I've been sitting around the house all day with Nick and his friends, Mike and Josh, in my bikini and Nick's T-shirt but now we're in his truck, I added a pair of his boxers to my ensemble, on our way to the store to get what I need to make it for the rest of my time here. We walk through the store, Nick and his friends are running actually,
"I'm gonna get what I need and I'll meet up with you guys." He nods,
"We'll be in electronics." I nod and kiss him on the lips, it feels so nice, having someone to be with...oh God, what the hell am I doing I wonder I was watch them walk off. I HAVE a boyfriend, his name is John not Nick. What the hell am I doing? I'm cheating on my boyfriend, who I haven't thought of since I saw Nick. Damn, how did I get into this? And I haven't told Nick. After he bares his soul to me about how he feels, I sleep with him and leave out that I'm in a committed relationship with someone else. He's going to think I used him or betrayed him in some way? I walk around and look down at my phone and realize I hadn't turned it back on, once I do I see I have five messages. One is from Elliott apologizing for being so harsh with me, it causes the tears to well up in my eyes and the second is from John reminding me they would be back in town Sunday morning. Oh God, I totally forgot the cruise ended tomorrow. Nick probably won't rush me back for the sake of my boyfriend. The next three were from Christina. The first wanting to know what was going on, the second letting me know she would kill me if I didn't turn my phone back on and the third telling me she wasn't kidding about the second call. I dial her cell phone and she answers immediately,
"What the hell is going on?" I laugh,
"And hello to you too. Where are you?" She sighs,
"Drive thru, Taco Bell, who cares. What's going on?" I look around and make sure Nick or his friends aren't around,
"Nick was mad at me. He tried to call me after he got back from Japan but I got a new phone remember? So he couldn't. That whole time I thought he didn't want to talk to me and he did he just couldn't. Then he admitted how he liked me and never met anyone like me and wanted to be with me...in a relationship." She gasped loud enough for me to hear her through the phone,
"Holy shit Quinn, what did he say about John?" I groan,
"I didn't have a chance, then we slept together...but we used a condon this time." My nervous laughter breaking the silence,
"Chris, what are you thinking right now?" I know her, she isn't thrilled with this,
"Hey, it's your business, what they don't know...." I shake my head and the tears fall,
"Don't do that Chris. Don't lie to make me feel better, you think cheating is a fucked up thing to do...and so do I. Don't change that because it's Nick....or me." I wait for her to respond and in a way I'm dreading it,
"Ok, Quinn you're right. What you did was wrong and you shouldn't have even been around him knowing how you feel about him anyway, it was inevitable. When does John get back?" I sigh as I wipe the tears away,
"Tomorrow morning, he called this morning and left a message." I grab a couple of T-shirts, a pair of shorts and a denim skirt to try on,
"How are you going to get back to Miami? How do you know Nick is planning on taking you back tomorrow?" I sigh,
"He will, I have to work Monday anyway. I'll just tell him that." As I load things into my basket I head to the shoe department for a pair of girly flip flops to match my skirt and the top I found to go with it,
"Yeah but will you be back before John knows you were gone?" My stomach drops as I think about that, we probably won't even leave until the afternoon, I haven't even talked to him about this yet.
"I have to go Chris, I know you're right about all of it. I'll call you later." We say our goodbyes as I stand in front of a pair of straw sandals. This is going to be a rough time, how did I get myself into this, it's like being on a runaway train.
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