On the way down to the lobby to head to the venue we spot Jose and Nick was not happy as we walk down the hallway towards him,
"There's your dirty boyfriend." I shake my head as we near him,
"Cut it out. Hola Jose." He nods and points his finger between himself and me while he talks. I have no idea what he said and I just give him the thumbs up sign. He smiles and winks at me,
"What did he say?" I look over at Nick and sigh,
"I don't know." He stops and pulls my arm turning me so I am looking at him,
"So why did you give him a thumbs up? You don't know what he was saying." Nick is worse than a worrisome mother,
"Nick, calm down ok? Will you tell him Larry." We both turn to look at Larry who simply puts his hands up,
"I'm out of it."
The sound of the crowd was unbelievable, I could barely hear anything as we make it back to the hotel, my ears are still ringing. Kristin, Sarah and I return to the hotel with one of the guys from security before the guys to avoid the crowd and chaos. In the lobby Sarah leans over,
"I think it's so wonderful you and Nick are together. Its about time he found a girl." I shake my head then I decide not to bother. I can understand why everyone thinks Nick and I are a couple, here I am in Mexico with him, we're in the same room and there is only one bed. Why the hell haven't we slept together yet? We were so close in Las Vegas and now it's like I'm his sister. From the way everyone would talk before I met him you would think the boy walked around with a condom on at all times waiting for sex to fall in his lap, or should I say on his penis. A young girl taps Sarah on her back and she leans over and takes her picture with her. The same has happened with Kristin but I've been able to escape it. Suddenly I feel a tap on my shoulder,
"Hola, you Nick's friend right?" I look around at the other girls and nod my head,
"Um yeah." She smiles,
"Can I have your picture please?" I look around once again for some help from the girls and they nod at me,
"Uh ok." We pose for the picture and before long all of us take pictures with a few girls who didn't have tickets for tonight's show. On our way up to our rooms Kristin nudges me,
"It's easier to take the picture you know, especially if you're going to be around. Just like the guys' family and friends, the dancers and the band."
I wake up and someone is standing over me and I begin to panic, before I can speak an actual word his hand was over my mouth and he is lying on top of me. In a low voice with an accent, a voice that I can tell is not his own, he begins to warn me,
"Be quiet and I won't hurt you." I whimper a few more seconds and finally calm down enough know I need to be quiet,
"I'm going to move my hand...DON'T scream." I nod my head,
"Do you understand?" I nod my head again and he slowly removes his hand. I take the opportunity to plead with him,
"Please, no, please." He sits up and he's on my waist then ties something over my eyes like a scarf or bandana or something. His hand slides up my thigh and suddenly I feel his breath on my neck. Once he begins to lick my neck I begin to cry,
"Please don't, please. I..please." I shake my head side to side in despair and begin to cry. I couldn't contain the sobs anymore and I totally lost control. If he told me to be quiet there was no way I was going to be able to follow his directions,
"Shhh, don't cry." He pulls the blindfold off and leans over to turn on the lamp. My eyes close due to the bright light and I'm afraid to open them and see this monster,
"Hey, look at me." the voice, it sounds so familiar. His constant words of comfort and the familiarity of his voice causes me to open my eyes,
"Shhh, it's ok. I'm sorry it was just a joke." Through my teary-eyed vision I look into Nick's face,
"I'm sorry, it was a joke, I'm so sorry." I start to swing my arms and a few times I connected , where on his body I don't know but I hope it hurt because it hurt my hands. He grabs my hands and pins them down, lying flat on top of my body,
"That's a fucked up joke. I thought, I thought-" My words disappeared into his mouth as he kissed me,
"I'm sorry." The kiss continued and I don't know what came over me but I wanted him so much. Maybe it was the relief that someone wasn't going to take me that made me want to give myself to him so much at that moment,
"Nick, please." He opens his eyes and nods,
"You want me to stop." I shake my head,
"No, I want you to keep going. I want you." He looks in my eyes,
"Are you sure?" I nod my head and he sits up straddling me once again. I help him take my T-shirt and shorts off and there I was, naked in front of him for the first time. It hits me and I begin to squirm and cover my body with my arms,
"Don't, let me see." I can't handle watching his eyes slowly run over my body and I close my eyes. He slides down and places kisses on my stomach, the sensation of his mouth and his tongue on me causes me to gasp,
"Nick, now." He looks up at me and we're face to face again,
"No, we got all night." He slides back down and places kisses on my thighs then looks back up at me,
"Remember I told you I was good at it." I capture my lip between my teeth and hold my breath as his thumbs open me up and he licks me slowly.
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