DICKHEAD/HANDSOME/CUDDLY. You pick.
Ugh. I don't feel like writing about guys right now,,, i'm just doing this because my site needs a section like this, and it was the only thing not linked on the other stuff's page..
Ok letsee... I'm the type that would rather spend my days hanging around with guys than girls. When i was young i never went around saying "oh i love you and you and you!" and i didn't spend my days sending rumours about who likes who and "cooties". I've known alot of dickheads in my life... I've been asked by strangers to get into their car quite often, and once one of them was close to grabbing my arm. I've been talked to by an old guy drinking a beer and wearing clothes full of blood and had himself bleeding, looking at me up and down. I've had a bunch of perverted asses on the net asking for me to cyber, asking my bra size, and asking a bunch of other stupid questions. I've had to live with a bunch of fucking Italian freaks at school that think they're all it, and we can't forget the guys who put me down because i'm a GIRL!!! SEXISM!! Ahem. But on the other hand, i've met nice guys too. Few that i have been able to talk to about almost anything, and others who are just good friends of mine at school. Guys are so fun to be with when you can just call them up and ask if they wanna do something and just go out.. and do something! No seriousness, no shit. There has been one guy that i felt i got along with oddly well and was nice to me but always fucking sugar coated their futuristic lies... and that really bugged me. I felt stupid around him all the time. He was the first to bring out the meaning of love in me (it was something i figured out very late in my life), but he hurt me too by making me feel stupid and like just another person on the list. I don't know if that's true.. I never figured out what went on in his mind. He's a lost cause. There are some at school i sooo badly want to kick their ass!! -One more time and i'll fucking kill them!! Oops. getting carried away... sorry. Then there's one that i met, which i had seen a few times in my life (from the age of 8 to the age of 16 but never really met him).- i've never been so comfortable and secure with anyone, and that's something that really makes me feel good. But with that, you can also get the "not understanding" and the "annoying" thing.... And yes, i *did* get stocked (spelling?) once. One's a bag full of problems and impatience. One's just a bag full of cum. One's a bag full of drugs. And it's hard...
There is one guy that is a very special person... and yet he's had such a hard life i understand why he can get easily hostile, but he's hurt me so much... and i tried so hard... i went through so much pain, i don't know what kept me there. It's not the need to be with someone; I'm an independent person and i can be alone and be happy. But i often wasn't happy. Too many times unhappy. I don't know when's the next time i'll be updating this, but at the moment, i really don't know how long it will last between us... : (
I just want to be with someone and be happy. No rush (with time) and problems always on their mind, and rules and traditions of gf/bf... none of that! I want to be loved and love, with a passionate connection but at the same time great hang-out time as friends and just whatever. So basically, there's the good and the bad of it. but know that guys are like roses... watch out for the pricks!! : )