My entire evening has been spent drinking Sprite, the occasional dance and watching Nick with his girlfriend of the night. It was torture, it hurt, and I felt pathetic the entire time. I don�t know why I was putting myself through this and I don�t know why it hurt. I was on the dance floor with some guy when a slow song came on and I locked eyes with Nick for what must have seemed like the tenth time in five minutes. The more the night goes on the more down I feel, I almost wish I hadn�t come. Almost? There was absolutely nothing that has happened since I arrived that would make tonight even an ok experience. As I look away from his direction I promise myself I am not going to look at him for the rest of the night. After this dance I am out of here, there is no reason to stay and I haven�t had any fun. I sighed as I looked ahead and listened to the words of the song, another love song where a man tells the woman how he will love her. Why doesn�t someone come into my life like that? I don�t mind being single 99% of the time but that other 1% hurt like a bitch.
I suddenly can�t breathe as I watch Nick looking at me and coming in my direction with his security in tow. He stands behind my partner and stares at me. The buttons on his shirt become interesting and they suddenly have my full attention. I gather the nerve to look up and his eyes are still on me and I don�t know what to do. He stepped closer and it was something from a movie as he asked if he could cut in and my anonymous partner and Nick both looked at me for my answer and I managed to nod my head slightly. I could smell the alcohol as he stepped to me and placed his hand on my back. Whatever he had been drinking that night he had been drinking quite a bit. I ran my hand down the side of my pants before placing it in his hand. He didn�t say anything, he simply pulled me into him and my head had nowhere to go but on his chest. We barely moved, in fact our feet never moved and our bodies swayed. I was in a complete trance and my eyes opened quickly as he whispered in my ear,
�I haven�t seen you smile all night. What�s wrong with you?� Something about the way he said it didn�t make me think he gave a damn anyway. I mean, why the hell was he over here with me anyway? I can still see the look on his face when we locked eyes while that girl was practically sitting on his lap,
�I don�t know anyone.� I don�t know what I am expecting him to say but anything other than the silence would be nice. He stopped dancing and pulled my hand. I let him lead me until we were back in the VIP area. I thought we were going over where everyone else but ended up at a table away from everyone. I sat perfectly still as he was next to me with his arm resting on the booth behind. I must have looked like a pole was in my shirt because I felt so stiff,
�Sit back and relax.� I sat back and my neck touched his arm and I wanted to melt. He leaned towards me and spoke over the music,
�What�s your name again?� Of course he wouldn�t remember so don�t get offended,
�Quinn.� I could see him nod his head out of the corner of my eyes. It was a club but there was still something about the silence that was nerve-wracking. Why is it that I have been stuck suffering through small talk lately?
�So, you aren�t tired after a show?� Geez Quinn that was stupid. He took a deep breath and slowly let exhaled through his mouth and either someone opened a door or I could feel his cool breath on my face,
�Yeah a little, sometimes I�m on an adrenaline high you know? But most times I�m tired. I�m a little tired but we had to do this tonight.� I nodded and looked down at my hands, which were sitting on the table. My breath caught in my throat as his hand touched my hands briefly,
�So what do you do?� I couldn�t believe he was interested,
�Computers.� He nodded,
�How old are you?�
�Twenty-four.� I watched the people walk by and the girls swaggering by VIP trying to get anyone�s attention. I looked over to see Kevin and Howie laughing and I can�t believe it but I�m thinking I�d rather be over there or almost anywhere than sitting here with Nick.
�You have a boyfriend?� My stomach dropped and I wondered why he would want to know that,
�Uh, no, I don�t have a boyfriend.� I finally get the nerve to look over at him and just as he was about to say something an older man walked over and whispered something in his ear. I looked off to give them some kind of privacy but I could see Nick nod his head. He leaned in towards me and I try being strong by looking into his eyes but that didn�t last long,
�I have to take care of some stuff then get going�so is it ok if I get your number?� Shock isn�t even the word to explain what I�m going through at this moment. He wants my number? I nodded my head and he stood up and went off to a group of people then returned with a pen and a piece of paper,
�Here, write it down on this.� Again, all I could do was nod my head as I wrote my name and number. I gave it to him and stood up,
�Well, I�ll let you get to whatever it is you have to do. Um, tell Kevin thank you for inviting me.� He nodded and I smiled as I turned and left. I couldn�t help but get excited, he asked me for my number. Not that I really expected him to call but it was more than I thought would ever happen to me.
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