Where in the hell is my watch? Damn, what did he do with it play hide and go seek? I hear a bunch of people enter his room as look under the bed,
"Look Nick Quinn is a nice girl but she's not like your other girlfriends. Its about image, your fans like you for more than your voices. As long as you're single they feel they have a shot and they keep liking you. Even if you have a girlfriend there is hope you'll break up. They could dye their hair blonde or lose weight if they had to, but there was always that hope. They can't pop a pill and make themselves black. They can't relate to her. Now you seem untouchable because you like something they can't be. There's no hope that they can look like your girlfriend and try to win you. Like it or not, image has a lot to do with your success, my job is to think about the big picture, the business, whether or not you like what I have to say." My stomach drops and I have never felt so miserable in my life,
"He has a point Nick, you know how your obsessive fans are and you are the fan favorite...for whatever reason." Who the hell was that,
"Look Leighanne, it's none of your business, what are you doing here anyway? I thought this was group business? And where is AJ?" I lay there on the floor unable to move as I listen to them in the other room, I thought Leighanne liked me,
"Watch it Nick, that's my wife."
"Whatever Brian, like anyone can ever forget. Besides, no one else lets what fans think get in the way of their love lives. Why am I always the one who has to do it for the group? I couldn't talk about Mandy even after everyone knew about Leighanne and Kristin. Yeah, Brian like you give a damn what the fans think about your personal life. Look, everyone can relax ok because it doesn't matter, she's not my girlfriend, it's not like that. We're just friends that's it, thats all it'll ever be. Ok? Now, are we finished so I can go?" There's a chorus of yeah's and ok's as they all begin to walk out the door. I told Nick I would be in Lisa's room, he's going there and I won't be there. I can hear Kevin's voice,
"Come on Nick, let me talk to you for a minute."
"Where are we going?"
"My room for a minute." Thank God, that gives me time to get out of here,
"Kevin-"
"Oh come on, besides Kristin wanted to give you something." I shake my head and take a deep breath as I walk out the room thinking its safe,
"Hey, I didn't know you were in there?" I smile half-heartedly at Larry,
"Uh yeah." He knows I heard everything, we can see it in each other's eyes as he smiles sympathetically,
"This business is crazy, they never give people enough credit. I'm sure the fans wouldn't care at all." I shrug,
"Maybe they DO know the fans." He nodded,
"Look, fans don't like anyone the guys are with whether they have a reason to hate them or not." I shrug,
"It doesn't matter, Nick and I aren't dating anyway." He nods,
"I think Nick would be lucky to have you." I look over at him,
"You have more up here than most girls he hangs out with." He pointed at his head,
"AND you actually use it." He looks around,
"Management and fans may think one way but Nick-" Just as he's about to defend Nick the door opens,
"Hey, what you doing here?" I look over at Larry and he saves me,
"She just walked back in, guess you guys just missed each other." Larry walks towards me and places his hand on my back,
"Well come on, if you guys are going to go out." Nick nods,
"Yeah, everyone else is down in the lobby." He smiles at me and I return it, tonight I am going to have to become an amazing actress.
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