I know this is not going to be pretty,
�Get in bed with me.� Before I could lay back he slapped me so hard I was stretched out across the bed,
�What the hell was he doing here?� I rubbed my face praying to God that didn�t cause any type of bruising because I have a photo shoot and interview today,
�It was nothing.� He was on the bed leaning over me so quickly it scared me and I screamed out in fear of what he might do,
�It was nothing? Your little affair was nothing? That�s what you're trying to say right?� I knew it looked bad and I can�t blame him. If a woman were in his place so early in the morning I would think it was sex too,
�I know it looked like that but it wasn�t. He left something here and came to get it. It was late and we fell asleep.� His eyes widened and he grabbed a handful of my hair,
�He was here before? When? Why?� I�m only digging myself in deeper,
�A few weeks ago, after the MTV thing a few of us came back here.� There was no way I was going to let him know the last time Nick was here it was just the two of us that time too,
�Why were his shoes in here? You slept with him.� His grip on my hair tightened and I groaned and covered his hand with both of mine,
�No, he�s a kid; I have no interest in him whatsoever. You know me, we just fell asleep that�s all.� I looked into his eyes pleading for him to believe me,
�It�s the truth Steven, please.� He shook his head,
�Yeah, I know you. You expect me to believe you spent the night in bed with a guy and you didn't screw him?� I can�t say I blame his suspicions,
�I don�t see him that way, nothing happened.� He shook his head before shoving me away,
�I can�t trust you.� I sat up on my knees,
�Don�t say that, you can trust me.� He nodded and sat down on the bed, his back to me. I cautiously wrapped my arms around him and lay my chin on his shoulder,
�I love you.� He sighed and stood up,
�I�m out of here.� I jumped up; I had to make him believe that nothing happened the previous night,
�Come on Steven. Why did you come over?� I maneuvered so I was between him and the bedroom door. I pulled off my tank top and stepped out of my panties and he shook his head,
�Do you really think sex can make everything alright? You are act like a child more each day.� My age, twenty, that was never a problem before now, more and more, he was making reference to how young I am, how much of a child I am. Sex always made everything ok before. I learned it from him, anytime he wanted to say I�m sorry he said it with his penis. Anytime I had to prove I loved him he made me do it my dropping to my knees. I stepped closer to him and took hold of his bulging crotch,
�You know me, you know what I like.� I ran my tongue over his neck and I could hear him gasp softly,
�Yeah, I do.� He pushed me away and reached into his jacket and pulled out a little bag.
�How long has it been?� I smiled,
�A couple of days.� He nodded and walked into the bathroom coming back with a mirror. With his platinum credit card, how rich, he made three lines and I made one disappear. When I sat up and rubbed my nose he was smiling at me,
�How was that?� It was better than I remembered,
�Good, real good.� He nodded,
�I found a new supplier. His name is Harrison.� I smiled and leaned down and snorted a second line. Before I could do the third he shook his head,
�No, no. That�s it for now. You have an interview and photo shoot remember?� I nodded and watched as he snorted the third and final line. I�ve been doing drugs of some kind since I was fourteen years old. At first it was just alcohol when I was thirteen to loosen me for all the shit Chad wanted and then it was more when I needed to perform in the world of high fashion. It was amazing all the things that I got involved in because of my career. So many things went on behind the scenes that people had no clue about. If they knew there would be an outcry to make it illegal for little girls to be models. The long hours, the exposure to sex and drugs, it was out of this world.
�Yeah I remember.� It was with Glamour magazine. I was totally unprepared for it. I don�t know what they are going to ask me and I don�t know what kind of theme the photo shoot was going to be. Frankly, I really didn't care. I didn't even want to do it. I just wanted to relax in bed. The more and more famous I was becoming the more work I had to do, the less off days I had. I went over to the bed and laid on my stomach hoping that Steven would forget all about Nick and make me feel good. My eyes were closed and soon I felt his presence on the bed right before I felt his lubricated fingers run over me,
�On your knees.� Anal, a lot people thought it rather taboo but I love it. Sometimes I wonder if I�m warped in the head, so many things others think are abnormal are the most standard and rational things in the world to me.
The interview and photo shoot for my Glamour feature was in a hotel in the middle of Manhattan. I walked though the door of the penthouse followed by Cory. She immediately went to work,
�Let me get a bottle of Pellegrino please.� I sat down in the chair for hair and makeup and a tall willowy brunette walked over to me and extended her hand,
�Hi, I�m Andrea Wiese. I�ll be doing the interview.� I really didn't want to shake her damn hand but I�m a good girl, a good all-American girl, I had to,
�Hi.� I shook her hand briefly and placed my hand back in my lap. She pulled a chair up and began to ask questions right away,
�How have you been? What was your day like today?� Small talk, is this an attempt to reel me in? It�s a poor excuse if it is. She wants me to feel comfortable, like I�m talking to a girlfriend,
�It�s been great. This is the first thing I�ve done all day but this is just the start. Later tonight I have a party for my modeling agency�s anniversary.� She nodded; she didn't have to write anything because she was recording the entire interview.
�You aren�t new to this business you�ve been doing this since you were fourteen?� I shook my head,
�No, I moved to Paris and started doing this full time when I was fourteen but I�ve been doing modeling work since I was four.� Her eyes widened,
�Four, was it something your parents pushed you into?� I smiled,
�Actually I knew it was exactly what I wanted. I would walk around the house changing in and out of different little outfits. Modeling for my family and out guests. I�ve always wanted to be the center of attention no matter the situation.� She nodded,
�So your parents were very supportive?� The last thing I wanted to talk about was my family,
�Yes, they were. I�ve had a lot of supportive people in my career. It�s been a positive experience from the beginning. My lawyers and my manager are all good guys.� Hopefully, I threw her off the family trail.
�You mentioned lawyers and managers but do you have a good guy in your life on a personal level?� I wanted to shout it out that yes I have a boyfriend. I wanted to tell them that not only did I have a boyfriend I had a fianc�e but that wasn�t possible not just yet.
�No, I don�t but I�m looking.� Steven would decide when it would be ok to let everyone know and its not yet.
Chapter 54
Stranger Than Fiction
Stories
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