it's just you and me and you sing he would say with such meaning. So then I would sing my song blessed assurence till I could not breath any longer and he would say now sis put your oxagen on. So I would put my oxagen on and we would cry togather over how good God truly was to us. Then he would say now sis please play my song by Betty Jean so we would dry our tears and I would play his song for him aint no grave gonna hold my body down by BettyJean Robinson. So you see I am sure he is singing those two songs in heaven with all the angels and waiting till I can one day cross over and join him there. One thing I will strive to do is to make BTP a fun happy room filled with the joy of the Lord in rememberence of my beloved Tony. Because if he could ask when he was so sick with his oxagen mask on then shirly I can put fourth all my effort to. You see Tony knew one thing well that he always instilled within me and that was that the trivia room was not a room for teaching or preaching but rather he would always say it is a game room where we can start our bibles and have good clean fun. It is a game room he would say that is deadacated to the learning of God's word without preaching or teaching but rather to play and have good clean fun learning God's word. (hence our name bible trivia players having good clean fun). You see I have heard it said that Tony did not call it a game room but I simply must respectfully disagree because when ever Tony and I talked Tony would call it a game room for learning Gods word and having good clean fun. So now you know where I got the phrase having good clean fun from and just why I used it in the rooms tital it is the least I can do to remember Tony's teachings to me. Tony and I shared a warmeth and love for one another that only God could have kindled because I refused in my fear,anger and hurt of men to let men into my life until Tony came along with the name of this sister that I needed to open up with and when I did it changed my life forever. She did indeed teach me to open up and accept that not all men are evil and abusive Thus I begain to slowly let as I said eariler not only Tony but my own father and older brother get to know me and today I am engaged to another man that I let get to know me as well his name is Deacon Bradly and I only regret that Tony is unable to meet my Deacon Bradly.Tony and him so much a like at being able to make me laugh and have good fun with men. Tony knew how to make me laugh and have fun yet he shared with me and prayed with me alone many times. Tony always seemed to know when I was struggleing and he would pm me to tell me to sit back while he asked for a while even though others they never seemed to notice (still don�t lol ) the struggle till I almost could no longer breath. Not Tony I could not fool him he always knew early on because he lived with same struggles. I do know that today, Tony is in heaven and able to breath deeply and freely and to sing to the king of kings and Lord of Lords without running out of air oh what a blessing !!!!!!! Sing Tony sing sir. We do not know saints when God will call us home to be with him but we can know as Tony did that we are ready to go. I know Tony was ready to go because many times as we prayed in his last days he would say to me Cathy I am just ready to go home. Thus the Lord hath taken him home to that mansion he has prepared just for Tony. Those of you that knew Tony I have no doubt that you will agree with me that Tony's death was very precious in the Lords sight for we read in psalms 116 : 15 precious in the site of the Lord is the death of his saints. And so now I will share my prayer for Tony with you.
A PRAYER FOR MY DEAREST TONY
Dear father I thank you for sending Tony into my life and I thank you for the lovely sister he sent to me and for those that she through her prayers have brought into my life such as Deacon whom I have grown to love so very much. Father I pray that you will make me the willing vessel that Tony and this sister are I truly thank you for such friends as Tony and this sister. Father the memory of Tony will forever remain a part of my life. Lord I must admite that there is a sad spot in my heart that longs for the friendship of Tony I will miss him ever so much. I ask you now father to help me to hold up my head and continue as Tony would want me to do to run this race that you have set before me to run. Help me father to rejoice in knowing that if I continue to hold up the blood stained banner till the day you call me home that I to can rejoice and soon sit at Jesus feet with Tony to sing blessed assurance and to sing aint no grave gonna hold me down. For I truly believe Lord Jesus that Tony and I shared a speciel bond down here on this earth and that we will once again share this bond in heaven. I do know Lord Jesus that long as I am down here I will have struggles to hold up this blood stained banner. I know that I have a few more tears to shed down here but help me father to continue to hold up the banner as Tony so taught me to do. I thank you Lord for sending Tony to be such a very speciel part of my life. Truly father the friendship and bond that Tony and I shared that only Tony and myself knew will continue to remain a part of me for the rest of my life. Now father I lift up Tony's wife Wilma and his sister Vivian even now before your throne I ask you Lord to comfort them Lord as only you can do. Encourage them and hold them tightly even now let them know father that all is well and that Tony awaits there home coming just as he does mine. Father I also want to lift up and remember the dearest sister that Tony sent into my life that you would hold her ever so tightly and forever bless comfort and keep her and her loved ones. Father save her mom and dad save them to the uttermost oh God touch them even in this hour and draw them close to you Lord that they to might know you in a very personal way in Jesus name I pray amen and amennnnnnnnn. |
