RockStar: You are not home. Are you? RockStar: waaaah. I wanna talk to Robotgirl.:-( RobotGirl: hi RockStar: oh. helllo. RockStar: first, I feel obligated to report that I am currently inebriated. RockStar: but it's nice to hear from you. RobotGirl: me too RockStar: fantastic. what's been cooking with you today? RobotGirl: rice, peas, tofu RockStar: I mean, what have you been doing? RobotGirl: oh, working, then working, now home RockStar: but you got drunk somewhere? RockStar: or did I misunderstand. RobotGirl: no misunderstanding, I'm a total drunk RockStar: of course... I should have known. Do you have visitors as always? RobotGirl: nope, not tonight, you? RobotGirl: what have you been up to today? why are you home so early? RobotGirl: did you get my email RockStar: I did.... hmmmmmmm RockStar: one of my bestest friends from grade school, yes GRADE school is celebrating his birthday here. RobotGirl: why are you talking to me, if you are having a party RockStar: I don't know, felt like talking to you.... RobotGirl: super RobotGirl: ah, you could have also invited me RobotGirl: jerk RockStar: you already told me you would not venture into the burbs... RobotGirl: and I meant it RockStar: you meant the jerk part or the invited part or the kidding part or the email part? RobotGirl: venturing out of the city to the suburbs, I meant that I would not go to the burbs RockStar: I suspected as much... RobotGirl: so, is your boyfriend over RockStar: my platonic male friend is here with his Girlfriend. RobotGirl: it was funny in my head RobotGirl: so, you and I madeout! RobotGirl: RockStar plus RobotGirl sitting in a tree... RockStar: I know... RobotGirl: p-o-r-k-i-n-g RobotGirl: have you seen the moving , "moving" RockStar: movie? RobotGirl: Richard Prior RobotGirl: moving, RockStar: with the twin boys? RobotGirl: yes RobotGirl: the song RockStar: then, yes I have. but I'm afraid your lyric is not ringing any bells. RobotGirl: well then i'm batting 1,000 with you tonight RockStar: just to be clear, you do remember that we did no porking, right? RobotGirl: yes, I thought I was being funny again RockStar: You were being very funny.:-) RobotGirl: excellent RobotGirl: how did you know I would be on? RockStar: I had no clue. I just jumped on because it's the easiest way to check my email. RobotGirl: yep RockStar: so did I catch you masturbating and you're just waiting for me to leave you alone so you can finish? RobotGirl: are you asking because I actually caught you?' RockStar: no, I told you I have friends over. RobotGirl: whats your point, RockStar: we don't do the mutual masturbation until later. RobotGirl: so what do you think about us kissing thing? RockStar: I don't know... I definitely wanted it to happen at the time. RobotGirl: would you have rather gone, "all the way". RobotGirl: or do you think it's better that we stopped? RockStar: I meant I wanted the kissing to happen... RockStar: All I know is that I like you, I find you attractive, I felt comfortable with you... RobotGirl: felt, or feel RockStar: That's so funny. I regretted using the past tense right after I typed it. RobotGirl: cool, me too. So you think we should have, ya know, �busted it� RockStar: I don�t know, could have been fun, I want you to be sure it's the right thing. RobotGirl: yeah, well I just didn't want you to see my festering VD RockStar: oh, I saw it. you spilled a little on my leg... RobotGirl: nice RobotGirl: it's not that I had any doubts, I wanted to do you, but then I was thinking about how sometimes I get all weird about it RockStar: that was obvious. RobotGirl: nice RobotGirl: you've seen my site, I'm a nut case RockStar: I know you're a nut case. honestly though, I feel like I'm the guy you've never met before. RobotGirl: example: Have this co-worker, one night after work we did alittle makingout, we didn�t even get past first base, now I don't ever want to see him again. RobotGirl: 'the guy I never met before', how so? RockStar: This is where my quasi-ego kicks in... RockStar: It's not that unusual an experience. Just for kicks, what is technically first base? RobotGirl: kissing, hands on the tits, over the shirt RockStar: oooh. that sounds good. RobotGirl: i talk so dirty RockStar: I know you do. Maybe that's why I keep up with you... RobotGirl: so, the reason I stopped is because I like you, I have a lot of fun with you, and I'm not ready for that to stop yet RockStar: and if we had had intercourse, that would have changed your idea of me? RobotGirl: no, but I'm a woman of the 00's conditioned for one night stands RockStar: so anything else seems kind of foreign or wrong? RobotGirl: sort of i become detached very quickly RockStar: that's what I was talking about with my advice email. RobotGirl: how so? RockStar: the idea of chasing and being chased... RobotGirl: ah, i see RobotGirl: wasn't your advice to be "caught" RockStar: It seems conquests are to be discarded. RockStar: yes, but vulnerability is a big issue as well. RobotGirl: hmm, very good work my friend RobotGirl: explain RobotGirl: i just had 1/2 pint of cherry garcia RockStar: If you like someone enough to sleep with someone, you may not want to see if it goes further for several reasons... (Granted, this is pure conjecture based upon my discrete life experiences, so please accept this grain of salt with that.) RockStar: one of those reasons being vulnerability... RockStar: and 1/2 pints of Cherry Garcia. RobotGirl: are you saying that I become vulnerable? RockStar: I'm saying you might avoid showing genuine interest because it makes you vulnerable. RobotGirl: I'm not vulnerable RockStar: I know you're not vulnerable. I'm guessing here that you don't allow yourself to be vulnerable.... They call it falling in love for a reason. RobotGirl: so, because I'm not in love, I'm not vulnerable RockStar: not because you're not in love, but you might be holding yourself back from allowing yourself to "fall" in love. RobotGirl: am I missing everything here? RockStar: Falling in love is scary, and it's possible you might be avoiding it.... RobotGirl: here is how I will know that i'm in love RockStar: how? will he be a member of GBV? RobotGirl: A.) The person will drive a Fast red car RobotGirl: 2.) yes GBV will be a huge part of it RobotGirl: C.) ah, it will just always feel right RockStar: I suppose, but when the time comes will you let yourself talk to him the day after you bed him like the others? RockStar: I hope that didn't come out wrong. I don't want to sound too harsh. just know I'm basing this mostly on my experience and small things I know about you.... RobotGirl: I don't ever know how I'm going to feel after RobotGirl: sometimes i want more, sometimes I want less RobotGirl: for me right now, I'm pretty comfortable with my lifestyle RockStar: I guess what I meant about the letting yourself get "caught" is that sometimes after you find someone likes you, you end up liking them back before you know it. RobotGirl: I'm not sure if I want any "love" RockStar: that's certainly possible... RobotGirl: have you read, "the unbearable lightness of being" yet? RockStar: nope. RockStar: I'm working on Delilo's body artist and then Perfume. RobotGirl: I don't want to make a big deal out of anything, I just want things to be uncomplicated, and light RobotGirl: I just felt like you and I should talk because your departure was a bit abrupt RockStar: that's easy enough. Keep doing what you're doing and avoid trouble if it comes. I told you that you seemed more happy than most people I know. RobotGirl: really? that's great, or maybe very tragic RockStar: It was abrupt because I work on a different level with sex, I guess. RockStar: and I was fucking exhausted and you were no longer topless. RockStar: :-) that was a joke. RobotGirl: and I would have taken my top off for you RockStar: really? maybe I should have had that coffee? RobotGirl: What do you mean, �different level with sex�? RockStar: I don't know what I'm saying. RobotGirl: are you saying you have a higher IQ? RobotGirl: or maybe that you perfer men? RobotGirl: that you had the stomach flu and wished you were dead? RobotGirl: Is that what you meant by different levels? RockStar: I just have had experiences with girls that were supposed to be one night stands and ended up being more. RobotGirl: in the best fuck buddy style? or like you moved to Virginia to become "Lovers" RockStar: not that I hounded anyone or did any chasing, just that I don't enter into the hard fucking lightly, I guess. RockStar: And that's why I said no. RobotGirl: I said no, RobotGirl: you would have done me RockStar: I would have done you if you had maintained the attitude you had displayed up to that point. RobotGirl: right, well I was pretty intoxicated, but I was sincere, I didn't want you to think I was a tease, so I was willing to give it a go RockStar: That's a terrible reason to sleep with someone. No matter how far we had gotten, i wouldn't do that. RobotGirl: like I said, it's not that I didn't want to, it's just that I started thinking past just the act RockStar: what would have been different for you? RobotGirl: well, I don't know. what if after I didn't want that kind of relationship with you, wouldn't you feel a little used? RobotGirl: hello? RockStar: I don't know because we didn't. RockStar: Don't get me wrong. I wasn't planning our first date and meeting each other parents... For me, it would have been a fun physical experience capping off an otherwise wonderful social/emotional evening. RobotGirl: well whatever, I had fun, I like hanging out with you, what ever happens, happens RockStar: you've said all that you wanted to say or are you just getting confused and tired? RobotGirl: we are ok, right? RobotGirl: I'm tired, and I have to work in the a.m. and the p.m so I was wrapping things up, RockStar: We're fine as long as you're fine. RobotGirl: ditto, RobotGirl: i am fine RockStar: ok, then. RobotGirl: so you are also fine RockStar: I have no illusions about where we are as friends. You're good stuff in my book. RobotGirl: good in that oh so very bad way. like Lee. well, you should get back to your party, thanks for talking with me. RockStar: no prob. I finished whacking it anyway. now domay buzeah. (go to sleep in Lithuanian.) RobotGirl: nice, and nice, take care, good night (english) RockStar: bis bald. RockStar signed off at 1:27:45 AM. |
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