I'm sitting here and Nick keeps running through my mind until my cell phone rings,
"Hello?"
"Hi Mona. How have you been?" My heart stopped, how could it be him? How could be be calling me right now?
"Mitch, don't call me that." Mona, he started calling me that because I moaned alot when we had sex.
"And how did you get my phone number?" His arrogance filled chuckle made me want to hurl,
"Tish likes me." Tish, I am going to kill her. I can't believe she gave him my phone number, she knows how I feel about Mitch. How hard it was for me to get over him. I know she didn't do it to hurt me. God only knowshow much he was bugging her before she caved in. It was my problem and it wasn't for her to deal with, he was my problem and it wasn't fair to her.
"What do you want?" There is no way in hell I'm getting back with him,
"I was just calling to see how you were doing honey. I've missed you." Yeah, he missed having sex with me. Missed having me to brag on with his golf buddies,
"Too bad Mitch." He groaned,
"Come on Priscilla. We had fun and you know it. You enjoyed it just as much as I did." Yes, I enjoyed him, the unmarried nonlying part of him,
"Well, its over Mitch." He sighed,
"Why does it have to be over Mona. What was wrong with what we had?" I shook my head, I can't believe he just asked that,
"What was wrong with being your whore? Waiting around for whatever time I could get? The situation was great for you Mitch but it sucked for me. Could you at least admit that you weren't ever going to leave your wife?" He sighed,
"Mona please."
"Please what Mitch? You were never going to leave her and I'm not going to be your little mistress, so that's it." I am never going to put myself in a situation where I had to be someone's hidden little secret.
"It was fun the way we were." I sighed,
"How can you do that to your wife and your son?"
"Like you gave a damn about my wife and kid when you were living in the condo I paid for." I don't want to hear this,
"Mitch-"
"Oh wait, you cared when you were spending my family's money. Or was it when you were fukcing my brains out?" I have to admit, not once did I ever really feel extremely guilty about contributing to Mitch's unfaithfulness. I knew I wasn't the cause, if it weren't me it would be someone else.
"I'm not going to sit here and talk about this with you. Just don't call me anymore." Before he could say anything more I hung up on him and turned my phone off. I lay across the bed and thought about whether I should feel guilty. I know I probably should feel bad but I just didn't and that kind of worried me.
I looked over at the clock and it was eleven thirty. Damn, I hate falling alseep early, I always wake up early and I can't fall asleep for hours. I knew I was going to be full of energy so I decided to go for a swim in the pool. I looked through my bag and changed into my bikini and put on a pair of shorts. As I walked out of my room I was met with a sight I was just unprepared for. Nick had some girl up against the wall near the elevator kissing her, they were completely into their kiss and didn't notice me. His body was pressed against hers and I couldn't help but wonder what it felt like to be trapped between him and the wall. His hands held her face and I sighed, that was how I loved to be kissed, my face between someone hands. I slowly walked towards them in order to get to the elevator, I didn't want to be caught just standing there staring at them. Suddenly his eyes opened and he watched me come towards them. I looked down after pushing the button and they parted,
"Nick, someone is here." I didn't bother to look over,
"It's cool, she works for us." There was something about that phrase, works for us, that made me feel low on the totem pole. Igathered the nerve to look at them and locked eyes with him. He pulled her into another kiss but this time his eyes never closed they remained on me as his hands began to run up and down her body and landed on her hips. He winked at me and I took a deep breath and gave the numbers above the elevator my undivided attention. Once the door opened I ran into a hotel employee who was trying to exit the elevator,
"Oh, I'm...I'm sorry. I-" He shook his head,
"No problem ma'am. Excuse me." I stepped into the elevator and pushed the button, wanting to die. Before the doors closed Nick called out,
"See ya Priscilla." I simpy waved, not trusting my voice. Once the door closed I fell back against the wall and groaned,
"Oh God, I'm such an idiot."
No matter how many laps I do I can't seem to get the image of Nick with that girl out of my head. Was it jealousy? I don't know but it did something to me that's for sure. How do you get the guy's attention? I mean, these girls must throw themselves at him because he hasn't once tried to make a move on me. Wait, do I want him to? No, I don't want anything to do with him. He's not my type at all. So, why does it matter? I want the attention but I don't know what I want to do with it. I sit on the steps of the pool and lay back. I have no clue what I want so why I'm wanting this attention so bad I don't know. It had been three months since I ended it with Mitch and I hadn't been on a date in all that time. Of course, that had alot to do with my choice, but I was still feeling the itch of wanting someone but this time I wanted it to be real. I wanted a real relationship, not something no one knew about. Not something where I had to sneak around.
Back in my room I called Tish, she wouldn't be asleep it was still early on the West Coast,
"Hello?" I instantly smiled,
"Hi Tish."
"Hi, listen Mitch-" I nodded,
"I know, he already called." She groaned,
"He did already? I'm sorry Cilly, he just wouldn't leave me alone and he wouldn't take my word that you didn't want him anymore. I figured he would believe it coming from you." I smiled,
"I told him I didn't want anything more to do with him, then I hung up and turned off the phone."
"How did he take it?" How does any man take rejection? Especially one like Mitch,
"He didn't take it well. He tried to give me a guilt trip about dating him even though I knew he was married." She snorted,
"Oh yeah, that's the way to get you. Good one Mitch." I sighed and shook my head,
"Well, hopefully he knew I was serious. I don't want to talk about him anymore anyway."
"Works for me. So on a brighter note, I met this guy." Actually, that wasn't a brighter note for me. Mitch is trying to make his way back into my life and I'm scared that I might get hung up on Nick. Most of the times, I'm the one with someone and she doesn't have someone so I'm happy she has a new guy. She's usually the one listening to me,
"So tell me all about him."
Chapter 14
Total Control
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