hey everyone, i know its been a long while since i've updated and theres alot of stuff i wanna talk about....so its prolly gonna be really gay, (prolly like the rest of my site) but bare with me
Fool me once shame on you. Fool me twice shame on me
so yeah , with this whole "fool me once shame on you. fool me twice shame on me" thing.   how true is that.... people are so stupid, well atleast i am, , this kinda goes back to the whole dating thing...so if you dont wanna hear it you can scroll down...cause i know most people prolly dont.  but yeah the quote "love is blinding" is 100% true, when your in love everything that is obvious to other people is really unseen by the love bewitched eye.  people can totally treat you and or other people like shit and you "the bewitched one" are totally oblivious to what is going on.... im gonna tell you a story and ill try to keep it brief, it all wraps into the fool me twice thing....

i went out with this girl for a while, then she fucked me over,
(theres the fool me once part) so normally, a smart person would not want to experience that again , but being the fucked up person that i am, i for some reason did....so we were cool for a while and we go in this trip together, i ended up getting fucked over again, (theres the fool me twice part), well you think even an idiot like myself would leave it at that, and back off and not want anything to do with this chick, but no im a fucking idiot and once again, get fucked over , by the same girl... im finally starting to realize that all of this pain and torment and suffering, isnt worth it....this girl is going to do nothing but fuck me over again and again, and i dont need that....i guess im just a little slow and it took me three tries to figure that out.....

i dont even know why i wanted to be around her after the first time.....i guess like i said love is blinding, and for all of you that say i was or am not in love, that im only fifteen,
*if your not saying this cover your eyes and go to the next white part* fuck you, i know what love is, i know that theres more than just the sexual aspect, i know what it feels like to stare into someones eyes for hours and not say a thing, i know what its like to have them do the same and feel nothing for you, i know how it feels to have your heart broken into thousands of pieces and have the person not even care....so fuck off....and for those of you that didnt say that, im sorry you had to hear that.

so this page pretty much sums up the whole time that i have been not writing on the page, cause that is all ive been feeling, depressed and other bad stuff...but you know what now that ive actually come out and written this i realize, that this person doesnt deserve my time of day......i dont need this shit...noone does, i guess what im trying to say is.....think things through , why are we really doing the things that we do everyday, is there any point? i guess i just want everyone to start thinking about how their actions might affect other people down the road.

nothing really is as it seems, its kinda like a duck sitting on top of a pond (stick with me here this actually does make sense) on the surface the everything seems to be still and calm, but as soon as you go under water you see how actice everything is....the duck is paddling its little feet off, there are fish zooming around everywhere and everything is totally opposite of what it seems, hence my point nothing is what it seems,  this also relates to what i wrote above, everyone is so wrapped up in what they are doing they dont realize what is going on around them.....vision is just a glorified illusion is what i think i mean ( i was trying to be creative sorry) people think they see things and really they have no idea what they are really seeing, its like people that come into conversations in the middle, they thing they know what they are talking about but they dont.......this is getting comfusing so im gonna stop but im letting you know that NOTHING IS WHAT IS SEEMS, i know why i just cant explain it
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