| So, if I want to make a change in the vicious cycle of failed relationships, I should start now! Any suggestions? I don�t actually feel like I want anyone in my life. I want to selfish right now, which is difficult when I have no time to myself. I've always got someone here or, someone that wants me out. With regard to relationships though, it�s not so much that I�m crazy, I think I�m just afraid of making decisions. I must use an analogy to convey my point. Here goes, deciding to enter into a relationship with someone is like shoe shopping, if the shoe is a bit pricey, and your not sure what you�ll wear with them, you may have reservations about making the purchasing. But you still like the way they look and feel, so maybe you are acting like a big baby and you should shut your yap and just buy the damn shoe. But then maybe you should save your money because maybe you'll run into a nicer shoe, and for the time being you could just borrow your �friends� shoes. Is that clear enough? I think that�s where I start getting myself into trouble. I make �friends� out of potential boyfriends. In the beginning, Iwon�t tell them how or even if I feel anything for them. That way I can always, �not purchase the shoe�. By the time I make up my mind to be with him, we are already so comfort able in the, no strings attracted friendship relationship, that it�s impossible to switch over to a, lovey dovey let�s move to Virginia, relationship. But maybe that�s ok too. |
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