bands

No is just yes to a different question

Hey , have you ever had one of those days where everything is goin kinda normal and then something that you never would have expected happens? The other day i was at home and everything was like usual with the being suspicious that everyone is trying to make my life miserable and then out of nowhere my cousin instant messages me and askes me if i know who 5 days ahead was.. well to make a long story short he asks me to be in his band as their lead singer. Ever since getting my guitar and even bofore that i kinda had the urge to start a band so i told him i'd think about it. Then my other friends im's me and asks me the same question and wants me to play backup guitar and this happened to me 3 times in an hour.

Needless to say it was really scary. Im no singer.. well i am now i guess cause i think that would be cool. I dont know it was just really ironic how that happened with 3 people at the same time. So now im faced with that all improtant decision of which band to go with. The one i have to try out for so i'll prolly try but i doubt ill make it. and if that falls through i guess ill go for my cousins band. This is really cool though. For once i feel like im finally good for something and it feels good. Knowing my luck they'll both kick me out because i can't sing or something but for the moment being i'm feeling ... alright about things. not perfect but not to shabby. My cousin seems to be hitting it good in the music scene. His bands the "Soccer Moms" has booked a few shows and i've heard them , there pretty decent and there ska so you cant go wrong there

You know whats kinda saddening, when you put work into something and you think its gonna turn out pretty good and then it sucks or takes a turn for the worse. yeah whether it be some dumb school project or something important to you it still really kinda sucks. I'm just had that happen a few times to me in the last week. A few times on dumb shit like homework, i need to understand it becasue i have like a 60 in the class and not understanding doesnt help. I kinda understand but of coarse the teacher gives us like 2 days to learn it and then gives us a test. It's not like its incredibly hard but its hard enough.

The other thing meant a little more to me but it was just as saddening. You try to think of something that was a little different and would brighten someones day. You do it and you do it to see the persons happyness and to see their day brightened. You do it and get no reaction at all, no brightness. just a simple thanks or something of that sort would have been enough. Not that thats what im fishing for but i just wanted to do something i though was nice. i have no idea if you know what i mean but if you do you know how i feel. I did something that i thought was nice and i got nothing in return.. not even a smile. I didnt want anything material or anything at all just the satisfaction of makeing someones day and makeing them smile and i failed.

I noticed that almost all of my pages are me bitching about dumb stuff too. Im such a pessimest. I hardly focus on the good things that happen, its always about how love has it in for me and what pisses me off. nothing nice to say...
i feel like im dampining everyone else's spirit by my bitching. Im gonna try to keep everything more up beat and try not to focus on the bad things as much... yeah..