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To this pain
None could compair,
My parents gain
Is my dispair,

I am now lost,
I am alone,
For love this is the cost,
But no love have my parents shown,

Only you who held me tight,
Who kissed me sweet,
On that first night.

I miss you now,
I want to die,
I don't care how,
All I know is why.

(C) Brandi Noel 2001
To: Louis

Last night was so grate,
You took me out on my first date.
You kissed me sweet, You held me tight.
And I swear it just felt so right.
It was so perfect just being with you,
You are my first boyfriend, You're my first kiss too,
And now I swear I am in love with you.
You were so sweet to me,
It's still all so new to me,
It's just so wierd to me.
Now here is a question for you, or rather,
Now here is a clue for you,
The lines above, if you decode,
                        Will tell you something,
                        You should know,
                        So read with care
                        The lines above,
                         And see the name of my love.

(C) Brandi Noel
To: Louis

I don't know what is wrong with me,
I use to be morbid, demented,
And sadly depressing,

But now I am,
Discustingly in love,
I write poems about guys,
And I compair them to angels from above,

Thay are sapy,
And sick,
I forgot I'm not a preppy hoe,
But a gothic Bitch*

I find myself wearing
Tight shirts with glitter,
I stare in the mirror,
'Damn, I wish my boobs were bigger.'

I use to not give a damn,
If guys even cared,
I might dress like a slut,
But just to watch them stare,

Before I couldn't flirt
To save my life,
My one true love
Was my pocket knife

With wich I use to
Slit my wrists,
But not no more,
'Cause I look forward to your kiss.

The one thing I've wanted,
My whole life,
That would take away my reson,
For self mutilation with knifes,

The one thing I've wanted,
Has allways been you,
But I never knew it,
And either did you,

But now I see
My life really dose suck,
What the Hell?
What the fuck?

But now my destiny is leaving
Me here all alone,
And all the feelings I've felt,
That I've never before known,

I now see are worthless,
And they were the whole time,
Happiness is your destiny,
Suicide is mine.

(C) Brandi Noel
October2001
To: Louis