There are a LOT of things to hate, and a LOT of reasons to hate each and every one of those things. Here I will be discussing just a few of the things that really get me going. First though I would like to explain what Hate does to me. When I hate something(or in this case, some one) I hate that thing(person) totally, and when I come into contact with that thing(person) all I want to do slash and hit and hurt and rend their flesh into a torn and rotting pile of even more useless meat the only thing that can stop me is physical force. I would love the oportunity to do exactly as I just described to more than a few people, but imprisonment of any kind is enough of a deturrent for me. I have said before that I do not have friends, I have personal bouncers to protect the public from me when I go out and it really is true. I have a lot of control over myself, and my "emotions', but there are times(rarely) that I cannot hold back any longer, and it is those times that get me into trouble.
I try very hard to not be violent, but sometimes people push me and my control just goes out the window, when that happens I either hurt someone else, or myself, depending on who caused what and the situation. For instance once a girl (who I am sure is going to read this) decided to mess with me, she was playing around, even though she is well aware of the fact that I hate her and am only barely tolerant of her presence. She hit me with a rolled up poster and started laughing, now the first time she did this I ignored it and kept control of myself after of course saying a few choice comments, but the second time really was too much, she found out very quickly why it is a bad idea to turn your back on me when I am pissed and don't value your life. In this instance I did not hurt her much(other than her pride), but I'm sure I scared her because all she did to retaliate was yell at me and back away behind her friends and hid the rest of the night, she hasn't messed with me since.
An instance where I felt a particularly strong bit of self-loathing was when I messed up on something very badly(this was major, police were involved), I was angry at myself(anger and hate go hand in hand when it is towards me) so I grabbed a razor blade and started slicing away at my own flesh, clawing myself with my nails, and doing anything possible to cause myself pain. I'm sure that I looked like a raving animal, but it served its purpose, after I lost energy and collapsed onto my bed I no longer felt angry at myself for fucking up and acting like an idiot.
Hate brings out both the best and the worst in me. When I hate something enough I get the wonderful chance to use my manipulative skills to destroy the object of hate, but sometimes I get too caught up in it and I get caught by police, teachers, parents, government officials, ect.
Here are a few things that I Hate for quick reference:
Stupid people
Animal Abuse
Christianity
Door to door sales people
Jahovas' Witnesses
Stupidity in general
Sunlight
School
People
Teachers bitching about homework and what I wear
Fried green peppers
My slow ass computer
Stupid preppy girls who think they are better than me
Alcohol(and also drunks, including my ex-father)
Addicts(drug USE in moderation is ok, drug ADDICTION is not)
Parents bitching about anything and everything
People calling my house when they know I'm asleep causing my parents to bang on the wall above my head till I wake up, and then hanging up before I can get to the phone
The fact that I was born a Breeder
All forms of government
Capital Punishment
Imprisonment of any kind
The lying corrup degererate sleazy politicians who run this country and the rest of the world
My stupid abusive pathetic drug addict selfish father who refuses to die because he wants to make my life as miserable as his
Condesending hypocriticle adults who think that because they are older they know EVERYTHING and are ALWAYS right and constantly correct me for nothing while making huge mistakes themselves but never admitting it
Body hair on males or females(its disguisting!)
Governments banning books and customs comfiscating them whenever I try to order a copy of MODCON and I don't get a refund
When I throw on clothes and makeup because I'm late only to realize halfway there that I'm covered in white doghair and/or large amounts of white and glittery makeup from the random people I greeted last time I wore the outfit
When my bootlaces break 10 minutes before I'm supposed to be at an appointment
When the dogs get loose and I have to run after them(usually in pajamas and sandels) in broad daylight for hours till they decide to come home
When the internet company fucks up and I can't check my email
When websites post imformation about TV specials that I wanted to see AFTER its on, and of course its not on again
The weather men forcasting a clear night only to have it actually rain, and of course I get caught out in it wearing a full length expensive velvet dress or skirt
When my corset rubs my side and it itchs all day but I can't do anything about it
When I get something in my eye, the eye waters, and I ruin three hours worth of makeup and have to start over
When I can't find anything to wear(or what I'm specifically looking for) in the Big Black Pile that is my room
When the locker elves moved into my room and take my socks and pens
When my dog eats my book I'm reading or just knocks the bookmark out of it
When stupid people walk by my house at 9 o'clock causing my ex-father to interrogate me for hours about if I knew them, who they were, what they were doing here, if I am planning on sneaking out with them(or sneaking them in), and if they looked like a police officer to me.- most of the time I never even saw the person walk by, had no idea who it was, and was asleep when he started yelling at me
When my hair gets dry and split ends because I dyed it too often
When I hallucinate and freak out the people around me
Love
Idiots that believe there could really be anything other than lust and hate and animal instinct
Large crowds
People who don't rewind movies before returning them to the rental place
People who tear pages out of the middle of books for no reason
People who dare to come up and touch and/or randomly poke at my piercings, makeup, clothes, ect.
Normal vinilla sex and those people who persecute "sexual deviants" like me
The Brady Bunch
MTV's TRL
MTV"s The Real World(except The Chiago season)
MTV's Road Rules and the stupid Road Rules/Real World Challenge Show
The United States of America, everything it stands for, and almost everyone in it