youre sitting there alone noon at all around I wish I could have showed you how I feel but now youve cut off everyone I cant believe its true I dont know what Ive done but now I know were through I cannot live with this theres nothing I can do you were all that was my life I gave everything to you ------------------------------------------- fear is what I have fear isnt what I want fear is not knowing fear is creeping up kill the pain, make me numb stop the shame, make me right dont have the answer all that I want is to have you for me I would show you the way we could be together I am not worthy you look right past I am nothing when I think of you that is what I feel you make me nothing forever I will know Im-fucking-nothing whatever you do I still love you ------------------------------------------- with the simple sweetness of her touch the world around me is repressed there is nothing else to notice beautiful, blue fixed irises locked on mine hypnotizing, until I give in the fight is always lost control is not an option I tried so hard, but no avail wont let me in, so now I fail cant get through this, it cant be real Id give any-thing not to feel slipping down just to climb back half way back up is not the path she lets me see more than the rest I get from this grows less and less ------------------------------------------- off through the distance all this fucking ignorance they speak to me through the night controlling me, Ive lost the fight look at me, Im fucking dying this isnt my time...this isnt.... .....time...not my time Where am I supposed to go? Where-do-I-fuck-ing-go? Theyre all around me picking and scratching get away.............. die................... Im dying.............. Im dying.............. this isnt me, this isnt mine this life is yours, not mine youre fucking life.......... pathetic.............die.... fucking die................. Its yours................... Take it back................ ............breathe......... ------------------------------------------- In the beginning, there was me I had nothing, nothing came to me What did I do, that was so wrong? There must have been something wrong I fucked up somehow I fucked it all up Im not dirty, I washed myself clean I am not dirty, you arent seeing me I can be what you need everything you could ever need give me one chance Im not dirty My chance was given It felt so good My chance was given for the wrong fucking reasons the feeling wont go away its still here after each day Everything, Ive lost everything Not that I had anything at all but now its all gone the dreams and prayers all lost in vain this is the end, farewell ------------------------------------------- All Ive ever known All I could know this little time what time Ive had Its all dead inside Nothing there Once I will find myself I hope I find myself You look at me All look at me Im dying Cant find myself ------------------------------------------- cant for now nothing for you it isnt right let you be keep me to myself let be what isnt with me longing sorrow oh what pain you will feel learn from mistakes cant learn without experience cant stand to watch tears start to creep through what was I to do? was there anything I could? what was right? was there? hurt eyes bathe in tears the future is now, forevermore