She opened her eyes and it only took two seconds to realize who she was with and what they had done. It was less time than that to remember what he said to her. He loved her. Did he love her. Or did he love her for giving him her body to do with what he wanted. She never thought she would hear those words from him but she had always dreamed of them. She was so nervous when he said them she didn�t know what to say. She didn�t want to ruin the moment so she remained quiet.
She looked up at him and saw him staring into space. She sat up and looked in the direction he was looking,
�It�s raining?�
�Yeah.� The rain was pouring down. Between finally leaving the hospital, sex and the rain she knew she wasn�t going to leave her bed anytime soon.
�How long was I asleep?� She asked as she sat up and covered her breasts with the comforter. She still wasn�t comfortable with being naked in front in Nick even if they shared a child.
�About forty-five minutes.� She hated that about herself, unless it was at night she couldn�t sleep longer than a couple of hours. In her mind sunlight meant no sleep.
She wanted to get up and look at herself in the mirror. To make sure there was no drool on the corners of her mouth or any gunk in her eyes. Her hair was probably a mess as well but the idea of walking across a room naked in front of Nick wasn�t even an option. She lay back down, this time on the bed instead of him, and wondered what to say. They had been arguing since he first arrived in Miami and suddenly they end up in bed together; actually against the wall.
�Hey, we should talk.� She looked over at Nick and her stomach dropped. What did he want to talk about?
�But first I need to hit the bathroom.� He got up, clad in a pair of shorts, and walked into the bathroom. He didn�t bother to close the door and she could hear him using the bathroom. How could he be so comfortable with her? Or maybe he was comfortable with everyone like that. She wondered if he walked around half-naked all the time. He walked back into the bedroom, not flushing or washing his hands she noted, and slid back under the comforter.
�Ok, so look. We�re parents together and if we don�t get it together soon she�s going to turn out like me. And that�s not something I want for my kid.� He smiled a little,
�I�d rather she had a normal childhood with normal parents like you had.� She nodded her head,
�Ok.� He rolled over on his side and she remained on her back and looked up at the ceiling,
�Everything that�s gone on, let�s just forget it. We�re both going through the same thing. We�re the only ones here who knows what we are feeling.� That was ok with her. She wanted to put it all in the past. She wanted to be forgiven for all the awful things she had said and her nasty attitude.
�Ok, that works for me but I just really want to say I�m sorry for slapping you. I was wrong. There was no excuse for that.� She about to continue when Nick cut her off,
�All in the past remember? Let�s just let it all go. I don�t want to think of any of that. Today is a new day. And we�re going to be honest with each other. If there is ever anything we are thinking or feeling we�ll talk to each other.� Her stomach began to do cartwheels as he laid his hand on it.
�I may not have handled this all the way you expected me to but I love her. You know that right?� She nodded her head as she continued to stare up at the ceiling. His hand slid further over and gripped her waist. He pulled her towards him and she was soon lying on her side facing him,
�Why aren�t you talking? You�re okay with us starting over right?� She nodded her head and when he rolled his eyes playfully she laughed just slightly,
�Yeah�yes, we�re okay.� She hesitated but decided if they were starting over and they were going to be friendly with each other she might as well go for it,
�What made you so sure that I wouldn�t smack you again when you walked through that door and kissed me?� His eyes widened slightly and he looked energetic and playful,
�I wasn�t sure but I knew you didn�t hate me. I had been thinking that for a long time and Josh told me he was one hundred percent sure you didn�t hate me.� She had talked to Josh that morning about Nick and she did let him know that not only was she not mad at Nick she hoped he wasn�t mad at her.
�I walked in and saw you standing there and you looked great. I just thought, I hoped anyway, that you were just as willing as me.� He ran his finger over her lips,
�The way you licked your lips and you didn�t scream or run away. I just figured.� She looked down from a slight case of embarrassment. Was she obvious to Nick? Was it written on her face that she wanted him? When he walked through her door adrenaline rushed through her body. She didn�t know what to do. She thought for a while that she had willed him over because she wanted him so much as she stood there naked. It was quandary. She wanted him to desire her but she also wanted to run and hide her body.
After having a baby she was a little self-conscience. She was lucky. She didn�t have any stretch marks and her breasts didn�t sag. At least not too much. Her cup size went from a B to a very full C. Her entire pregnancy she was afraid of her body being ruined. No more bikinis, no more strapless tops but Mac pulled through for her and didn�t mess her up too badly.
�You just barged into my room.� Her heart jumped out of her chest when he opened that door.
�No.� He laughed
�You called me and I came in.� Just like Nick to not get it,
�I didn�t call you. I told you the food would be arriving soon and the money was on the counter.� Luckily for her, he didn�t hear her and came in the room. The release he gave her seemed to take a load off her shoulders. She felt a sense of relief after being with him. All the stress seemed to disappear. And it was replaced with an extreme hunger at the reminder of the food she ordered.
�Did the food come?� He laughed at her as she seemed to be in dire straits if there wasn�t anything to eat.
�Yeah, while you were sleeping. Hungry?� She nodded as was just about to dash to the kitchen when she remembered she was naked and in Nick�s presence.
�Turn your head.� He frowned at her,
�Why?� She sighed dramatically,
�So I can put something on.� He rolled his eyes and pulled the comforter down revealing her breasts. She rolled on her back and placed her hands over her bare breasts. He pulled her hands away,
�I�ve seen you many times.� Her stomach started doing cartwheels as he leaned down towards her breasts,
�And I like what I see.� She stopped breathing as she watched his tongue leave his mouth and slowly inch towards her sensitive skin. He eventually climbed on top of her and straddled her while he continued to give her breasts attention. This time with his hands as he massaged them simultaneously. Her eyes closed and she tried to defend what she felt were less than perfect breasts,
�They aren�t the same since I had the baby.� She opened her eyes at the sound of his moan and saw him shaking his head,
�They�re great to me.� Her babbling continued,
�I was thinking of getting a boob job.� He shook his head immediately,
�No, I like them real. They feel better.� She doubted he had a strong feeling when it came to breasts. She didn�t believe for a minute that he turned a woman away because her breasts received a little help from a doctor.
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