dating

I've been thinking about love a lot lately and how it's �over-said and under-meant" as
one of my friends would put it. (Thanks Sam) and really why do we date. To me dating has two purposes. One is that we think that�s where we are going to find love. Or
maybe it�s just to go out and fun with your friends. But most of the time dating is only
fun and all for maybe a month, (bringing it back to how immature my friends are) and if
you're lucky a few months.

The other thing about dating is that I've only encountered one instance where the
people have still stayed friends. Its sad how going out with someone can wreck a
whole friendship. It's pretty sad that even if your relationship as a Boyfriend/Girlfriend
doesn't work out that you can't stay friends with that person. Like every girl I go out
with after we go out just kind of stop being friendly and don�t hang out any more.
Thank god that me and my buttercup stayed friends. Just because the relationship is
over I don�t see why people can't stay friends. I think that�s another sign of how
immature people are these days.

So really why date? If all you�re doing by dating is losing friends (most of the
Time) why keep on losing friends. I�m not saying that people don�t stay friends but
most of the time they don't. I mean I�ve lost a lot of friends from dating and I no a lot of
other people that have to and I don�t think it's worth losing someone as a friend just for
a little bit of kissing and hanging out more often.

Then again I'm no genius here and all so do what you want and whatever
makes you happy but think about the friendship you could be losing by going out with
someone for a while. You could be losing a great friend.

8/16/01
I've been thinking about this page and I've been arguing with Ed and talking to Jess and
I think I'm partly wrong about what I said above. I mean yeah there is a possibility
that you could lose a friend but going out with someone can actually make a
Friendship / relationship stronger also. I guess what I�m trying to say is that if you see a chance to be happy grab onto it and the hell with the consequences. Yes you could be losing a friend but think of all the things you could be gaining. I mean if you really like someone tell them how much you care. Not telling the person how you fell could actually hurt the relationship more than help. (again I�m not a genius so I�m not 100% sure) but my experiences have been good up until I didn�t tell her how I really felt. I thought I lost the relationship and the closeness that we had and all cause I
didn�t tell her how I really felt. Thank you for staying with me and listening to me. I
love you so much and that will never change

9/17/01
yeah well I just got out of a relationship and thank god that I didn�t lose her again!
even though I know I didn�t really lose her I felt like I�ve lost so much more. It�s hard to
explain. I know its over but I still find myself thinking about her all the time and the
more I think the sadder I become. I just don�t know. I want her back so much but on
the other hand if we break up again I don�t want to feel this bad or worse. I don�t no if I
could handle it. I love her so much (and Steph I reread the email and decided that I do) and I just feel really shitty right now because I miss her and everything seems to be really weird. I want her back so much but whenever I�m around her I just become more sad thinking about what I�ve "lost" even though I haven�t really lost her. My one friend sent me a quote that said " everything works out in the end, and if it doesn�t work out It�s not the end" and I sure hope she�s right because this pain in my heart isn�t going away. yeah well I�m tearing up right now so I�m going to let this go until a later time

12/28/01
Once again i realized something. There is no one reason for anything i've said above. It is a complex game and its never ending. Being me and relateing everything to a quote here i go, "If we wait to long,we risk learning that life is not a game that is won.. or lost...it is a game that, to often, isnt played." Pleese play the game. Don't give up on love. Things may not look good sometimes, (Most of the time for me?) anyway but always remember that theres a light at the end of every tunnel(unless its night time?) anyway dont give up on love. Love comes when least expected. Everything works out in the end, if it doesnt then its not the end...

1/24/02
More realization, i have no idea what to do with relationships. I can only keep "middle school" ones as ive been told by my last 2 girlfriends so dont listen to anything i say. do what feels right. dont let anyone or anything persuade you. let your heart lead you (unless your name is kevin,dave, or ed) so if your in the/a middle school feel free to email me and keep on reading. If your not i guess you can talk to someone who has some idea of whats goin on

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