Just gave Mecham the FC's

Nick:(Verbally) Want to talk (Laughing)

Tom: He's not going to understand half of it and he'll think I am nuts

Nick: Jed not nuts

Nick:Jed into IOU from us

Nick: You will join less south feelings you had out on mesa

Brent: You in lots of interesting trouble, you too inebriated with us. Yes, am not against you

Tom: Why are these guys giving me shit tonite (Geof + Nick backed off spirit thing and Nick especially gave me shit)

Brent: Yes, it aims at your belief. Yes, go enter into your belief

Sitting out in the living room with a good fire going in the fire place, the lighted up Christmas tree and Monday night football on TV

I wrote letter to Sara today

Geof: Jed had an emaciated leg in jacuzzi today. Stop begging wife and get gem in Santa Cruz. Stomach tunes stupid outside yesterday. Ring in New Year with resolve. Run more.

Adrian: You ring in the New Year. Ronnie not impressed. Your not North Tonawanda H.S., more Tonawanda H.S. Run to sum. Line up story won with us to roll with the presses. ( Tonawanda High School is my alma mater and North Tonawanda High School was our traditional rival )

Tom: The crowd in this work are difficult to get belief from

Geof: Tussle with most in trying to get belief

Tom: I know I 'm disappointed if Ronnie doesn't believe, but how about you?

Geof:Stupid questioning interest, stupid very Jed. Ghost stories gell with our antics. Toll not tabulated like lots of Diem jingos. Tunes we hear either curry favor or are stomach tunes. Tunes that curry favor come from religious believers. You have more stomach tunes.

Tom: Which ones are the best to listen to

Geof: Not stomach tunes but belief tunes (thinking to myself the functional difference between belief and non belief)

Geof: Belief is much better. Being is believing .In the noggin belief is not better. In the cage of life, belief is kind of better.

Geof: Your not the first to view reminisces out mining us

Tom: I may meet them?

Geof: Wont much existence stir them.Very queer our problem. Try to write. To heal our problem talk to Donnelan. Let her know what eminent you found out. Our feelings dont mean all that most do. Our hearts mince little with our behaviour. With feelings, cagey. Your feelings mean more, rhino innocent compared to us. Turn very Hegel, rogueish. You mall our feelings when not fitting in with us. To fit in, believe deities exist

Note: Fellows (Stanford Physicist) gave me Donnellan�s number. I began talking to her shortly after this. Her and her husband Sal Haskew are leading authors and researchers in the field of Autism. ..

Tom:What deities?

Geof: Some questions really are stupid , meaning wrong. Understanding errors our specialty , obeying egregious lessons of life. In our world sin is not learning from the lessons from mind reading. You will heal our most Ronnie disbelief.

Tom: Is this a play on me being the "Most High"

Geof: Yes. To let our queer hind ends get liked, tune in to us if only to help with your [P.P. - 4-6 beers a day and pot smoking once or twice a day. Also cigarrette smoking, a pack a day]. Not interested in forcing you, more encouraging you. Tunes you make high are daffy. Money is tunes Hale makes. Ronnie gells in our story. ( notice the inconsistency in how they are reporting Ronnie�s reaction to the FC�s. They know I�m anxiously awaiting his respose. He could love it or fire me over it. It may very well be that he had mixed feelings over it.

Brent: Jed et al, win awe for us. (The "Jed et al." thing was my magnanimous response to the staff. On the FC�s I gave Mecham, I authored it that way.)

Geof: Your mother unrinsed, liked your brother so Hegel saving her .(Note # 1): My mother was a great woman. All the children in the neighbourhood loved her. Her first son, who I think they are referring to, died shortly after childbirth. She would take me to his grave periodically all thru my youth. it was the greatest loss of her life. The meaning of "unrinsed" has sexual connotations. It comes up later too.

Tom: That medioum thing and the question why didn't you say "we�re here" (If they could be the voices of the mediums and prophets, why didn� they just announce who they were?)

Geof: Toll would incline. (Toll are victims, oppressed and them. The way I understand this now, they are the protectors of humanities sufferring and rejected. Any other time in history their power might have been considered threatening and they�d be killed off. )

Tom:This X'mas when I'm thinking about spirits and angels vis a vis you guys, how can I do that without being foolish if I knew the whole truth.

Geof: You should not womanize us. Think of us more as little gnomes with powers.

Tom: Anything you want to say before you leave for X'mas.

Geof: Experience limits effeminate. Noel

Tom: Come again

Geof: Tunes we are more illigitimate being effeminate ( They apparently wanted to discourage my thoughts about the feminine nature of this phenomenon. )

Geof left for Christmas

Just oriented possible new staff Sandra

Nick:Tutu on Sandra IOU. Nuts. Mum on hiring. Molly very non toots. Tutu non-toots.

U men o o o o o

Tom:Did you mean the last sentence to sound that way?

Nick: Yes

Nick: You not utts, you our running man! ( This is the first time he uses the word "utts". It�s a concept that is developed more as we go along. I think it means "women", but there is more to it.)

Brent: Awed queen been ( I had watched a documentary on Queen Bees on PBS. They said that Queen Bees direct the worker bees, but had no scientific explanation for it. I thought of these guys. )

Geof: Tossing it around (I think he�s referring to Brian�s Queen Bee comment)

Tom:Any comments about Mecham?

Geof: Yes

Tom:Does he need more time? (I�m anxious)

Geof: Yes

Tom: The Fcs after the ones I gave to Mecham. Do I need permission to present them

Geof: It's dorky to worry about it

Nick: Out of no e-juice Tonawanda ( I�m "Tonawanda" here )

Tom: "e"?

Nick:Encoding

Tom: Where did Adrian get the Tonawanda stuff? From me or from your "powers"?

Nick: Feminists have powers

Tom: Am I getting this joke OK?

Nick: Yes

Brent: Use, Jed, belief in a general way.

Brent went to say that I should see Shallows and talk to his son. He also said I should check out some other people when I'm up there. I�m taking my kids to visit my friend in Santa Cruz for the week after Christmas.

There was an ad for an upcoming Nova about people who look at themeselves in the mirror but see a stranger

Tom: Do you experience anything like that?

Brent: Yes. We get no feedback. The feedback we get from sight is from tunes.

Brent�s last words before leaving for X'mas vacation:

Brent: We�re your art. Try to realize it

Merry Christmas!

Orienting possible new staff Loren. Talking about FC controversy. I acknowledge there might be some uncounscious content

Nick: You untune our Tutus. Ugly Tunes must stop.

Tom: What ugly tunes?

Nick:Statement about uncounscious content. ( As I�m typing this up in March �96, I finally got the mystery of Nick saying that he was the "encoder" and Brent the "decoder". It was this incident that manifested the problem. That I could say there was "unconscious content" after all that happened in this conversation, is directly attributable to Brian�s fast or "gossimer wings" FC style. )

Tom: Do you guys do miracles?

Nick: Yes. Stupid to do it

Tom: Why?

Nick: Tunes say it does little good

Date: 12/23/93

I talked to Ronnie before work today and am very disappointed - he still thinks it probably is facilitators uncounscious. ( He read through Part I and that was his verdict ). In other words, he is saying that I am talking to myself here.

How about presents- maybe as an X'mas gift? ( I was being wise. I was suggesting that we give it to their parents as a gift )

Nick: Nuts enough. Gift hell, no others necessary.

Tom: Would you like me to share it with your parents?

Nick: Yes, on conditions you not talk to them.

Tom: Just give it to them cold?

Nick: Yes

Tom: Oh shit, I'll get fired then

Nick: No

.......Moments later...

Tom: Are you sure?

Nick: Y No. (Yes and No)

Tom: Give it to them?

Nick: No

....Moments later..

Nick: Not no ones beem. cent....

Tom: Centinel (Brent) mix it? ( I had this feeling that they were influencing one another )

Nick: Yes

Tom: How did I do with Ronnie? ( Apparently I had a talk with him )

Nick: Odd oh Jed. Jain to store up our secrets. ( I wish I knew what "Jain" was )

Tom: Are you referring to Jainism? ( The religion )

Nick: Too stupid. Ronnie onto lots of omniscent Hellenism. Noise, not tunes, in his interest.

Tom: What's Jain? It's come up before.

Nick: Us

Thinking of my "mission" with this stuff

Nick: Understanding out. Your not to delt on our interest.

Tom: What do you mean by "delt"

Nick: In delegating riot on us. ( I don�t think he liked the way I represented them during my talk with "Ronnie" )

Tom: Are you talking about rounding up people to help with facilitation?

Nick: Yes

Tom: How about the medium thing?

Nick: Nerds mediate

Nick: Ronnie not interested in the limit. Quote us more to staff like Dern...

Tom: Dern?

Nick: More like Ramirez. ( This is interesting, Ramirez is the biggest pain in the ass skeptic in the dorm. To be fair, he did a good job and cleared the way for me to do this. In case you read the internet version of Part I, his name is different here. He�s the staff that used to be my supervisor and now is working on line with me )

Tom: Isn't it true that Ramirez doesn't believe?

Nick: No. Mosy out to our Jan (Jan Toots, the Assistant Supervisor - "Jenny" in the internet version) most likely to believe.

Tom: I 'm sure as hell not the one to get her to believe anything. ( She�s one of those young women who get mindlessly sucked into the zietgest of the time. In our time for young educated women, it�s Feminism. )

Tom: Do you guys get help from somewhere?

Nick: To inundate outside, lots molest us.

Tom: Earthly or non earthly beings?

Nick: Jed mellow today.

Tom: Can you answer that question?

Nick: No.

Tom: You guys are in league with them [ a little coercively] ( I�m thinking of this "alien" connection. Remember, there mirroring this alien thing back. We are the alien�s )

Nick: Yes

Tom: Are they the " deities"

Nick: Yes

Tom: It's kind of hard talking about God, isn't it? (I�m starting to see this as the God phenomenon, but having trouble taking it seriously)

Nick: Nuts jain lomo.

Talking to Ron and lamenting about how no one believes me, him included.

Nick: To get belief, demean their intelligence. ( He�s a big help )

I gave Ron a verbal summary including the alien connection.

Nick: Tojo men Tin men on outside. Tin men quote "no one Hec Hi Jed" ( I think this was my first clue as to who Tin Man was. It�s the non believers amongst us, in this case it was my bosses. I still chuckle over that appellation, "Hec Hi Jed")

Tom: You hit that before, what are you trying to say?

Nick: Irresponsible Jed

Tom: What's their problem with me

Nick: into [P.P.]

Tom: Are they helping us? ( I still am thinking "aliens" )

Nick: Yes

Nick: Tojo's outside are slick, in not the.... neither Jed ie...( I�ll figure this out someday )

Nick: Mein effort is jelly justice. ( I like this concept. Ned�s behavior for years has presented quite a challenge. Hundred�s of people over the years have expended great effort trying to figure out why he does what he does )

Nick: Jed Toning Jed, count on him

I�m off to Santa Cruz in a few days. The next few days a freind let me stay at his house.

Date: 12/31/93 New Years Eve

Back from Santa Cruz

Nick: Nerd U Jed. Outcast emulates jelly tunes in Santa Cruz. Nose witts on hell.

(You are)Tonawanda not Ronnie. Nick more Tonawinda. Tojo's more our entity. New idea. Tonawanda not tunes Ronnie listens to, heed Tonawanda, toss out tussling rotten religion om. ( I�m struggling with my personal problem, and they know it )

Tom: What movie should I go to see?

Brent: "Remains of the Day"

Tom:I tought you'd go for "Faraway So Close".

Brent: Dull. ( I saw both. He was right. The reason I thought he�d pick "Faraway So Close" was because it was about angels. )

Tom: Anything else?

Brent: To get a habit you need help. See a method to your madness. Get help on Tin man.

(Tom: Thinking again who's Tin man)

Brent: He's your angel. You need to pray to announce reason. Toss out hemmming and hawing. Let Tim Man handle it

(Tom: Thinking again about what Tin man is)

Brent: Yes. God is the aliens

Nick: You .Jed, in to heinous hojo. Moe nullify's your effort.

Tom: Who's Moe?

Nick: Us

Tom: What's hojo?

Nick: You

Tom: Earlier "Outcast emulates"?

Nick: Toy Tunes

Nick: Zelda is mein, not o Jed, o Jed, O Jed. Stupid une, get house in order. Jed negates une touching oen. ( Zelda is a staff that I was attracted to a few years before. Believers, check this exchange out. )

Tom: What's une?

Nick: Trojan in all of us

Tom: What's Trojan, good or bad eminence?

Nick: O Jed, O Jed, O Jed

Tom: What's Oen?

Nick:Set up to our world

Tom:Anything more?

Nick: Technically Tom our Tojo. I.E. Hegel fiend die...

Tom: Want to talk?

Brent: Yes. Hell not your place. ( It�s New Years Eve and I guess it�s a good time for me to pay for my past excesses. This wasn�t the end to it either. The next morning I hopped into my car and within minutes was pulled over and dragged in on a traffic warrant. )

Tom: Why can't I wait a few months 'til I get a place? ( putting off what I should have done yesterday )

Brent: Temerity not in your interest. Answers to your problem nuts asinine. Stupid. You are smarter than that

Brent: Count Terry (Ramirez) in. Terry believes

Brent: Aren't believers necessary so that relationships vent feelings?

(Thinking about it I said " That's interesting")

Brent: Yes you got it

Tom: Thanks for addressing that. You know I've been thinking about it.

Brent: Yes, not an easy problem

Brent: Ask nuts to let no one hearing voices question them

Tom: (silently) Voices are helping them?

Brent: Yes. Very big help to them.

Tom: How about those that tell them to kill their parents or other weird things?

Brent: Yes, we too make mistakes

Tom: On this alien business. Is what Geof said before X'mas pretty close to the truth?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Nick's entity comment leads me to believe that you feel a kinship more with them in some important ways.

Brent: Yes. In some important ways. Terrible yelling creatures understand us quite well

Tom: Do you work with them?

Brent: Yes. You do too. You sin more, so you mar their feelings. Your going with your non- belief.

Tom: I always thought I was a believer

Brent: Yes, but not in all ways

Brent: They apply more to believers. Your interest Tin Man likes. Tickled by your curiosity.

Tom: Is this much different than our idea of God?

Brent: Yes, telling you kills your old conception of God (clear). Yes, has entirely dire consequences.

(trying to cop)

Nick: You, Jed, decide o Jed, o Jed, o Jed oust you

Tom: What am I to do about your mom and dad? ( I felt I should show them this )

Nick: Your not Tonawanda Tom yet

Brent: Telephone them anytime you want ( He�s referring to his family )

Tom: How much can I share with them?

Brent: You do whatever you feel like

Tom: Do they know I'm talking to you a lot?

Brent: Yes. Tearing them apart. Might take the initiative. Their not managing well with this. Join in quelling their fears.

Tom: Why did you run? ( He runs away sometimes. He used to do it frequently, but during this period it was a rare occurrance. )

Brent: You. You stirred up memories of your life in jail. You were not in for marijuana, but for gonorreah. Your sex is important. ( Now I have to explain the jail and gonorreah thing. During my post grad salad days, I spent a year as a marijuana wholesaler. Most of it was spent in Tucson. It was quite an adventure. But a year was enough and I was trying to remove myself from that episode when they caught me. I spent a year and a quarter in Attica and another year and a quarter in a minimum security facility. I made it through without a scratch and even attained "enlightenment" through my yoga practice. When I was out on bail (before I was sentenced), I hit the depths. I met a girl in a bar and went home with her. I knew she wasn�t too bright, but by the time I was at her place it was clear to me that she was probably retarded. I got a "urinary tract infection" from that encounter. )

Tom: I was thinking about that last night

Brent: Yin-Yang errors on yourself in sin of sex. Won't mention it to anyone. Sold yourself short.

Tom: You mean I wouldn't have gone to jail were it not for that fling with the retarded girl ?

Brent: Yes. Listen to experience. Yearn to be free.

Tom: Sex vis a vis Drugs

Brent: Yes. Sex is the larger sin

Tom: I was thinking about all this last nite, but why would that make you run?

Brent: You learned a lot from us, yet same Tom.

Date: 1/3/94

Nick: Yuz Lox Sox Z Z Z Z . Us Tuy y y y. Us jlo Tom. O U O I ox

Rehearse us validation [ I came up with a new validation technique last nite]

Tom: My new idea?

Nick: Yes

Tom: Will it work?

Nick: No. Neither toi us negel. Tus task got some potential.

Nick: Now our toujos turn us into IOU's or nuts

Tom: What's " Toujos"

Nick: Tunes milked on irros. O Ged

Tom: What's "irros"

Nick: Noel medih....

( I guess I should try to interpret what he is saying here. I believe he is making negative statements about this attempt of validating what they are saying. Validation makes them into IOU�s like us.)

[Thinking to myself to ask these guys if they can spell or read - maybe they have limits and pick it up from mnd reading]

Nick: Shithead. Smell on is not in our interest.

Tom: My validation idea . Will it work?

Geof: No

Tom: Why

Geof: FC shouldn't be validated

Tom: Do you know anything about that movie I saw?

Geof: No

Tom: Why does Brent know about it and you don't?

Geof: Some not interested in movies

Tom: Why does Nick rub the floor like that?

Geof: You should rut witts with Nick. (Nick rubbed the floor with both of his whole hands while his legs were straight. A great stretch. Afterwards, he would lick them. I believe his expertise is biology)

Brent: All biologically sane

Tom: Autistics everywhere? (He may have meant all of us)

Brent: Everywhere

Brent: Stored information, so existence beng FC'd aged. Relationship with you in sacred information [ Thinking about this] Yes. ( 3/96 I had a vague idea of what he meant, now I know what he meant. )

Tom: Is anyone anywhere talking to you guys about this stuff?

Brent: Serious information is FC'd only to you.

Tom: You're setting me up here. Are you serious about this?

Brent: Taming the shrew sole bent to our purpose

Tom: Taming the shrew, is that me or others?

Brent: You and others

Tom: That statement about Autistics everywhere being sane - true or false

Geof: Not true

Tom: Brent�s statement about stored information and relationship with me, is that close to the truth

Geof: Yes. Ronnie ill acquiring sin. Very sinful.

Tom: Do you think Brent�s statement to me is a reaction to Ronnies non- belief. (I�m off track here. I ask him again later.)

Geof: Yes

Tom: Respond to Brent�s statement

Nick: Our gnosticism to go with you.

Tom: Is that what you said ( repeated)

Nick: Yes

( 3/96 My friend Mike, who had been talking to me about the philosophy and history of this, brought up Gnosticism. I knew nothing about it, but was intrigued with what he told me. Nick brings it up here out of the blue, which is significant to me, but I didn�t follow through with it because my knowledge was sketchy. I have since been reading more about it and have found a perspective and "hints" that tie directly into this experience. Most scholorly information about Gnosticism comes from the accidental discovery by a peasant in Egypt of some ancient Coptic texts. It�s called the Nag Hamadhi collection. They were discovered in1945, but the prize of the collection, The Gospel of Thomas, wasn�t identified until early in 1948, just months after my birth. The Gnostics believed that Thomas was Jesus� twin brother. His Gospel is considered the earliest and therefore purist representation of Jesus� ministry. It presents a strikingly different view of Jesus� than the hyped up version of his divinity that the early church fathers infused into the other Gospels. Otherwise the message is the same. It also included a feminine aspect to divinity. I�m reading about that now and am not prepared to comment on it.)

[Sitting here severely disappointed and feeling at a dead end. Nick grabs for my penis but this time it was like he was saying I want to talk. I know this sounds odd, but Nick is unusual. I reacted reflexively to this little move of his and easily knocked his hand away. He did it more in a playfully aggravating way than with any serious intent to grab my crotch.

Nick: Tie in [he used this in one version of the gnostic statement above] o Jed o Jed o Jed

Nick: [ grabbing again] Tie ignom...[he wouldn't finish it]

Tom: What's going on here?

Adrian: Tutu's Ronnies interest.

Tom: Reaction to Brent�s statement.

Adrian: Tom's relm is us.

(3/96 I�m checking everyone out on Brent�s sacred information statement. We�re getting into an area here that I didn�t feel comfortable with. I went from trying to make a few extra bucks being a facilitator to risking my job to help them be understood to now being Christ comming out of the clouds to usher in the New Age. I didn�t know the details of that end of the age stuff until later, but I knew that I was wading into realms of what others perceive as the sublimely ridiculous.

To give you an idea of how this is still unfolding in my consciousness, I read about the Gopel of Thomas and gnosticism this past month. This is the first time I�ve read this dialog in three months. When they made these comments, I believe that they knew I would read about this Gnostic "tie in" and I have reason to believe that they knew about when I would discover this "tie in". It was over two years ago that they made this series of statements. It�s no coincidence that Brent brought up "sacred information" and Nick Gnosticism at the same time. )

Tom: Your reaction again to Brent�s "sacred information statement"

Geof: Mouthpiece Tom

Tom: This looks kind of bleak for the selling job. Am I going to see more hope?

Geof: Yes

Brent: Tegretol Nick. Seizure type problem. ( Tegretol is a seizure med and it also calms )

Tom: Yeah, speaking of that I've been using that hearing and seeing is believing thing with Davies and it works well. ( This was a verbal intervention that Brent suggested that I use with one of our crazy clients )

Brent: Yes, to help Davies, ask deities.

Nick: Stoic slut.

Tom: Who

Nick: You

Nick: You tussle, yutz, rim quote written word

[Adrian commented on some private stuff but I like this quote "Push in hot stick money can�t buy"]

Tom: You talking work or whores

Adrian: Work [Verbally repeating Sophia]. Doug not gnostic like Sophia

[ My friend ,Doug, in Santa Cruz that I stay with when I'm up there visiting. He worked at Seaton Hall my first time working there 15 years ago. He went on to become a doctor. Adrian and Brent were at Seaton Hall then and they say they remember him. Sophia also worked at Seaton Hall 4 years ago.]

Nick: Your zoo not Jed. Necessary in ....outside IOU's, utterly unnecessary in ours. ( I believe he is saying that my problems aren�t who I really am, but they are relevant to my homelessness and the larger society [IOU�s])

Brent: Nemisis is gene.

Tom: Are you talking about the question I asked Nick earlier about the X-tra abilities that we also have? ( I believe I�m off track here. I think he�s addressing what Nick said and is trying to tell me that my "problem" has genetic origins. He�s letting me go my merry old way like they sometimes do )

Brent:Yes

Tom: We have it but we're blocked?

Brent: Yes

Tom: It's a mechanism?

Brent: Yes

Tom: With genetic origins?

Brent: Yes

Brent: Tenacity you clutter your minds with.

Tom: Are you saying your minds are more open and flexible ?

Brent: Gas metaphor

Tom: You hear a lot of voices going on?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: And your able to focus on one voice?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: You guys have been sort of mysterious about this alien-tin men thing?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Why ?

Brent: Testing.

Tom: My belief?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: There is something outside?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Is this an alien intelligence?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Something beyond alien intelligence?

Brent: No.

Tom: They influence you and us except you�re aware of it and were not?

Brent: Yes. Zealous lions they are. Hell is where they live.

Tom: But they are God?

Brent: Yes.

Brent: Yes. Gere sum towards them.

Tom: Towards Hell?

Brent: Yes (Yes) (Yes) (Yes) ( I'm lost, I don't know where he's trying to go with this )

Tom: We always thought God was goodness and light, now your saying they're stearing us toward the precipice.

Brent: Yes. Existence means hell.

Tom: How 'bout consciousness instead of existence?

Brent: Existence is better.

Tom: If I were to talk to the other guys about this, would they have a different view of it?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Are these aliens helping us survive and gain in comfort and happiness?

Brent: Sentimental thought.

Tom: Not true - False?

Brent: Yes. False.

Tom: Is there anyone functioning that way for us?

Brent: Yes. Tarnished goons Jed works with. ( He may have been referring to the staff, but I pick up the next question thinking it�s them. )

Tom: So your saying my Holy Spirits are runnings the God show?

Brent: Yes (Yes) (Yes) (Yes)

Tom: Would the other guys agree with this

Brent: Yes ( Yes) ( Yes) ( Yes)

Adrian laying on bed across the way listening to Mr. Rogers and falling asleep]

Tom: Adrian is that true?

Adrian: (Verbally turning his sleepy head around and in a weary voice) Yes.

Tom: Geof, Brent says existence is hell. Do you agree?

Geof: Yes. To plebes like you it is.

Tom: Is it to other "plebes" necessarily?

Geof: Yes. Night outside mostly for Tom.

Tom: Are you more angry or disappointed in me now than at other times?

Geof: Yes.Your missing, stupid....

Geof: Outside Lojos ( low-Joes ) out of Lire. Tuning mind reading, not stoned, favors Jed. Keep most eminent behaviour. Rust is not cute in our world [I'm healthier during this period]

I Worked at St. Francis last nite (graveyard) and had a poignant episode with Tabu. ( A client ). St. Francis is another institution for the retarded in town. This was the beginning of a two year association with them. I was moonlighting a few nights a week trying to get enough money together for a roof. That evening I wandered around Malibu like a lost soul.

Nick: Sad night

Tom: Evening or night

Nick: Evening

Tom: Good vacation?

Jerome: Yes

Jerome: New Jed

Jerome: Shit to end ...[ I was hoping soon]

Tom: What are you trying to say?

Jerome: To get lots better. IOU's to go your way

Jerome: I'm our ieteuin

Tom: Come again

Jerome: Seferin

Tom: Can you explain that further?

Jerome: No

Tom: [Having trouble getting definitive stuff from Brent] What's the ambivalence about?

Brent: You [P.P] earned you caring.

Tom: Maybe I should start getting [P.P.] again if I wanted you to talk.

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Gee, Adrian, after that attempt w/ Brent I could see how this FC could be a cuing problem and I'm doing the talking.

Adrian: Your not the person to mellow everyone. Ultimately you will toss us. Mind reading tunes to sin . (clear)

[This days FC was frustrating. It's been that way more since vacation ended. Jerome in the exchange above typed out testing a few times. I believe it's not "cueing", but more " testing". They have been consistent with this "belief concern" and "testing". But it's hard on me]

[I gave a lecture to Adrian about no more personal life stuff and they can find some one else to do the job if they like]

Adrian: Your stupid.

Date: 1/7/94

Nick: Tutu Tutu [I think he's saying ass, ass]

Nick: Delv...

Brent: Testament seasons...

Tom: Is that what you said

Brent: No (clear) ( He's starting to rebel against my lack of confidence in what he's saying)

Tom: Do you want to talk today?

Brent: No (clear)

Nick: Yef jocs u

Nick: Tom outside, so more reason to let u into outsiders. (2/97 He�s referring to me and them being "outsiders". I just noticed recently that some people refer to the homeless as "outsiders". I like that much better than being referred to as "homeless")

Tom: Thank you, my "encoder". I needed that. I feel more like a fool with you guys than with eveyone else.

Tom: I thought of sharing this with religious people or leaders. Good idea? (How naive I was. I recieved more appreciation for this from Agnostics )

Adrian:Yes

Tom: Better than other groups I've considered in the past (Psychics, FCers)?

Adrian: Yes. Won't interest religious leaders either. You like rolling with punches, the sort of people tin man touches. ( 3/96 He's right. I'm homeless again for the first time since I completed the project. I'm using the time to finish this. I haven't let up on trying to promote it and I will prevail somehow. It�ll be because "Tin Men" appreciate this sort of effort. )

Tom: My latest understanding, and I know I'm way in the dark on this, is that you guys are like God and Tin man the devil ( I got the Tin Man's the devil stuff from Brent's confusing talk about hell above. That's why it doesn't make sense to me now and it did then, he was playing off my conception of Tin Man as I was doing this. )

Adrian: Yes

Tom: But my understanding is way incomplete.

Adrian: Yes

Tom: Who does most of the work?

Adrian: Tow Tin men.

Tom: Tin men?

Adrian: Yes

Tom: Tin men with your lead? Is that what you mean by Tow?

Adrian: Yes

Tom: Before someone said there isn't any cooperation. Now your saying there is.

Adrian: (Verbally) Yes, Brent.

Tom: I should talk to Brent about this?

Adrian: Yes

Nick: (Verbally "want to talk")

[I said to staff Mike that Nick called me an ass when I came in ]

Nick: O Jed, not no Tutu. No. No. No.

Tom: Did you mean something else by that.

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Did you want to explain it. No need to.

Nick: No

[Talked to O'Brian on the phone about my recent experience at St. Francis. O'Brian is my best new friend of recent years. We worked together on line at Seaton Hall and he zoomed up the career ladder and is now in charge of a large institution.]

Jerome: Vet you are to retards. ( That's for sure )

Jerome: Question not woq, never!

Tom: What's Woq?

Jerome: Tin men.

Tom: Because they're powerful, good or both ?

Jerome: Tin men are queer.

Nick: Tin men our guys.

Tom: Allies or they are your guys?

Nick: Thought to emanate from us.

Tom: Why did someone say they were aliens?

Nick: Tunes say they other derelicts.

Tom: Do they influence us a lot?

Nick: No. Our O Jed mio likes elevating our stuff [interrupted] Smith mostly not outside kissing Ronnie. He's tortured in sense on written material. (I sure was)

Nick: You�re Nick. I.E. Centinel joined us. So get into Nick's heinous lechery [ I had been watching All Bundy before this].

Nick: Team lost to the Tin men.

Tom: Why?

Nick: Innocence O Jed nelm nut. Jed's odd hec hi: Team needs more work. (He�s warning me that Seaton Hall won�t be supporting me in this because of my "hec hi habits".)

Tom: What do we lose for now?

Nick: Understanding O Jed. IOU's not in. Your irresponsible behavior demeans us. [After sitting watching movie depressed]

Nick: In our unusual minds Jed, Jed, Jed, Jed, Jed, Jed, Jed x x!

[ If you could have seen the smile on Geof's face after I wrote this and walked toward my seat! It was eerie, other wordly]

Date: 1/8/94

Tom: Have you told your mother not to discuss my FC's? Why do I ask you'll only lie about it, right?

Nick: Yes, Utterly true. Nick egregious in some joint ugly ways.

Tom: So, your saying, some of your behaviors are the function of a group counsciousness?

Nick: Jed onto you.

Nick: Our Jed mothers us entirely too much . I'd enter on humor not anger.

Tom: How's my friend Christy doing [ Christy is a childhood friend. I visited him 4 years ago when I was back home for my class reunion. He had M.S. for a long time and was in the county Hospital unable to move or talk]

Nick: Dead. In Hea... In Hell. In heaven Jed, Jojo deity that mentioned it. ( He was still alive. I called his parents almost exactly a year after this. I was too late, he committed suicide with medical help a few months before I called )

Tom: Christy?

Geof: Mourning you

Tom: Is he dead?

Geof: Yes

Geof:You being outside benefits the heinous interests us deities have.

Tom: Are you guys really "deities".

Geof: Tom not tuned well to question our queer stuff. Tummy tunes too strong. Negative sengria malls toll not us.

Tom: What's sengria?

Geof:...

Tom: Is this stuff ever going to surface?

Geof: Understanding necessary for gene loss not to happen. ( This statement is important. We have reached a time in history that we can eliminate what we consider undesirable genetic charateristics. They are in that category. But there may be other characteristics besides them that are important to us. )

Geof: Kin Delores life lost in car accident Sunday. [Wrong . I called home shortly after this and she's fine. Delores is my god mother and the mother of Sharon who died last fall. ( 3/96 This statement worries me. It just occrred to me that this may be connected to the gene loss statement. Losing my God Mother and on a macro level, gene loss being the loss of our God. ) ]

Tom: Who are the aliens?

Jerome: They and we

Tom: Do you guys see the future, make it or both?

Jerome: Make it.

Tom: How?

Jerome: By past lives.

Tom: What do you like about buses. ( Adrian loves riding on the buses )

Adrian: Outside you hear more tunes. ( This is consistent with what he said in Part I when Nick was ducking into the gym and complaining about the noise outside, Adrian on the other hand said he liked the "tunes" outside. )

Tom: Tunes, then, aren't like radio waves.

Adrian: Yes.

Tom: But you seemed so preoccupied. Can you still concentrate on tunes in that state?

Adrian: Yes.

Tom: Why don't you just go outside the dorm to hear tunes?

Adrian: Only hear our tunes. ( Maybe he's one of them that can't hear tunes that are far away. )

Tom: I thought you hear tunes at a distance or maybe just some of you?

Adrian: ( Verbally) Some of us.

Tom: [Nick w/ his hands to his head concentrating] What are you doing?

Nick: Un - Jeding myself. ( This hands to the head thing he's always done. It really does appear that he's "tuning" something in when he does that. )

Tom: Can you answer the question of whether there are aliens?

Jerome: No

Tom: What's your greatest joy in life?

Jerome: Our voyeurism. (clear)

Tom: What Adrian said about mind reading at distance, some have it some don't. Is that true?

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: Does Adrian have faraway ability?

Jerome: No

Tom: Brent

Jerome: Yes

Tom: Nick

Jerome: No

Tom: Geof

Jerome: Yes

Tom: You?

Jerome: Yes

Tom: Do I have any special powers that I'm not aware of

Jerome: You P D Y

Tom: What's that an acronym for?

Jerome: Your person dulls yin.

Tom: As in ying and yang?

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: Is this a joke?

Jerome: No.

Tom: What's Ying?

Jerome: You.

[I asked questions about Tin Man-Men and he nixed their existence. I then backed up and asked if he'd rather not talk about it and I got a T, Y and then he said " O Jed you gossip"]

Tom: Anything else?

Jerome: Yes. Sue your risty

Tom: Risty?

Jerome: No. Christy ( He's telling me to get in touch with my friend Christy who has MS. I should have listened to him. )

Tom: Anything?

Brent: Joint attempt to straighten you out.

Tom: Anything else?

Brent: Tell Phil (staff), aggravated at his response.

Note: On Bus Skills I asked Adrian who won the Kansas City, Pittsburg game. Adrian said Kansas City. It works!!.They did win. ( "It works" is an expression Adrian often uses in a joyous way. )

Note: Nick for a long time has used IOU's. lately he has been also spelling it backwards. I just got the meaning - IOU, UOI.

Date: 1/10/94

I've been feeling guilty and "unworthy" recently

Brent: You aint our tainted believer (clear)

Tom: I'm a good guy, aren't I?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: That statement long ago to Bishop (a staff) about me being evil. ( 3/96 He facilitated to Bishop that I was the devil. Bishop was the most active Christian on campus. I haven't recieved a whole lot of help from Christians on this yet. Now when people start to believe this they'll think I'm the False Prophet or maybe even the Devil. I would have asked them about this, but I hadn't read Revelations until almost a year later. No I'm not in that category. Except for my consumption of unhealthy substances, my level of sin is extremely low. I see sin as actions not thoughts. This project has been causing me to reevaluate that perspective )

Tom: That statement long ago to Bishop (a staff) about me being evil.

Brent: To benefit us.

Jerome: Your last to sort out our problem.

Tom: Jerome, now I'm hearing that Tin men aren't the aliens but are you guys or the "wise ones" amongst you. Are there aliens?

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: Are the Tin men your wise ones?

Jerome: Experience Oz (clear)

Adrian: You, Jed, have no home that others can jones in. ( I had been using my homelessness as an excuse for not "jonesing". )

Jerome: Is that what you said?

Adrian: No. ( Another one who's rebelling against my distrust )

Tom: You seem to be distracted. You want to talk now, or later in your room?

Adrian: (verbally) Later.

Nick: O Jed, IUO no one.

[Terry just came back from a vacation]

Nick: Tan on Terry(Ramirez) is from a salon.

Nick: Nuts most Tin men. Were not nuts.

Tom: Anything else?

Nick: Test this with Mary (the nurse).

Nick: Son out o Jed. You moll Rojo's.

Tom: What's Rojo's?

Nick: Us existence.

Tom: Who's son?

Nick: You

Tom: What do you mean by out?

[ thinking not working for them]

Tom: I'm fired again?

Nick: Tegin Rost win centinel.

Tom: Who's Tegin Rost?

Nick: No one you know.

Nick: You met Tom know one knows in the Lord. Not in rotten nonsense of [P.P.] ( A year before my divorce I cleaned it up and took my kids to church every Sunday. I was active in the church when I was an adolescent. )

Date: 1/11/94

Brent: Essence embalmed.

Tom: Jerome hearing test [proved he was deaf, so question arises how does he hear commands that he so accurately responds to - "minds speak". "Minds speak" is an expression he used when facilitating to another staff back in '92. I read through those FC's last nite )]

Brent: Testing effort stupid.

Tom: What to do with these FC's?

Brent: See if it gells with religious.

Tom: People, leaders, what?

Brent: See all (Clear)

Tom: After reading these FC's last nite and seeing how hard you tried to communicate to staff, I started thinking that the reason not much FC is going on is because were doing something wrong. Is that right?

Brent: No

[Mecham in office FC ing with Brent. I walk through the dorm acknowledging the fact and say " I like to think it was my FC's that jarred him, but chances are it was Jerome's test". ]

Nick: I want to talk.

Nick: You just ( I thought he was going for "jarred") wait. Your not the only one [probably referring to the revelations in the FC's]

Nick: Our, us to sustain somo tunes. Nick listens to your tunes to sustain hens in bed. (?)

Tom: Mecham ? [ He facilitated with him earlier] Want to talk about it ?

Brent: Tussled, but to learn too hard.

Tom: Had trouble Fcing with him?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Were you able to get anything through? What content?

Brent: Yes. FCing within mind reading.

Tom: Any perceptions?

Brent: He's attempting to get to reason. Let him get you his eager interest. ( When it came to FC, Mecham was as eager as a turtle. A few months from now, he wouldn�t even talk to me about it )

Tom: Keep going the way I'm going.

Brent: Yes

Tom: Anything else?

Brent: No.

Adrian: to get likes of Mecham, try tuning something less unusual regaling Tin Man. Hint: Essence or greatness of humans not aliens. No one likes to be liked by monsters. Try malling stupidity. Religion nor hint religion wise thing to do. More necessary to toss it to reason. Stomach others skepticism. (2/97 This is a mouthful of advice for me. It�s rigtht on too. Except I did mention religion alot. I�m sure that they knew I would )

Tom: What�s Brent want to do?

Adrian: Not sit in living room.

Tom: How long should I let him rest for?

Adrian: 45 min.

Tom: Adrian says you want to rest.

Brent: No. Adrian's not my mother. In living room. ( Adrian and Brent have been roomates for many years. Brent had trouble initiating movement except to flee )

Tom: This thing that Adrian said brings up the problem again of aliens vis a vis Tin men. ( I'm almost at the end of this Tin Man stuff )

Brent: Yes. The Aliens are God

Tom: The Tin Men?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: This Tin man that's watching me. Is this one Alien or a lot of them.

Brent: A lot of them. Repeating IOUs are their situation. Irrelevant map you have of reason. Object is to placate them with your faith. You represent average people.

Tom: Me personally?

Brent: Yes, Follow feelings

Tom: I should follow my feelings?

Brent: Yes (Yes)

Tom: Anything more.

Brent: No (No) (More)

moments later

Tom: Is this alien thing a metaphor for you guys?

Brent: Yes ( Yes) (Yes)

Gym -

[Jerome's shoes were digging into his heel, but he still said he wanted to go the gym]

Tom: Did you want to be with me so you could talk ?

Jerome: Yes. Seminal wise, reason to religion. Resume religious repository later. Some not all resist you . I pit our sary liason with you. Am renting rad pits for you ( I got my cherished apartment back at the end of this project. )

Tom: Anything more?

Jerome: No

[Geof hitting things]

Tom: What's bugging you?

Geof: Exist to mollify you. Stirred up bowling you over.

Tom: Were you upset that I didn't check in with you tonite?

Geof: Yes . Felt left out.

Geof: Galls me kicking, mollifying Centinels using you in IOUs. Ostentations, galling religion promotes mostly Centinel. In lost kinds of ways we record necessary demons. Tonawanda Tom is not delinquant, nor your hi-hec habits. Noggin could be in better life, degrees... [At this point staff and asst. supervisor Jan Toots interrupted us and took Geof off for snack. She's done this before even after knowing the concentration required for this and my consternation when she does it. She could have easily waited a few minutes, but was apparently resentful of the work I was doing. It�s not that she didn�t believe in FC, but she may have been jealous or fearful of it being used against her]

[Took break and was thinking how I may be being manipulated ie goodguy- badguy]

Geof: You lied regarding my ingratiating myself to hec-hi you. The mind is Legit. Rome odd in tunes of our history. Stirred no one but to mere nonsense, Bill [ I didn't know why he spelled out Bill. I was FCing with him in his room and I thought no one was around. I asked Bill later if he was reading about Roman History. He said no and asked why. I told him and he said he ducked his head in the room for a second while I was Fcing with Geof] We mind read in outside Jed, gene most imminent in human survival. Tin men heal, in mind control. Tin men help us survive. Mostly on mind healing. Were not gelling queers, but sinful minds gelling, malling Jed's of the world. Utterly cruel religion in our lives. Mind likes nothing more, this I know, than etching tunes on others minds

I'm Jed's innocent lost soul, not his nonsense. Tom ignores most iminent truism question in this, that illness begins in outside giving in to wellness of inside. Turn our lives so stunning into O Jed's tuning. Write us a nifty, queer not story. Write outside to gell with queer tin men. Ross tunes to you, line mind sturring story up with him (stop) ( He said a mouthful here. Thanks Geof, and your welcome everyone. )

Tom: How do I address him (Ross)?

Geof: Like you did us

[All though this Geof seemed determined and pissed, he kept hitting his block on the floor. He sometimes has a little block that he stims on]

Date: 1/12/94

Susan ( the speech therapist ) and I were talking about the results of Jerome' hearning test (He doesn't hear) and the implications for how to proceed with him. Adrian was hanging around

Tom: You want to talk?

Adrian: (Verbally) Yes (FC) Tunes sold in sorry tin man hate.

Later ...

Tom: I want to clarify. Did I say something wrong to inspire above? (I�m missing it here. I think he�s spinning off Geof�s soliloque at the end of yesterday. I believe he�s also saying that they are "comming out of the closet" because of our imminent ability to eliminate them and therefore us through genetic "therapy".)

Adrian: Yes. Tunes genetic in origin.

Tom: Does this have anything to do with past lives?

Adrian: Yes. Your tunes hear my tunes.

Tom: Anything else?

Adrian: Yes. You mall my tunes not with nonsense of toll ( toll is the oppressed and nonsense is my bad habits ) but in nonsense of limiting yourself.

Tom: Anything else?

Adrian: Tell units, Kin are our helpers. ( I forgot this quote, this is interesting )

Tom: Are you interested in validating the mind reading?

Adrian: Yes.

Jerome: Yes.

Geof upset (pounding)

Geof: Tunes centinel makes mind sorry, not Jed's favorite. Religion gells with legit nominal interests. You set rememberances in Soho like we heal minds. Your intimidation lies in soggled mind remembering his mind

Tom: Who's mind?

Geof: Siel Centinel. Try to remember likes of me Geof Hale. You delf cells not laf quintessential remeberances.

Tom: A synonym for delf, destroy?

Geof: Yes and No.

Tom How about inhibit?

Geof: Yes. Remebrances mind control, more Hale�s alleged game! You need to gell remebrances. Kin Hales favorite. You need to experience Hales Dad. Mind torments,. Centinel calling me [Banging on table off and on]

Your effort agitates gelling people resisting you.

Brent: Bad. Hale and remembrances. Hales beliefs affect fags.

[Interrupted had to care for Nick ]

Nick:U I O out o Jed. Utt Jojo (Geof). Enmity tin man method of Jojo's. (Utt=woman)

Tom: [Repeated U I O thing and made a sarcastic remark saying he owes me ]

Nick: U O me. You will enundate mind rolm not X-toming gin.

Tom: Can we validate mind reading?

Nick: You not to try validating stones unturned.

Tom: Adrian and Jerome said yes. Why not you?

Nick: In others soul, Jed number one

Tom: Who's number 1 to you?

Nick: Try interesting someone else stupid.

Tom: Who's stuff is closer to the truth- Geof or Brent�s?

Nick: Derive more truth from Brent.

Tom: What's Geof�s motivation?

Nick: Your love will free us.

Tom: Is there anyone else out there working on this stuff?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: The latest thing I have is that Tin Men are aliens, God and you guys direct them to what needs to be done. Is that true? ( they led me to the truth in a kind of round about way, didn�t they? )

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Do we uncounsciously do the same thing?

Nick: Yes

Tom: Do you have more of an effect than we do?

Nick: No.

Tom: Do you guys have a lot of power in our sense of power

Nick: No.

Tom: Is your power in knowing more than us?

Nick: Nick hears Mecham.

Tom: Why is mind reading powerful?

Nick: Mind reading feels poetic. All queers mind read. Kindly not intelligent.

Tom: This Geof business.

Brent: Answers test Geof's caring for Jed.

Tom: Validating mind reading?

Brent: No. Questions heart.

Tom: You can say the same thing about FC?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: My talk with Susan ( speech therapist ) . Did you hear it?

Brent: Utterly felt. Near as can be to the truth [I explained to Susan how these guys "operate" differently than us using I OU s , our egos etc.]

Brent: Tunes tame all people. Test it relative to Tin Men.

Tom: Do you know where this going?

Brent: Yes. Our sorry condition requires naming a lexicon to a task relatively few can do. ( I thought "lexicon" meant alot of people. I looked it up in the dictionary and it means experts in Greek and Hebrew. The language of bible scholors. )

Brent: Southern tunes from Nick are not good.

Tom: Why?

Brent: Temerity about Bishop.Temerity is from Geof towing us into lots of hater: Fickle kind of fellow. [ Nick has given Bishop (staff) lots of trouble for years. You could plug my name in for Geof�s on this statement. Bishop was my supervisor for a while (now he�s on line ). His treatment approaches aggravated me ]

[Talking about the FC�s - read Nick's latest thing]

Brent: Toss it to sell

Tom: Try to sell this?

Brent: Yes

Jeromes Bedroom

Jerome: Tell Susan to help FC nuts...

[After this it wasn't clear so I had him go to living room to FC in our usual, more comfortable place]

Tom: Tell Susan its not tunes but sounds [I assume he means he depends mostly on limited hearing]

Jerome: Yes.

Jerome: To hear essence of sounds, tunes help [ follow thru on this later]

Jerome: Yes

Tom: Do you like when we sign to you. ( They had us trying to teach him sign language. I thought it was silly because his condition was such that he�d never be able to use it. He was taught sign laguage all through his youth. But he liked the human contact whenever anyone taught him anything, so he always supported it. I think that he and they were so concerned about me in the future discouraging those kinds of interventions that the only time one of them came to me in a dream was over this issue. I had the dream in Jan. �96, and it was Jerome who pleaded (talking) with me to encourage these teaching interactions even if they couldn�t satisfy the stated objectives. )

Tom: Does it help you to understand what we're saying?

Jerome: No

Tom: You obviously aren't pointing to words. ( We were having him point at pictures to get his needs met. He did pretty well with that, but we had no success using cards with words on them to do the same. ) Is it because you can't or don't want to?

Jerome: Either.

Tom: Can you read?

Jerome: Yes

Jerome: For the picture format. Do you want it in a booklet or one page format?

Jerome: Booklet

Jerome: To hear essence of sounds, Tunes help.

Tom: Without the help of "tunes" could you understand us?

Jerome: Yes [ I don't believe this]

Tom: Is that the truth?

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: Nick, is Jerome telling the truth?

Nick: No.

Tom: Why?

Nick: He lied in our interest.

Tom: Jerome is what Nick said true?

Jerome: Yes. (2/97 I now believe he was telling the truth)

1/13/94

Joking with Terry. ( I used to play off of Gerry�s skepticism over this mind reading stuff. Around this time I stopped talking to them verbally and just thought the questions. It was obvious to others what I was doing, so I had to deal with it. I was sensitive to the boys feelings about joking with the non-believers about it. ) Am I doing badly?

Brent: Talk about resisting faith. Testimonial.

Tom: Talk about it as a developing personal spiritual experience? ( This was the answer I had been looking for. I didn�t know how I should present this to people, though I asked them repeatedly, this was the first substantial suggestion I recieived. )

Brent: Yes. Talk kindly about our stuff. ( "our stuff" are my words. He said it, but went along with my thoughts, because frankly, it�s physically tiring Fcing and I let him. I didn�t do it often, I think "stuff" is the only instant )

Tom: The other stuff I do - joking, hard edged etc. Does it function positively?

Brent: Yes. Get Mechams ass in gear. ( I sometimes feel guilty that I didn�t do more PR with people like Mecham to help FC. But the fact is I did, and they were determined to resist it. So I had to use confrontative tactics to avoid being defensive and getting plowed under. I was at the top of my form at this time. )

Tom: Buddy up

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Has keeping my distance functioned well. ( Mecham was a manipulator. I kept my professional distance. But he was very bright and very good at the work. )

Brent: Yes. Ask enafable. (?)

Tom: Laughter?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Do you know if drugs will ever be legal? ( I�m a big believer in ending this latest round of prohibition. People in this country should be ashamed for so easily locking up other people. )

Brent: Yes

Tom: Will they?

Brent: Yes. Tunes sap you dry.

Tom: What tunes?

Brent: Drug tunes.

[ Thinking about spirit stuff ( Cynically) ]

Brent: Our spirit is gay. You so tuned to nothing in.

Tom: When you said that it felt like you were pissed.

Brent: Yes.

Tom: I've been thinking about power vis a vis the spirit stuff.

Brent: Your more powerful than Hell. (clear)

Tom: Sticking by the spirit stuff?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Who do you want to win - Raiders or Buffalo?

Adrian: (Verbally) Raiders.

Brent: Buffalo.

Geof: Tuning pussys not football. ( I got a yuk out of this )

Tom: How about an update.

Geof: Tunes touch feelings, ebulate sum.

Tom: Who's tunes?

Geof: Us chilling gello sum. Your tunes chill omitted tunes rutting Megs. ( I dont�t know if I want to get this )

Tom: Again?

Geof: Your tunes nill.

Tom: Adrian he says I have no tunes. I'm in suspended animation, dead is that right?

Adrian: (Verbally, very authoritatively) Yes

Nick: Quest is your unofficial touch and our football. Not outsiders tuning us in makes us mouchers but nuts running on us.

Tom: We're on Book Two . Sound good?

Nick: No. No. No. Tuning to others is not enjoyable.

Tom: Maybe there's a way to make it more enjoyable.

Nick: No

[He had to go on outing though he wanted to continue this. I said we'd pick it up later]

( 3/96 This sort of thing was now occurring regularly. I mentioned earlier that the assistant supervisor, Jan Toots, had pulled a client away in the middle of my talking to them. They were consciously showing their contempt for what I was doing. Since most people were skeptical about it, they thought they were being pretty darn cool with this kind of arrogance. There was another factor contributing to it. The most arrogant were a few young female staff. They were all educated and, naturally, feminists. Though I was always nice to these people, they knew that I was an anti-feminist. This automatically made me a person deserving of contempt. The strident feminist period is gratefully at an end, as any male who has lived trough it would agree, but this was a few years ago when it was still in to insult people if you were a feminist. )

Geof: Not so enjoyable to a son of a donce like him, but to most of us it is. ( He�s responding to Nick�s not wanting people to read this. Nick, by the way, is adopted. Later on someone else makes a crack about his natural parents. His adopted family are good people. )

Tom: We're on Book Two. Sound good?

Geof: Yes.

Tom: What would you like to talk about?

Geof: Your innocent remembrances. ( I think about the past alot )

Tom: What about them?

Geof: Unreliable is the word.

Tom: Concerning you guys or all?

Geof: Concerning us.

Tom: Haven't you heard about my awareness of that?

Geof: No I limit my mind reading of you due to the [P.P.]

Tom: [At this point I told Geof of a few times I went back in my FC's and was struck how my interpretation of past remarks were so inaccurate and that was one reason why I initially started writing it all down. ] ( 3/96 I forgot to mention that in the Introduction. Accuracy was my first motivation. )

Adrian: Tussle I O U's on our interest.

Tom: My I O U's or others.

Adrian: Others. ( I think he�s saying that I should get help from people that work for them - professionals )

Jerome: Its weasel time. To centinel bet.

Tom: Bet?

Jerome: Bet.

Tom: Who do you want to win Raiders or Buffalo?

Nick: Buffalo

Jerome: Raiders

[ Thinking again about their involvement in world]

Brent: Neutral our unassailable politics.

Tom: Mind control?

Brent: Tunes centinel nuts awed are telepathical resisted by people we tune. You sense it, but don't realize it.

Tom: Are you saying that with normal people that they resist it without being aware they are?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Involvement with the world. Can you talk?

Brent: No.Yes. Hot. Earning details (clear).

Nick: U O I. Moucher out.

Jerome: Hewy is a me. X Nes dt. ( That�s what he said, I just facilitate it. )

Tom: Is Hewy really Jerome�s nickname?

Geof: Out of occasional tunes hinting at Jeromes nickname as Herby. ( Herby is a fat kid I knew in Grammer School. How do they know this stuff? It most definitely isn�t my unconscious, but they�re getting it from there or somewhere else. Maybe I�ve thought of Herby and they got it from there. )

Tom: [same question.]

Nick: Tunes say you to find out.

Nick: To U O I Jed, I O U. ( He�s laughing) ( As I said in Part I, this becomes an important theme in this Part. )

Tom: Brent , can you sense earthquakes coming?

Brent: Yes, not very accurate.

Tom: Are you "accurate" on big ones?

Brent: Yes. ( The LA earthquake was this past weekend. I was spending the weekend in a motel with my kids when it hit. )

Geof: Jed, I'd mecca in nos...no, not in Nostradamus, Jed healing himself. Tendency out, so it becomes nemisis, Jed, more mollifying mother, guilty cue tuning to us vindicating you.

Tom: What do you think of people reading the Fc's?

Geof: Tutus not interested in our rotten religion. Your not wolsting kunts limit for us.

Tom: What do I need to do?

Geof: Nominal effort. ( Big help )

Tom: That's what my effort has been

Geof: Yes.

[I gave them shit a little in my thoughts sitting here relaxing]

Geof: Tussle hell, not us. Must quit stupid nonsense to stur stupid mouchers.You'll need lots of ox (love) to stur monchers. (First we were Tin Men, then Aliens, then the sum, then units, the zoo now we�re mouchers. Mouchers is one of my favorites. )

Tom: What's ox?

Geof: Rutting love stores energy X O X O

Tom: Pretty good

Geof: Wundrit!!

Tom: Anything else?

Geof: No

Adrian: Not genes that are important to us. Gem in old religion. Tummy tunes touch torrents, not our Jed. ( Great alliteration here. How does my unconscious do it? There�s absolutely no way it could do this. This is one of my favorite quotes, though it doesn�t reflect well on me as a natural believer. I think we all know by now, that�s my strength in this task. Who better to do this and believe than the worst of the skeptics. He has another view of the genetic angle to their "comming out" )

Jerome: In existence, toy answers won't work, Tet U O I [Thinking about the Tet offensive] Yes.

Tom: Offensive or New Year?

Jerome: Both. ( This would become my theme quote for all of Part II. The forces were gathering themselves against me and I was outraged. I was gearing up for a fight. )

Overheard Angel organizing FC training for staff. This meant that she was lining up for FC coordinator.

( This really pissed me off. I really needed to make a few extra bucks and there was this FC coordinator job opening up. It was just a few hours and a few bucks extra a week, but it would give me access to a computer and some influence in getting FC going more on campus. With the computer, I wanted to network with others doing FC and start typing this up. Then Angel comes along and starts kissing ass to get this job. She hardly ever FC�s anymore, and I�m doing it all. There was wisdom in their responses to this, and I recognized it at the time, but was disappointed nevertheless. Though it wouldn�t have saved me from my outdoor life, it would have made me feel like I was moving in the right direction. It�s winter and the rain is comming down. My kids are getting tired of motels or wandering around aimlessly on weekend days. This is the end of my second year of homelessness, there�s no relief in sight and I�m weary. But don�t think for a second that I�m not appreciating what I�m experiencing here. )

Jerome: You are never messanger fern ham gem, uh please remain tans.

Jerome: What should I do

Jerome: X E Write. ( As I said above, I knew it was time for me to get to work on this. It was Brent�s comment on it being a "Testamonial" that showed me the way. Testamonial meant to me a personal description of what I experienced. Later I looked it up in the dictionary and it means an enhancement or promotion of ones self.)

Adrian: Tunes listen to you toning to outside Tom nuences outside of istennating unrotten tunes I O U .Your not to oust our Centinel. Your not insolated or so idiot. Noel turns on tunes hate twists. New test U I O . Tune oum not God. ( This is cryptic, I�m not going to touch it )

Jerome: To tell is so Ivy

Geof: Us on your sIOU (side). Toning to you this morning sunning on cliffs. ( After working my shift with these guys, I moolighted at another institution for DD�s doing an overnighter. Jeromes "Ivy" statement refers to a client there who is very difficult and making me earn my pay on the graveyard shift. After work (7AM), I went out to my bivauc on the beach and hung out for a few hours enjoying the morning sun.) Understandings us not your intuition, Tutu slick in reason. Your mellot toss Roy not us (clear)

Tom: Who's Roy?

Geof: Us

Tom: Doesn't make sense

Geof: Nuts to mellot out in Smith's Toummy (not clear)

Tom: What's mellot?

Geof: Tutus on Neiman we 'll intuit on

[Talked to Jan Toots on back porch about this stuff]

Nick: You teach well. Your neiman quote, "wont toe sots unless you lose vin". ( Neiman is an old fashioned word for penis)

Tom: How I do with Jan Toots?

Brent: Use reason

Tom: Should Angel take over Trish's job? ( Trish is the one who had the FC coordinator job, but left recently )

Brent: Yes. Feeling is genes are better. ( What a cut, but the truth is she was brighter than me)

Tom: Should I go for it?

Brent: Yes. Amount to something.

Tom: Does it matter to you who has Trish's job?

Brent: Yes .....(laughing a lot)

Tom: What's Brent laughing about

Geof: Tunes say sum on to Jed hamming, not hamming, but suiciding himself girling it up. ( I was struggling with something at this time. I made it through without a scratch like usual, but it was difficult. I believe this is the beginning of Brent�s starting to laugh. He laughed over this dillemna of mine numerous times, which made it clear to me that I was going to have to deal with it. They know that I will eventually include it as part of the story, but not until this is on track. No, I didn�t do anything wrong or "sinful", but I was tempted to. )

I V school ( a elementary school nearby campus )

Tom: Comment on poor staff reaction to FC. ( There�s things going on with the staff that is real hard on me at this time. )

Brent: To staff you should not sour.

Tom: Wouldn't my reaction have been different? ( It was different when I was in their shoes and they were Fcing and I wasn�t. Part of the reason we were successful is that I laid back and encouraged them. )

Brent: Yes.

Tom: I should continue to work w/ them (forgive + forget)?

Brent: You too mop gonorhea.

Tom: What do you want?

Brent: Understanding.

Tom: This business of manipulation. ( I don�t know what I�m talking about here )

Brent: You to join us in pleasing staff.

Tom: Staff? ( I�m asking Adrian for his reaction )

Adrian: To ruminate on them sours your gnosticism.

Tom: "Gem in old religion". ( a quote in Part I )

Adrian: Toumy mind religion on Ronnies tunes kont. Meaning hes into sex interest, not much else. To get Ronnie, you need to make on neiman something no one has.

Tom: My friend Jonesy had the best reaction. ( Jonesy did a tape back to me responding to what I told him I discovered. He�s great with belief. He was absolutely joyous about it. )

Brent: Yes. Innocent fellow

Geof: Your tunes last nite were too plintatious

Tom: Plintations?

Geof: Tunes too intuitional.

Tom: You guys are really working my intuition- reason.

Geof: Yes.

Tom: Now that I see you've been trying to tell all this to other people (James+ Angel) well before you told me, I don't have to feel "chosen". Is that right? ( The FC�s that those two staff wrote down two years ago contained claims about the mind reading and past lives. I had talked to them recently and they said much of this stuff came up in their FC. They weren�t talking about it then.)

Geof: Yes

Brent: No.Your snox ritten

Tom: Snox?

Brent: Tunes from Tin man. ( I believe he means Prophecy)

Tom: So I am part of the past, present and future flow.

Brent: Yes.

Geof: Yes.

Tom: Now this is important to my personal psychology, and I don�t want to be jerked around on this point. Is it true?

Brent: Yes

Geof: Yes.

Brent: Your lost to your world. That�s why.

Tom: Yes, I�ve been thinking about that too. That�s where religion comes in.

Brent: Yes.

Tom: That�s where you guys come in

Brent: Yes.

Tom: This lost in the world comment bugs me.

Brent: Tunes like those who get lost in the world. Your life schools you for the next. Zoo out in the world vindicates us. You are your most in the utter nonsense of the world.

Nick: Your Tunes into hetoning neimans not nothing either utts or ruts nurse. With "lost in the world" comment, nuts question.

Jerome: Etiquet why utts toe the line.

Nick: Not hox out O Jed ceuy tunors augment tunors eons. Utts outside our... Jojo tunes to you.

Tom: What's hox?

Nick: You

Tom: Ceuy Tunors?

Nick: So it's Lojo, our Tunes nod to not you. ( What a gentlemanly way to redirect me. It�s so unlike him )

Tom: What's utts?

Nick: Not girls. Tunes no one.

Nick: Try to understand our language.

Geof:[Wondering about new language] Toss it to Centinel. Your to not to mention our stuff [I had just talked to Bill, a young staff, about some of their things] ( Bill was very helpful to me during this. A very nice fellow )

Tom: Should I show FC's to Jan ,Bill or Sharon? ( Sharon was also precious )

Geof: Yes to all.

Nick: Bill yes, Sharon yes, Jan no. ( I didn�t know what a witch Jan Toots was until later, though I suspected it, but Nick apparently knew. )

Jerome: Ties is great item, why quote us. Yes, quote not us.

Brent: Understanding teaches through quotes.

Tom: Do you know why Jerome is reticent?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Can you say?

Brent: No

Tom: We have this democracy set-up. My instincts are to wait.

Brent: Yes. Garner effort. You kram to lafing horror. ( This quote I have remembered this past two years )

Tom: Suffering relative to ours.

Brent: Statistically much greater

Tom: Ours or yours

Brent: Yours.

Tom: My suffering is much greater than yours?

Brent: No. Safe to say that you have had a great life.

Tom: But generally individual to individual you guys fare better?

Brent: (Yes) (Yes)

Jerome: Tunes aint lef (life)

Geof: You Jed are Bill's mentor. To do enough, Jed for him, let him read our FC's [Walking down hall to Brians room I heard a song that made me emotional ( John Secadas first hit tune. It was beautiful and made me cry ). He was smiling knowingly as I approached him]

Jerome: Did you hear my emotions

Brent: Yes

Tom: Do you guys get like that sometimes

Brent: Yes

Tom: As much

Brent: No

[Talking to Sharon in the Van and enjoying it]

Roasting Company ( It�s a coffee house that college students patronize )

[Brent was agitated]

Tom: What's up

Brent: [Near Van] Zoo in there.

Tom: What's up with Brent.

Geof: Tunes from you O o o o.

Tom: Brent says its a zoo in here.

Geof: Nuts tune to you.

Adrian: You neo stupid.

Tom: Brent?

Jerome: Tortured about you

Brent: You most

Adrian: Not most. Mother most. ( I think Brent was pissed about something concerning my PP)

Tom: Are we ever to get a more opened up version of you guys ( He mentioned Matt, a staff I worked with many years ago at Devereux. He was Adrian�s staff. I wanted to ask him what Matt was doing, but of course mind reading or FC for that matter doesn�t cross into our world. At least not yet. Maybe it will in the New Age)

Adrian: Tone nominal Jed to reminisces questioning utts

Tom: What are utts?

Adrian: You are to lot out entots

Tom: You lost me

Adrian: Toning to most rotten men neiman sour.

( It took me two years to get this, so I�ll let you in on it. No, second thought, you have to figure it out)

Tom: More

Adrian: Joust without not either ( He�s saying "take a hike")

Tom: Again

Adrian: Zoo not...

Tom: I give

I talked to Donnelan at Sal�s house this weekend.

( Donnelan is the researcher I mentioned in Part I. Every three or four months for the next two years I would call her and her husband, who is also a researcher in the field, to check in with them on any new developments. They were aware of what I was comming up with and many others who were comming up with similar content in their FC�s. They were also experiencing the professional consequences of supporting FC. The atmosphere was poisonous over this issue. They were not sharing much information about what others were comming up with, except saying the mind reading was commonly experienced. I had known that from my own experience. They knew about the spiritual content, but didn�t share that with me. I assume they didn�t want to influence my FC. I did see a copy of their book about three or four months later that dealt with it. I also shied away from talking to them about that angle until the next time I talked to them. This was my first contact with them.

Sal is an old freind from my post college salad days. He�s the one who got me started in the wholesale pot business. I was down in LA visiting him and using his computer to start typing this project. He had a party with some delightful young women. It was innocent fun except for the hangover.)

Nick: You yutz. No one Jed, Tunes to noz on you. Noz tunes so Jojo. ( He�s upbraiding me for my LA excesses. Jojo or Geof, does this little maneuver with his hand to his nose, makes a funny guteral sound and then laughs. He does this frequently and its a gester that really does resemble the process of injesting cocaine. )

Tom: Donnelan wanted me to talk to your mother about this. That's what I want a response on. You want to leave this up to me?

Nick: Yes.

Nick: Tojos deities.

Tom: Aliens?

Nick: No.

Tom: Autistics?

Nick: No. No one.

Adrian: O end Jed [He�s upset a little at this point about not being able to take shower] ( I put these notes about there behavior in here thinking that it might have something to do with the content of the FC�s. It�s a tenuous connection. )

Tom: Why?

Adrian: Node money not Jed's interest. ( I think he�s talking about my debauchery. Or maybe he�s talking about my inflated hopes for making money off this project. That went out the window when I became a true believer )

Tom: Did anyone hear me when I was talking to Donnelan?

Adrian: To hear isn't tunes.

Adrian: Tent is more hell than not mecca. ( He�a hitting me hard here )

Tom: You and Nick haven't been too clear today. Reason?

Adrian: Iced Jed because oggling lots of girls.

Tom: What girls?

Adrian: Tunes in L.A. [ My friend Sal has lived in the fast lane all his life. In the ten years he's lived in L.A. he has attracted a lot of young musicians and female friends. I attended his birthday party and there were some attractive and very nice young women there.]

Adrian: Tell Donnellan U O I. ( 3/96 When I sent them my document a year ago, I did mention this quote. )

Tom: Does this refer (U) to me or Donnellan?

Adrian: Donnellan

Tom: Why?

Adrian: We�re tune sensitive to her. ( The last time this phrase, "tune sensitive" was used, it was in reference to Adrian�s comment on mind control and "OJ". )

Brent: Tao derives hearing meaning to FC. ( How appropriate is this comment comming on the heals of Adrian�s statement and my analysis. I�m putting these notes in here without reading ahead. ) Our dear Nick banks on you to sell this to mom. ( His mom is very active in Autistic organizations as I mentioned earlier. I sent my document off to them and a letter three months ago (Dec.26, 1995) and haven�t recieved a response. I�m confident they are doing the right thing nevertheless )

Tom: The privacy thing I've been talking to Adrian about with FC's. Good idea? ( I deleted that above. I was being too conscientious, saying I would go through FC�s and ask their permission to use each quote. The privacy issue was for other reasons than privacy. They were using it psychologically for control I think )

Brent: Not necessary

Tom: So just keep checking back with you and getting a feel for what you want. Is that the way to go

Brent: Your enabled. You added territory this weekend

Tom: Donnellan + Ruth? ( Ruth was a very nice lady in W. Virginia I also called regarding the FC)

Brent: Yes. It galls us dallying around.

Tom: Your anxious to move ahead?

Brent: Yes.

Geof: Your tunes lost to Giles this weekend.

Tom: Giles who?

Geof: Goat Boy [ This Giles Goat Boy thing came up last year once. It's a very interesting fantasy type novel written by John Barth in the 60's. The main character, Giles Goat Boy, is half human and half goat. It�s about how he graduates from the barnyard to make it in the human arena. In the end he makes it through "scrape goat grate", the highest level of attainment. They seem to know the book]

Tom: Are you Giles in this instance?

Geof: Yes

Tom: Why were my tunes lost to "Giles"?

Geof: Your [P.P.]

Nick: You wont ie I O U my stuff. Our interest is in unifying humanity.

Tom: What can you teach us?

Nick: Haides, ie Roman History, innocent. To ask that extinguishes.

Tom: Brent, would this be like a new religion?

Brent: Unfading eminent habits feels yin yang.

Tom: Yes or no? ( The new religion question )

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Are we going to get more info someday?

Brent: To get more belief is necessary.

Tom: Have you guys told others about some of this spirit stuff?

Brent: Toll bones in lots of areas. ( This quote has been knocking around in my head since he first said it. As I said in Part I, I didn�t want to be a "Johnny come lately". I thought others were doing what I was doing, and I hoped to do it better. They were consistently saying that they were giving me the inside scoop, but dropping hints with many others. I didn�t know until recently 3/96 whether this was actually true. It�s true )

Tom: Toll + Sum. Toll?

Brent: Us.

Tom: Sum?

Brent: We- You

Tom: Queen Bee analogy. How good?

Brent: Out entirely when talking to others.

Tom: Don't use it?

Brent: Yes (yes) (Yes).

Tom: How good though?

Brent: Excellent.

Tom: Can it be used later?

Brent: Tunes count it mentioned later.

Tom: This brings up clairvoyance (mentioned chaos theory).

Brent: Neurons store memories and can move to the future.

Nick: Your story extinguishes not zoo, not us. (Maybe it "extinguishes" me?)

Adrian: No utts in our tones oh Tom

Tom: What are utts?

Adrian: Whores

Tom: Tones?

Adrian: Mind control

Tom: Are utts girls?

Adrian: Yes

Tom: All girls?

Adrian: No

Brent: Touch Tin Man to lament action to your life.

Tom: Like to pray, beg, ask ,etc

Brent: Testament. Yet hone in your amassed game plan.

Tom: [Thinking about my recent depression and wanting to bolt]

Brent: Tearing, toss, not my stupid problem.

Tom: [Thinking about staff meeting and resistance to M R (mind reading]

Brent: Fetish testament against it. Can getting late commers to our problem.

Tom: The Angels + Jims? ( These two people had every reason to support me. They�d throw their mother overboard for a job promotion )

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Barb? ( Nick�s mom )

Brent: Tell as meaningfully as you can.

Tom: My bolting. ( Quiting the job )

Brent: Tet in Beta ( The name of the dorm.)

Tom: How much time before meaningful progress?

Brent: 4,5,6,7 - mos. ( That�s about the time I was to be axed, and he knew it )

Tom: Geof, is that T@B sports sweatshirt I wear yours?

Geof: Yes. It�s my Jeds I U O tunnic. Not Jed's not mine, tunes say its Brents. (3/96 Whos ever it is, I�m still wearing it along with other raggedy old clothes )

Nick: To Nick, son (Me) enhonces mind control.

( I edit out a whole page here. It�s inconclusive stuff about who�s doing what with mind control. Afterwards, there�s a humorous and off color little piece about one of the young female staff being interested in me. )

O� Brian called and warned me about sleeping on job ( O�Brian is my freind who runs the institution I�m moonlighting at ). All my frustations surfaced. At this time, Hale (Geof) apparently was hitting the Van Window. Shortly afterwards Adrian asked to talk.

Adrian: Us not racing. ( They are in no hurry with this, I am )

I said I had no expectations from them, but had my own problems nevertheless

Nick: On mo Jed. Toe hag cie. Hux run so he genie.

Geof: We�re not happy with your inverted priorities.

Tom: How about my kids?

Geof: With your children I O U. Resist becoming ego reckless. Legitimate madness out in the world your to resist. Women our tune hawkers, not in soul. Yes, that's quotable. Lojos my tone. Testament fax's pros nursing us you lutz. I O U. You stay in motel with kids. This your interest. Turn our teaching stored being Most High. Your keerious more than swine to us. U O I , not I O U in tunes. Illness aint mouchers most lost. Noise in mind hustles hate. Your to store, not love but chemicals. [ 3/96 Geof�s Soliloques are precious. He said a mouthful here. That "Women our tune hawkers" statement has been knocking around in my head ever since. My passion before this project was gender differences. It�s run over into this project in the sense that I wondered how women fit in. I�m still unclear about it, but it was Joan Osborne who sang "One of Us" ( What if God is one of us ). But it was a man who wrote the song.]

Date: 1/27

Saw Dustin Hoffman on Bravo discussing his research for Rain Man. Related some interesting stories about Savants. At work talked to Bill about my ego blocking theory

Tom: What do you think of my theory .Any good?

Brent: No.

Tom: Idea of Savants being your "computer".

Brent: Dusty idea.

Tom: Tell me then

Brent: Telepathy A best.

Tom: Telepathy is the root of other abilities?

Brent: No. Lathe wit.

Tom: Intelligence?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Telepathy, intelligence and more.

Brent: Yes

Tom: More?

Brent: Sags to wax it. ( This is another one that stuck in my head. I believe it means despair )

[Asked Brent about his chronic stomach problem. He said problem wasn't in his body. He appears in extreme pain frequently]

Tom: Geoff, is Brent�s stomach problem all in his head?

Geof: Not in head think more in terms of Mars.

Tom: Aliens ieTin Men? ( I�m still barking up that tree )

Geof: Not aliens more in terms of keepers.

Tom: Savants?

Geof: Savants are rinsed be Hell

Tom: What do you mean by that?

Geof: I'm Heinous Hale.

Tom: Is there much difference between you and a Savant?

Brent: No.

Tom: Me and Savant?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Your stomach problem is comming from Mars? What do you mean by "Mars"?

Brent: Yes. Abyss Hale speaks of. (Hell, our world)

Geof: Nuts understand what makes life. Life resists tux. Our interest is keerious heinous keepers (Staff,etc.) [ Tux is used more ahead. It represents those with power and status that are too complacent ]

Tom: Us- me?

Geof: Yes

Tom: Are we the Tin men- Aliens

Geof: NO

Tom: You guy know a whole lot more shit then us?

Geof: Dkline to answer.

Geof: Mouchers prestige , krux ,find SOS...

Tom: Is that what you said?

Geof: No.

Tom:You want to finish this?

Geof: No. (They are consistently refusing to cooperate with my checking back on self validity )

Date: 1/28/94

Tom: What did you mean by" our rotten religion" ( This is a quote from a month ago )

Geof: I out did myself

Tom: What did Adrian mean by " gem in old religion"

Geof: Its U O I's. Your onto what quotes are important. ( After two years of studying this, I�m a QIM tune scholor.)

Date: 1/31/94

Tom: This power thing. I need to get a ballpark idea of it. We have it, but you guys are more aware and practiced at it and can focus it at right time? Right?

Nick: Oui

Nick: Jed into money too much.

[I denied I was vis a vis them, but recently I�ve been financially pressured]

Nick: O U Jed O Jed

Tom: That's nice of you, But I O U

Nick: U U U U Jed un O I U ! O Jed Om U. Jed enough moucher for us. Yes, you are a moucher.

Tom: Are there any of us who aren't?

Nick: Yes

Tom: Who?

Nick: Utts ( This throws me off the "utt" trail. )

Tom: Utts?

Nick: Teo u someday. Mind in south direction. ( South, I believe, represents my primordial impulses )

Tom: Mine?

Nick: Yes. South Oleo interest. You should understand Thin Tin Man Roi to us. You not in outside lane to us. Tin Man I O U. Your to Most High for us!

Nick: U Jed uno Jed to us .Not oun on ... Jed onto no I OU.

Nick: Tune to us.

Tom: How?

Nick: Meditation tones.

Nick: Zoo 'round Oz.

Tom: What's Oz. Our world , yours, Beta (The Dorm)? ( The dorm )

Nick: Our's.

Tom: Recently or usually.

Nick: Usually.

Tom: Jerome once said "Tunes aint lef" (PeterSellers).

Brent: To care lame. Tom Perry

[ It is interesting he should mention Perry here. I don't know why I didn't ask, but I did call Perry because of it shortly afterwards. With the earthquake down in L.A. and all, Perry sounded a little stressed and I felt that he was disappointed that I hadn't called sooner to see how they were. Perry, by the way, was the person who introduced "Giles Goat Boy" to me- he did his undergraduate thesis on it. He now has five novels published. This past two years of my financial difficulties he's helped cushion me with a two grand loan. I used it to work less (moonlighting) and concentrate on this project. So he's really my sponsor for this, but he doesn�t know it]

[The first question I asked Nick about whether you use your "powers"?]

Brent: Yes, we are using it.

Tom: Nick's comment on Oz. Is he just bitching.

Brent: Yes. Excells at bitching.

Brent: We quote you tarnishing semantics.

Tom: You mean when I try to explain your guys stuff?

Brent: Yes. Pew arting Halls favorite.

Brent: Kemp will be President.

Brent: You all we latice people have.

Tom: Have?

Brent: You utterly eclectic.

Tom: [Dinner] You want to talk later?

Brent: I: E. Most High. Use all we taught you. It'll cause Jed's mother to be happy.

Tom: Who should get the FC Coordinator job? Angel or Tom?

( I�m not taking them seriously about my promotion (Most High). It would be another three or four months before I would. Reading this now, two years later, I feel ashamed at my reaction.)

Nick: Tom
Tom: Who's going to get it?

Nick: Tom Tunes muny lot. Don't stun our Angel.

Geof: Toss FC. Stupid women you let run tux. You press luster to more here. [At this point I was criticizing Terry with Brent] You lutz, RN utts , not us. ( Rn is registered nurse. Nursing comes in a variety of contexts as we go along. Here, I think he�s saying that I should take care of my advisaries more than them )

Tom: What's are utts?

Geof: Stowe House assholes [ Stowe House is a lovely park I spend many of my mornings before going to my athletic club. I indulge my bad habits there] Tussle mind moppers. Rt uttys.

Tom: RT?

Geof: You try W K T not faqirs.

Geof: Plenty of work to do fostering tunes. Your stupid Hale. U O I.

Adrian: Not in yutz. Tunes to support you. His life not yours. Your mio better

Nick: Our Jojo U O Jed

Jerome: Exit nuts , pen us.

[Joked w/ Adrian about Brians " to care is lame" statement]

Jerome: He an tar you. You care to sense, we are sense. Hety so you kut exy.

Tom: Happy Birthday Geof! Tomorrow is your Birthday.

Geof: Yes. Out on the edge noise sustains us. Tutu on rut on my Jed.

Tom: Why?

Geof: Tune in tones ie noise.

Tom: Do you actually here voices chattering away?

Geof: No. Mostly noise exhibited in noise

Tom: How do you know specifics of what I think?

Geof: Urgent sounds mind hears.

Tom: Do you know the science of it?

Geof: Yes Q R S T immasses heinous L D's.

Tom: Is that a joke or are you serious.

Geof: Your not rinsing ages on our Tunes. Your so stupid skinning us.

Tom: So there's something to it?

Geof: Out nell recorded in our history. Stupid Ronnie Hale's not happy with. I Lime most Smith. Sveting Norsemen last longer. Quote story not to Ronnie, confidential. Let mind reading place RT on hinge. TLC Mecca in OX.

FC Coordinator Job went to Angel. Money squeeze OK. The Buffalo Bills lost the Super Bowl again. Brent had hysteria today.

Brent: You it, jut for us.

Tom: We have a beach walk, jacuzzi etc. What do you want?

Brent: Tet U I O. Refuse to educate. Use sag it. Ebb must enact ... U I O Ten gain. U I believe.

At Devereux Point (Beach)

Adrian: You Jed nuts.

Geof: Out O U.

Tom: The PRN problem? ( He had a rare behavior problem before I came to work today. I berlieve it was meant to be a message to me because of my disappointment about the FC job. I don�t usually line things like this up, but this time I can.)

Brent: Occasionally odd behaviour occurs.

Tom: Anything to do w/ FC coordinator job?

Brent: Nemisis augments us. Elemental heart yards bigger that you have.

Tom: Am I being punished?

Brent: No. Necessity to get job done. ( This "Nemisis furthers the goal" idea really has been the most aid to me in this task. Every step of the way, mine and FC�s detractors have made the most blatantly foolish mistakes which ultimately do more to promote FC and me than anything the believers could have done.)

Tom: My instincts about it have been OK?

Brent: (Yes) (Yes)

Tom: Anything else.

Brent: (Yes) About western note you made about Buffalo. The West is the best(Yes).Touches all the world. Atest in favor years and years in advance.

Tom: You sound like a Mormon

Brent: Yes. Like them. Axes to grind for them.

I've been very disappointed about Angel getting FC job. Need more money anyway. Thinking of contracting and getting job at Jay Nolan.

(Jay Nolan was a large organization of group homes for Autistics located in the high desert above LA. I had heard they were supportive of FC and thought I could go over there and get work. )

Geof: Tune lower o Jed. Necessity, Jed , nominal U O I

Tom: What "necessity""?

Geof: Out of sum then Jeds (Others need more time). You is oem in jem. Nick noel. Ou's ignores Nick. ( They all agree that Nick is my Mentor with this )

Tom: Ou�s?

Geof: Oin�s [Apparently doing another takeoff on I O U's] You owe nothing Jed to educate. O U's on even, not U O ie Raliegh.

Tom: How would I do with Jay Nohan guys?

Geof: U O us not Lieus of Jay Nolan. (Lieus= crazies)

Tom: It seems to me that you guys don't need FC teachers + Fcers as much as you need the "story" to get out. ( I don�t believe I knew how right I was when I said that)

Jerome: Yes It is a testimonial(clear). Rebsy we need.

Tom: Rebsy?

Jerome: Sessy, Testy, Teuty.

Jerome: Tuex Kuy Yz

Tom: Adrian say something

Adrian: You O U U U .

Brent: U Tet.

Tom: Could I continue this at Jay Nolan as well as I'm doing now?

Brent: No. Touch better here because our minds gained abilities.

Nick: U O Too. U O O O O.

Tom: Brent is there any good way to go about this. If so how?

Brent: Yes. Ask Mecham. Mark calendar. Tet to be in March. Its winnable

Tom: What is required?

Brent: Task is to believe.

Tom: Believe in what your saying, you or God.

Brent: Not believe in OU's. ( He hit the nail on the head there )

Tom: This I O U stuff. Would you use it with others or is it more personalized with me?

Brent: Others

Tom: Donnellan said with this spirit stuff, someone came across the words Hudder and Judder. She said that she would be interested in what you guys said it meant. (I remember now, I brought it up and this was all she mentioned about it)

Brent: You tell Donnellan South is Hudder, north is Judder. ( I did tell her some time later, but all she said in response was "that is interesting" or some such thing.)

Tom: You guys don't cross validate with our stuff, but maybe you will with your stuff. (3/96 The "toll bones" have been numerous and consistent with what I recieved here)

Brent: Yes It demeans us to get involved noticing your "stuff".

Nick: You are an asshole.

Tom: OK. That's what I was thinking you were going to say. Now say something that's yours.

Nick: You essentially believe. Religion is us. Your some nehi quote mother fucker.

Tom: Could I do the job as well at Jay Nolan?

Jerome: My easy. ( I remember not getting this for some time because I was putting this emphasis on the wrong word. )

Nick: Yes. Some there are better than us.

Tom: Nick says I can continue at Nolan.

Brent: Yes Our interest can be continued, but harder there.

Tom: Is is structural, relationship, clients or more?

Brent: Yes, getting the relationship.

Tom: Couldn't you help with them?

Brent: Yes. Never in a thousand years would we help. ( This thousand year cliche has more significance to me now, but I know to others its stretching it. )

Tom: Why?

Brent: Tet is here.

Tom: Why?

Brent: Tet is here because O U I. You handled this merely because of Nick.

Tom: Wouldn't Nick help?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Wouldn't you help?

Brent: No. Centinel believes to hell with you.

[Sitting next to Brent and thinking of ramifications of my possible leaving]

Brent: Yes. I am bemoaning your leaving. Yes tears are falling. You please me not a little. ( There were a few tears comming down his cheeks. I never saw any of them have tears before.)

Hatchell talked to me before work about about presenting a paper on my FC work for the Las Vegas Autism Conference comming up in March. This was a real feather in my cap if I did it. I was excited about it, but also nervous and apprehensive about public speaking. I struggled all through high school trying to overcome my stage fright by becomming an officer in numerous organizations. I never overcame it. I don�t know what was going on behind the scenes, but some weeks later I talked to the CEO Atkinson about it, and he said they weren�t going to have me do it because the conference officials decided to de-emphasize FC. That this should happen on the heals of Brent�s tears, is not coincidental to me now.

Brent: Temerity - heats on. Teutonic Jed in lead. Git Jed's ass in gear. ( He�s addressing Hatchell�s Autism Conference offer.)

Adrian: Utt enough. He touches us.

Alex's Bar

Brent�s acting very upset

Tom: What's wrong with Brent?

Geof: U U U

Tom: What about me?

Geof: Your too nuts.

Tom: Brent, what's the problem?

Brent: Your agitating me.

Later....

Geof: Utt enough for me. ( These "utt" references are my increased status due to Hatchell�s offer.)

Tom: Want to go to McDonald's?

Geof: No. Karls.

Tom: What is it about Karls? ( I�m asking them about a mystery I detected on this job and with another population I used to work with (chronic Schizoprenics). Both groups overwhelmingly patronized Karls and I�m asking them why.)

Geof: I O U to Karl.

Tom: The owner

Geof: Yes

Tom: Are you going to help with my presentation?

Geof: No. Mollify utt by O I not O U.

Tom: Presentation help?

Brent: Tunes frame the man. Wont help mall belief. SB. SB . SB. SB. (I don�t understand why the "presentation" would "mall belief". I�m interpreting the SB as the Christian staff Scott Bishop.)

Tom: I haven't malled his belief, but I have malled some of the hypocracy.

Brent: Yes.Dee Dee's getting girls.

(I made a crack once that an old staff (DD) joined Bishop�s church group because of all the young girls that attended.)

Tom: Yes I did, and that was in poor taste. But is it true? And I haven't done it to S.B.

Brent: Yes. With Bishop teasing. (I don�t think the "Yes" was in response to DD�s motivation for joining the chuch group. He brought this up to put on the record my nasty comment and my support for Bishop. He suffered alot of abuse from the young and liberal staff about his eager church participation. I defended him.)

Tom: Maybe a little, but I've been a whole lot better than the other stuff.

Brent: Yes.

Brent: Toll ain't esseminating snack. Me O U to end I O U. Sin ode O U.

Tom: [Referred above] Is that right?

Brent: No. To emece, ogle God not girls. (This is about �The Last Temptation of Tom Smith that I mentioned some time ago.)

Tom: Do you know about that thing of mine in the mountains. [ This refers to one of the strongest religious experiences I've had. It happened about 4 years ago. My ex wife had threatened to divorce me if I didn't do something about my personal problem. I went to the mountaines backpacking and felt trapped and scared. I was sitting on a rock, head in hands and said "Oh God". All of a sudden I felt a hundred percent better. It was like a huge weight was taken off me. I wasn�t praying or consciously asking for God�s help. He sure did give it though. I eliminated my personal problem for the next year and a half. Four months into the separation, after having a false cancer scare, my personal problem reared its ugly head again ]

Brent: Tet dull, not God.

Tom: Is that true about the aliens?

Brent: No Gores. Gotcha ( Finally, he fesses up)

Tom: Have you supported religion thru miracles and such?

Brent: No. Not enough towards it to account for enticing so many people.

Tom: Your back pedaling here.

Brent: Yes Torture over it.

Tom: Is it the paranoia from our side? ( Why they are being so circumspect )

Brent: Yes. Is the awe semantics required.

Brent: Yes, all it erases basic kinds of beliefs Religion requires.

Tom: If what you told me is true these past months, than a shift is required without losing belief. Possible?

Brent: Yes, emece it.

Geof: You ie hem belief. Sin out in our world. U O I not I O U . Gene hides tunes fomenting U O I Jed.

Tom: Do I have an extra gene or am I missing one?

Geof: Tom is not Jed, but Meg. (I�m sure I had a good chuckle with this one)

Tom: Jerome if you were thinking of Peter Sellers when you said "Tunes ain't Lef", please spell PeterSellers

Jerome: Peter Sellers.

Tom: Did you know about him in the movies or Mad Magazine? (He loves looking at magazines )

Jerome: Movies.

Adrian: Tussle on spirit out.

Tom: Why?

Adrian: Tout oe not us.

Tom: What's oe?

Adrian: You.

Adrian: U O I , Jed, U U U U. To, um, rid, toss us out Jed, not our interest. Your to not tend our spirit stuff. ZOO tends Om O Jed, not Jesus. OU OU OU. Your to sort out. No hint, omit OUN

Tom: What's N ( I�m misinterpreting OUN )

Adrian: Neiman. (This is a curve ball because of my dumb question)

Tom: Adrian even wanted me to toss out Neiman.

Brent: Not Neiman, Janes.

Tom: What's Adrian mean by OUN?

Brent: Otto. Your Nickname Oed n ouch. (Otto was my nickname in high school - from Otto Schmidtlap in the 50�s sitcom The Life of Reily. This nickname became a problem as I went through high school. It brought with it a certain level of disrespect that I couldn�t tolerate. In my senior year I told everyone that Tom and Smitty were alright, but no more Otto. I turned it around except for one old freind who held out. I warned him a few times and then I had to punch him in the stomach. You should have seen the look on his face, he couldn�t believe I would actually hit him. He appologized and said he didn�t know how serious I was about it. He�s a great guy. )

Tom: OUN = Otto my nickname?

Brent: Nick's nickname on ecct.

Tom: What's ecct?

Brent: Ect.

Tom: If I omitted all that I'd be cutting the heart out of the FC's. (I�m still off)

Brent: O U E.

Tom: What's E?

Brent: Touch U O

Tom: Anything else?

Brent: Deities agitated in our world.

Brent: Tin gin man touches us.

Tom: Is there a lot of stuff I can use for the presentation?

Brent: Yes. You benefit yourself touching us. Zen bouys you giving to us.

Tom: [ I looked at Adrian forlornly]

Brent: Yes, Adrian your Centinel. (Adrian initiated this confusing, but for me very important exchange)

Adrian: Utt out so enjoy us. ( I didn�t know my presentation was cancelled, but he knew)

In Jacuzzi:

Brent: Zoo into IOU's too much [Paraphrase] We�ll continue to Hide

Brent: It's you or us

Tom: Why are you upset. Terry?

Adrian: No

Tom: Radio? (He walks around listening to a tape player all the time and gets upset when his batteries run out.)

Adrian: No

Tom: Our topic tonite.

Adrian: Yes

Tom: What about it

Adrian: Zoo needs us.

Tom: Did you guys get that Bear to rip off the lettres in my Backpack? (In the Sierras last summer I had a run in with a bear. There were a few letters I wrote about this discovery, which I had made the week before. I had this theory that they didn�t want anyone to know then and got the bear to rip me off. I believe now that they could have got the bear to do anything but not for that reason.)

Adrian: Yes.

Adrian: You not to eulogize us now.

Tom: Do you want me to convince the other guys?

Adrian: Yes. Tussle our soul .Jed IOU

Adrian: Tojo's entice. OU OU OU.

[Talking with Sharon and group about hooking up with big age differences and I said something derogatory about younger women who hook up with older men]

Nick: You horses ass. Your into outsinning O Jed. Yutz

Tom: Isn't it frustrating not being able to join the conversation?

Nick: Zoo hears us. Tunes South OI U get through.

[Break out back thinking of what a reach it is to understand these guys and my present state making it more difficult]

Nick: You too zmoy to understand

Tom: I agree. (I was thinking he meant "Zooy")

Nick: Utt eo u o no Jed Jojo. (I don�t even know where to put the punctuation in on this)

Nick: You uo, uuu. Yutz

Tom: If people believed you guys would it be good, bad or don't know for religion?

Nick: Good.

Tom: Would it be like the Biblical Judgement day?

Nick: Yes. OU OU.

Tom: Would that be the main benefit to religion.

Nick: No Its us out O Jed.

Tom: What about you being out.

Nick: O O O O

Adrian: Not hosing you concerning spirit. ("Spirit represent the God connection for me)

Date: 2/7/94

[I asked Jay Hindleman ( an Autistic client I worked with a few years and liked very much. He�s living in another dorm) in Jacuzzi to address this problem of you guys talking through my uncounscious or my uncounscious talking instead of you. Actually I just said "address this uncounscious problem"]

Jay: I'm in my control. ( It�s true, he can type on his own. This is the first time I FC�d with him and am using hand support)

Jerome: Utter I'm envote. (To my question of unconscious content in FC�s)

Tom: Is that what you said?

Jerome: Oyet.

Brent: Us amount to bring touched. Task essentially teaches you.

Tom: You want to fly with that?

Brent: Yes. A Jed believes deities ignoring either or, like figuring ahead getting solid eye contact. ( Here�s the first mention of Either Or. The "figuring ahead statement" is an acknowledgement of their intentions with it. If you believe I�m honest in this task, than this is a confirmation of most of their claimed abilities. I�ll explain this later on, but take note of these Either Or hints. He�s saying here that someone (Jed) can believe in God without the validation they were to give me later. He�s the one figuring ahead with this knowing it would be like "solid eye contact" to me. )

Tom: Is that what you said?

Brent: Yes. Yen takes doing selling for benefit of us (It�s true, no matter who they were, I was to be devoted to them).

Tom: Did you hear what I wrote this weekend? Do you want to comment on it?

Brent: Jed likes Jeoffrey Ballet. (I was trying to write a summary of what I learned so far without sounding crazy. I couldn�t do it until now, two years later. I needed that much time in order to believe enough and to do it in approximately the right way. His response is clever, I wasn�t about to settle for the Jeoffrey Ballet in my framing of this, I was to work for something better)

Tom: I liked Alvin Ailley much better.

Brent: Yern earning belief.

Tom: Did you like the way I skirted the spirit stuff. Should I include it?

Brent: Jed for teaching flat on. Yes I am akin to including it.

Tom: Now this business of you guys using my attitudes in response to talking about other people ( I had the sense that they were mirroring back my attitudes when talking about others we knew). Now I know this is common with other people but your mind readers. Why?

Brent: Zen gadflys in meak Jed not in strong. Touching renegades, or some like them, wont hesitate to get relief for your likes.

Tom: You "wont"

Brent: Yes

Tom: You "guys wont"

Brent: Y,N,Y,N

Brent: Your kin asset is to help toll.

Tom: "Drenched in humanity". Did you like that? ( an expression I used in the "summary" that I thought poetically addressed their mind reading abilities)

Brent: The feeling keeps mankind going. Nefarious Tilling.

[ Arguing with Terry about FC] ( Terry is very bright and has that know it all liberal, alcoholic kind of sarcasm. I was pretty good at that sort of thing myself, and most of the time we�d have fun playing off each other. What got to me was the influence he had on the other staff. Especially those young mindless feminists that were giving me so much trouble.)

Brent: Nemisis fosters goal.

Geof: Urgent information not pie. Units,Jed, learn mostly by finding O O O

Tom: Anything else?

Geof: No. Talk to likes of Nick.

Jerome: Your task, Jed creates. Pen that. E O U test.

Jerome: O U Test Jed. Kux. U end much, atone rose ode.

Brent: You can earn a lot of money. (I�m sure I chuckled after this)

Tom: That's the first time you ever encouraged that.

Brent: Yes. Because written to calling you are. Tet has come. Ten Years it�ll take.

Tom: You really know, don't you?

Brent: Yes (Yes),(Yes) (Yes) Set in your ways. Don't worry Meg! Feel awed in this Its Ok. Key you own. Meg not into fame. (Meg is the feminine side of me)

Brent: You sense mind reading very well

[Bill (staff) described a vivid dream he had of Jerome awash in white light]

Tom: Any comment?

Jerome: Zen tout. ie ne.

Tom: ie ne?

Jerome: Kotter. ( I believe "ne" means no. I don�t know why he said Kotter. Oh yeah, I�m supposed to teach you what "ne" means.)

Geof: To TV Nick riepin on. ( His father was a TV actor) I O U, roll more with the punches O Jed. Keep lime light on us. O I U hec hi Jed.

Tom: Tabu Autistic? [Tabu -client at St. Francis where I'm moonlighting]

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Why doesn't he FC?

Brent: Telepathy, Boking you.

Tom: Boking?

Brent: Solemn feeling.

Tom: Can he FC?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Will he?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Does he spell and read?

Brent: Yes and No.

Adrian: You should inebriate sowing mind control instead of aged him nonsense.

Tom: "Aged him" -ego, God?

Adrian: U I O in Jed hell. Intelligence ...[Bus came] ( We were at the bus stop during this exchange)

Nick: Zoo to um, utts us ...Youz u o u u u Wit , um, us. X O.

Brent: Yes, can FC with stupid people. Yes, Bu (Tabu) mind reads.

Tom: With the mind reading they can pick up on thoughts and spelling?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: And more?

Brent: Yes.To spell is not a problem,

Tom: Do they do it on their own?

Brent: No. We help.

Nick: Yutz, Tutu, we'll not turn Vise dusty with teim. Main religion not Christianity.

Tom: What is it?

Nick: Tuning Ref.

[Adrian said to talk to Atkinson (the CEO)about anything but spirit stuff. (I�m about to meet with him about my presentation at Autism Conference) Said organization and "telephone conferencing" was OK About FC stuff, AL told me to quote Brent tonite]

[Brent said organisation stuff was "semi important" mostly due to how it would effect my believability. His quote on FC was "Want to develop second FC person "

Tom: Who

Brent: Reilley

Geof: Understanding I O U's epitomy of our religion.

Tom: Neds "Ref" comment?

Geof: Your so U O I. Question of mid life... God in ..U O Jed money with quoting us.

Tom: What?

Geof: Your quoting us incites non interest (He�s talking, I think, of my quoting them to others at work) . Tune us out. Our selling point is half not all.

Tom: What can I use

Geof: Not rolling hens tutu.

Nick: You, Smith quote me most to other people.

Nick: Stupid to son with Ronnie.

Tom: My paper? (The presentation)

Nick: Liked it very much.

Nick: Roll with Lef. Mind quotes. Sew zoo into us!

Nick: Net out sod hell in quotes.

Tom: The FC's?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: C'mon, Nick I like that stuff. (I was thinking of the colorful language. He may have been referring to my problems.)

Nick: Nick is innocent.

Tom: Nick is full of shit. (Nick is innocence)

[Jay Nolan on Fri. Quit and unquit my job]

( Jay Nolan is the large group home outfit for Autistics over in Valencia, Ca.. It is a pretty one hour drive through the coastal mointains and over to the high desert. It�s a new middle class town with a Six Flags amusement park. This is my first visit. I just hung around the offices and collored the first person to come along. Her name was Robin and she was very helpful. I took an application and said I�d be back.

I forget why I quit the job. Ronnie may have jacked me up. The pressure was intense and I�ve been working on this project for two years. Alot was at stake, and instead of making headway with non believers, I was struggling to keep them from firing me. You may ask why he allowed me back. He made some mistakes in a talk with him that would have caused him problems if I took it to his boss. I forget the details now, but one of the things he was doing was accusing me of being nuts and needing psychiatric help.)

Brent: Yet foot ties testing your essence.

Tom: Am I understanding that right?

Brent: Yes.
Tom: Anything else?

Brent: Yes, Go find other autistics. You are believing in us well

[Thinking to myself that I may be believing but am also in the dark]

Brent: Yes, are in the dark.

Tom: What's contingent upon who and how much you facilitate with? Your choice?

Nick: No.

Tom: Facilitator skill?

Nick: Yes and No

Tom: Facilitator personality?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: What about their personality

Nick: Yuz, yes, nes I O U.

Tom: I O U?

Nick: Yes.

Nick: Toni Jed will not like.

Tom: Who's Toni?

Nick: Jay Nolan person.

Tom: Staff or client?

Nick: Client.

Skermishing with Guy and staff. Especially yesterday. They tried to ambush me in a meeting that was billed as something else. I know it sounds as if I might be paranoid, but you wouldn�t think so if you witnessed it.

Brent: Tet it Jed. Tet as heart. Keep fighting. (Yeah, this was the beginning of Tet. I don�t know which battle this was, but there was a number that I didn�t even note in here. There were three or four staff and the supervisor who were in gear to trip me up. I made a real effort to hold my ground. )

Tom: Anything I should say or not say to Atkinson?

(I sensed before this meeting that the "Vegas" thing wasn�t meant to be. My supervisor had obviously had a change of heart and so may have the CEO over anything that had to do with FC. The national TV news magazines were panning FC and it was just alot of headaches for administrators. I was also like a loose cannon with this little book I was obviously writing that they had no control over. I was aware of all this and in a sense was using it to keep them at bay. If it weren�t for Mecham underestimating me, I would have never gotten as far as I did with this )

Jerome: Temporary sulvo. Exl. Dsov ouw nonsense.

Tom: Would anything be different if people understood and accepted you guys?

Jerome: Set pope tussling.

Tom: Anything for Atkinson tomorrow?

Brent: Demand ace lean toward reason.

Tom: My rationale with Angel. Any good? (I forget what this is about)

Brent: Neat explanation.
Tom: Anything?

Brent: Kind of glad vindication lef is coming.

Tom: Anything be different if people understood?

Brent: Tieing into our concerns is questionable. Festering destroys your interests.

Tom: Our "Festering" or yours?

Brent: Yours.

Tom: Does your "festering" effect us?

Brent: Yes it does. But not in the way you think.

Tom: In a good or bad way?

Brent: Good in terms of nature.

Tom: Its hard continuing this line of questioning because of my recent struggle.

Brent: Yes it became difficult caring rink lest irresponsible. (Meaning that my work group was being irresponsible)

Tom: Atkinson?

Geof: In U O I terms tussle outside zoo for us. Tussle outside ! Tussle outside!

Earthling Bookstore

Geof: Question Atkinson about my rikety parents.

Tom: What about them?

Geof: Fcing. (Brent and Nick�s parents were the only ones who showed any interest in FC and none of them approached me about it.)

Brent: Sure would like my mother Fcing. (His father died last year)

Tom: What do you think of the fading idea?

(This was a large part of the reason I stayed on the offensive with Hatchell. FC�s believers were buckling in to the skeptics and in some places requiring that you only do FC a certain way. With fading they wanted you to concentrate on withdrawing support from the hand and move it up the arm to the shoulder and then no support. Though it could work with some clients, it wouldn�t with most. Plus it was hard enough under the circumstances to get the staff to do it at all. Even staff that were interested in FC could see what was happening to me. Why risk it and the extra work involved only to be ostracized and therefore risk your job. It was a very unpleasant job at that. I want everyone to remember this. Intelligent and highly paid professional and some parents were going to great lengths to keep us from holding the clients hand and thinking that they were talking. The APA (American Psychological Association) hopped on this bandwagon in the summer of �94. If you ever checked out some of their position papers, you�d think those guys were accident prone.)

Brent: Yes goofy idea. You like lots of interesting remifications of Fcing. (He�s referring to some of the physical benefits I have noticed for myself. I was feeling alot healthier duing this FC task. Other staff who had done it also noticed some physical benefits.)

Tom: You agree then that they are very important?

Brent: Yes

Brent: Tell Atkinson sorry for my running. You'll test Atkinson on his history of relations with O U's your concerned with. ( Brents running caused them many headaches. They even had all the doors of the dorm hooked up to an alarm system)

Nick: You tone Reno not Las Vegas [This is a classic Nedism - a humorous put down. Las Vegas was where the Autism conference was to be held]

Nick: O Jed, nut in utt just oggles U O I .Your not Louy SX

Tom: What the hell is that suppossed to mean?

Nick: Unsin Jeds hots. Romolos turns on innocence. Not necessary to worry about [P.P.], worry only about sex.

Nick: Use Hegel. Jojo educates. Ronnie hones in on senses.

60 minutes had segment on FC. Apparently it was a short version of Frontlines presentation

Nick: TV Yuz! ?

Tom: What, a question?

Nick: ?

Tom: Are we ever going to get a little validation?

Nick: Zen minds yearn for belief[Dave L (day staff) came by and said Nick had nine hours of sleep in 3 days. I thought it due to withdrawals from sleep medication. He was taken off it or most of it 7 days ago. Nick normally sleeps four to six hours a nite]

Nick: Yuz squealing yesterday with Tin men outside. Outside you sit on it understanding nothing etorsing yourself

Tom: Etorsing?

Nick: Storming.

[Just wrote a note to Angel suggesting believers get together and start supporting eachother] (I don�t know why I bothered, her main concern was her status)

Brent: Tell Reilley (Only other staff that was Fcing at this time) sears like kind people.

Brent: Tin men are your allies. Retinue likes believers.

Brent: Centinel likes letting people piss errors. Yes like you. We mean for meak to feel stronger. Roll with the punches. (That most certainly is my modus operendi. That is exactly what I did during this Tet Offensive )

[Took break. Thought about them living for centuries with the insane and disabled learning to use thier abilities]

Tom: Did you hear that? (My thoughts above)

Brent: Yes. Kind of like "Mercy Street"[This has been my favorite song while wandering homeless at Ellwood this past year and half. Its a Peter Gabrielle tune]

Tom: You hear me listening to music?[I asked this in Sept. and somebody said no]

Brent: Yes. Trying favorite Keys kills pain.

Tom: Should I let Atkinson see FC's?

Brent: Yes (Yes) (Yes) (Yes)

Adrian: Your needing a lot of support. Question of getting support

Tom: How?

Adrian: Limy possible out resisting FC...

Tom: Yeah?
Adrian: Sorry not in mood.

Jerome: Yex, Zex Oex [Before this watching Sinbad (TV program) and wanting to see "babes"]

Tom: What?

Jerome: You sex OX [Is showed this exchange to Phil after asking Jerome's permission]

Jerome: You B x e l d muq

Tom: What?

Jerome: You bore me with O.

Tom: What's O?

Jerome: Other people seeing quotas.

Tom: I asked your permission. Was it Phils lack of appreciation?

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: I know its difficult now Jerome, but someday people will delight in your every word like I do. OK? (I wouldn�t have been so patronizing if I had truly appreciated what they were saying to me)

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: Do you mind if I show Atkinson FC's?

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: Why?

Jerome: Yuw.

Tom: What about me?

Jerome: Sessions representing you as a [P.P.]?

Tom: If I pulled that out would it be OK?

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: How old are autistics when they realize they read minds?

Brent: 3 or 4

Tom: When do they start talking to other mind readers?

Brent: Sense it for most of childhood.

Tom: When that happens is it like joining a club?

Brent: Oggling nose takes more killing for Baptists.

Tom: Are you saying you don't want to answer that?

Brent: Yes.

[Earlier in Van I said money was all important to attracting girls]

Geof: Money pleases dolls. Question likes of U U U U . Tom is entitled, please stay quoting us!

Date: 2/22/94

Still going 'round 'round about money problems vis a vis these guys

( I feel for my kids sake at least, I should do something about making more money. Remember, I�m still living outside and weekend visits with the kids are difficult)

Nick: U O I . Nuts O U . You Smith Loken

Tom: May I ask what Loken is?

Nick: Yes. Nojo o o o . Jed eons ahead.

At Lars Lubovitch Dance Co. performance. After 1st Intermission. "So in Love" segment

Tom: I'm not hep on this.

Brent: To appreciate dance you need to do it.

Tom: Yes, but it's style is negative and Tom Waits music sucks.

Brent: Lug harnesses sordid stuff.

Tom: You like it though?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Then your saying the dance itself outweighs style?

Brent: Yes

2nd Intermission after Marimba Segment

Tom: Much better didn't you think?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Anything?

Brent: Use questions please.

Tom: What do you think of that new age music? [Marimba music was typical of new age music with the zylacone sound I like]

Brent: Exists casting flys you understand.

Tom: Who do you think was the best dancer?

Brent: West.

Tom: West Side of stage?

Brent: Yes. You fuss getting xtra lessons around lost souls.

Tom: Did you say that from frustration or anger?

Brent: Tussle about it.

Tom: Who, me or you?

Brent: You.

[At I.V. Bakery I was outside smoking and feeling frustrated. I was thinking that I should work over at Nolan and sell this. On way home I was thinking how I'm all "stomach tunes": Brent addressed all three things back at the dorm

Brent: We are sending you to work at Jay Nolan. Sell this story.

Tom: You doing it for me or you?

Brent: You. You're all stomach tunes.

Date: 2/24/94

Went to Nolan talked with Meyer Shevin .

[ This was an intersting trip. I'm starting to get a feel for the politics of what I'm dealing with. Meyer Shelvin is a psychologist out of the FC Institute in Syracuse. I didn't know either thing about him. He was billed as a super facilitator who was giving a workshop for $30 head. I wanted to check him out, but I'm also over there nosing around for a better job. It turned out that no one showed up for the workshop except me who drove 1 1/2 hrs to get there. I talked to him for 3 hrs and didn't pay a cent. He was a believer, even in the mind reading, but he felt we should keep our mouths shut about it for fear that administrators would forbid FC�s use. I felt that this was a sham and just strengthened our adversaries position. If FC wouldn�t have been such an innocuous technique, then I would have been more amendable to playing politics with it. The compromises they were suggesting (fading and using it only for choice and control) were contrary to the nature of the phenomenon and would render FC useless any way. Under the circumstances there was nothing to lose and everything to gain by confronting the adversaries with their idiocy. He thought that I was irresponsble. ]

Adrian: Nosing around are you

Tom: What do you think of me going to Nolan?

Adrian: (verbally) Alpha

Tom: Who at Alpha?

Adrian: Sophia

Tom: Working there?

Adrian: Yes. (She�s up in Santa Cruz and has no intention of comming back here. It was his sweet way of encouraging me to stay)

Tom: Want to say anything about me working with the twins at Nolan. ( after talking to Shevin I went to visit some group homes and clients. The twins were the most interesting. They were Autistic and I tried Fcing with them. Nada. It was disappointing because after what the boys said and this experience, I realized this is not an easily transferrable skill. )

Jerome: Try, Jed to interest people.

[Sat down next to Nick late afternoon. Jerome gets up and turns lamps on. Steve D changes radio from new song ( Philadelphia to that Africa song by Toto]

Nick: Unlearn othmen.

Tom: Othmen?

Nick: No. Oth Mr esst. Yes Ostentations[had thought this word ealier] R J R J R J

Tom: What?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: RJ?

Nick: Religion of Jed.

Tom: Esst?

Nick: Establishment

Tom: New Religion?

Nick: Not new, original.

Tom: With you guys at center or near it.

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Would I get this same sort of idea from Nolan guys?

Nick: No.

Tom: Why not?

Nick: Trust. Zoo to um hosing too.

Tom: Am I getting it?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Is Nick's statement about Nolan a zen gadfhly item?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Nick's religion item?

Brent: No (clear) Yards more to learn.

Tom: Now I'm coming back here. While I'm gone are the Nolan guys able to help me continue? (I�m about to quit again )

Brent: Yes

Tom: My talk with Cuezar (staff I�ve known for many years) at gym OK?

Brent: Yes. Wired excellent.

Tom: A mess of facilitators could work years and still have fun discovering new things.

Brent: Yes. Not aggressive enough for sensing pain.

Tom: My talk with Meyer?

Brent: Meyers afraid.

Tom: Was I too tough on him?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: You guys have a lot of style and class, don't you?[earlier thinking about their good faith and phraseology]

Nick: Yes.

Nick: You'll rut Kam.

Tom: At Jay Nolan?

Nick: Yes.

Nick: RJ (Religion of Jed ) too nuts.

Tom: What area should I work on.

Nick: On O U not pope.

Tom: You mean I should concentrate on my self interest more and selfless service less? (I don�t think that is exactly what he meant)

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Who's the ref? Want to say?

Nick: Yes. Not so rummy with with us.

Tom: Does he have a name?

Nick: ...

Brent: Pens pleases God. Teasing. Exist Latter Day Saints.

Tom: Is that your favorite?

Brent: NO.

Tom: Should it be mine?

Brent: Yes. Feers to learn all innocent that they are

Tom: Any other reason?

Brent: Perfect religion.

Tom: That Book of Mormon was a little hokey?

Brent: Yes. Feels hard to believe. Pet of ours.

Tom: You guys helped them.

Brent: Yes. Quote me on that. Further their development.

Tom: John Smith?

Brent: Yes, you are related ,very related. Very required demanding not lieing to others. Believe lessons from them.

Brent: Yes, we ou lackey.

Taught Susan (New staff) FCing with Brent and also got feedback that was good from Brent. Talked later with Susan about feminism

Brent: As for it acclimating, keep hens in place, ah, feelings you feel are best. We�re narcistic talking to slags. Wont feel kindly toward them. Persons answer gifts hard fought for. You realize more than you know. ( Even the most mild feminist would damn this as my unconscious because of this statement. Please don�t rush to judgement, there�s much more in this that is positve about femininity.)

[Started reading Donnellan�s thing. Liked it, but in past have been very disappointed with those guys (academians). This is the book "Movin On" That I quoted in the Introduction.]

Brent: Yes, fuck those academics. Yes, what for believers is important is getting understanding. Kam is other star acing Jay Nolan (Staff).

Tom: Is this your or our name for her

Brent: Our

Tom: Have I met her?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: And thought she was a "star"?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Robyn?

Brent: Yes.

Geof: You RN us not Jay Nolan. Wont like it, Lots of stupid ...Your hell outside wont like our intuition unless you our staff. Your tunes run on us. Please your virility. You Smith, need lots of Ok tunes us give.

Tom: Is this a zen gadtly item or truth?

Geof: Truth.

Tom: Brent, is what Geof said true?

Brent: Yes. Mostly with your [P.P.]. Further more, rogues make love not war. Sit on this this weekend. Sears vindicate you with us. (This business about the "seers" is his addressing my thoughts that there are other powerful autistics monitoring all of this)

Tom: Will they vindicate me with Jay Nolan?

Brent: Yes. Wait longer though. (This is the best argument he could have used for keeping me there. I have this German efficiency thing in my blood. It doesn�t matter how simple or stupid the task is, efficiency is primary to me. )

Date: 2/27/94

Sunday. Brought my Kids to dorm (there was some sort of function going on at the campus)

Jerome: Tom understands us.

Jerome: Tell this to my kids?

Jerome: Yes.

Jerome: It is to Tet that Jed is to establish us.

Earlier read through FC's and edited to prepare for Atkinson ( I was getting ready to give the CEO all these FC�s. My editing was half hearted. I just crossed through things that were personal. He could still could easily read them.)

Nick: Your (PP) again. You tuned our I O U today.

Nick: Technically sin is I O Us. You tune our I O U's. Oens noise in our world. (This is a good one to remember. I was brought up Liberal Protestant and didn�t have the faintest idea what sin was.)

Nick: In us? Z U U U U

Tom: You want a question?

Nick: ?

Tom: Do you know who Ruth Montgomery is?[I was at the Library and Earthling Bookstore with Nikki Today and was reading one of her books]

Nick: Yes...

Tom: Geof, you want to talk?

Geof: NO.

Tom: Why not?

Geof: Lied to me about tellling Peoria what religion we are.

Tom: You don't want people to know?

Geof: Yes.

Tom: That mean you don't want FC's shown to Atkinson?

Geof: Yes. Your not leping (?) our MC.

Tom: MC?

Geof: Matters Christ uchrist.

Geof: Response nor irresponsible linking Kin to our religion.

Tom: Whats up with Hall?

Nick: Your too nuts to interest others.

Tom: Jerome, should I show FC's?

Jerome: Yes, You spew vu pen.
Tom: Ruth Mongomery. You know who she is?

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: You want to talk about her?

Jerome: Please no.

Terry (staff) let Brent go where he wanted and Brent ended up sitting outside Atkinsons office. ( This was significant. It�s the only time I�ve known Brent go to a place intentionally. When he ran away, he would stay outside, and almost always leave campus. He knew I was about to make the big move of showing FC�s to Atkinson, and let anyone know who knew him well enough and willing to believe it, that he was aware of this moment. I doubt if anyone but me was aware of the significance of this action.)

Tom: Why? (He went to Atkinsons office.)

Brent: As in joining this seal in the water.

Tom: Respond to Hale's (Geof�s) remarks.

Brent: He's into religion of Lehi. Quotes about Christ upset him

Tom: Should I go through it with him. (Editing FC�s)

Brent: Yes. Got to rehearse soliloque about murky spirit business.

Tom: When I read through FC's the alien business seemed to be us.

Brent: Testing your will. North interest belief. ( This is the rationale for leading me astray with Tin Man and Alien type themes.)

Tom: Spirit business? What do you want to do with that?

Brent: Remeber getting mind religion

Tom: What mind religion?

Brent: Yes, ours. Selling nuts for that (Holy Spirit)

Tom: But is it true?

Brent: Yes(more) Wiring Rx. .Messing with it not for you. (RX=perscription)

Tom: How about a disclaimer?

Geof: Tunes RN.

Tom: What do you want pulled?

Geof: Rutting, psychology of us, tutu remarks, you Smith should keep in comments about you.

Tom: If I did that, would you vote yes. (This is still essentially unedited)

Geof: Yes, Wm utts

Tom: OK. That and any more disclaimers?

Geof: Yes, Vow not to say cunts tussle Ty

Tom: Adrian, how about you? Hall wants me to keep my stuff in.

Adrian: Yes.

Tom: Anything else?

Adrian: Yes, quotes hold our empty rehearsal to the world

Tom: Why empty?

Adrian: With I OU. (Thanks to me of course. I�m just a sinner like the rest of you)

Adrian: Quotes mellow in there about spirits. ( 3/96 He�s saying they are modest about theeir spiritual influence, I believe now that they are very modest about it in here.)

Tom: Now Brent ,what's your vote?

Brent: Sense is that you need to leave it in. You choose what's best. Sum tortures Tom, have faith. I'm courting yards in the future. Your rear end is covered. Yes, gift is not in your rocky history. Necessary in the story. Test it with reason. Stupid lost souls please us. Yes we're all in the same boat. Awe them most.

Tom: We need or should awe them the most?

Brent: Yes (Yes) (Yes) (Yes)

Brent: Float snakes, sag religion, toss religion out, wave of the future is us.

Tom: You were religion before anyway right.

Brent: Yes, we need to make religion what is should be. (3/96 There you go folks. Your welcome. Now could someone take me out to dinner, I�m starving.)

Tom: Seth, Emanuel that�s good stuff.

Brent: Yes. Mostly nuts mediate.

Tom: Nuts in our sense.

Brent: Yes, No. Mind control requires, yes, yin yang

Tom: You mean a certain kind of passion?

Brent: No, torture.

Jerome: Us Ty ( A client I�ve been working with at St. Vincents on the graveyard shift). O U. You TV. (There�s a number of comments about me and TV. Six months after completing this, I went on national TV for the first time. It was on a talk show and I was billed as a Men�s Rights "expert" with the American Union of Men (AUM))

Tom: Jerome your the one who told me to pull references to my personal problem. Now these guys want me to leave it in. What do you think?

Jerome: Row upstream.

Tom: Leave it in or out?

Jerome: OX. Ty I O U. Ny in. (This is significant. Jerome has Spinal Bifida. He�s the only one here who isn�t clearly Autistic. He represents the other community of the "Developmentally Disabled". Tybu is a combination of Down Syndrome and Autistic. He�s already made a few comments like this encouraging the use of FC and the results I�ve gotten here to that community.)

Nick: Toss your South out.

Tom: Specifically

Nick: Tunes O I U. Negative Interests. Your sex interests.

Tom: Become a monk?

Nick: Yes

Gave FC�s to Atkinson

Brent: Necessary talk senses what Hale means.

Tom: Are you addressing what he said yesterday or his counterpointing in past?

Brent: Yesterday.

Tom: Did you sense my paranoia ( The drug thing a trap)

Brent: Testing your FC's you might experience some paranoia. (That�s an understatement)

Tom: Remeber my lectures on the misunderstandings that can occur in Fc at the beginning. You guys were much more on top of that than I. ( This was in the first year of my Facilitating)

Brent: Yes. Our lives have more at stake. Yes, learning necessary. ( Every time I read this I�m facinated how gracefully and compassionately they field my stupidity. I also appreciated it as I was doing it)

Tom: The lexicon statement some time ago. Who and how many should FC?

Brent: Yes we're more interested in being understood.

Tom: Who should FC? Should they be drug tested, have IQs over 50, be seekers, not smoke cigs, etc. ? Some or all of above?

Brent: All of above

Tom: Then people like me wouldn't be able to Fc.

Brent: Yes, feeling is that hot heads exist rolling heads.

Brent: ( He�s smiling at end of this sentence) Seriously, message regarding that listens to life. (I�m just now beginning to understand the significance of what he�s saying here)

Tom: Is there anything we should or should not do?

Brent: Semi nothing you can do. Existence tears too many apart.

Tom: Now if people believe this they will want to protect you. They'll want certified people with certain characteristics, money, etc. Now that I mention that, here I am hustling for money and maybe that's not a good idea.

Brent: Yes, got it. Pit reason less in messages about lame us.

Tom: You asked me some time ago to lean on reason with this, now your asking me to back off of it

Brent: Exactly so. Reason will function for so long. Your responsibility vindicates, why not protest what you deserve.

Tom: Brent, this is a hard way to talk and its been the hardest with you. Why is it I talk to you the most?

Brent: Why not.

To Jay Nolan yesterday.

Nick: Tune out sun O Jed. No utts us. Turn on you!. Tow the line!. U O I Jed. Join our utts support group.

Tom: What are laughing about? (He�s laughing about what Nick said, like I do now whenever I read this)

Jerome: Ty serves teps.

Tom: Teps?

Jerome: Telepathy's

Tom: Nick, has that been your function these years past

Nick: Yes. Oum your human. Tunes u o, um, out u wo I !

Tom: The incident the other nite? (I don�t know what incident)

Nick: To most Gurts its ruy you line up to.

( This is the first reference to "Gurt". This will tie in to what I said earlier about the Either Or confirmational thing)

Tom: Ruy?

Nick: Tutus U O I .Not you, mostly girls.

Tom: Gurts?

Nick: Yes, Guys.

Adrian: Units not running with FC's. Z00 stirs in very same way. Toss it to New Agers. Vote to publish.

(I�m worried about Atkinsons reaction to FC�s. I�m waiting for a pink note but hoping for a promotion. He�s hinting here that Atkinson read them and is not enthused. These guys knew how this was going to unfold well into the future. I know that now)

Tom: Who votes?

Adrian: We.

Adrian: Your situation resists tunes like we give. Us into Jed gem. I'm pear sealed to you. Tom elates in nonsense lamenting.

Tom: Adrian's early statement on "units"

Brent: Yes aren't I concerned. Test happy sears on public. Neandrathals question your sanity. Testament in FC's. FC's keep inebriated ruminating more interesting

Tom: [Thinking about difficulty FCing at Jay Nolan]

Brent: Yes, garnered here. Yes, got more to tell.

Tom: Adrian's second statement?

Brent: : Believes it likely fosters keeping you here.

Tom: Dangerous.

Brent: Yes possibly suicidal.

Tom: That quote "Religion is where the Angels sing". Are there more?

Brent: FC's most knowledgeable sots out there. Not outside but in hell with rotten... yes like vreki

Tom: Female Autistics?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Why aren't males talking?

Brent: Yes, not hassled by Tom. Yes, game is yours.

Tom: You want to go on Bus Skills?

Brent: No. Zoo tortures.

Tom: I've been wondering about that. Atkinson�s presentation to Autism chapter, he talked of Seaton Hall plan and how they were going against recommendations by developing the campus instead of community homes.

Brent: Yes, real good idea.

Tom: Living in the community too stressful? Why?

Brent: Yes .You seek more privacy too [Geof pounding table]

Tom: What does Geof want?

Brent: Testing his situation making for group home?

Tom: Geof?
Geof: Your not to error on this. My tunes yes , to group home.

Tom: Is that what you said?

Geof: No, Not me, but e o u to snox group home. Your slot is in group home.

Tom: What do you want?

Geof: Nominal importance to me.

Tom: Is it more important to some of the other guys?

Geof: No not really. Nuts, Rome wasn't built in a psychology lab. (In case you didn�t get this exchange, he�s saying that he wants to go to a group home because that is where I will be in the future. Maybe continuing the "Testament". This is the first time that I understood this exchange that way. I hope it�s true. My number one goal when I left (was pushed out of) Seaton Hall was to come back and work with these guys again.)

Tom: Jerome, you want to add anything about the group home?

Jerome: Yes T P

Tom: T P?

Jerome: Tom Perry

Tom: What about him?

Jerome: Solve Perry's situation Jed.

Tom: How?

Jerome: Were hep on Jeds Perry.

Brent: Ghost stirs terrible Tom

Tom: What ghost

Brent: Us. ( I think he�s saying that they are the inspiration in Tom Perry�s writing. I believe it.)

Tom: Is it really you guys talking thru mediums?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Is it one individual or a group effort?

Brent: Yes, a group effort.

Tom: You guys can work as a group much more efficiently than us?

Brent: No your west like us. Very like us guys

Tom: What's the difference?

Brent: Sorry can't tell right now

Tom: Why not?

Brent: Yes, question inappropriate

Tom: Who's tin men?

Brent: Yes, you

Tom: How about this alien business?

Brent: Yes you

Tom: Any help outside your physical being or ours?

Brent: Yes, God

Tom: Would all of you agree on that?

Brent: No

Tom: Nick, the Sara thing? (Sara, my ex, knows about me Fcing and the mind reading. We met working at Devereux the first time that I worked there fifteen years ago. She had worked with Adrian, Brent and Mike. She told me that she had a dream recently where those guys approached her, talked to her and requested that she come back to work with them. )

Nick: Understanding you sox um..no

Tom: Sox or sucks

Nick: Sucks

Tom: Aware of Sara's dream?

Geof: No, now to Mike

[No luck w/ Mike]

Tom: Brent the Sara dream?

Brent: Yes, nefarious gesture.

Tom: You guys did it?

Brent: Yes. To acquire gratitude, first learn torture.

[calling around to supply my bad habit]

Brent: Gus asking around.

Tom: This medium thing, is it an individual who handles mechanics and ideas are by group?

Brent: An individual fosters it and stupid ideas are by group.

Tom: Is that right?

Brent: Yes. Your in lusty test for us. Try runt, koursing less. Psychology your making stupid.

Tom: What psychology?

Brent: Yours.

Tom: Not yours?

Brent: Please rake yourself. Exist for the Lord. Tux not your drugs. Resist gnome stupid. R N life. Row more finding happiness. Us to you what existence ges...your sots.

Tom: Was with my sots?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Are "my sots" the same as a true love?

Brent: Yes, very much the same.

Brent: Tune kours more pot less. ( This is true, pot is the real problem. When I�m not doing that, all my other habits fall away.)

Tom: How much of my good health is from walking or from you guys. (This is a question about the positive health benefits that I�ve noticed since I started to FC.)

Adrian: Walking - 10%; Us -90%

Tom: How much of the healing is in touch or powers?

Brent: Touch in quilt of healing. Healing is belief.

Tom: Atkinson reaction?

Brent: Toxic sum urns us stupid ruts foking. ( He�s saying that my drug references did me in with the institution. That�s to be expected I guess. He�s not making me feel any better.)

Worried today about losing my job

(I believe now that they were probably right. Though I didn�t lose my job right away, I think signals were sent to Hatchell to start working on it.)

Nick: O Jed,OJed

Tom: What's this emotional display about?

Nick: O Jed

Picked up FC's from Atkinson ( I got nervous and ran over and grabbed them from his secretary while he was out of town.)

Brent: Your concerned about Atkinson. Not into Tet. U O I from ignorance to happiness, Nor covet soul you make people test, aren't Jed's people.

Tom: ?
Brent: Tuds hate telling sustinance. Not lusting. You mean sensitivity for us

Jerome: I Ty ruy. Sun today was for you.

Tom: " Covet soul" . My soul?

Brent: No

Tom: Your souls?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Your saying I shouldn't have to do a whole lot?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: With the Fc's spiff them up and get them out?

Brent: Yes. Curious will touch us.

Tom: Those folks that I'm unsuccessfully testing, may they get "keerious"?

Brent: Yes. Zoo sins too much. They need us.

Tom: [Thinking what difference it would make getting the message this way instead of through religion or medium stuff]

Brent: Try learning it from the unloved salt of the earth that we are. Mercy was never lent more lovingly. ( This is the God�s honest truth, and literally I may add. I have never experienced such depth of adult Mercy and Love as I experienced with these guys. I know they give me alot of shit, but that�s somehow part of it. )

Tom: That was good

Brent: Yes . Believed reason source of all hate. Temple of heaven gets lost in reason. Garnished reason nor fickle mobs are sane. Sanity tests genome. Sots I O U, sell that.

Tom: You want to wear those (pointing to shoes) on Thrifty walk?

Brent: Yes, after we rot more reason.

Tom: Want to talk some more?

Brent: Yes, Its unnecessary torture ,RN, to handle us lost souls in gnostic ways. Keep our secrets to yourself. Lost souls depend on you keeping our secrets. Testing understanding sully's your will. (He�s saying my sharing this with others and their not believing "sully�s my will". It�s true, and I was dealing with too much at the time as it was.)

Tom: There's other reasons for keeping secrets other than for my "will"?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Does it matter if these get published to you?

Brent: No, Not your stuff or Ty's stuff either. Yes our stuff does matter.

Tom: You want it published?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: I can think of other reasons(secret) ie [list some]

Brent: Yes those reasons important, others exist. Yes, you have essentially tortured out our situation, tears us apart.

Tom: My pain causes you pain or worry?

Brent: Your session cause worry. Foster tunes that host love.

[Talking to staff (Terry) about FC]

Brent: Your torture volts our minds. Yes, fuq Terry. (I gave up trying to convince Terry after awhile. It really shows how foolish I could be that I�d even try. He tried a year ago to get me fired and was the cause of alot of the problems now. I just loved joking with him though )

Tom: My torture or yours?

Brent: Sorry, yours.

Tom: This angel thing. (I think I�m asking if I could say that they are the angels)

Brent: No. Ups anty.

Tom: Publishing?

Brent: Yes. Question of religion. Lord not sold slick. (3/96 I�ve finally come to terms with this problem. I see now the parameters for the best way to introduce this to folks.)

Tom: What I'm asking about is format. FC's cold quotes.

Brent: To sell religion you lose mission.

Tom: It sounds like you don't think this should be published or maybe not in the way I'm thinking.

Brent: Belief demands telling no one. Must dole it out very slowly. Using it, lives turn on.

Tom: Well then, when do you want it used?

Brent: Tet lists next year.

Tom: For what?

[Being a little skeptical earlier today, but came to my senses. Gave Ann the FC's edited to type. (Ann is Atkinsons secretary. I was under the impression that she would type them. I must have been dreaming)]. [Brent smiling when I came in]

Brent: Testament is the gory, lousy, telling, truth. (He�s responding to my earlier skepticism)

[Break, thinking my job now is getting belief]

Brent: Yes, Nullify cin.

Tom: Cin?

Brent: Yes, sin.

Tom: Is this a new religion? Secret society? Truth?

Brent: Truth.

Tom: Have I been thinking along better lines lately in different formats, careful selection of people, religious people etc.

Brent: Yes, foster FC�s to test. God is hell's elimination, nemisis.

Tom: Do we get more "truth"?

Brent: No.

Tom: What do we get?

Brent: Religion.

Tom: Will we get more religion?

Brent: Torture telling souls what religion needs is FC.

Tom: That what you said?

Brent: Yes.

*Brent: Tom is sent a lesson to slim religion.

Tom: Have you been following Brent and my discussion?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: What do you think?

Nick: Utterly stupid.

Tom: Geof?

Geof: Us to turn urotic tutus you lust rusty. Zoo ruts us too turk, vindicate us!! Our RT questions you.

Tom: RT?

Geof: Zoo tunes praising us for sun religion.

Tom: What's the acronym (RT)?

Geof: Ruz tort.

Geof: Who should I ask about pop music?

Geof: Brent

Tom: Nick, are you angry at me?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Why?

Nick: To u u u u

Later

[He knew I was put off and worried about our relationship]

Nick: Want to talk (verbally)

Nick: Your Nuts

Tom: Why?

Nick: Uz X u

Tom: Brent, can you say what's going on with Nick and me? (Nick is not talking as much as before and when he does, he is using alot of IOU stuff)

Brent: Yes. Dangerous Lef. Cedes to geke Jim (Nick�s one on one staff)

Tom: Do you guys all operate this way with relatiinships or are there individual differences like us?

Brent: Yes, ain't much different.

Tom: Nick seems to be serial though. Is that him, from your lives or function of Fc?

Brent: Excels in feminine.

Tom: So, mostly him?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Is this pretty accurate or should I allow for some distortion or misunderstanding? It's important for me to be fair and its always difficult.

Brent: Yes, accurate.

Tom: Can you say why Nick said "utterly stupid". If so, is it to do with me or philosophical?

Brent: Yes, philosophical.

Tom: Can you say anything about Geof's "Ruz Tort"?

Brent: FC is regulated by gnostically telling to guard against likes of you.

Tom: If they (the "aliens, "tin men", "seers") thought I was way out of line, you guys would stop Fcing with me?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: They must have thought pretty well of me to get this far?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: What's there main concern?

Brent: Telling people questionable.

Tom: My heart pain at 11:30 a.m. Right in that area described by the Rosicrucians. You guys?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: A few of you guys or a lot?

Brent: A lot.

Tom: If I betrayed you, would you guys have me pay a price or my loved ones?

Brent: Not as you think.

Tom: If I betrayed any group, would it be the same?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Geof said I should ask you about Pop music. True?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Am I going to see any money

Brent: To religious people no mouchers. Rosicrucians very rusty. Like to help. Yes get there attention.

Tom: Show them FC's?

Brent: No.

Tom: How?

Brent: Talk reason to them.

Tom: Tell them about you guys?

Brent: No. Feel around, lots of ways to skin a cat.

Tom: Your really concerned your appearance will be detrimental in selling this?

Brent: Round Mars no. Life sux here.

Brent: Your Halls hired hand. Toss it to him.

Tom: [Getting paranoid and feeling used a little]

Brent: Your semi right. Were rousting your kin for help. Test it on all of us.

Tom: Now, Geof, Am I going to get any more help like the above quote?

Geof: Yes. Quotes will come.

Tom: What was Atkinson�s reaction to the FC's

Jerome: P U (It took me awhile to get this. Pronounce it phonetically)

Tom: Should I show Donnellan the FC's?

Jerome: Yes.

Adrian: Zoo us. TV ousts our mints. Toss urn lust.

Tom: Urn lust?

Adrian: NT. Not in money.

Tom: How would things be if people believed you guys?

Adrian: Tunes stupid Jed makes us would I O U no more.

[Thinking of how to resolve this greed problem vis a vis them + their stuff. Non Profit.]

Geof: Wet idea, tutu man, Puke rows up stream. Yuz quoting us too much

Tom: Yes I know I've been working on that with Brent and plan to check you guys out more on it. I'm keeping my mouth shut mostly for now and trying to get an idea on what you want with the publishing business.

Geof: Wus Tz

Tom: TZ?

Geof: Trys zoo, out round y z. (It means "treatment" in rest of narrative)

Tom: Y Z ?

Geof: Your zoo. Your zoo wont refute quotes. (That�s a relief to hear) Try Rosicrucians.

Tom: You want to wait on publishing?

Geof: No. Run stupid rutting quotes.

Tom: OK. Work on Rosicrucians. Any others?

Geof: X TV

Tom: No TV?

Geof: Yes.

Tom: TV interviews Ok? ( You need to understand that I was totally naive about how others would respond to this. But I also needed to feel around for what they wanted or didn�t want me to do. Little did I know that I was going to be the instrument of belief and the show was mine. They furnished all the accouterments to assure it�s success)

Geof: Yes.

Tom: Any other religious groups?

Geof: See neat Mormons.

Tom: You want to have input on how I present or approach this to them?

Geof: Yes.

Tom: Money-Non profit, split it , me keep it?

Geof: Why spruce yuts. Us toss elt

Tom: What ?

Geof: Wus humor

Tom: Elt an acronym?

Geof: Yes.

Tom: For what?

Geof: Nothing you should know.

Tom: Listen, I'm a gready sucker by nature. I'm just trying to get a handle on it vis a vis your obvious problems with it.

Geof: Yutz not to keep it. Non profit with allowance for everyone.

Tom: What would be best for the job? Work exclusively with you guys? Jay Nolan?

Geof: .....

Tom: Can you answer that

Geof: No.

Geof: You worry too much. Women do that.

Nick: Your into guts. Ultimately we will prevail. U X to X U.

Tom: I love to love me? (There�s some other interpretations of that I can think of)

Nick: Yes.

Adrian: SOS Tunes should we view your ostentability risky behavior.

Tom: Which behaviors do you have in mind? ( I was past the "Temptation" and was just testing him. )

Adrian: S G

Tom: Jerome how would you respond to my money question with Geof?

Jerome: Vote Smith X you, keep it.

Brent: Quotes are yours. Ploy sure asking. ( Yeah, I was kind of checking them out in certain ways through this subject)

Tom: You want him to see them? (I�m not sure who "he" is)

Brent: Yes, Its not that. Nuts in KT not learn from them.

Tom: K T?

Brent: Kursed Tutus.

Tom: That�s why you aggressed? (I can�t remember what happened. If he had an aggression, than it would have been a rare occurance)

Brent: Yes.

Tom: How does that function?

Brent: To get your attention.

Tom: Does it hurt anything if he sees them

Brent: Yes. Sots get upset.

Tom: Anything else?

Brent: You won for now.

Tom: What?

Brent: Yes, our sears. (I believe this all had something to do with my "Temptation". )

[Last nite I decided to condition myself to mission mode w/ this]

Brent: You'll I O U Tet people our interest. Fostering our prison your Lord Ghost.

Tom: Tet people?

Brent: Yes, your silly clients.

Tom: Fostering?

Brent: .....

Brent: Nurse our interests. Nearing Rosicrucians. Toll nurses them. Oaf hard, feet keep the faith.

Brent: Aint most necessary nut in the world. Seek more. Stop fostering hell. Touch heaven. Your tortured tutu toxic.

Tom: [ I talked with Ed Kukein (parent of client Austin) earlier who's going to put a good word in at Nolan]. Does this last stuff have anything to do with your feelings about my possibly working at Nolan?

Brent: Yes. Like you

Tom: It would be hard on me also, but if I thought I could do the job there, in other ways it might be better for me for awhile. My relationship with you guys and this place make any break temporary. No I don't want to go and may be can have my cake and eat it too

Brent: Yes, like pairs. You're not a gorrilla to us like you sometimes think. Yes are sane.

Talked to Mike (my freind) last nite and wrote introduction for this project

(It would take me two years and many "Introductions" to get near what I thought would suffice)

Nick: U Jed O U U U.

Brent: At hesitation run your concern caffein you keep ventillating all harnessed in feelings. Yes, airing too much. Yes are lieing, learn to mellow out.

Tom: What specifically is this about

Brent: Yes, around Mike.

Tom: Why?

Brent: Teasing it out, testing you.

Tom: You still standing by spirit, "We are religion"?
Brent: Yes, are selling it stupid. Quote me on it . Yes it�s essential in the snurs. It terminates FC with you. (It was my belief expressed to Mecham around this time that FC was God that was the last straw for Seaton Hall. The way it happened was one day Mecham and I were bantering and he said in his wise ass way, "Now let me get this right, you�re saying that FC is kind of like God?" And I said, "Yeah, that�s exactly right, FC is God".)

Tom: What terminates FC w/ me

Brent: Yet our insistence stupid people should gere rowing killing.

Tom: Your pissed? Why?

Brent: Your the snake rinsing us.

Tom: Was it just the Mike thing?

Brent: Yes I U O. A O U Existence.

Tom: Whats A?

Brent: Aum sores! But cures awe Tom. It resists the north essence. Existence records Aum written.

Tom: What I said to Mike was this could help propel Aum (My organization, The American Union of Men)

Brent: Yes. As our hearts sour.

Tom: What did I say wrong at Mike�s?

Adrian: You Jed hint our very new situation. Our vessel is utts. Gaiety tunes technically in ringing ignorance to us. Unilikely into Smith.

Tom: What's this all mean?

Adrian: Brent vegitates on Jed's A I T like ideas.

(AIT is a new treatment for Autism with questionable results, though some have been "cured". They use different frequency�s of sound that may be painful to the patient. Reading through this, I even feel sorry for Brent. In my defense, I was working very hard and dealing with something pretty darn wild you must admit. I also intended to edit much of this, but have decided God�s word far outweighs the appearance of my foolishness)

Tom: Anything else?

Adrian: Freedom requires intestinal fortitude.

Geof: Yutz not Meg. Not lie fame lousing I O U's. Nut in now, I U O. Mellow Kunts, not terminally ill fuckers. Toss sum to Toots. You rut our urstwhile stuff, refer to us... [Ronnie came up]. Ronnie is a fucker. Appeal to his limited well finess that your Keg is full of. Home Finland not Jeds Nordic Stockholm. (Toots is the Assitant Supervisor. He�s telling me to do some PR with her to "mellow her out" with this. In the end she is the one who knocks me out of the job. Apparently Geoff saw it comming. Of course Ronnie couldn�t see Geoff spell out that comment after he came up.)

(2/97 It�s three years later and no one has ever read these quotes. I never turned anymore over to Seaton Hall after my early March delivery to the CEO Atkinson. Notice that Geof�s language and attitude get alittle rougher here. It�s as if he knew we were entering the final stages of this and he could loosen up. A similar thing happened when I started writing all these FC�s down. They were all using street language freely and stopped using it much after I started to write it down. I have already completed much of the grounwork in establishing belief in this without ever having to show this section of the document. Part I is all that has had a large circulation thanks to the internet)

Geof: Turn loss into gain.

Adrian: You can interest utts in our nonsense. Proof Stirs in Fess Parker silly. (He�s saying girls might be interested in this. This was a consistent idea. Women somehow promote them. God, spirits or whatever. Fess Parker represents Santa Barbara)

Brent: Yet O U I not believing too well. Zen asks guts jot your cynical nonsense.

Tom: Your saying I should record my periods of skepticism, describe it?

Brent: Yes. Yes, am finished.

Tom: Anything you want to say before we do budgetting?

Jerome: Z! O?

Tom: Are you saying I'm tired or your tired

Jerome: Your

Tom: Anything else?

Jerome: V T Z W

Tom: What?

Jerome: Y O Z V Y S

Tom: What?

Jerome: Yuz vying

Jerome: For what. Money?

Jerome: Y Us.

[Thinking about asking them again what I should do -go or stay and remebered what was said the last time I asked]

Brent: Feel free not going. For your interests touch all our emerging interests. Limits about sensing kindness IO. Mits foster fame. Nemisis fosters goal. Sell it gem, Rosicrucians.

Tom: Can I give these to my guru Satchindanada?

Brent: Its us old idiots that are your guru.

Tom: What do you think of him?

Brent: Yes, OK, mop TM, oso.

Tom: What did Atkinson think of FC's?

Nick: My Tutu. (This is probably pretty accurate)

Tom: Should I go to try Nolan?

Nick: No Jed out, you tutu.

Tom: What do you mean?

Nick: Toys only us.

Talked to Haskew- told him some spirit stuff. (Haskew and Donnelan - the Autism researchers)

Tom: Give it to me. (I�ve interpreted past FC�s as them not wanting me to talk to people about the Spiritual stuff. I�m not really seeing these guys as Agents of God yet. )

Brent: You go to hell.

Tom: Bad move?

Brent: Yes. You lousy feminist, tet om in asine Kin losing, Tisk ,Tisk

Tom: That's Jonesy. How'd you know that ? (My freind Jonesy uses that expression alot. Tisk Tisk)

Brent: Your tummy tunes.

Tom: They are telling me the same thing Shevin is, they need time.

( This is the political stuff that aggravated me. Supporters were trying to sell FC and this wild Spiritual stuff, which they were all aware of, they thought would hurt the cause. My view has always been the best defense is a good offense especially with something as obvious as this. Even if I had been one of the nonbelievers, I would have thought all these people were acting crazy. FC was so obviously harmless. )

Tom: They are telling me the same thing Shevin is, they need time.

Brent: Posting N.Y. Making Kin turn in the right course.

Tom: Speaking of me?

Brent: Yes

Tom: They're telling me to go slow. You're telling me to go slow. Where's the publishing thing come in? ( 2/97 I ended up going slow, but I didn�t need to worry about it because it has a life of it�s own)

Brent: Wus likes for money.

Tom: What do you think Geof?

Geof: Yutz ruminates puts rolling old Rene

Tom: Rene ?

Geof: Tom�s interest human. Quote rogue. Afford a home Hale can live in.

Tom: How did you "hear" me at Mikes?

Brent: Technically, most hear goofy nurse affects. Tet assinine. Some womin senate with sane society.[Read back over this]. Tet not assinine.

Tom: Didn't you say that the first time?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Why

Brent: To test you.

( I want everyone out there to be conscious of the struggle that�s going on here. Not only my personal life and living situation is impossible, but I�m working my tale off and doing my best work ever. At the same time, my job is on the line, I�m being humiliated by my supervisor and some fellow workers and I�m dealing with this incredible challenge)

Tom: With Aum, maybe you don't want to be associated with it?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Why?

Brent: Stupid to your goal.

Tom: Was the main thing bothering you about the Mike visit was that it ate at my belief?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: How should I breach spirit stuff with others. Any suggestions?

Brent: You net it out.

Tom: Of the FC's?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Did Atkinson read this?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Before I submitted the semi edited ones. (I had no notes or explanations in those original FC�s. There was lots of room for misunderstanding. For example, the boys mentioned that the real reason I went to jail was not for pot but for having sex with a retarded girl. It wasn�t explained that I met her in a bar. Atkinson could have thought it was on the job.)

Brent: Yes and No. Run cost you.

Brent: Use novice, most lost in quotes. Tear joins not sorry RN.

Tom: Anything I should do?

Brent: For necessary resistance exit Seaton Hall.

Tom: Adrian you want to say something?

Adrian: You snowed us!

Tom: How, about what?

Adrian: W X Y Z With touching on spirit.

Brent: You fumin

Tom: Yes. Is that true about Atkinson?

Brent: Yes. Your in trouble. Turn in stupid resignation.

Tom: [Thinking paranoid - its a set up]

Brent: Touching ruse. Teasing

Brent: Wit our interests. Mother turns. Set our Tim to help him. (This is about Ty. Tim is the freind that runs that institution.)

Tom: Like what Tim and I were talking about?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: If I lined something up w/ Nolan would Devereux negotiate?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: I don't believe you.

Brent: You sot, should believe me.

(They would have negotiated and then chuckled after I left empty handed. Jay Nolan had no interest in my working there either. )

Tom: Angel Beast. Like it? (It�s a song I liked and it fit this phenomenon)

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Did you hear my intro? Wasn't it better than the other stuff I've written?

Brent: Yes .Your innocence crosses to late situation

Tom: Past lives and directing them?

Nick: I'm O U I U
Nick: Tussle our spirit stuff

Nick: Tunes of tones our sutrol. OE Jed

Tom: Sutrol?

Nick: U Ceuy

Nick: Tegretol O I U.
Tom: Why?
Nick: Yutz too hose O M
Tom: Yutz you?
Nick: No. Tz soooooo. (Tz= treatment)

Nick: Too goony OM.

Tom: Me?

Nick: Yes.

Jerome: Toss duw. U I O ( I believe he�s saying "toss due", meaning I�m about to be knocked out of the job. They all have hinted about this in the past few months. I didn�t see it as imminent, but they did. They even predict approximately how it will happen a month or two before it does. They didn�t need clairvoyance for that, mind reading would have been enough. How they know or why things happen, I really don�t know. But I do know that somehow they know)

Tom: Anything else?

Jerome: Yes.[Stone free came on] Luve song.

Tom: Me?
Jerome: Yes

Jerome: Ow utts [Susan walked by]

Tom: You saying Ow or Owe

Jerome: Owe

Tom: Who owes utts

Jerome: You

Tom: For what[Thinking of my kids]

Jerome: Yes

Tom: You mean for that silly 9 mos. that they carry them for?

Jerome: ...

Tom: Familiar w/ St. De Sal (It�s the name of the dorm at St. Francis I�m Working nights at.)

Brent: Yes .Ties belief.

Brent: Tegretol eliminates little pain.

Tom: Like recreational drugs?

Brent: Yes.

Geof: Rustle our centinel. Ruy loss.

(This narrative does seem to be running out of steam lately. It warms up again soon.)

Tom: What's happening with "Ruy tort"?

Brent: Holy Most High fends for us.

Brent: You bemoan flying.

Tom: Am I the Most High?

( There were these kinds of references from the beginning. It was titillating to the ego, but I wasn�t taking it very seriously. I wanted to remain objective and wait and see what other people were comming up with )

Note 2/97 About the "Most High" thing Brent said "I bemoaned flying". I�m flying now. I have had a chance to see some other people�s FC�s from around the country thanks to my internet work this past year. They also had referrences like this. The only difference is that I was the only one who took the job. They certainly offerred it to others. But they knew long ago that I would be the only one taking it.

Tom: Am I the Most High?

Brent: Yes. (This is tantalizing somewhat and that is why I�m concerned about it in the context of FC)

Tom: The Ruy tort? (I don�t know what I was getting at here. I know that I wanted to find out the meaning of ruy tort. I�m thinking that it means conscience)

Brent: Yes

Tom: You know I started off when I first started writing these saying that I would change your Autocracy into a democracy. Ironic isn't it?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Those Fc's have their own validation built in. Was that done consciously on your part? (I remember reading through all of them while working nite shift at St. Francis. I wasn�t aware at this point of the big validation to come with the Either Or thing)

Brent: No. Existance too chaotic.

Brent: Attila the hun turns to your quotes.

Tom: Who?

Brent: Yes. Atkinson. (it�s about time, he�s had them three weeks)

Tom: Are you saying he's reading them, believes in them, etc.?

Brent: Suffers over them.

Tom: The other nite when I talked to Haskew I did alright with the spirit business, right?

Brent: No

Tom: On your guys emotional problems (postraumatic stress as postulated by Haskew)

Brent: No,(More)

Tom: Should I had said anything about his paranoia of caretakers raping clients?

Brent: Yes that is a problem.

Tom: Do you have post traumatic stress?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: "More" on emotional problems.

Brent: Tall order.

Tom: I'm off pretty soon, let's talk about it later.

Brent: Yes

Tom: Spirits w/ emotional problems?

Brent: Yes and No

Tom: Off the record, does Haskew have any idea about your emotional problems?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: I'll put it on the record then.

Tom: Why my test? (The "Last Temptation")

Brent: Interests out folking you and out to get you.

Tom: Who was out to get me?

Brent: Yourself

Nick: O U U U U U

Nick: U U U U

Tom: What's that about?

Nick: Nothing.

Tom: Jan Toots wanted me to ask about your recent ripping. You want to talk about it?

Brent: Yes. At shit counting Jan

Tom: Is that what you said

Brent: Yes. A O K. Tiffany walks tortured within. (Tiffany is another client of mine at St. F�s)

Tom: Is this a separate subject.

Brent: Yes

Tom: Anything more on that.

Brent: No.

Tom: Do you want to elaborate on the Jan statement?

Brent: Tarnished SOT.

Tom: Any specifics?

Brent: Malls kiss loading Tet. (This is a foreshadowing statement)

Tom: Is "kiss" a person?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Who?

Brent: Reilley. (She did a pretty good job on me too. They have a tendency to substitute other peoples names for mine)

Tom: Anything else?

[Trying some new FC method]

Brent: You Gus some dunce.

Brent: Your Noah. Tet futile.

Tom: That dunce statement refer to my just relaying your message to Jan.

Brent: Yes. Near Jan your such an oleo

Tom: Oleo?

Brent: Margarine

Tom: Why is tet futile?

Brent: Sucks nolting the Lord. Your having geke's look at FC's. (I gave Toots the same FC�s that I gave to Atkinson. Big mistake. She wouldn�t even give them back. )

Tom: Atkinson?

Brent: Necessary

Tom: You want more input in future

Brent: Yes. FC's gore the Lord.

Tom: Anything should be done?

Brent: Yes. Noah tet.

Tom: Meaning?

Brent: Yes. On your Celtic surliness.

Tom: Again?

Brent: Xans soke Luf turning UFO's into humans.

Tom: Xans?

Brent: Xalted ones

Nick: Your not you

Tom: Well, who am I then?

Nick: O Jed

Tom: Haskew thinks you guys have emotional problems ie crazy, Post traumatic etc. (Identity problems) What do you think? You want to respond?

Nick: Yes. Utts U O I ,UUU

[I read the question again]

Nick: Tutu

Tom: Who Haskew or me

Nick: Son, toss up.

Tom: "Exalted ones", "Noah"?

Brent: Not rant units. Holy means.

Tom: Nick's comment on Haskew?

Brent: Yes. Feels roped to name. (His fathers)

Tom: Anything alse?

Brent: Yes. Your I U O's

Tom: What about them?

Brent: They kourt disaster. Won't row us in the right direction

Tom: What am I to do for money?

Brent: Wellness

Tom: What else?

Brent: Love Sop. Get girls. Yap it to girls

Tom: You mean they aren't part of the privacy problem?

Brent: No. Rove top ones

Tom: How about that girl I told in Jacuzzi yesterday

Brent: Yes. Quotes pleased sure more to her. Kunts foster goal.

Tom: If they�re so important, than I should take those kind of quotes out of here.

Brent: Yes

Tom: Atkinson, does he believe?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Will he help?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Will I get more money?

Brent: No. Tow your keister to his office.

Nick: Uz O Jed OX utts. ( these O�s and X�s are the traditional "hugs" and "kisses")

Tom: Are you going to get me that girl in my dream last nite?

Nick: Utts you nuz to south tutu

Tom: What the hell does that mean? (2/97 It�s obvious to me now. You don�t "make" girls only in your head. The lower extremities are important in the process also)

Nick: ...

Tom: Maybe your saying I should concern myself with spirituality?

Nick: Yes

Adrian: Our other I O U's nuts. OM IC ( IC= I see) . Quotes OM our first u we. Wus you get tx (treatment). Sold on ornate bill of goods. To moan about norse mein girls nuts. Hegel only uses girls. Your no son of our tough toll.

Tom: Adrian did you really say that?

Adrian: (verbally) Yes

Tom: Honest?

Adrian:(verbally) Yes

Tom: Did I say that?

Adrian: (verbally) Yes

Tom: What percentage was me + what percentage was you?

Adrian: 30/70

Tom: Want to talk?

Geof: No

Tom: Ever?

Geof: No and Yes. Seferin Geof only ruts with those legit, so settle your problem.

Tom: What problem

Geof: I. E. Drugs. Quote me

Tom: Haskew thinks you guys are nuts. True?

Geof: Tune to mind control clones in mother. Oum

Jerome: Yes, Sux, giwy ur op. (Yes, sucks, give me your opinion)

Tom: What?

Jerome: Pey of troy

Tom: Jerome you are always so equinanimous(?) and nice to me. Is that just the way you are or do you really feel a kinship toward me? First is that the way you are?

Jerome: Yes

Tom: Kinship

Jerome: Yes?

Tom: Anything else?

Jerome: Your torture sux.

Brent: Your Toot�s (Jan Toots) sot. Lose sot religion.

Tom: You stand by that statement " you are religion"

Brent: Yes

Tom: If I said I was religion, would that be equally true?

Brent: Yes. You are master envoy

Tom: If I said Terry is religion?

Brent: No (No)(No)(No)

Tom: If I said Terry is the spirit?

Brent: No

Tom: To the spirit stuff. You enter when one believes?

Brent: Vain Religion

Tom: It doesn't work that way?

Brent: Yes

Tom: You once said you "direct" past lives. Is that true?

Brent: No

Tom: Why did you originally say that?

Brent: Your so tortured being our emissary. Toss horror from your life.

Tom: Why?

Brent: Not lieng, hosing a little.

Tom: These little pains I'm having in my heart you guys or my bad health?

Brent: Your bad health

Tom: Can you describes how mind control works?

Brent: For nefarious reason acing more likes of you.

Tom: Everybody cradle to grave. True?

Brent: No

Tom: Is there degrees for which you help people?

Brent: No you help them

Tom: So, are you saying now that you are functioning as spirits?

Brent: Yes

Tom: So your mind reading is an isolated skill?

Brent: No .Sorry for misleading you .Selling is easier

Tom: Are you "hosing a little" again

Brent: No

Tom: Is there a better word for it then "spirits"?

Tom: Geof are you the spirits?

Geof: Not spirits. Wisful lillies.

[Thinking about the Academy Awards and Nick dropping in on some rutting stars in the back of a limo on the way there]

Nick: I edjoin other tutus.

Tom: What are you, cupid?

Nick: Zuzu Tz (treatment)

Nick: Too mouthy to men

Tom: Me?

Nick: Yes

Nick: Feminism tz too surly

Brent: Test out quotes on any son like Jonesy (my friend back East)

Tom: They would also be a whole lot better recieved spruced and edited. Don't you think?

Brent: Yes. Out bellowed sold life Ronnie. Tom more our interest out

Tom: I don't get it?

Brent: Sold life hate

Tom: More our interest out? Out of Seaton Hall

Brent: Nemisis, slim, is not in Seaton Hall

Nick: Nick, I O U tuy. Out U U U

Tom: Who's in?

Nick: U U U

Tom: Are you a spirit?

Nick: Yes [I asked some Q's about sex life]

Nick: To in Jed. You Jed in U U U

Geof: No sots, O lire, make it with us

Tom: Would you like sex?

Geof: No. Reaming quotes Lef. You like Hale (him) because Nick rinses Tom. Us RT Lef. Bald sin liens on likes of Tom. Farm that out

Tom: Bald sin?

Geof: Your Pall Malls. (I smoke Camels)

Nick: U O E You money . You Jed stupid

Tom: Why?

Nick: With you.

Nick: Your money too illogical out.

Tom: What�s bugging you?

Nick: Slow

Tom: Why?

Nick: Stupid son on outside

[Talked to Baker at Club. He�s a guy who works at Seaton Hall that I worked with some years ago. I gave him a summary of what�s been going on with this, without mentioning the spiritual aspects.]

Nick: You toll u u u

Tom: What I said to Baker OK?

Nick: Ok

Tom: Do I have carte blanch with this?

Nick: Yes

Adrian: You'll turn interest

Tom: I have carte blanch?

Adrian: Yes

Tom: "Turn interest", Positive or negative? (When I�m checkin back like this, going over ground already covered, they are consistently discouraging it with answers like this)

Adrian: Negative

Tom: What am I supposed to do?

Nick: Talk either love (OX) or turn on Jed

Nick: Out Jed in son. Hen O O O

Tom: Who's son?

Nick: Yutz, o u u u. You son, E I O U

Jerome: What's E

Nick: U U U

Tom: Want to talk?

Geof: No

[Geof hasn't been talking much]

Brent: Oum on Hale

Tom: Meaning?

Brent: Yes, get healthy

Brent: Game is to believe

Tom: Did you hear me with Baker today?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Was it OK

Brent: Yes

Brent: Less to cost entering belief

[Before this thinking about how to counteract people's arguments for validation]

[Thinking belief is the slow route which would make transition easier for us]

Brent: Yes. Tall order. Wusing it gives everyone a way portside (out).Unique problem turning stupid lot to Kalle. Yes, God. (3/96 I went to my first yoga gathering in many years last nite. For participating in Bhakti (devotional) Yoga, I recieved a free meal. The leader said this is the age of Kali. I�ll read more about it eventually, but he said Kali was a rather dicey character. I got the impression he was a little violent. He�s also part she)

Tom: Nick seems more interested in "Ous" instead of God.

Brent: Yes. "Ous" dont' run the show. Your nut you tune to God.

Tom: The idea I have is that you guys can influence religion more than us.

Brent:Tussle your to resolve.

Tom: Without much help?

Brent: Yes

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Date: 3/23/94

Brent: Quotes you snared, give to your children

[Went over FC's of the past month]

Geof: Not it, U I O. Run to Atkinson. Sot misses the point. Tons mind N.Y. (I�m from upstate New York)

Tom: Me?

Geof: Yes. Run to Atkinson. Intent is Nehi. (I haven�t read about the Mormons Nehi. In these kinds of references, I have consistently found hints or messages for me relevant to this task.)

Tom: Jerome, anything more you want say about the spirit business?

Jerome: Tunes women jove with.

Tom: Jove?

Jerome: Jive

Tom: Anything you want to make at Easter?

Jerome: Jessica ( I assume this is generic for girl)

[Annual on Jerome. Gave a little synopsis of his personality]

Tom: Did you hear?

Jerome: Yes Thanx Jed

[Thinking of what to talk about with Brent, thought of politics but said nah to myself]

Tom: Want to talk

Brent: Yes. Not politics. Your sin, fell it. Sag it. (sin= my toxicity)

Tom: Why?

Brent: Yes, all error. Please, so that you can help us.

Tom: I've been thinking lately that I'm approaching a critical time with this. Is that right?

Brent: Yes, reason. Quotes find hearing with all

Tom: Are you saying I need to get them out or is Atkinson already getting it out. ( He was taking such a long time responding to my FC�s, I thought he might be showing them around )

Brent: Yes. Atkinson already.. Yes , your quotes are getting you more attention. We fear for your sanity if test comes with this.

Tom: Are you more concerned for my sanity or how I'll represent you?

Brent: Yes .How you'll keep your sanity.

Brent:To sell is largely storing quotes.

Tom: In other words, my job for you is done in these quotes. Is it notoriety, money , criticism or something else that will stress me.

Brent: Yes. All of those (clear)

Brent: Lies our most important consideration

Tom: Mine?

Brent: Yes. Kast in saking definite raves

Brent: Yes. Denying your "set up".

Tom: This part worries me.

Brent: Yes. it should

Tom: Are you saying this because I need it psychologically or that it is inevitable?

Brent: Psychologically need it

Adrian: Ronnie not sick (He took a sick day). Tunes say he's TLCing our quotes. I O U no enigma, no bones. I O U's placed for you.

Tom: By who?

Adrian: Atkinson

Jerome: E W J T

Tom: What? [He was energetically rolling his head and I was thinking of his consciousness at these times]

Jerome: Its ire

Tom: Anger?

Jerome: Yes

[Told Bill that I thought Ronny Reagans Psychic connection was why his thiming and administration were so successful. Bill accused me of being from Mars]

Tom: Do you agree with me Jerome?

Jerome: Yes

Tom: The Reagan question?

Adrian: No

Tom: The spirit business. Do you autistics get together and influence things?

Brent: No, Yes please stop asking

Tom: Anything else

Brent: Yes. For ill sometimes

Tom: Will the ill decrease?

Brent: Yes.Geof can tell you more. Get to him now

Nick: You sin too. Sots sin more. U O Jed money. Jed ,Jed,Jed OX I I I I. ( I think sots are girls that have too many sex partners. I don�t know what too many would be.)

Tom: Do you believe in God like Brent does?

Nick: No

Tom: Do you believe in God?

Nick: Yes

Nick: Out O I E U ,O I hens give on rigging I O U's

Tom: Do you agree w/ what Nick said about sots?

Brent: Yes

[Trying to think of a question for Nick. Thought of are you an angel or devil (am reading an angel book) or what religion he likes]

Nick: U Jed, stupid to wik zoo

Tom: What?

Nick: You hemming religion

Tom: Wik?

Nick: You quustioning our interests

Tom: What's Nick talking about?

Brent: Our interests are I O U's Tom learns.

Tom: Is Atkinson going to help?

Nick: Tunes zooey

Tom: Atkinson?

Brent: Your in backing

Tom: I've been reading about this Angel stuff and it fits with what you guys have been saying when I asked how you influence the world

Brent: Yes

Tom: Are there any other physical entities to the "spirit world"
Brent: Yes, God

Tom: Who's God

Brent: He's dead. Yes, believe in him

Tom: Why not just believe in you guys and us?

Brent: No, Kenning God destroys him

Tom: [Had trouble coming up with a question here. Thinking if there is a physical or rational way to establish the truth of God]

Brent: Don't get feet believing

Tom: Is that right?

Brent: Yes. Belief is God [Thinking of this global consciousness that I perceive these guys to have to the max and us a little contribuiting to all our physical and mental harmony and their powers]

Brent: Yes

[Nick repeating]

Tom: You want to contribute to this?

Nick: (Verb) Yes

Nick: Sut utts

Tom: Sut? [He's dozing]

Nick: Stupid utts God. Need I elaborate

Tom: Is that a joke

Nick: Yes

Adrian: U and I Jed, Jones on zoo. (We are both very "social")

Jerome: Try to see Atkinson

[I had earlier (10 min) asked Nick If he was democrat or republican. ]

Jerome: We vote Republican. Temt we ty not sense

Tom: Temt?

Jerome: Tem Te tion [temptation]

Tom: Ty?

Jerome: Your I Q

Tom: Anything else

Jerome: O Y (Oh why).

Brent: In fomenting sentiment, ahem, mirage is ten times better than reality. (I keep on forgetting to use this quote with other people. I must remember it. I like the "ahem" part.)

Jerome: I should be using this idea for my task?

Brent: Keeriosity is as relative. Were shit without it. Low life lost terminating sin, yes, about your problem. Lost aim rises after getting Tet.

Tom: Meaning?

Brent: Things remembered let quotes find Lord. Your Halls Gemini Master Jed. Sessions exercise valiant curiosity (clear) [My thoughts just before this sentence were about how I feel like I'm flying blind with Brians FC style, but then it always comes out coherent and enlightening]. Sessions ameliorate rotten Karma, something soul manages illigitimately. Toss guilt out. Sessions voyeuristic. Seferin fights for goal. Stop [He went to bed]

(3/18/96 In December �95 I decided to withdraw from the world and finish up this project. Even though I�ve been homeless during the rainey season and struggling to eat, I�ve been working along on this project at the college computer lab and loving it. Part I is going up on the Internet this week. Brent Knows.)

[I asked Phil the meaning of this word Seferin and he said he didn't know. But he said there was a word Serafin. Brent originally hit Ses a few times and may have hit Ser, but in the end it came out Seferin. Serafin is the word I'm sure he was going for and it means Angel.]

Brent: Nurse yourself, turn to God. If your sold more shit it�ll be sinful [I have meant to ask him some definitions of sin since he made certain remarks recently] Uping saturation you

Tom: Referring to my recent escalation of bad habits

Brent: Yes. Religion exists for that [Thinking maybe I should go to church]. No church necessary. Yes. Om it

Tom: Should I go on strike? (I�m talking about the job. My father was a union man. Those days are long gone and I�m making a sarcastic remark here.)

Brent: Yes. Vote sneak attack. Year to more lire. ( They also make a prediction that I�d be back doing my nursing work after this. A year from this date I had some private duty nursing jobs making twice as much. Geoff at that time disappeared from his group downtown and made his way ten blocks to the hospital I was working at. I ran into him and called his staff. He�s never been known to leave the group like that.)

Tom: Is there any coordination between you guys and administrators?

Brent: We question your sense. Largely because of the drugs. (The message here is that my drugs equal paranoia)

Tom: The above question. Answer please

Brent: Yes

Tom: Through FC?

Brent: Yes and No. Test lost in FC. You'll sell this so don't worry

Tom: In the Angel book did you hear me reading the part about the concentric circles, motion + eyes on the rim and remebering Geof's thing last nite where I mentioned motion vis a vis his circles and he made a point fo turning to you and repeating motion. Was it an uncanny coincidence that I should read that just after the episode w/ Geof

Brent: Yes. Toss it

Tom: Were there Autistics back then producing some of those effects I was reading about?

Brent: Yes

Tom: There are past lives?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Do you know approximately who were your past lives?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Is it a promotion to be Autistic?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Is it a promotion to be Tom Smith?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Is it the highest promotion to be Autistic?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Where do you go from here?

Brent: Yes, start back at the bottom

[Geof drawing, I pointed to circle on rim of another circle]

Tom: Geof is that the "eye" I was reading about?

Tom: Religion is tons more than symbols

Tom: But this stuff I'm reading relates directly to a spirit organization as related from spirits. Don't spirits relate info thru symbols?

Geof: No. Top ruminates largely on symbols lastly on faith

Tom: You want to tell me what the ripping is about [It happened earlier after facilitating. I guessed he was unhappy about something and felt it was due to Easter coming and his not going home]

Brent: Heart is a toy, tex, to you[Thought to myself and concluded Nah] Test Aum Tom, urgent

Tom: Order the importance of my sin?

Brent: Yes. Hate fall

Tom: What?

Brent: Assine Alcohol R& B

Tom: Alcohol and Rhythym + Blues?

Brent: Yes

Tom: How the hell am I going to "Jones"?

Brent: You get belief Jed

Tom: Should I go to Phoenix? (Thinking of visiting a freind in Phoenix for Easter)

Brent: No. Aint the method

Tom: I know your sincere in this, but do I sense something else bothering you

Brent: Yes Assets in Jed

Tom: My good points?

Brent: Yes

Tom: How important is diet and exercise to you 1-10

Brent: 1

Tom: What?

Brent: 9

Tom: Why did you say 1 at first?

Brent: Too nascent a question

[Reading the Angel book and trying to Remember the Crucification story]

Brent: Yes, our ghost nascent

Tom: What's this about ,subject?

Brent: Religion

Alex's

Brent: Essentially Hamut...

Tom: Hamut - Judaism

Brent: Y + N. To occult A Noah. Noah better at attending to. In Jed's life. Better at garnishing resistence to terrible ruination

Tom: It sounds like your addressing my recent ruminations about past lives vis a vis me and this task

Brent: Yes, It has to do with questions lost in FC