Have you ever felt that no matter how much you do or how fast you do it that there isn't enough time in the day?  I mean I have my days of procrastination just like everyone else, but im far from being a slacker.  I go to school fulltime work 25 hours a week at one job another 6 at another job and 2-3 hours at my volunteer job a week.  I go to church two times a week and so everything I can to be a good person and yet have time for my friends both male and female and those I care for.  I still struggle to please people and myself every day though and yet this saddens me more than anything.  Especially when I can't seem to please the very person dearest to my heart no matter if he likes me that way or not.  My life doesn't involve around anything these days and venting is really what im doing but hell...why can't i just be happy?  Life is quickly slipping by me and I see my children now having children and I think where did the time go.  I still struggle to teach them knowing that there is just a few months before they leave and are on there own.  I want something for me not for them and yet I have nothing.....