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2006-08-16T19:20:00.000-05:00

25,000 casualties in Iraq

2006-02-27T16:11:00.000-06:00

A casualty is defined as those killed or wounded.
That figure comes from the mouth of Gary Hart, former senator and presidential hopeful in the mid 80's. He was a guest on Bill Maher's show this past weekend.
I was not surprised at the number. My only surprise is that no one is more people are not up in arms.
There is another article I ran across the web, http://www.lies.com/wp/2003/10/20/us-deaths-in-vietnam-and-iraq-by-month/ that does more of the comparisons that I have made about Iraq and Vietnam. That site goes into depth to show that we are right on track, if not ahead of the pace of reaching the amount of dead and wounded in Vietnam.
Now Iraq is headed into a civil war (to quote a G'N'R song, "what's so civil about war anyway?") we only a few REAL choices left for the US in Iraq. Leave and watch the country fall into chaos, or stay and which the country fall into chaos UP CLOSE.
I thought that I would never live to see the horror of Vietnam in the present day. Those who would like to argue that the Iraq war is nothing like Vietnam let me present you with these observations:

1. Who is the REAL enemy? A problem in Vietnam, as in Iraq is that it is nearly impossible to tell who the enemy is. Anyone on the street could be a potential enemy. Those that we train to fight turn around and use what we have taught them against us.
2. How do we get out? A major flaw with Vietnam and now Iraq is that there is no "exit strategy" We are engaged in a war with no easy way out. There is no way to transfer power over the government when the government is in chaos.
3. Civil War. This is the newest point. Now that we have Shia versus Sunni violence escalating, it is becoming evident that this could end up being a "wider war". It is almost a given that Iran, with a majority Shia population, will back Iraqi Shias against the Sunnis and the US will be forced to take sides. This could lead to the bombing of Iran and another great series of unknowns to follow.

This war must end now. Iraqis must defend themselves. I know that sounds harsh, but the US are not the worlds police force, and nor should we ever be used that way. Let the Arabs fight their own war. Bring our armed servicemen home before we end up worse then we already are.

2006-02-20T01:15:00.000-06:00

I'm back to being a geek again. I'm too used to late nights. A blog from my work treo... Because I can... This will need to be copied to MySpace where the most current stuff is. I will never let one person take me down.

2006-02-04T01:51:00.000-06:00

A blog from the treo650. How quaint.

Welcome to November

2005-11-03T17:11:00.000-06:00

Welcome to what is generally the worst month of my life. I have a long standing issue with November generally because its when the worst tragedies have befallen me. Its when Mitch died, by a drunk driver. And its when my cousin Ann died, by a drunk driver. It is also the month in which my real father was born, which is not a bad thing, its just that now that he is gone, there really isnt anything to celebrate. So I commemorate these events by staying hammered for the entire month of November.

Whats wrong with this?

Everything.

I know one should never drag around the past with them all the time, but these events are life defining moments. These moments however have also made me stop growing in some respects. After Mitch died in 90 I was reminded of what mortality really is. When you see someone you know, that is so close in age to you, taken away, you get a whole new perspective on what life means. I was close to death then. I wanted a way out of this life. Then, Mitch died and I understood what death really meant. It was selfish of me to think that no one would notice if I just disappeared. In recent months I have forgotten that lesson.

When I went to Drew in 93 I had all but forgotten about Mitch. I had let the ghost run my life for a while and I had finally let it go. Then, my cousin Ann died and everything came flooding back. I went ahead and hid inside a bottle, I got into a relationship that was more damning then helping, and I pushed away all of my artistic talents and locked them up planning on never using them again.

Its been 15 years since Mitch died. 12 since Ann died. I think that time has taken its toll on me.

Slowly over the years, things have been changing. I have run away from a lot of things in my life. I have let fear run my life. I have screwed up a lot of relationships in the past 15 years, and I have screwed myself a lot in the past as well. Recently, I let this fear drive me deep into the bottle, knowing full well that it meant a loss of control. I grew stagnate. I was content on just letting life slip away from me. I think it all starts with this fear of November.

I have lived with this fear of November for too long. I have to remember what is important about their lives, and forget about the tragedy surrounding them. I need to leave my mistakes at the door. I need to embrace my past while continuing to move forward.

This is a whole new beginning. A new place and a new job have my spirits high and, soon enough, I will be back to a normal pace in my life. Soon, the 9-5 rush will seem normal again, and the apartment will seem more like home.

There is still so much to be done, but there is all the time in the world to accomplish it. I have time. I have time to take life at whatever pace I want. I have the power now to ignore those who seek to drag me down into their drama. I plan on making this November drama-free. I will no longer let the stress of life build up and explode in my face. Guitar playing is a great stress reliever. I live by the lake again for the first time since when I got my first apartment in Chicago, which, ironically, I moved into on Halloween of 1999. Its like things are coming full circle. Its time for me to move forward in the ways that I should have when I first moved here 6 years ago. Its time for me to be more selfish and more demanding. Aries are supposed to be self-centered. I have just been ignoring part of it. I let the bad parts of being selfish outweigh the parts that are there to help you defend yourself.

I am talking the time now to make sure that there are no more decisions made that are impulsive. I have followed my heart for as long as I can remember, and it has always led me in the right direction. Sometimes, it has led to some bad choices because I refuse to plan or step back and look at the big picture. No more will I rush these things. I will follow my heart like I always have, but I will look before I jump now.

Coming back to normal.

2005-10-28T19:54:00.000-05:00

Three full weeks of work have passed. I have spent nearly a full week in my new apartment. Things are a lot better now then they have been in years.

But there is still much to do.

First, I need to get rid of the furniture that I cannot move. I will put it up on craigslist later tonight and hope that I can give it away, if not, I'm gonna be hauling it by myself to the trash.
I then need to move the remainder of my stuff.

after this weekend, everything will change. Everything will be bright and shining after this weekend, but first I need to get through this weekend

going dark

2005-10-22T09:42:00.000-05:00

Well, I'm shutting the computer off and packing it up. I am moving tomorrow, and I want to get as much packed and moved as possible. I have until the 31st to get out, but I would like to get done as quickly as possible. I think I may end up giving away what I can't move. That pretty much is the red velvet couch / loveseat and wing back chair.

Since I have computer access at work, the worst case scenario is that I won't be on again until monday, but I am pretty sure that as soon as the PC is moved I will be back online quickly.

Take care all, and I'll see you on the other side.

Smoke 'em if you got 'em

2005-10-16T10:55:00.000-05:00

OK, you can all stop the stupid, "smoking pot makes you dumb" jokes. according to new research in the Journal of Clinical Investigation and summarized in a news article in The Globe and Mail say that high doses of cannabinoids can actually promote the growth of new brain cells in the hippocampuses part of the brain, which is responsible for learning and memory.

Now, I am not condoning that everyone go out and get stoned. The research used a form of THC that is 10 times more powerful then you and I could possibly get our hands on. However, the research does not rule out what the effects of "normal" pot has on the brain, and more studies like this one need to be undertaken to fully understand what the effects of long term use have on the human brain. (Where do I sign up?)

Now the other part of this that makes me angry is that this study was done in Calgary. Yup, our good 'ol neighbors to the north are doing research on marijuana and not twisting the results to demonize it. That kind of study would never work in the good 'ol USA because there would so much pressure on the researchers to twist the results to fit our national drug policy. If anyone out there believes that we are "winning the war on drugs", must be taking some damn fine drugs themselves to be seeing such rosey colors. Our prisons are overpopulated by people serving time for non-violent drug offences. Billions are spent trying to enforce archaic drug laws, while billions are being made by ruthless cartels and street dealers. Should all drugs be legal? No, of course not. But, I believe that things need to change. Pot should be LEGALIZED. Why? For one thing, it is NOT a physically addictive substance, unlike tobacco. Marijuana should be legalized, taxed and controlled in a matter similar to tobacco and alcohol. (Of course, we all now how well THAT works) Other substances like extacy and LSD fall into a grey area for me. Extacy can kill, but most of the time the deaths can be attributed to misuse. I am unaware of any fatal overdose of LSD by itself. Yes, there are people who think they can fly and jump off of buildings, but that is just stupidity and failure to follow a safe routine for experimenting with a substance like LSD. Cocaine, heroin, and other substances made from poppy plants should be not be freely available to buy, yet I think that the a certain a level of legality should be given to them so that users that want to stop won't feel afraid to enter a rehab program and not fear of being arrested just for looking for help.

Have you ever been so happy you wanted to cry?

2005-10-15T15:10:00.000-05:00

So, earlier this week I was put in the worst of situations. My landlord said that he was going to file the papers needed to evict me of I couldn't guarantee him that I was moving out by the end of the month. The place I want to move into only had one apartment left and was most likely to be gone by the end of the week. The only way to secure it was to come up with $400 by Wed. (Living on the edge sucks.) I asked two people for help, one couldn't because she is living as close to the edge as I am, but I am already doing a little project for her so I will be getting money from her anyway later. I asked another friend and she just flat out refused. My last option was to ask the guy who got me my job. I already had asked him to lend me $20 so I could get back and forth to this job for the week. He ended up giving me $200. That alone was so..Unbelievable and unbelievable in kindness. so, I went to him and asked, begged for the $$$ that I needed. He was kind enough to agree. The universe is shining on me. However, there is a dark side to all of this. It has made me painfully aware of where I stand with some of my friends. Recently, my kindness has sometimes been met with nothing less then total disrespect. I feel the knives that penetrate my back. I understand that there are a lot of my friends that are just getting by. But even those I know who are living on the edge have given me support in other ways. It is not always about money. Sometimes it's just about getting a little mental support.

I am happy through all of this because I know that what I need to do will be done. and overall this has been one of the best weeks of my life. But there is so much left to do. I still need about $1400 to move in. Which, right now, is going to be an easily obtained goal. I will even have a little $$$ left over to hire movers, hopefully, and even go out to Neo for a few occasions like BatCave night but for the most part I will have to keep a low profile. I have grand plans for future occasions, I am thinking that for Thanksgiving I will travel back to Philly to see the Irwin's and a few friends. I will give more details on these plans as the date approaches.

Right now, I am trying to organize my various address books; Outlook, AOL, MSN, Gmail and such. That will be a long process, but if anyone out there wants to help me by giving me thier most recent info, it will help a lot. I also have to clean the apartment and such, because Haderlein is going to start listing it on Monday. And finally, I have about 250 surveys left to complete for Lisa. so I guess I need to get crackin'

[Listening to: Counting Bodies Like Sheep To The Rhythm Of The War Drums - A Perfect Circle - eMOTIVE (5:36)]

UP IN FLAMES

2005-10-13T13:46:00.000-05:00

This email has been sent to you by Dave.

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More stuff that makes me want to move.. to canada

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Make sure you visit Mirror.co.uk.

All of a sudden I find myself in love with the Universe

2005-10-07T16:47:00.000-05:00

Well.. What can I say.. Except.. I finally GOT A JOB!!! As bad as things have seemed recently, I have worked hard to keep my head up, and it has paid off. I start my new job on monday and i'll be back working at a law firm doing desktop support. Not much else I can say, except that I am sending all of my love and praise into the universe for this wonderful gift.

[Listening to: Choke - A Perfect Circle - Emotive (5:55)]

Communication Breakdown

2005-10-01T19:36:00.000-05:00

I've got a new phone #. And I have been reconnecting with people.. However, some a little too late.. My foster dad. Dad Irwin, as I like to call him, had a stroke while I was unaware. I feel like I let him down.. I don't' have family that I am close to, and the Irwins have been the best that anyone could hope to have. He is fine, at least that's what I know. I have been so self centered lately that I forget about the things that should matter.

Things go down, and then they go up.

2005-09-26T13:54:00.000-05:00

So, besides the little quiz posts, I haven't said much here since my little self implosion a week ago. So, much can change in a week. I have talked to Greer and realized that my reaction was just based upon my own uneasy feelings. I have years of abandonment issues that I will need years of therapy to get over. I know that, I just forget sometimes. I took the week to put my head back in order. I saw some people outside of the Neo crowd to get some other perspective on my life. Because of that meeting, I got some more freelance work and a little more money in my pocket. Karma goes around. I returned the favors that people had done for me, buying drinks for people and the like. Hell, I even lent somebody I barely know $20. (I was supposed to be repaid on Friday, and funny enough haven't seen them, but I believe in karma. So no worries here) On Friday I had the greatest gift karma could give. I was at the bar talking to Dave Roberts, and I went to dance. A guy asked me what I did for a living, I told him, and he said he could use a guy like me. He said, and I quote, "I can't pay you a lot only 50", I thought to myself, 50K! on what planet is that NOT a lot of money?!? I've gotten my resume to him and he is setting up the interviews. I don't want to be over hopeful, but this seems like it could finally be the break I have been looking for. I would be going back to being tech geek, break / fix stuff, and that is what I am best at. For 50K a year I'd shovel shit with my bare hands, but getting paid well AND doing something I love would be a great change of pace for me. It would be like living back in the late 90's when I was just hitting my peak as a tech.

There are other things I want to say, but however I'm not exactly sure how to say it, and I would like to be sure about these things before opening my mouth and planting my foot in it.

a tough choice for TV tonight

2005-09-22T01:31:00.000-05:00

Yes, I am addicted to television. Perhaps that's why i should try a career in being a TV critic. Nights like tonight i wish i had TIVO.

Two new shows on tonight that both show some promise, even though they are on opposite ends of the spectrum

On FOX we have the brand new comedy HEAD CASES starring Adam Goldberg and Chris O’Donnell. Now, Adam Goldberg is a man i would go into the fires of hell to watch, the man is a great under appreciated comedic genius. His roles are always on the edge and, in my opinion, have always been right on. From "Dazed and Confused" to "The Prophecy" and countless other roles, he is always the best fit to play a character that is, to put it mildly, "a little off". Chris O' Donnell is a good actor as well, however he has been off the radar for a long while. His performance, while a good one, in the over hyped over blown and just plain done franchise of Batman was nearly a career killer for him, but I believe in him. Hell I believe in any good under appreciated actor. Now, this show has a potential, and believe me FOX needs a show with potential, but the over done MTV style segue shots make me motion sick. Beyond that, the writing seems competent and has room for improvement if FOX let's them grow. Unfortunately, FOX has a bad history of canceling promising shows, but recently a la "Family Guy", knows the power of fan support. Now, this show is still an infant, and i haven't read any other reviews of it. But i believe that O'Donnell's straight man to Goldberg's wackiness may make a great series if given the room to breathe and come into it's own.

On NBC we have the new drama series E-RING with Dennis Hopper and Benjamin Bratt. Hopper is legend, pure and simple. There is no need for him to do television, unless he believed in what the project meant Bratt is great actor and deserving of a great breakout role. E-RING's premiere episode was set in a "24" style countdown to the ending. While this format is dramatically intense, to me it's a little overkill. And to tell you all the truth, I have never watched an episode of "24" so i have no place to complain about the format, but in my opinion, seeing a counting clock adds no dramatic element. It is an over used Hitchcock like element. Any good drama, movie or TV series, will let time be something that is left to the viewers imagination.

[Listening to: Wake Me Up When September Ends - Green Day - American Idiot (4:45)]

An Eternity of Dreamless Sleep

2005-09-18T03:53:00.000-05:00

i have used up all my strength. After a week of getting out to keep myself from loosing it, I just cant seem to figure out a point. I thought tonight was going to be a great night. It turns out that I was wrong. From the minute that Greer walked into Neo, I couldn't help but feel alone. I used every ounce of strength to not break down. I failed. Then Lynda walked in. From that point on it didn't get any easier. I all I could think was how badly I've managed to screw things up. I managed to stay a little longer, but I knew that I couldn't stay. The tears just won't stop coming. I haven't felt this sad and alone in a long time. I just want to sleep and never wake again. I want that eternity of dreamless sleep.

2005-09-16T17:47:00.000-05:00

Well, I think i'm Neo'ed out for the time being, Last night was great and I got to see even more people and felt really good. I wanted to go to "Back in the Day" @ Bottom Lounge tonight, but I don't have the $$ to get in, and going to Holiday Club is just way too far for me to walk to. So, I think i'll take the night off and just relax. 4 nights @ Neo till 3 AM + takes a lot out of you.
I wish the stupid fucking people @ ARCCA would pay my stupid ass so I could get some stuff done. It's not much, but every little bit helps.
I have a few other things I need to get off my chest, but I want to think about it first before I post them here. Last night I made the unfortunate mistake of sticking my foot so far in my mouth that there was shit on my shoes. I like the girls I see @ Neo, but most of them are so far out of my league... To take a quote from the TNT movie "The Librarian: Quest for the Spear" "You are so out of my league that if your league were to explode the sound wouldn't reach me for another 3 days", that's how far out of my league. I have tons more to rant about, but like I said, I want to think before I type

Tell the universe what you want.

2005-09-14T04:34:00.000-05:00

I went out to Neo again with no expectations, no money, and no cigarettes. I ran into Madelin and he told me one simple thing, "Trust the power inside you" I had no idea what he meant at first. All I wanted was a cigarette. And then, the Camel guy came in. Bang! Two FREE packs of smokes. So, I thought to myself, "I only wish I could get money that easily" The Camel guy left and then a few minutes later, a guy came up to me and gave me a buck for a couple of my smokes. Normally I don't charge for cigarettes, but he insisted. So I made a buck for just having cigarettes that were just given to me. I think the Universe is trying to tell me something. Then at the end of the night, DJ dave Roberts was asking me why I wasn't drinking, I told him I didn't have any cash. He promptly bought me a drink for last call and told me I should have let him know earlier because he would have bought me drinks all night. One was all I needed and it was all I wanted anyway, So, I guess the moral of this story is that if you put your mind to it, anything is REALLY possible.

[Listening to: Breaking The Habit - Linkin Park - Meteora (3:16)]

I had a great weekend...

2005-09-12T22:44:00.000-05:00

I had fun seeing some friends at Neo. And of course I got some great advice from all my friends about what I'm going through right now. I've had a LOT of time to think about things. Too much time if you ask me. I have a lot more to say. I just don't know how to right now.

[Listening to: Fade To Black - Metallica - Ride the Lightning (6:52)]

OkCupid! Slut Test

2005-09-09T21:11:00.000-05:00

OkCupid! Slut Test

Leaving Chicago Pt. II

2005-09-09T01:06:00.000-05:00

I guess i'm not leaving. I'm not leaving in the physical sense anyway. First, I would like to take the time to thank the people who came to my aid, by email and in person, when I asked for help. (You know who you are)

And now on to more serious matters. Despite the aid and advice I have received, I still am unable to get past the feeling that I have nothing left to give. I am growing more and more tired of all of this. I know people keep telling me, "you should do this" or "You should do that" when it comes to moving and finding a job, no offence, but those of you who know me, know that i'm smart enough to have tried everything that's being suggested. I'm running out of options and to be quite frank, I'm starting not to care anymore. And why should I? Can any one of you give me good reason why I should? I am exhausted from trying to "better" myself and my situation. The only thing going for me is the fact that I haven't seen my landlord since he decided to evict me, and hence has not given me any official notice. All that does is give me more time to contemplate what to do next, more time to lay awake at night and reenforce the idea that there is no reason for me to wake up once I do fall asleep. I am putting every ounce of effort I have into finding something to get my mind off my situation. I am putting every ounce of my strength into just trying to survive.

Depression is a horrible cycle. Once it gets a hold it never wants to let go. Drinking or not, depression is still there. It doesn't matter whether or not I drink. It has no bearing on my situation. I stopped drinking in large amounts because I know what it does to me. But right now, all I want is to dive into the bottom of a bottle so I can get some rest.

Yes, I'm depressed. And yes, I know I should just "snap out of it". But it is not as simple as that. Nothing in life ever is.

My biggest problem right now is trying to fight off the urge to give up completely. I have fought this urge my whole life and have won battles and lost battles with it, but quite obviously I haven't lost the war. But every time I battle this urge I lose a little bit more of my sanity, I lose a little bit more of my will.

[Listening to: Helena - My Chemical Romance - Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge (3:22)]

Everyone at FEMA needs to be FIRED!!!

2005-09-07T22:12:00.000-05:00

I saw this on NBC 5 and again thought to myself that the leadership in this country is not only flawed, but just plain idiotic.

NBC5.com - News - Firefighters: We Were Misused In Katrina Rescue Efforts: "Firefighters: We Were Misused In Katrina Rescue Efforts
Firefighters Told Their Job Would Be To Hand Out Flyers

POSTED: 6:51 pm CDT September 7, 2005
UPDATED: 9:25 pm CDT September 7, 2005

CHICAGO -- When a group of Indiana firefighters traveled to the Gulf Coast to help in the rescue efforts in the wake of Hurricane Katrina, they thought their skills in rescuing people would be put to use.

But two firefighters came back to Portage because they learned their real skills weren't needed, NBC5's Phil Rogers reported.

In a document that went out from the Federal Emergency Management Agency, the agency asked for firefighters with very specific skills and who were capable of working in austere conditions. When they got to a center in Atlanta, they found out their jobs would be public relations.

'Our job was to advertise a phone number for FEMA,' said Portage Assistant Fire Chief Bill Lundy. 'We were going to be given shirts and hats with a phone number on it and flyers and sent to shelters and we were going to pass out flyers.'

Lundy and Calhoun said they don't to bash FEMA or its mission, Rogers reported. They said they only want to help, and they said there were plenty of other firefighters in the room who felt the same way.

'There was almost a fight,' said Portage Assistant Fire Chief Joe Calhoun. 'There was probably 700 firefighters sitting in the room getting this training and it dawned on them what we were going to be doing, and then it got bad from there.'

Lundy and Calhoun's first task was an eight-hour course on sexual harassment and equal opportunity employment procedures, Rogers reported. Neither firefighter would be involved in technical rescues of trapped people or any of their other specialties.

'We're trained in tactical medicine,' Lundy said. "We weren't being used for that. We were being used to hand out flyers."

Their boss, Portage Fire Chief Tim Sosby, said he was only too happy to loan out his two men, but things they were right to come back home.

"It seemed like an incredible misuse of valuable resources," he said.The two didn't come home right away, Rogers reported. They waited 24 hours, hoping their real skills might be used. Not only did their assignment never change, they were never told to go anywhere.

"We couldn't see ourselves sitting in the hotel while there were people asking for help," Lundy said.

For now, the two firefighters are back home, but said they are still anxious to help."I think both of us would go back in a heartbeat," Lundy said. "Both of us still have our bags packed."

OKCupid! The What Greek God Are You Test

2005-09-06T18:28:00.000-05:00

OKCupid! The What Greek God Are You Test

Dionysis
Gods! You scored 49!

You are most like the God Dionysis!
Dionysis is the god of wine, intoxication and creative ecstacy. In
short, a party god! He was often having drunken orgies with both men
and women, as well as with helpless maidens his centaurs would carry
off for him. he had a large following of women who had fallen into a
frenzy or "mania". These women were taken by a madness that compelled
them to run around in a craze and often times become violent. Many of
these frenzied outbursts had a strong sexual content. Just don't forget
while having all this fun that there is more to life than getting off!

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 68% on Godliness

Link: The What Greek God Are You Test written by mellyelf on OkCupid Free Online Dating

AP Wire | 09/06/2005 | Bob Denver, TV's Gilligan, dead at 70

2005-09-06T13:49:00.000-05:00

I loved Gilligans Island

Bob Denver, TV's Gilligan, dead at 70

Associated Press

LOS ANGELES - Bob Denver, whose portrayal of goofy first mate Gilligan on the 1960s television show "Gilligan's Island," made him an iconic figure to generations of TV viewers, has died, his agent confirmed Tuesday. He was 70.

Denver, who underwent quadruple heart bypass surgery earlier this year, died at Wake Forest University Baptist Hospital in North Carolina, according to agent Mike Eisenstadt. Denver's death was first reported by "Entertainment Tonight."

Unified Blogs

2005-09-05T13:46:00.000-05:00

Well, I was so sick and tired of reposting things from here to there, and not I have a little less work to do. I recently downloaded w.blogger and can now post to my blogger and my livejournal blogs at the same times. All I need now is a way to incorporate myspace into the equation and i'm all set.

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE - HELENA LYRICS

2005-09-05T03:59:00.000-05:00

More meaningful lyrics

Long ago
Just like the hearse, you died to get in again
We are so far from you

Burning on, just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what’s the worst TO take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like a blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight

[chorus]
What’s the worst that I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Came a time
When every star falls
Brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what’s the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like a blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight

[chorus]
What’s the worst thing I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Can you hear me
Are you near me
Can we pretend
To leave and then
We’ll meet again, when both our cars collide

[chorus]
What’s the worst thing I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

well, if you carry out this way
things are better if i stay
so long and goodnight
so long and goodnight