| self harm... prehaps you are wondering why on earth there is a page about self harm in the middle of a website on Witchcraft. Well the answer to that is simple. I am a self harmer. And a number of scars are on my body to show the damage I have caused myself. Most people so not understand why on earth I would want to do such a thing but i do it for many reasons.... recently at it takes is one tiny thing to push me over the edge, but at other times i dont feel anything, im numb, nothing hurts nothing makes me happy or sad, so i cut, i have to prove to myself the i am actually alive, that by seeing the blood runs down my skin i know that i am not actually dead. i have more control over it at the minute, but i see a shrink and take tablets to try and help me. i can now last for about a month without cutting, and it used to be a couple of days. so i guess i have progressed. yet part of me doesnt want to stop cutting, because i do get such a kick from it, well i try my best to be good. originally people didnt know that i cut myself, not because i was ashamed or embarrassed, but my scars mean a lot to me because they mark a certain period of my life, and i dont want everyone knows all the details of it. but now my mum knows and so do my friends, and they support me loads if you are a self harmer, you are not alone, if you just want to talk to someone that isnt there to pyschoanalyse you, judge you & knows what it is like e-mail me |
| self harm by Aryanna |
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