Thanx to yamatoforever, Sapphire Goddess, never*gonna*get*it, ThatGirl, KoNy, Linnda, Crystal Desires, Misty Ishida, Moonstruck Em, Yamato795, YIzzysGirlY, Lady Zera, Firefly’s Light, Nine Muses, and Triple P. I’d like to thank IceAngel for being my first Flame. At least I think it was a Flame. Not really sure.
A/N: Matt is 17. Tai is 18. TK is 8. ::Indicates Matt’s thoughts.::
Disclaimer: .nomigiD nwo ton od I I do not own Digimon.
*WARNING* This fic has non-consensual sex, violence, AND is Yaoi. Don’t like? Don’t read.
More Matt abuse ahead. Proceed with caution.
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“Boy, wake up.”
::Hmmm. Why was everybody always waking me? I just want to sleep. Maybe it’s a dream. If I ignore it, it will go away.::
“Boy, wake up now!” Matt was being roughly shaken to consciousness.
“Fuck! What?” Matt yelled, rubbing his eyes. He looked up to see who was bothering him now. ::It’s that man! Fuck! I don’t want to do this now. I just want to fucking sleep!!::
The man leaned down until his face was inches away from Matt’s. “You know what, boy.”
Matt made a face when he smelled the man’s breath. It reeked of alcohol. ::Okay. If I can get this over with quick, I can get the money and go back to sleep. I’ll suck it up this one last time. Pretty soon, I’ll never have to do this again.:: Matt raised his hands, and started to remove his shirt.
The man grinned at Matt. “No boy, you don’t have to undress this time.”
::Huh? What does he want then?::
“Get on your knees boy.”
Matt did as he was ordered, and waited for another order. None came. Instead, the man stood in front of him, and unzipped his fly. His erection stood free in front of Matt’s face. “Suck.” He commanded.
Matt looked up in horror at the man. ::Oh HELL no!:: “No, I’m not doing that.”
The man poked Matt in the face with his erection and commanded again, “Suck it now boy!”
“I said I’m not gonna do that sick shit!”
The man grabbed Matt by the hair and pulled as hard as he could.
“Owww. Shit. Stop.” Matt grabbed hold of the man’s wrist, trying to keep him from pulling up more.
“If you bite, I swear I’ll kill your brother.” And with those words, he proceeded to shove his member into Matt’s pleading mouth, and began to fuck Matt’s face.
Matt tried as hard as he could not to bite down. He wanted to hurt this man. Bad. But he kept hearing the man’s words in his head. “I’ll kill your brother.” ::I can’t let TK get hurt.::
They stayed in that position a long time before the man finally came, hitting the back of Matt’s throat.
Matt almost choked.
The man zipped up. “Until next time boy.” He threw some money at the coughing boy, and left.
“Oh God…” Matt stood up, and ran to the bathroom to throw up. Afterwards he washed out his mouth with water, and looked at his reflection in the bathroom mirror. He was sickened by what he saw. ::I let people beat me. I let people fuck me. Now I give pleasure with my mouth. I’m just a common whore. A fucking slut! I hate myself.::
“I hate you!” He screamed at the mirror. He lifted his fist and punched the mirror, shattering it. Blood oozed from his knuckles as he gazed down at his, now, multiple reflections. He wanted his reflection to just go away. He started punching the broken pieces of the mirror causing bits of it to wedge it’s way into his skin. He didn’t care. ::I deserve the pain.:: He grabbed one of the larger pieces of mirror, and began to cut his arm with it. He stared in sick fascination at the blood flowing from his arm. He brought the piece of mirror to his wrist, ready to slash the shit out of it but paused. ::TK. What am I doing? I can’t leave TK all alone.:: Matt dropped the piece of mirror he was holding, and collapsed to the floor. ::I just want all of this to go away.:: He curled up on the floor. ::Sleep. I want to sleep now.::
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“Matt! Where are you Matt?!”
::Awakened again.::
“Oh my God, Matt!”
::It’s Tai.:: Matt slowly cracked open an eye to see his love.
“Oh Thank God! I thought you were dead.” Tai kneeled down by Matt.
“Matt Ishida never dies.” Matt whispered, and smiled faintly.
“Matt, what happened to you?” His voice was broken. He looked like he was about to cry.
“I just got sick of my reflection is all.” Matt mumbled. He felt really weak.
“Oh God Matt. You did this to yourself?!”
“Yup.” Was all Matt said.
Tai gently lifted Matt up in his arms and carried him to the bed. He laid Matt down on the mattress, and started to cry. “My God Matt, you’re covered in blood.” Tai turned and went back to the bathroom. He returned with some washcloths, and a bowl of water. He picked up Matt’s arm, and carefully began to wash the blood away from it. “Matt, why did you do this to yourself?”
Matt closed his eyes and mumbled, “Cause my reflection was making me sick.”
“Your reflection made you sick, so you rip open your arm!?!?”
Matt opened his eyes and looked at Tai. “No. I make myself sick, and I tried to kill myself. Only I couldn’t go through with it. I can’t leave TK by himself!”
Tai took Matt’s bloodied fist, and gently started to wash it. “Matt, please don’t ever do this to yourself again. Your life is worth living.”
“Ha!” Matt laughed, “If my life was so worth living, I wouldn’t have tried to end it.”
“Please Matt, I know your life sucks right now, but it’s gonna get better real soon. You and TK will be living with me. Then it will all be over.”
“Over…” Matt whispered. ::Damn, I wanted this to be over.::
Tai started to stroke Matt’s hair away from his face. “Promise me you won’t do this to yourself again Matt.”
::Everything he does is so gentle. His touch feels so good.::
“Yama, promise me.”
::Yama?:: “I don’t like to make promises I’m not sure I’ll keep.”
Tai squeezed his eyes shut, a couple of tears escaping from the corners. ::I’m sorry.:: Tai reopened his eyes. “Well, at least promise me you’ll try not to do this to yourself again.”
“Okay Tai. I promise to try for you.” ::And I promise that guy will never lay another finger on me.::
TBC….
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Okay. That’s all for tonight. Hope you enjoyed.
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