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| i was thinking tonight (its 11:50 right now) that i think about everything too much, i know thats an oxymoron (i believe it is anyway) but yeah. Everything i do i take so much time to think through before i do and its really pissing me off. Instead of just doing things i think them through and try to see them from every angle and only end up being confused. I know that thinking things through in most cases is a good thing but right now its only causeing problems. I need to just start making random decisions again....everything would be so much easier that way. Instead of confusing myself i could just throw things to the wind and see what happens. I came to the realization that even if you can see a problem from all angles it wont end up helping you in the long run because you will only become more confused and if you dont look at problems your kinda screwed anyway. its a catch 22 thing, cant live with thinking, cant live without it. i think randomness is the key. theres no thinking involved and even if you screw yourself over in the long run atleast you didnt waste time thinking about it and confusing yourself. back in the day there was no thinking involved in decisions...do i want the purple or green popsicle...you just picked on off the top of your head...today it would be more like "do i want the green or purple, well i dono it depends which one has more calories...and oh the purple one has red4 in it which isnt good for growth..but it has less calories" we need to stop caring so much and just pick. Its like a deer in the headlights... it cant decide which way to go so it just stands there. Thinking things through is like standing there... pick one way or the other and everything will be alright. if you think things through to much sooner or later your going to get hit by the car.... if you dont have anything nice to say then dont say anything at all....how bout fuck you....theres nice for you...when did that rule ever come into play....my mother always said it and i always made the smart ass comment "thats why our house is so quiet all the time" but really if noone had anything nice to say do you have any idea how boring out world would be. There would be none of those little magazines in the check out lines trashing all of the celebrities (oh no how could we live without them) there would be hardly any comedy...there would be no news...because all thats on the news these days is all killings and whos been arested and what world leaders are being are being assholes this week. Its pretty shitty how rarly anything nice is being said and im talking about around here and around the world...i mean im sure im not always saying nice stuff...but not very often do you hear a complement these days and if you do its always followed by a "but" or a "next time" for example marching band (im sure your all tired of hearing about it but i dont care this is my page and ill talk about what i want to) we do a run through of our show at the end of practice every night. Then at the end we have our little "huddle" and talk about practice and whats going on that week and whatever....and they always give us complements like yea yeah whatever this was good that was good, and thats when the "buts" come in... they can never give us a complement without somehow ruining it...and thats how everything is starting to be. school is like that all the time...that was a great project BUT you shouldnt have used a conjunction there....just give me the damn grade, the complement and let me go on my merry way...choke and die you bastard, i cant change it now shut up and let me go... hey look now its 12:12 but yeah...last night i was talking to this kid and i had an away message up that said have you ever had that feeling where you want to find the highest thing you can and look up at the stars....right before you jump off and fall to your death...yeah i know that one and i came back and whatever yeah, and he said something like you should make them into lyrics....i was thinking about what he said and i realized that it would be a horrible idea...yeah it might be cool but why would i want people to listen to that... first off it would let people know what i was feeling and they would be all concerned when really i was just in a bad mood and wanted to be left alone for a minute or two and then they would end up thinking i was suicidal and stuff and trying to get me help for a problem that really doesnt exist (note to readers dont get me help for my problem that doesnt exist) and second why would i want other peope listening to that ...i know i listen to alot of different music and it effects the way i feel, theres songs that are all emo and make me want to cry because girls are evil and there are songs that want to make me shoot myslef because jimmy buffet is an idoit and there are songs that make me happy because the ninja turtles are super heros...but im saying if lyrics of songs make you feel different ways about things why would i want people listening to song about jumping off of buildings and stuff....that wouldnt be too good for them i dont believe.....i dont want anyone jumping off buildings (well there are a few but ill save that for later) but thats why i havnt been writing alot because i dont have anything that i want people to hear and take to heart. The word of the day is thinking. me and my friend alex stole this from peewee herman and its pretty much you pick a word and whenever someone says it you scream ahhh...in a peewee herman voice. well we started doing it in science class and the teacher has been pretty cool about it and he plays along with us and tries not to say it which is pretty awesome. we try to pick words that he says alot so he has a fun time getting around them....words like i'm and certain numbers work really well but i would suggest avoiding words like "the, and" and stuff like that...so next time you get bored you should play this game...after a while its pretty entertaining and gives you something to do... well its 12:23 and im going to bed catch you later |
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| sorry its the same background thing but i liked it |