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| A Stare, Which could turn someone into a jittering wreck. Talons, Which could draw blood from someone's neck. Pain, Which could fill the shallowest of eyes. |
| Help, When you sleep can you not hear the cries? Darkness, Which envelopes the hole. Deeper, Keep digging until you find the soul. 3rd Of November 2000 |
| Just to introduce myself, my name is Rose, I am 21 years old and I live in Scotland. The reason that I wanted to create this website is because I have personally experienced abuse and bullying and then subsequent mental health problems during my lifetime. I have spent a lot of time searching the web and trying to find out information about these issues and have never found a place that deals with these issues all at the same time. Particularly there is not much support out there for survivors of bullying and many people don't realise that the after effects can be so long lasting. So I decided to create a website that provides information and support for anyone who has experienced any kind of abuse, anyone who has been or is being bullied and for anyone that suffers from mental health problems. I hope that is also helpful for people who want to support someone who is dealing with any of these problems. To give a brief outline of my own experiences: Bullying: I was a victim of bullying throughout my primary school years, from almost start to finish. I have not spoken about it much and I find that it still affects me in many ways. Abuse/Trauma: This is the really hard bit for me. I was sexually abused from a young age, around five until I was about 13. The abuse was not constant during that time, rather several different men abused me at different times during those 8 years. Mental Health: I have had a lot of mental health problems caused by the abuse and bullying that I suffered. I spent the majority of my teenage years just trying to survive the after-effects of what had happened to me whilst in therapy for about 4 of those years. A year of this was spent in an inpatient adolescent psychiatric unit, because I was severely depressed and was harming myself in some fairly serious ways. I didn't want to be alive then and going into hospital when I did saved my life and I wouldn't be here today without it. I'm glad that I wasn't given much choice in the matter. I've done a lot of hard work to try and sort out what happened to me when I was younger, so that I can live a relatively normal life without being affected by my past everday. I'm not going to say that it's not still hard, because it still is, it still hurts most days, but I know that if I keep on going and working on it, that it will hurt for less and less days all the time. |
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