They pulled up to Willows about fifteen minutes later. There were no lights on but Angelus snuck up to the balcony anyway. He had just climbed over the railing when he spotted an envelope with his name on in. It was warm as though it had been in the sun all day. He slipped in his duster pocket and shineed down the trellis. He landed at the bottom and took the envelope back out of his pocket. He had that bad feeling again. It had come back with a vengeance, and he was hesitent to open it. Finally after stareing at it for ten minutes Spike asked...
"Whats that?"
"I dont know, a letter i spose. Its got her scent on it so I know she wrote it.Why would she be writing me letters William, I dont want to open it. ARGH !!! Im acting just like soul boy aren`t I?"
"No sire, youve got much better taste in woman and clothes"
Spike smirked at him to try and lighten his mood.
"Cheers boy! your such a brat!"
"Look peaches, you want me to open it?"
"No, I can do it, Right here goes!"
He ripped the top open and started to read:-
Dearest Angelus,
I love you! There i said it, I love you but I cant be with you! It would hurt too many people. Im not evil at heart. I may have a dark side, but Im not evil and I cant sit and watch the ones I care about die by the hand of the man Im in love with! So Ive gone. I dont know if I`ll be back. I left last night after you came by, I realised I loved you too and I could stay in Sunnydale and not be with you.
Please. I know your not Angel, but try to understand, Buffy doesnt see that, she just see`s the man that has her lovers face.. Godess do I know your not Angel, he never gave me the time of day, and I dont think that he could carry off those tight leather pants and silk shirts nearly aswell as you do. But all the Slayer would see is me dateing her boyfriends murderer and body. Plus i cant get hurt again, my heart cant take it. What if one day you turned round and decided that you didnt want a mortal hanger on anymore, instead getting with a demon or vamp. I couldnt take it. I love you always, remeber that.
Im sorry I love you but I couldnt stay.
Love your willow, always
X
Blood red tears were slipping down Angelus`s face. He fell to the floor and sobbed. Dru went to comfort him and Spike picked the letter up and scanned it. He realised then just how much his grand sire was in love with the little redheaded spitfire. He truelly felt for him. Thats just how he felt when Angelus had come back and starting acting like a wanker with Dru, and part of him, although only small, found some perverse pleasure in his pain...
He opened his arms and beckoned Angelus into them...
"Come on sire"
Angelus went to him and let him rock him until his sobbing subsided a little.
"She`s gone William, shes gone and I never had the chance to tell her how much I needed her. What am I going to do. And what if she gets hurt or killed. I couldnt handle it."
"We`ll find her sire, I promise. I can understand why she left though. The man she is in love with is trying to kill her best friend the slayer and the rest of her friends."
"I swear to Lucifer now that I will leave the damn slayer alone, If Willow would jsut listen and beleive me and come back to me"
"I know sire, I know, we`ll find her"
"Daddy dont fret pet, we`ll find the little tree for you. She loves you. She cant live without you"
"Thankyou Spike, Dru, I just want her back"
Spike really wanted to help his grandsire. With everything out in the open and the aair cleared he seemed to be acting more like the vamire that had trained him, not the sadistic psycho that had come back when the curse had been broken. He didnt have a clue where the redhead could have gone, he could call in a few favours, tap a few human pets he had, but she had a whole 24 hour head start. Spike had been thinking it over and had come up with a plan but it would probably get him dusted, he had to try. He couldnt tell the other two though. They`d never agree to it. It had to be done though.
"Baby, go home with Angelus, Ive got something I need to take care of."
"Okay Spikey"
"William where are you going?"
<oh yeah he was most definately back to his formewr self, he always called me william.>
"Ive just got some business. i wont be long, and I`ll bring back a takeaway, any requests?"
"Nothing to fatty my boy"
"Not too spicey spikey, mexicans get stuck in my teeth"
"Right oh ducks, well I`ll see you later"
They drove off as spike watched, he made sure they were out of sight and set off in the direction of his destination. he really didnt want to ended a pile of Spike shaped dust, but he needed to at least try. He owed it to his grandsire, for trying to be honest and mend bridges.
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