Sudden Echo

I have been wanting so much to apologize.
A whispered "I'm sorry."
Tears flowing and falling down my face,
Across my lips and to my feet.

I have been wanting so much to dream of a home for us.
Buried far from the troubles of this place,
No deception,
No imperfection,
No place like that found.
Only in dreams.

The sudden echo of your voice blessing my ears.
My resolve once so strong, dead..
My willingness to say no..left...
My willingness to stay, weakening.
There is no end, but there was never a beginning.

Always a want to turn to you when the moment strikes.
The cold realization you aren't there.
A heart raping a heart for the shreds of a long remaining love.
A l..o..v..e.

Never having seen your face.
Never having felt your kiss.
Never having heard your whisper.
Never having touched your skin.
The fear of ever doing so.
The fear of never again.

I have been wanting so much to apologize.
I have been wishing so much to cry.
I have been wanting so much to apologize.
For the fear for the passing of time.

At the crossroads of evolution we stand.
We falter, we stumble, we crawl.
Easily failing where some have succeeded.
Easily accepting the fall.
Confused emotions make truth so clear.

Content with the wanting.
Content with the love..
The sudden echo of your voice blessing my ears.

J. 2004