Okay, you know how I said this fic was going to be reeeeeeally long? I changed my mind. I’ve already started editing it to make it shorter. It will still be long, but without the bullshit. Well, maybe some B.S. will remain. Thanx to CobaltPrincess, yamatoforever, ThatGirl, Firefly’s Light, KoNy, Rene, Mirrored, Thera’s Blaed, Linnda, Misty Ishida, Sapphire Goddess, MeLaiaya, SailrJupitr, Amanda, and Yamabie, for the reviews.
If this chapter especially reeks, it’s because I’m not really feeling all that well.
A/N: Matt is 17. Tai is 18. TK is 8. ::Indicates Matt’s thoughts.::
Disclaimer: I’m selling the rights to Digimon, if anyone is interested. I stole it away from those people! Toei and Saban and whoever else owns a slice. It’s all mine now! Bidding starts at 50 cents.
*WARNING* This fic has non-consensual sex, violence, AND is Yaoi. Don’t like? Don’t read.
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“Matt, Wake up!”
A pair of hands started to shake Matt awake. ::No, I don’t want to wake up. Leave me alone.:: “mmmmm, leave me alone.”
“C’mon Matt, wake up.”
Matt’s eyes fluttered open to see Tai hovering over him. ::Like an Angel.::
Tai smiled down at Matt. ::I love his smile.::
“Matt, you gotta get up and get dressed. We’re gonna be late for school.”
“Fuck school.” Matt mumbled and closed his eyes.
“Maaaatt…” Tai’s voice took on a tone of warning.
Matt ignored him and snuggled deeper under his blanket. All he wanted to do was drift back into dreamland.
“All right Matt, I guess I’ll have to play dirty!” Tai quickly grabbed Matt’s blanket and yanked.
“NO! Stop!” Matt lunged for the covers, but it was too late. Tai could see everything now. The bruises on his thighs and hips. Old scars from previous beatings, including cigarette burns all over his chest and stomach. Then there was the dried blood on his sheets from last night’s “incident.”
Tai stared at Matt’s naked body, he looked horrified. “Matt…I…”
Matt grabbed the covers from Tai’s hands and quickly covered his naked body. ::Oh God. He saw. I probably make him sick now. I’m so disgusting.:: “Go Away!” Matt choked trying to keep back his tears. “Just leave!” Matt’s body started to convulse with sobs and he couldn’t fight it anymore. He started to cry.
“Oh my God... Matt.” Tai sat down next to Matt, and wrapped his arms around the weeping boy.
Matt tried to force himself out of Tai’s embrace. “No, don’t touch me. Leave me alone.”
Tai tightened his embrace. “I’m not going to leave you Matt.”
Matt wrapped his arms around Tai, and clung to him as tightly as he could, continuing to sob in his shoulder. After a while in that position, Matt finally calmed and relaxed.
Tai gently lifted Matt’s head with his hand until their eyes met. “Matt, please tell me what happened.”
Matt slowly nodded his head and began to tell his sad story. He told Tai about his Mom dieing of cancer. How his Dad had become a drunk shortly after that. How his father would beat him and use him as an ashtray. How they were abandoned only a month ago. Matt cast his eyes down for the final part of the story.
“Go on.” Tai whispered.
Matt started to explain how he had been prostituting himself to that man. He heard Tai suck in his breath. “Oh God, I disgust you don’t I?”
“No Matt, I could never find you disgusting, ever!” Tai took Matt back into an embrace. ::Lie.::
Matt pushed him away. “No, don’t lie to me. I’m disgusting. I even disgust myself!” Matt covered his face with his hands, he didn’t want to look at Tai anymore. He didn’t deserve to. Fresh tears were beginning to well up in his eyes.
“Matt, look at me!” Matt raised his eyes up to Tai’s. “You are not disgusting! You have done nothing to be ashamed of. You did what you thought you had to do. Okay Matt?” ::I’m not disgusting?::
“Okay Matt?” Tai asked again.
::Not disgusting. Did what I had to do.:: “Okay.” Matt whispered. ::Not disgusting. Did what I had to do.::
Tai smiled at Matt. “You know, I don’t feel much like school today. How about we bring TK to school, and you and I play hooky?”
Matt smiled. “Alright.”
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Matt and Tai were laying on there backs staring up at the sky. They had played around in the city all day before they had decided to take a rest at the park.
“Matt?” Tai asked.
“Yeah Tai.”
“What are you planning on doing once school’s over?”
Matt considered the question for a moment and answered, “Well, I guess I’m gonna have to get a job. I’m gonna need to support TK. He’s gonna have to learn how to be in the house by himself.”
“Oh.” ::That’s a weird answer.:: “So you’re gonna leave TK, by himself?”
“Well what else am I suppose to do? I’m not gonna sell my ass for money forever!” ::What did he want me to do?::
Tai propped himself up on one elbow, and looked down at Matt. “I know, but what if he comes by your house when TK is alone?”
“Shit, I never thought of that.” Matt pictured that man touching his brother and shuddered. “Now what do I do?”
Tai smiled, “I have a solution! I’m going to college next year, and my parents are getting me an apartment near campus. You and TK can come live with me!”
::Live with Tai? Now that was the best idea I ever heard.:: “No, I wouldn’t want to be a burden on you.”
“Don’t be ridiculous! You know you wouldn’t be a burden to me. Besides, who wants to live all alone anyway? And most everything would be free, thanks to my parents.”
“Thanks Tai.” Matt whispered. Tai’s faces was inches away from Matt’s. Matt wanted so badly to close the small gap between them. To kiss those beautiful, smiling lips. But he couldn’t. He still didn’t even know if Tai was gay. All he had to go on was Keizo calling him a fag. But that wasn’t much. Keizo called almost everyone a fag. ::Tai could be straight. If I kiss him, I could screw up the entire friendship. I don’t think I could live without him now.:: Matt sighed and turned his head away from Tai’s.
“Something wrong Matt?”
Matt smiled and sat up, “Nope, just getting a cramp on in my back from lying on the ground.”
TBC…
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Blah! I don’t think that turned out very well. I couldn’t concentrate at all. Maybe when I’m feeling better, it will look better to me. I just hope you guys didn’t hate it as much as I did.
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