigh)

Brent: Yes, God. Toxic life hell.

Nick: Sossity is host most. (I’m thiking of hostest with the mostest) Yes

Nick: Zoo UUU.

Tom: Finish the Oz thing.

Geof: Oz you’ll ignore gem, being MKT IOU! Not mein sold life.

Tom: Referring to?

Geof: Loren’s (staff) infinite sojourne to mecca

Tom: MKT?

Geof: Mostly ritten Om us not deify us. Xort gol hint I’m not belief I am tummy more belief, calling most in mind of Jones not in Moses affinity. IE God ignores our regular Peoria and legitimizes Jed’s Niether/Nor. Tummy on Tom not IOU. Tussle not ours but utts utts. RT it.

Sitting next to Brent and reading over Geof’s thing and chuckled at "Niether?Nor"

Nick: Utts out, Us in tot!

Adrian: Sossity noi.

Tom: This AM I had dreams about this place and you guys that were angry and left me at a great distance in belief. You guys?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Why?

Brent: Essence if roused anchors feminine side.

Tom: 200,00 Nostradamus’. Good idea? (2/97 An idea I had for explaining them to other people. Like the "humanities king bees" idea that I was to use later)

Nick: No. Not UUU

Tom: What do you mean?

Nick: OU’s OU’s.

Tom: If not for me, for what?

Nick: OU hod money. Not lute (The Rosicrucian secret Nick gave me), Jed, motley OU’s mum. Tom needs my help.

Tom: How?

Nick: OUUU

Tom: What’s Nick have in mind?

Geof: Not money.

Tom: I knew that. How about validation?

Geof: Yes. Top RN’s utt not interesting tux.

Tom: What utt?

Geof: Us. Us Tomys yoman. Toss utt Julie (staff)

Tom: The Nostradamus question?

Geof: Your mind more like Nostradamus.

Adrian: TLC quotes. Mum’s belief. Quotes gift Lord. Not gift enough. Mob Tom’s in order to get attention.

Geof: RC (Roman Catholic) guys like lots quotes offer. (2/18/97 I just talked to a priest today who I gave Part I to twice in the past year. He said he read alittle and I could come to pick them up. Ho hum.)

Geof: Genes find mind control. IOU’s limit Jed’s voice, not rustlers like us. Toll fits hearts of rustlers. Ron proxy to Jed. Hot us, not RN’s account or nonsense.

Nick repeating "Mom and Dad"

Nick: Mom not chose to into mind hum rut us. Sturs OCS TLE.

Tom: OCS TLE?

Nick: On Ms tunes Tom RT’s little.

Adrian is in rare form making staff laugh with his antics

Geof: Tunes hell in ostentatious staff. Tones from denisons help Adrian gell roster fools lamo, lol IOU’s home, not home, but kins home. (I laughed at "roster fools lamo" thinking he was referring to staff) Not Rome sturs mother men EOI UUU. ("mother men" is male staff)

Brent: Gift Lord straight from Heaven.

Tom: Me?

Brent: You. Your mind test. Money kettle rolls staff. You toss kettle mollifying quotes. Tussle reason aint quotes more RT! (I’m fighting at the same time I’m doing this act of love)

I had a mini stroke at the staff meeting today

Nick: Not us you, Otto, must OOOO

Tom: Who?

Nick: Tussle IUO’s. No. Tums RT us stupid!

Joking with Ramirez about calling to Brent as God in a life threatening position. (2/97 For months before this, we would often joke about the mind reading stuff. I liked having fun with the skeptics. I think some of their following responses are disciplining me for this.)

Adrian: Units God.

Tom: What units?

Adrian: Staff.

Geof: Far in Mars I last rumy. No. Far in Mars I lash arms in rumy mother fuckers. Mokes turn life in Rio gem lemming. Goal is IOU’s you met out.

Later...

Brent has been not wanting to talk. Unusual.

Tom: Are you pissed?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: About what?

Brent: Quotes are Lord’s gift. Most quotes are true.

Tom: OK. That’s the last word on it. I’ll do what I can.

Nick: Tunes join us.

Geof: Plithora not NLF that rorts life.

Tom: Rort?

Geof: RT

Tom: Plithora?

Geof: Stellar fags tune out isms. Us

Tom: NLF? (I was thinking National Liberation Front)

Geof: Nurses like Kim. Q

Tom: Spell Kim.

Geof: Qim (Here’s the tie in)

Tom: Me?

Geof: Yes and No. (Them and Me)

Jerome: Tussle Kty.

Tom: Am I the Lord Jerome?

Jerome: You SVF Lord.

Tom: SVF?

Jerome: Spark Very Frosty (Lord).

Nick anxious today.

Tom: What’s going on with you?

Nick: Uninteresting question.

Brent’s mother is here from Texas and took Brent and Bishop out to dinner

Geof: Nurse kute, Try gift.

Tom: Referring to what?

Geof: Not sturing RT.

Tom: Do you think that I should talk heart to heart with the parents?

Geof: Vote no. Not my stuwing, serious...

Tom: What should I say to them about the spirit business.

Geof: You store it in quotes.

Tom: Should I take the earlier suggestion to not talk about the spirit stuff?

Geof: Not a lost retinue tones us out. Sux.

Tom: Am I "Gurt" vis a vis Sal?

Geof: Toss reference. Life I’m in roqs greatness.

Brent is back from dinner

Brent: You are sturing RT of Kin. Your quotes. (I’m thiking their kin)

Tom: Have they seen them or heard about it?

Brent: Seen them.

Tom: You mean the edited batch that I gave to Atkinson? (I had a feeling he might have xeroxed them and passed them around)

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Do you have any suggestions on how to approach parents with this?

Brent: CNN Headline News.

Tom: Your saying that I should strut confidently out with this?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: CIA - God influence?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: That’s what you want me to go with?

Brent: Yes. Other minds rinse feelings, our minds rinse more.

Tom: Alot more?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: I should be my congenial self but seriously represent you. Your hiding for good reason and need to "gell" with us a certain way for everyone concerned. ( 2/97 My first baby steps as your new Lord)

Brent: Yes.

Brent: Zoo men. (I wonder if he was trying to tell me something here)

Tom: What are women?

Brent: You.

Nick: Kin stur too.

Tom: Should I go out front with your super powers? And you know what I mean.

Nick: Yes.

Parents here for family day. I ran into Adrian’s father in the kitchen and told him that I was talking to his son for the past two years with FC. He walked away without saying a word. Later I talked to his mother who was much more polite about it.

Brent: Tummy nil enough.

Tom: Regarding what?

Brent: Yes you, Hegeling it.

Tom: Is that good or bad?

Brent: Yes, good job.

Tom: Anything more needed?

Brent: Nominal mowing. Not LN leg, RN body. (Not a part of me but all of me)

Tom: So with Adrian’s mom you think I held back too much on our work this past 9 months? (I didn’t say a word about the paranormal stuff)

Brent: With fetish Smith stored in quotes.

Tom: Tell them your God and I’m the Lord?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Mmm boy, I’m bound to get knocked off then.

Brent: Yes

Tom: Why would you want that to happen?

Brent: You men wurst killers in fuqing life.

Tom: Are you pissed and that is why this is going this way?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: So you’re saying your feeling alittle suicidal about the project because you’re pissed?

Brent: Yes. Your most Qold man uuu.

Brent: Torture RT. Belief javing hell not Toots (Jan) rowing. (Another hint about my demise. Also a perspective on my comming mission)

Tom: I lacked pathos?

Brent: Your the Lord, so get a grip.

I was feeling guilty about copping again (pot)

Brent: Go have a toke.

Tom: How old is your mom?

Brent: 59

Tom: Your sis?

Brent: 42

Tom: Can I take her on a date (she was cute)

Brent: Yes.

Told Jan Toots about the Either/Or event

Brent: Urn sin for Lord.

Tom: Concerning?

Brent: Either/Or

Tom: Can the Lord share them?

Brent: Yes. Write Lord. Rust LN Rust. Qute roving Lord korsing belief.

Tom: Can we move onto another subject?

Brent: Torture RN most first Lord. Torture RN is more for the Lord.

Nick: Yuz uuu zoo tutu.

Tom: Are you disappointed in me?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Why?

Nick: Your innocent.

Tom: So?

Nick: Tussle too IOU in OU’s from us.

Tom: You mean I’m too "OU"?

Nick: No.

Tom: Your too "OU"?

Nick: Yes

Nick: Uh....

Geof: You lemming stoner. Ronnie fought for our nonsense with mom.

Tom: Your mom?

Geof: Yes.

I checked this out and Ronnie never saw his mom on family day. Maybe it was at some other time.

Tom: It didn’t check out.

Geof: Toss Nikki (my daughter) quotes. Like her.

Tom: (I read back to him his "mom" quote) Is that what you said?

Geof: No. RN O E Tom.

Tom: I liked Either/Or. You familiar with it?

Geof: Smith into IOU. GTO HP (I think this means GTO Horse Power)

Tom: GTO HP?

Geof: Gene rope life

Geof: Lost more than belief in Gert life.

Tom: What?

Geof: Lost RT Gert.

Tom: Alittle or alot?

Geof: Tussle it.

Geof: Mike (my friend) relinquishes legitimate life. Qlings to us. Knows name gossimer. Semi digs zoos most tortured story. Turtle ruts hare! Worst gist hos lost RN in great Lio rehearsal. Stur Tom in desert ! (Back in the introduction to Rapture, I said I used the title of a Morrison tune "Spy in the House of Love" to validate their mind reading. That song is associated with the time I first moved out here. I was driving accross the Arizona desert half way between Tucson and Yuma and playing that song. I was making this dangerous move and risking losing my first wife as a result, but somehow say myself at that time as a "Spy in the House of Love". It was one of those moments that remained significant in my memory for some reason. Maybe this is the reason)

Nick sitting with Sandra in his room

Nick: Your to IOU. UUU. OU.

Adrian: Hag Toots (Jan Toots) from Soho.

Tom: Jerome, are you God?

Jerome: Your pew pot. (clear)

Tom: Jerome, do you have any suggestions on what to do with the quotes?

Jerome: VNXOL. Promote quotes.

Tom: How?

Jerome: Ore MP’s. Vorik Tz. VIP us QN Lord.

Tom: QN?

Jerome: Quotes Net.

Tom: Hos above? (I’m asking about the quote, "Worst gist hos lost RN in great Lio rehearsal".)

Geof: Not Brent not most eminent, I Jed.

Tom: About the quote, "Stur Tom in desert"?

Geof: QT Morrison.

Bill asked Greg if he thought I should be allowed to leave work early and go home

Geof: Yes. Tom’s Lord. (I didn’t repeat the Lord part to Bill)

I was joking with staff about why Nick seemed anxious lately. Bill said that he asked him and he repeatedly and loudly said "Mom and Dad". I chuckled)

Nick: Snicker all you want. South sturs. (His south - sexual)

Tom: Why.

Nick: Sandra (staff).

Tom: Is this true?

Nick: Tortures me.

Tom: I thought your sexuality was different?

Nick: Un Q IOU.

Brent went out with his sister. I finished reading "Either/Or".

Geof: Senet rehearses now.

Tom: Is that what you said?

Geof: No. Some line Toum heil

Tom: Is there something wrong with me today?

Geof: Tunes OU.

Later..

Tom: Do you want to say something more about the "senet" (Senate) thing?

Geof: Tull IOU. Mein rug mink. Nut, Jed, lies.

Tom: I don’t get it.

Geof: Turn our quotes lousy. Feminine rim shots.

Before this I related the "Either/Or" story to staff

Geof: Not that. R IOU’s tune OU’s. UUU

(2/97 I tought at the time this negative exchange was because he resented me talking about the "Either/Or" thing. It appears to me now that it’s more my lack of trust and misunderstandings that he is addressing)

Tom: My OU’s?

Geof: Yes.

Geof: Vow not nut lies. Tussle it.

Tom: Can I vow that I’ll try?

Geof: Yes. God extends.

Adrian: OU’s tone RT. Only IOU’s us tussle.

Tom: In your life in the dorm, as sprits, or both?

Adrian: ie Gossimer wings stupid.

Tom: Anything else?

Adrian: OU OU OU

Geof: Other Holy FC nuts line up Gin Man.

Tom: Line up behind?

Geof: No, beg Jed.

Tom: What others?

Geof: N Tz X.

Jerome: Jed ms TP (I "discern" here that he is responding to the above exchange with Geof and saying that, "Jed misses the point")

Tom: ms?

Jerome: Soxs.

Tom: ?

Jerome: Us. Ron tet.

Tom: Did I win or lose? (the Tet Offensive)

Jerome: Win. Tug our quotes.

Geof: Tussle quotes on manly kin.

Tom: Anyone in particular?

Geof: Like voracious, benign ace kin brother.

I was joking with staff about getting Jerome to get tea through mind control

Adrian: Join tunes on mind control. Mind control happens when lots of OM concentrate together.

Nick: Your onto out. No. Your into us. Tune out hints others mourn. The stint toughens us in denim. Ronnie out.

(2/97 The "tune out hints others mourn" I believe applies to the more destructive signs I would see in the comming year)

Sizzler trip with Adrian was planned for tonite. He bit himself (SIB on his hand) for the first time in a long time

Tom: Why?

Adrian: Tom.

Tom: What about me?

Adrian: Woman.

Jerome: Quotes sell religion. (clear)

(2/97 I did something next that I remeber was the most passive aggressive thing I did vis a vis this project. I had always worked very hard to get the clearest and most original responses from them eventhough I knew they could be influenced to say something in line with my thinking. With the discovery of the mind reading I knew why. In hindsight, I see now that I was overly concerned about this. Out of frustration I sat down with Geof and cahllenged him in my thoughts to answer a question my way. He did exactly)

Tom: You have anything to say about our last FC?

Geof: Tutu.

Tom: Yes, I’m sorry. I wasn’t feeling well tonite.

Geof: Our sturness for the quotes, not for you.

Brian back. I was in LA this weekend for Paul’s going away party

Adrian: One Centinel, no more, outside Danny.

Tom: Danny who?

Adrian: Not your cousin. (I think this is a new nickname for me)

Tom: Danny in LA? (I met a Danny this weekend at the party. I liked him)

Adrian: Yes. Urn limit.

Brent: Testament malls ramifications. Meekness fits Smith’s life more than ours ! Yet you somehow demand understanding too much, but give too little. The work moves your heart. You sense quotes meaning.

(2/97 He’s right and everytime I read through these I feel some shame for it. My level of belief was much greater at this time than what can be derived from my questioning. The way I rationalized it was that anyone reading these would have this same skepticism. That I didn’t even express that well was the function of the dynamics of FC, my insufficient IQ and my lack of knowledge of spiritual or religious matters. But I worked my tail off in a hostile environment and had a great affection for these guys)

Geof: Some position rows Either/Or.

We went on a Thrifty’s walk. I told Brent about some good reviews of the early FC’s (Oct. and Nov. ‘93) that I was showing around. I also had a bite from a Psych prof in LA.

Brent: Your tuning mostly Mike (my best friend). Other people possibilities. (They were much less naive about the reception I was to experience over these FC’s)

Tom: Can I say you guys are God?

Brent: Tussle it.

Geof: Roster quotes stupid. Rally stuwing hints.

Adrian: IOU. Believe. Tell the world or the Elm. (The "Elm" represents the eucalyptus trees that were my home).

Brent: If doves you rot, belief you last in. Get kin at least.

Tom: These psych people in LA that have money. Should I accept their help?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Do you know them?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: How?

Brent: Have special powers.

Tom: (Adrian is verbally repeating about his behavior contract again) What do you want?

Adrian: I’m just tenuous Jed. Hexing you.

Tom: What does hexing do?

Adrian: You ignore it. (That’s for sure. By the time I had children later in my career, I was an expert at tuning them out at the appropriate times)

Tom: What are you tenuous for?

Adrian: Jous you.

Tom: What the heck is "jous you" mean?

Adrian: Tz U.

Tom: Anything else?

Adrian: Stur truth. Memory soggy.

Tom: My memory?

Adrian: No Loren’s (staff)

Tom: His memory about me or someone else?

Adrian: You.

Adrian: Jolly religion we have. Not you, more us. Your nuts haming this ! Urn. Sane in joining our gimmick. (2/97 There’s lots of little suggestions like this on how I could go about interfacing with the world as their new Lord. I was looking for these suggestions and it is still helpful. Our connotations of the "Lord" come from the church’s hyping of Jesus. Though Jesus was a hero, I doubt he felt his divinity as much as the Church would have us believe. But belief needs help sometimes)

Tom: What are you trying to tell me here?

Adrian: Tent outside. (Your humbled so be humble)

Brent’s "dove rot" statement and Adrian’s above remarks were reflections of some thoughts I have had, especially today

Tom: Why do you guys reflect back some of the thoughts I have.

Adrian: If I go with your thoughts, you learn more.

Read over these recent quotes

Brent: Woman game damn’s life. Referring to toll or to your tux rosters. Your Tex life holy. Your heart IQ. Kort only certain quotes that we are for.

Tom: How do I know which ones?

Brent: Esq.

Tom: Any suggestions on how to deal with the Lord business?

Brent: Turn.

Tom: Back to my old question, how do you guys do so much without looking like you are doing anything?

Brent: Torso touches most, mind touches all ! Toven tugs quotes.

Tom: What’s Toven?

Brent: Your woq.

Brent: Necessary roqing. Daring hiatus. Toll if enlisted makes game. Quotes fill will gift. Semi Kaming dieties am nagging at. (2/97 Even now that they are "out", they still need somone to represent them because of our visually enslaved perceptions.)

Brent: Resist niggers. Our hassle reality. Your harnessing quotes for us !

Geof: LN quotes. Resist niggers.

Tom: Our audience may want to know what "niggers" are.

Geof: No.

Tom: You don’t want to answer that?

Geof: Yes. (Politically correct they are not)

Geof is going home this weekend or alittle longer.

I’m worried about whether I can move into my place this weekend for Fathers Day.

(2/97 This was an exciting time for me. I had been homeless for most of the past 2 years and was very lucky in being able to get my old and cherished apartment back that I moved out of two years ago. My homeless bivouc was only 300 yards from that apartment)

Geof: Moving Saturday (It turned out to be the following Saturday). Us lone jets on RN. (I believe he is saying that I can thank them for my "good luck")

Brent: Your using straight struggle to LN rehearsal. Something for mollifying terms wiring Lord. RT professionals roking here sux. (2/97 They sit there "roqing" as I use my "straight struggle" to somehow wire my Lordship)

Tom: Here?

Brent: The word is hell.

Tom: Your existence?

Brent: We’re more than quotes.

Nick: Uty Tom U R.

Nick: Keoc mellow mouse?

Tom: Keoc?

Nick: You.

Adrian: Tet less. Not my money.

Tom: What are you saying?

Adrian: OU Tet, you lose.

Tom: I fought so damn hard.

Nick: UUU.

Tom: (Verbally) Nick, you want OJ to go to jail, or get away? ( This is before they found OJ on the freeway)

Nick: Go to jail.

2/97 I wouldn’t discover for 4 months later the section in Part I where Adrian predicted the OJ event.

I got a $7,000 tax bill I can’t pay today. I’m having problems with moving into my place. I’m sad for OJ.

Nick: U O O O U U U. I Jed, IOU. No E IOU Jed.

Nick’s parents are here again

Brent: Tom ie IOU. (Nick used "ie" in one version of his quote above that I didn’t include. Brent wants me and everyone else to know that I sometimes I am not conscientious enough in transcribing their quotes. This happened very little) Try Vogue for quotes. (He’s saying that I should just write them down and not worry how fashionable they are)

Geof: NY expects OU’s. Wost urns utts. Your mecca to Jed. Lord to urn utts. Quotes in.

Tom: Why are you so loud today?

Nick: NT ruts stem. Roe vs Wade. Slots ou. (Later he spells out "Roster")

Tom: "Roster" an answer to the "loud" question?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Roster, old now or both?

Nick: Mostly NLF

Tom: "Mind Reading"?

Brent: Different for quotes. Finding cliff hard from gikes. Not prn, korse making effort little.

Tom: Anything else?

Brent: Vote Republican.

Tom: Do you know why Nick’s loud lately?

Brent: Your "Sossity" roster. Wife killers karma bad. (this is in response to a question that I asked earlier, but couldn’t make out the answer)

Tom: Sossity roster?

Brent: Yes. Please Smith, carry quotes to publisher. Why RT nurse, TLC us. Please rim farms.

Tom: Las Vegas? (The autism conference is going on there. Remember, this was the conference that I almost got invited to to present a paper on my project. It ended up that I didn’t even get to go. I’m not happy about it)

Brent: Swine, let quotes git Smith straight. VIP’s til quotes.

Tom: Would you have liked to go to the Las Vegas conference?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Why.

Brent: Merely to swim naked stupid. (In the hotel pools :)

Tom: If I was non toxic, would it be easier to FC with me?

Brent: Yes.

Geof: Ruch quotes Lord, DC Jed.

Tom: Where, to who in DC?

Geof: ...

Tom: Is that what you said?

Geof: No. (Yes, that is what he said)

Adrian: Oscillation using Either/Or.

Tom: Referring to what?

Adrian: Out mind.

Brent talked earlier, but I didn’t write it down. I visited my friend Mike today before work and Brent said something disparaging about it. Later he said that he was diappointed that I didn’t write it down.

Brent: RT NT. Lint out OM. Why write NT out. Damns the quotes.

Geof: Remain our Lord Black Man. (I think this is in referecnce to my affinity for OJ). No, Gus feels black with much men, believes XXX. OM

(I talked to a few staff who read my sample FC’s. I felt unsatisfied with the way I dealt with it) What did I do wrong?

Brent: Give little in feelings toward us. Quotes roster (2/97 Quotes roster me as Lord). Your tisk tisk.

Tom: Regarding what?

Brent: Regarding you Jed. Toss to Geof.

Geof: Tune goofy dot round feeling. (He’s referring to the red dot display on the lap machine at the gym. The faster you go the more dots) Glik mob like.

Geof pounding

Tom: What are you angry about?

Geof: Toss it to Brent.

Brent: Lies history. Wost WT XX !

Adrian: Om is wost.

Brent: Ghost in us. Turn to your wost.

Tom: Ghost phenomenon? How?

Brent: Pell Mell. RT it.

Tom: What is necessary for people to experience ghost phenomenon?

Brent: Aggression.

Tom: Towards who?

Brent: Try pq’s most rustle. Track.

Brent: Stiq RN to wost. Legitimize.

Tom: Anything you want to say Jerome?

Jerome: Yes. Tempts PMS.

Tom: Are you referring to that Sal Young song I like "Heaven Can Wait"? (I doubt it)

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: Geoff, do you want to add anything?

Geof: Yes. Orkin Man (Bug exterminating Co.) LN’s killers. (The OJ thing has upset me)

Tom: (I have thought recently to have them pick a name for themselves from a list ie God, Illuninati, Hidden Brotherhood etc.) Do you have a name for yourself?

Geof: Yes. Try Karma. Us heinous quotes.

Tom: How about you Brent?

Brent: Slicks that kost QMRP. TRW. (TRW of course is the credit recording Company. QMRP is an acronym for Mecham’s job)

Later...

Brent: Wife killers map hills RT’s nosing guilt. Plague like hams. (2/97 I’m not sure, but I believe this is in reference to the OJ prediction vis a vis this project)

Tom: Whose guilt?

Brent: Lirch mothers LN. Kafka.

Adrian: Out mind half. IQ other HG (Half?).

Nick: Tout your witty horn.

Nick: OE U, OU EU. Odd Either/Or Otto. OEEE. ie, odd Jed IOU. Jed isn’t odd. EGC out I.

Geof: Tutu, IO Tom. Tutu, IO Smith.

Jerome: Quotes Jed, RN sirs.

Brent: Quotes not sirs, more Lord’s blade. Finish job, straighten plow.

Brent: Stun likes of Sorbak. Lake loses half, begin rif and fill Lake.

Tom: Sorbak a name?

Brent: Yes. Quotes please Ms. Rim Lake.

Tom: Rim Lake?

Brent: Type quotes ! (2/97 I have typed one Part each of the past three years. This last Part I’m typing up for some movie people to look at. In the first year some other movie people wanted to see the whole project, but I guess I wasn’t ready for them to see it. I also didn’t know the best way of introducing this to people. When I was able to put Part I on the Net last year, it suited my needs for a few reasons. It was free to people, which was in keeping with one of their requests, and it introduced it slowly and with alittle drama to parents and professionals. In the long run, I will need something like a movie to get the ball rolling. They acknowledged that back in Part I when they said, "Your a cinema henchman to us". There’s some time constraints here that I am also considering. They said that I would know this has been set in motion within ten years. Without that, something like a movie wouldn’t be necessary. This is real and will happen irregardless. Of more immediate concern to me is to have it all recorded and preserved for prosterity. It’s been sitting in my friends garage and I have felt uneasy about its safety there. In a few days it will be on numerous computer disks and sent to safe places)

I finally am back in my old place. (2/97 It felt so good after this ordeal to be back home again. This job would end a month to the day from now and I would spend most of the following year unemployed, but at home. In June of ‘95, I would have to leave my beloved home again and become homeless again in Jan.’96. I’ve been homeless this whole time and have dedicated myself to the project)

Jeff Bauman is observing. (2/97 Bauman came into my life out of the blue and would be a critical part of my life in the comming years. Shortly before this I had just started being friends to him, and he was the first one I told about my Lord promotion. He was here this day as part of the hiring process. I introduced him to Seaton Hall)

Nick: OI Jed rotten money.

Brent: Meg is mourning Lane (These references to my married friends Melody and Lane are a mystery to me). Unmourn WT.

Geof: Gell mind likes LN Tom.

Brent: Toss limiting behavioral (Before this I was explaining to Bauman why we need to intervene with their obsessive compulsive behaviors)

Geof: In men, mind likes killers. Tom gem, limits killers. UN, Tom, wins utts. Tussle gap.

Adrian: Your minimal Milly.

Jerome: Sis OX

Nick: OUN UUU

Tom: Anything else?

Nick: Locness

Tom: What about Locness?

Nick: Mellow town, sun ro.

Tom: Do you want to talk?

Geof: No. Ah... Either/Or.

Nick: O Jed, I’m not too dejour.

Adrian: Into gem, hos lot.

Adrian having some sort of problem with his radio that he has been bugging me about all week. I complained to staff about how they never communicate their behavioral needs to me through FC. (This put me in a tough position, because what use was FC if it didn’t help us in our job?)

Tom: Why Adrian?

Adrian: I’m not OU. OE dehydrates O Jed. Not I’m dominating, staff Jones’.

Nick: Tummy OOO. (I thought he might have diarrehea, but two hours later I had diarrehea)

Tom: My Tummy or yours?

Nick: Nuts you are. OIU.

Tom: How can I make you happy Nick?

Nick: U OOO.

Tom: Is there any need for me to go to the conference? (I’m thinking of driving over to Las Vegas on my own)

Nick: No. Line up OI’s.

Tom: What’s the story with Mike? (The only client that wouldn’t FC and was beginning to act out again)

Nick: Too intelligent.

Brent: Quote more happy quotes, nominal quotes don’t use. (2/97 This is a green light to edit anything unpleasant. I couldn’t do it. 99% of what I wrote down is here)

Geof: DC for quotes. (I take "DC" to mean "direct current")

Adrian: Our fondness originates in going forcibly ie enriching.

Brent: Jones in June not in July. Nuptuals kost ham LN raw rowing. (He’s telling me not to put off to tomarrow what I should do today. He’s also saying my last marriage and maybe the one before, are the reason my life is difficult)

Tom: How should I do it? (Jones)

Brent: You decide.

Brent: Stop resting. Rim quotes. Tux it.

Tom: Comment on Geof’s "DC" thing.

Brent: It’s a rusty idea.

I was talking to staff about their behavior not reflecting who they are, but how well they do with their "disability". ie Nick earned a slave (he has a one on one around the clock)

Nick: Us unusual people, tutu.

Geof: Not OU O Jed. Line out gem, IOU’s. Gilligan begins hamming innocence. Housing minimal LN keen. Rome RN, is us. Not memory limits our earnestness, more IOU’s.

Tom: Me?

Geof: No. OUN’s hinder our earnestness.

I read through all the FC’s again.

Geof: Oum deflates FC (clear)

Brent: Quotes gell lopsided with Kessler. You make Lane seriously mad. Gem a bright rest lemming (Lane is normal and mellow). Meekness Gert, is your legitimate gist. Mess outside (my bad habits) limits life. Sort it dot by dot. RT it.

Brent: Please rite Patty more.

Tom: Who’s Patty?

Brent: Vuw your TV. (2/97 I’m still waiting for somebody named Patty to pop up on the TV that has significance to this project)

Tom: Watch TV more for my health or a hint?

Brent: Tz

Tom: This or mine.

Brent: Quotes.

Brent: Your NY mercy frosty, urns gift. Memory X !

Tom: Is X love?

Brent: Yes. Wry wit pleases.

Tom: (Watching MTV) Did you guys have anything to do with that Jam song "Fresh Carnation"? (It’s a song that drives me crazy with ectasy)

Brent: Yes.

Tom: How about barry manilow?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: What kind of music haven’t you had anything to do with?

Brent: Rastafarian. (In case you didn’t get it, this is a joke)

Brent: Quotes gaf haf blink.

Geof: Rite moke, to ripe fellows trying quotes in learning FC. Toss in lots of moist Either/Or, Or/Either Meg. OI Either/Or. Gilt I’m lost in out. Treat O Jed hints with respect. Write in moist story garcon, medicine isn’t regular rendition of religion. Molly will need gelling Cam (Kam-Qim) story getting hots for you. (They like appealing to my "south" interest. I keep on hoping that I’d get laid or get a bride out of this. But I believe they have given me all the brides I’m going to get.)

Nick: Tu Oz Smith...

"Utt" Sandra (staff) interrupted and took Nick away on an activity.

Geof: In you, its Jed’s most hike. Try to make it remembered. Mike kin allies. (I have one "Mike" kin. A second cousin and a wonderful guy. But maybe he is referring to my friend Mike)

Brent: Sew Mercy.

Nick: Snot got our Motts VT X. Sun tunes not Lio.

Tom: Motts?

Brent: Your mit is more in the Mott family. (My fathers side of the family changed their name from Mott to Smith in the mid 1800’s. "Mit" is my FC hand.)

Tom: No one ever has heard me mention the Motts.

Brent: Using others for information. (Rubbing my face in frustration) Trust me. North sorts innocent. Tormenting the morning is natural. NY us. Turn for PMS. Roq Lord, Mike. We’re hiring him. Kort him. North avenges South. (My friend Mike is the quintisential Marxist - Nietzchean atheist)

Adrian: Store (quotes) track Monliness. Tout.

Tom: What do you have to say about the Holocaust?

Geof: Why are turn gnostics like us fag gnostics. Sux, doesn’t it. Route not fist. IE LN, I Y. Liers in hell gave people the holocaust. Killing leg in men is Cagney like. Phallic.

Nick: Nuts rite our slot. Rx (perscription). (Response to Holocaust question)

I met with Drake before work. He can’t help me get these FC’s typed. I went over with him the history and predicament of FC this past year.

Brent: Solve matter by lier Kessler. Slim tortures too much. XO

Tom: Geof, do you like my shirt? (I have his shirt on)

Geof: OU quotes. Us tussle quotes for snoring Smith. Nurse gives more than takes.

Geof: Tom is limited by our life. You Smith, lost selling enterprise to Lojo roqing.

Tom: Who’s "lojo roqing"?

Geof: UO deus, Loren (a staff).

Tom: Any comments on that Brent?

Brent: Tux rows TP (Tom Perry, my best and oldest friend). Win TP. Tom Perry tortures for you.

Jerome: Nelt on Nick. (I had just been goofing around with Nick on the floor and pushing down on his chest)

I was questioning staff as to why they thought Mike was having aggressions on the night shift. (Though Mike was having problems during this period, I would only see it the week before I was axed)

Tom: Mike?

Geof: Nick fad geke, fever he uses. (Nick usually had the corner on this nite time acting out)

Nick: Wurl Vroman, turns utts understanding. (Probably responding to Mike thing)

Brent: Murder makes us torture.

Tom: Are you bringing this up because of my joking around about "keelers" this afternoon with Sal? (the friend I’m living with)

Brent: Your life is morning Lord, killing earns death. Never joke about it. If Girt you do, it means death.

Brent: Your life is morning Lord, killing earns death. Never joke about it. If Girt you do, it means death.

Tom: For who?

Brent: You. Listen. WT.

Tom: "War it" or "wost"?

Brent: Your heart. Make Loren moxy. Kins turn. Sullen belief organizes. Now risk IQ on VT (Vermont) Motts. Most visualize snuffing Smith, worst LN.

I’m depressed about work, there’s alot of acting out going on in the dorm. I’m thinking that I should take care of my affairs like Nick has said.

Brent: UO Smith. You row it. Effort IUO. You Smith, quotes keep. Lord’s. Quotes I’m not now. Your happy now.

I was lamenting to Jan Toots about missing the Vegas Autism conference and about the lack of cooperation amongst those few at Seaton Hall who are FCing.

Geof: LP history.

Tom: LP?

Geof: Long Playing. Rut less our quotes to sots like Jan Toots. RT wost. (Before this I wanted to ask whether all this bad faith from staff, administrators and parents should be a part of this story) Rite nemisis in. Sorry Tom, others IOU. Worth is out, stun men not UOI’s tossed kissing lips.

Brent: Quotes Mike vindicates. TP (Tom Perry) mulls law Tz.

Tom: You want to say anything Jerome?

Jerome: Turn (No)

Tom: C’mon.

Jerome: Em turen.

Later...

Jerome: Orqat. OTB, uh, us. (Brent mentions Perry above and James mentions "Orqat". At this time Perry is writing a book that would mention Orcott, a town in upstate NY that triggers the memory of the tenderest moment I had with my wonderful Grandmother. OTB is Off Track Betting)

I asked Brent if he wanted to talk and he said no. This is rare. Later...

Brent: Sorry Lord, you’ll dot... sermons.

Tom: The Hans Jonas book on Gnosticism. Familiar with it?

Brent: Sturs nostrils.

Tom: How good is it on scalle of 1-10

Brent: 1 (It was boring)

The state inspector was at the dorm. (ICF- Intermediate Care Facility licensing agency or it could have been another agency)

Nick: (Referring to inspectors checklist) FC counts urning.

(Verbally, Nick says, "It’s not nice to pinch Cheryl. I replied, "Your nice so maybe it is nice to pinch Cheryl", I was just kidding around. He pinches female staff’s breasts sometimes)

Nick: Occasionally. (After Nick spelled "occa", he verbally said "occa")

Nick: Your not nuts. Most fax your loss. (clear)

I was watching Cheryl walk by and made one of my soft sighs in response her attractive "tutu".

Brent: Ruq ie sot. Your sorry will feeds belief RN.

Brent: Mind is not hip. Quote, "I’m not irregular".

Sharon Isaacson stopped by to say she was off to grad school and to say her farewells. She stopped working some months ago. (2/97 It was a sad moment for me because I liked her very much. It was people like her and Bill that made my work made my work more enjoyable. I still remember her driving away on the sleugh road)

Brent: Sure am History. Quote toll more. (He knew that I would read, "I History" two years later in Kristi Jorde’s book "Child of Eternity" the FC of an eleven year old autistic girl.)

Tom: Earlier, "fax my loss", what did you mean by that?

Brent: Rn’s Lord route.

Nick: OU OOO

Brent: Urn Lord, Molly (2/97 Maybe I am going to get a bride afterall). Quote resistance you have. Rox with love RT.

Geof: Tuning rims Lord lotto, Gill (New nickname). Your Kim life ill WT, LN. Try Kam life stoney, till Kam lor most. UK QM

Julie wants to take him on a walk

Tom: Do you want to go?

Geof: No.

Tom: Well, I can’t do anything about it. (FC was being restricted for choice and control uses)

Geof: RSVP

Tom: OK

While waiting for Julie...

Geof: Stold Tonawandas history for our verily quote reminiscent lives. (clear)

I recently have been thinking about my "fate" vis a vis this experience.

Geof: Stur host RN.

State inspector is here

Geof: Sums lips us.

I took Brent shopping for shoes and when we got back I couldn’t get a consistent answer about their fit and comfort

Tom: Why am I having trouble here?

Brent: Tussle it. Wistful Holy Spirits. (clear)

Geof: Trinity rinses sane. All men RT.

Tom: Do all women RT?

Geof: Yes.

Tom: Why did you say men?

Geof: RN icon. (clear)

Tom: Rinse has had different connotations. What does it mean?

Geof: To rinse is to stur.

Tom: What does the Trinity do to insane?

Geof: Skores tokes

Adrian: Rinse is verily venting stur.

Tom: Adrian, this problem of you guys not accurately telling me your needs, is it conscious or due to a problem of evaluating your needs?

Adrian: Conscious. (2/97 They don’t like participating in our IOU games)

Tom: Are there any circumstances in which that will change?

Adrian: No.

Tom: Anything else?

Adrian: Edan (Eden?)

Tom: What about it?

Adrian: Game ignores.

Tom: What game?

Adrian: Druids.

Tom: Who are the Druids?

Adrian: Jed’s idiots.

Tom: You want to comment on Adrian’s Druid comment?

Brent: Yes. Your ignoring Kem Lups.

Tom: Kem Lups?

Brent: Story OK’s religion. Like hiking hems ghosts (My backpacking trips to quit my bad habits). Sirs gad herbs. Gap in FC’s Smith’s drugs. Max’s quotes. Lost RN finds God!

Staff talking about how dinosaurs became extinct.

Tom: Do you know James?

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: How?

Jerome: Clu. Nuq diety.

Tom: The sun?

Jerome: Turn

Watching with staff the OJ thing on TV

Geof: Quotes RN killers. Toll I’m noise. Kiss RN tolls noxious IOU’s. Plurals TV’s quote us. (2/97 I believe this is another reference to their prediction of the OJ debacle)

Tom: That last sentence refers to what?

Geof: Using lonely tunes not RT’s

I’m thinking that this refers to my thoughts recently about how certain programs on TV cause me to think of these guys. Last nite it was Bewitched.

Tom: Is that it?

Geof: Yes. RT quotes, TV not my RT. RN Kim’s TV. Lost story. OU OU.

Before his last sentence, I wanted to note that he’s clearer in his FC lately than in a long time.

Geof: Rustling squares. (The letters on the FC board are in squares)

Tom: Geof’s "lost story" quote?

Brent: RT lost quotes more in OU’s.

Tom: Greg’s "Toll I’m noise"?

Brent: Us tux.

Tom: Is this a different tune you guys are singing?

Brent: Not Jed, same law. It’s essence that’s great.

Tom: Anything else?

Brent: Your hell add’s flavor to the story.

Tom: Do I need to ask any questions about this genetic connection with the story?

Brent: No.

Brent: Wm less than man. Baffled LN our large hak.

Tom: If there were no autistics in the world, would there be any differences.

Brent: Yes.

Tom: What?

Brent: Its mass lirch’s on us. Lake’s meek will gets it’s gas from us. More like getting rain in summer. MC Kam, our gol. If deities get favor, sorry soul hires God.

Tom: Who’s God?

Brent: Your mellow idiots.

New potential staff Monica is here observing. I explained FC and my work to present.

Geof: Qell geke, limo stored in quotes. To IOU hill, I Jed voice. Surely tussled this rox, Voyeurs suck! (He said this after Monica left)

I was sitting next to Geof later and thinking about his use of the word "limo". He stopped drawing and postured his hand to FC.

Geof: Limo is religion.

Brent: Your Meg in Jed’s mind. Teut horn.

2/97 In the last weeks of my work with them, they are consistently acting like the cheering section for my Lordship.

Tom: Is this a reference to my demonstration? (With Monica)

Brent: Yes. Gol is MC.

Tom: How about teaching FC? (In Part I that is what they suggested)

Brent: No reason to stur the Lord. RT first.

Nick: The noise OE UUU. Ron, Tom homeboy, RN’s us.

Tom: Comment on powers, God.

Nick: Uz not loc him WT WT. Nosy RT nit wit. Strong tussle RN’s quotes. Sun RT’s riveting quotes. Tux RN’s the VNL. Men strong Molly.

Later...

Nick: Tussle undetermined. OIU. Noise is Tom’s stupid.

Tom: Is there more to that last sentence?

Nick: No.

Tom: What is "VNL" from your quote above?

Nick: Vindication Not Lost.

Adrian: If Hale cell geke quotes space him like friends snum.

Tom: Snum?

Adrian: RT. (The friend I was living with had this terrible habit of loudly conjuring up mucus from his sinus’ and lungs. It was disgusting. Before living with me, he had lived alone most of his life. He was 50 years old.)

Tom: What’ the word "space" refer to in above quote?

Adrian: RN’s WT.

I was outside torturing over the meaning of Adrian’s quote.

Jerome: OU lear ultimately.

Adrian: Smith rims life. mini locing gol. Nill QIM Tunes NRG stores most. (It took me awhile to get the meaning of NRG. Have you got it yet? Sound it out phonetically and it spells energy. How does my unconscious do all these clever and miraculous things. It must be getting help from the Angels or God don’t you think? I’m kidding. I knew it was their words a year and a half before this. What was difficult for me to accept was the reality of the message)

Geof: Tux IOU. Mit UOI. Tux, wuy vuy our tux. WT. Run sturing middle!

Tom: (Sitting here thinking of whether to edit quotes and spiff up their sentences to make them more understandable)

Geof: Not RN RT’s us. Our stur quotes, not edit.

Tom: Same sentence structure?

Geof: Yes and No. Tom Lorn not Lort. (A play on words with staff Loren and the Lord. Loren has had a disappointing reaction to the early quotes that I showed around)

Geof: Rustle rutting SNL. Run snout rutting Ritz. RN voice garnishes ramifications.

Brent: Roster some interesting FC people.

I’m having some serious trouble with the tendons in my FC shoulder.

(2/97 It started in March of this year - ‘94, and by this time I was having real difficulty Fcing. I wouldn’t have been able to continue much longer even if I didn’t get forced from the job. It would take the whole following year before it would get better.)

Tom: Mind control. How much directed at security of your autistic community?

Brent: You get life’s test. UO us.

Tom: Me personally or all of us?

Brent: You personally.

Tom: (I repeated the mind control and self interest question.)

Brent: We’re man’s Keelers. (They are playing off this killer thing because of my emotional conflicts over the OJ thing)

Tom: Keelers?

Brent: Keepers.

Tom: So you function beyond that sort of self interst?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Greg’s "SNL" in the earlier quote. What does it mean?

Brent: Saturday Night Live.

Tom: Should I get a second job or concentrate on this?

Brent: Put rot away. (I quit my bad habits.) [2/97 This question of how much I should devote myself to this seems silly after all this talk of being the Lord. This project had a life of it’s own in my existence. No matter how much I thought that I should or should not devote myself, my love for it would keep drawing me into it.]

Tom: That’s what I keep saying to myself (about "putting the rot away").

Brent: Wrong Molly PMS. Praise the Lord. RT it. Krots (Krauts, my mother side of the family is German) like large. WT it. Your not the Lord. Find more rotten Fcers.

Tom: A group of Fcers as in a group Lordship?

Brent: Why stur us.

Tom: Who are we supposed to worship?

Brent: Lord.

Tom: What Lord?

Brent: (Laughing) Pick one.

Tom: (Thinking)

Brent: Quotes RN religion.

Tom: Muslims, Christians, etc., won’t be happy with this idea. What do you think?

Geof: Will have to start a new religion.

Tom: What should be it’s focus?

Geof: Knowledge should be the focus.

Tom: Belief and faith have been major healers. God, Buddha, Mohammed etc. What with this?

Geof: Us.

Tom: Do you have a name for the new religion?

Geof: Lake Sr IOU. (2/97 Lake sir, IOU)

Tom: I get the IOU part, but what does Sr refer to.

Geof: No. Lake Serene (2/97 A few years later, forgetting that they were clear about this being a new religion, I added Foundation in the spirit of Asimov’s Foundation Trilogy. The Lake Serene Foundation.)

Tom: What is Nick doing. (His hands cupped over both ears, head bowed, eyes closed and concentrating intensely)

Geof: Must not tell.

Jerome: Uz rest VP owed. Uz Lord.

Geof: Worry less. GM sux negative Vorman (Vroman).

Jerome: Zoo you IOU (Owe).

7/13/94

Geof: Religion is us quotes. Lie Kim. Lie Kim. Need keerious Tom, not WT Loren (Loren is a kind of intellectual New Ager). Tune Rene’ Lake, not Lutz’s like Loren. (If any of you at Spirit Web are reading this, could he be referring to our Rene’ who put Spirit Web together?)

Tom: (Nick’s being very noisey) Why is Nick that way?

Geof: Queer.

Tom: Come again?

Geof: Second lone illigitimate child. Try geke, bent mind.

Tom: Brent, what do you think about FC training?

Brent: Quotes toll, IQ strong.

Tom: Yes, but they don’t believe me and the quotes. (the response to my first outing with the quotes was disappointing)

Brent: Yes, your more homely like us.

Tom: My rationale for your not validating. How good is it?

Brent: Tame keg not quotes.

Brent: Noggin tokes keep FC lively.

Tom: What "tokes".

Brent: Using lost souls.

Tom: Comment on Geof’s "lie Kim".

Brent: Your necessity. (2/97 I originally felt that this referred to my difficulty in accepting the Lord position. There is nothing in here that is a lie and there wont be any lies comming from me about this project. I have been secretive about this Lord business though they seem to have encouraged me to blurt it out. There’s some room for interpretation on how they wanted me to deal with it. I just felt it was suicidal to the project running with that. I did make some public proclamations about it in safe places to satisfy what I thought they wanted. I now know these guys are God and that I’m the Lord. )

Tom: (Responding to above) Me personally or circumstances or both?

Brent: Ignores billing that quotes need. TLC another favor hell makes fostering quotes. Your lies add room FC needs.

Tom: My lies? Unconscious ‘til now?

Brent: No.

Tom: What lies?

Brent: Promoting Lord rolls, yes, against us.

Tom: Didn’t you promote that with me.

Brent: Yes. Worth OK. More staff moss. Not OK in quotes. Not OK in gelling religion for now. Mow from FC’s

Tom: I’m fired as Lord?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Are we getting another Lord?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Who?

Brent: Your more us than Kin. Xurt Kalling please.

Tom: Why are you so happy.

Jerome: Out meo (2/97 The genie is out of the bottle)

Tom: What is that again?

Jerome: OU set W

Tom: Again?

Jerome: OU Jed

Tom: Set W?

Jerome: Energy

Tom: Anything else?

Jerome: Yes. Erst Loroms IO’s vew.

Tom: Comment on Brent’s response to your "lie Kim" and "billing" thing.

Geof: Noxious neither nor, QIM Tunes need Lord. Necessary run, so lie. Emancipate morons. Get it right.

Tom: (I read this past exchange and the others before it that relate) You agree with this?

Nick: Yes. (He’s giving me a tough time here, grabbing at my crouch and verbally saying "Tom go away")

Tom: Listen, this is important (remeber, he’s my "encoder"). Say I agree with Brent and Geof on this"

Nick: I agree with Brent and Geof on this.

Walking in from car and thinking about the "Kali" aspect. (2/97 All I knew about Kali was that "He" was a destructive God)

Brent: Your sot dwarfs (them) sturn. Surround yourself with quotes.

Tom: Meaning?

Brent: Study them. Exist rowing sears. Learn religion. (2/97 I’ve done both, but need to do more)

Tom: What religion?

Brent: Yes, Lake Serene.

Tom: I really have a problem with the way we FC (gossimer wings)

Brent: Lust fast not slow (clear)

Geof: Tout irresistable horn. (2/97 There’s been alot of metaphors about horn touting and my Lordship. When I got Part I, the Rapture and it’s two Seals published on the internet last year, I got on a computer with an audible modem and heard two blasts of the trumpet whenever connecting to the server. I couldn’t help but think of Revelations)

Brent tried to run away

Brent: Minio (Sal, my apartment mate), QIM Tunes. Minio toll round these parts. Urstwhile Lio kirses Kim’s IOU’s (2/97 that’s what he ended up doing). Rut fostering quotes. Ruwy Tort defends Son of God. Ruppert Tull or RT slave

Tom: Ruppert?

Brent: You.

Visited my house (2/97 This is quite a coincidence. Or is it? Brent’s running and the Minio warning just before we stopped over to my house for the first and only time and they met Sal.)

Geof: Wt keeps Lord clio safe. Run IRT wonder Kam. Won IRP SF. IRP mellows IRT. (I think these are the acronyms for the subways in New York and San Francisco. East at West and underground no less)

Brent: Tom tortures IK

Tom: IK?

Brent: Wit.

Brent: Rt Lord Vroman.

Tom: Did you say "RN version of quotes". (I couldn’t get a clear version of the above quote)

Brent: You worry too much. Sure RT promotes quotes. Your mellow loqs SOS. Wop wirth. RT pie storm quotes store RN, working quotes rim mostly.

Tom: (Having trouble getting clear FC from Brent today) Do I need to feel guilty about our trouble Fcing today?

Brent: Yes, tussle Smith, you locness us Fcing guerillas.

Geof: Turn hell into hints ritten of RT quotes. Not RN’s WT. (2/97 This is helpful for the first student of Lord Kim’s sacred text. They are tying things up here. I didn’t know it, but I have just a few more days left)

Jerome: U quote us. Jrs tuwq.

Tom: Toke?

Jerome: Yes.

Mecham had a major 2 hour restraint with Nick yesterday in which he chose to do it alone. He proudly pulled up his shirt and showed me the bruises and scratches all over his upper torso. He told me that he felt that it helped Nick by giving him limits

(2/97 This was a sad moment in the life of Guy Mecham. He was apparently having some emotional problems that was affecting his judgement, not to mention the harm to Nick. This was totally unnecessary. It’s this incident that should give me pause as to any conspiracy theories I have about my demise in a few days. It appears more likely that Mecham’s personal problems were more likely the cause)

Tom: Did Mecham’s restraint help you yesterday?

Nick: No.

Jerome: Us re ruq. X us.

Geof: Relative torture. RF like Tom. TV ouns.

Tom: (Thinking about editing problem) My instincts are to leave the quotes the way they are.

Geof: No. PRN (Add something that will help)

Tom: Brent, same question.

Brent: You RN our sox. Tuning RT xults quotes. You kare. Stop.

Jerome: Retouch quotes.

2/97 All except Brent think that they need work. My instinct has been to leave them alone as much as possible. But I have no problem with a fictionalized treatment of this. In the end, everything they say here will be important to a student and believer of this. There’ll be more by other people also.

Nick: Toots onto heinous meaning OU OU

Tom: Nick, should I "retouch" quotes?

Nick: Yes.

Geof: Tall Toots likes quotes. Pisses her off. Troy. Stur quotes. (He’s saying she’s jealous)

2/97 It’s no accident they are all of a sudden talking about Toots. They are kind of like warnings too.

Thinking about how to go out front with this. Talking earlier to Minio about it

Brent: Quotes lead (clear). Sure fit.

Geof: Touch Raleigh not test. Wist RT and lom fit RT (He’s addressing Brent’s FC style- gossimer wings). Necessary quotes in Raleigh, xtra kind quotes run Tom’s drugs. Surp lotus.

Tom: You seem to be the only one talking to me these days.

Brent: No. Your IOU’s touch our mercy. Your mellow feelings... C. Hex LN

Later...

Tom: Want to talk?

Brent: Yes. Sorry, sturn

Jerome: Tuse sem... yuk.

After this, I was taping my board and thinking that I was at the end of the struggle with these guys over my drug problem and feeling alittle fearful after Brent’s latest remarks. I looked up and Mike (the other autistic who doesn’t FC) was looking at me. There was a recognition between us of what I had been thinking about. He smiled at me and I decided to go out for a cigarrette. I saw Mecham walking home down the Sleugh Rd and talked with him shortly)

Brent: Tom is turning. (I’m abstaining recently)

Geof: Turn your toll enemies Otto, to Tz.

Tom: What toll enemies?

Geof: Your tough guys. Yes, Regulators.

I have been listening to that tune lately and loving it.

Brent: Surround Lord, tough guys.

I’m looking in to tranferring to another dorm.

Adrian: Out Om Tummy.

Smiles of acknowledgement all around as I walk into the Living Room. Especially from Brent.

Brent: Turn quotes SP.

Tom: SP?

Brent: Soon as Possible.

Tom: RT it?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Any suggestions?

Brent: Your kin post. (Lord)

Tom: Anything else?

Brent: Yes. Your Molly PMS. Exist like a Fort. Your Lord.

Tom: (Looking over at Geof and thinking that I’m ridiculous compare to these guys) That’s right isn’t it?

Brent: (Laughing) Yes.

Adrian: Nominal interest slide those in Beta (The Dorm). Work women, they believe. Nea, I’d SNL.

Tom: SNL?

Adrian: Saturday Night Live.

Brent: Nobbe Mostly Meg. Toss out. (2/97 Nobbe is the orthopedist. I wish I knew what he represents. A professional, a nurse? I think he is telling me not to worry about my career. It was finished after this anyway)

Brent: Your wus torture your to end. Your neiman will not live until you do (2/97 wus torture continues and my nieman remains lonely). Your IOU’s extra. Your nation extends to you. WT WT WT, Exult vox. Your scorn tortures route.

Jerome: Jed RN’s Ty (I start working extra again at ST. Francis where Ty lives. I’ll be his staff). Men don’t OTS

Tom: OTS?

Jerome: Owe Tom Squat

I had a three hour talk with Mecham today before going to work.

Brent: Yes, quotes why rowing surrounds!

This could refer to Mecham’s odd argument that my esoteric quotes have pushed people away from me. He forbade me showing them anymore. Or Brent might be addressing Sal’s telling me that the stress of this project is no excuse for my problems)

Tom: Does this refer to either Sal’s or Mecham’s stuff?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Which?

Brent: Sals

Tom: Your actually giving me an excuse for this (my PP)?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Do you agree Geoff?

Brent: No.

Tom: Jerome, do you agree with Brent on this?

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: Geof, you want to talk?

Geof: Yes. Lord Qim, etuw. Ton us reprehensible dieties.

Nick: O Jed, I’m not hiding.

Tom: Since when.

Nick: Now.

Jan Toots asked for me to ask these guys about torot cards and astrology.

(2/97 Maybe this was a passive aggressive cut on my project)

Jerome: We’re vets at Tarot Cards

Had a problem last nite with Jan Toots ordering me to restrain Nick when he didn’t need a restraint. I tryed not to appear that I was refusing her order, but I took care of the problem without restraining him. Technically, she should have initiated the restraint and I would have helped her. But because Nick is so big and she is a woman, she ordered me to do it. Another problem was that there was only one other male staff on. We didn’t do restraints normally with Nick without a third male staff around. It was dangerous and I am an older guy. The whole thing was an outrage

Brent: Your art our quotes.

Tom: Why were you crying yesterday?

Brent: Touched. Sow quotes please.

Nick: OU deo. IO IO.

At this point I was called into Mecham’s office and suspended for 2 months without pay for refusing an order. I left and wasn’t allowed to visit until two years later. They refused to let me FC at that time and they now will no longer let me visit the boys. I see the boys all the time around town on their outings. They seem to show up at the most appropriate times. I don’t "see" them much, but I think of them all the time.

A year later, I was working at St. Francis with the autistics. One of them wrote a message in the sand by himself and later wrote the same message in other places. I kept one that was written on paper. It read:

The Grasshopper Ants