I am soooo upset right now. Hunter got voted off Survivor! Now who am I suppose to root for? Maybe Gina… Anywhos, thanx to Hannio, ThatGirl, Eternal Darkness, KoNy, ionis, Yamabie, WildfireFriendship, Thera’s Blaed, leenk, Linnda, cc, and Rashika Star, for the new reviews.
A/N: Matt is 17. Tai is 18. TK is 8. ::Indicates Matt’s thoughts.::
Disclaimer: Screw it! I OWN DIGIMON!!!! Ha! Let them sue me.
*WARNING* This fic has non-consensual sex, violence, AND is Yaoi. Don’t like? Don’t read.
Another A/N: I didn’t really know how to fit this into my story so I’ll just tell ya’ll. What happened to Matt happened on a Friday. It is now Monday. Okay, on with the show.
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::School. Why was I still in school? Three days since that asshole fucked me and I still can’t concentrate. I can still feel his hands all over me.:: Matt shivered, and tried not to think about ‘him’ anymore.
“Okay class, this is your final day to finish your project, so get with your partners.”
Matt looked up at Tai, as he scooted his desk towards Matt. Matt’s heart skipped a couple of beats. He didn’t know if he could keep his cool around the beautiful boy today. His emotions were all out of whack, and he didn’t know if he could control them.
“Uhmm, Matt?” Tai asked, a little nervously.
Matt looked up into Tai’s eyes.
“I just wanted to…thank you for helping me the other day. And I’m sorry I ran away from you. I was just scared at the time.”
“Yeah. Whatever.” Matt said rather coldly. “I didn’t do it for you, I did it just so I could kick Keizo’s ass.” ::No! That wasn’t why I did that! Why was I saying that?::
“Oh.” Tai said, looking back down at his desk. That look of pain clearly on his face again. Matt’s heart twisted at the sight. ::Why do I keep causing him that pain?:: “Sorry, I don’t know what I was thinking. Pretty stupid huh?”
::Fix it Matt!:: “No………….it wasn’t stupid.”
Tai looked up surprised. “It wasn’t?”
“I’m sorry. I say a lot of things I don’t really mean. I don’t know why I do it, it just pops out.” This time Matt looked down at his desk. “I didn’t kick Keizo’s ass because I felt like it. I did it to help you. And I’m sorry I acted like such a dickhead to you.”
Matt shifted his gaze back up to Tai’s. He was surprised to see Tai smiling at him. ::I made him smile?::
“So do you act that way to your friends as well, or was I just the lucky one?”
Matt sorta half smiled. “I act that way towards everyone, and I don’t have any friends.”
“Hey! What a coincidence, I don’t have any friends either. So, are we gonna work on this project or what?”
“What.” Matt quickly replied. Tai laughed and Matt almost formed a complete smile on his face. Almost. And together they started to work on the project.
“So why don’t you like people very much?” Tai asked while coloring in a section of their poster.”
Matt tried to think of some bullshit answer but decided against it. “It seems like every time I have gotten close to someone, they hurt me in some way, shape, or form.”
Tai looked sad. ::Did I make him sad?:: “There must be someone you are close to.”
“Yeah, my brother TK. He’d never hurt me.” ::TK’s the only one left in my life.::
“What about your parents?”
Matt shifted his gaze away from Tai. He felt tears sting the back of his eyelids. ::Change the subject Matt!:: “So why did you decide to transfer schools when there is only two months left in the year?”
Tai seemed startled by the sudden change in subject, but didn’t question it. “I….didn’t really fit in.” This time Tai shifted his gaze away.
::Apparently he’s not ready to share everything with me either.::
BRIIIIIIIIIIIING! ::Yes! School’s finally over.::
Matt and Tai started packing up their things and handed over their completed project to the teacher.
“Hey, you want to go get something to eat?” Tai inquired.
::I’d love to go with you.:: “No, I can’t. I need to pick up TK.”
“Need a ride?” Tai held up car keys in his right hand.
“It’s really not that far a walk.”
“I insist. I’ll even drive you home. Whaddaya say.” Tai was grinning like a crazy man again. ::How can I resist that smile?::
“Okay.”
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“Hi TK.”
“Hey Matt! Wait till you hear what—“ TK stopped in mid sentence and looked at the person standing behind his brother. “Who’s that?”
“Hi, I’m Taichi.” Tai offered his hand to the little boy, who gladly took it and shook it. ::TK couldn’t be more my opposite.:: As soon as TK got a hold of Tai’s hand, he started asking questions one after the other. “Where are you from?” “Is that your car?” Are you one of Matt’s friends?”
Before Tai could answer the friendship one, Matt said, “Guess what TK, we don’t have to walk home today. Tai wants to give us a ride.”
“Cool! Are you gonna drive us home everyday Tai?”
Matt cut in again, “Quit bothering Tai, TK.”
Tai answered TK anyway, “Hopefully I will.”
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Tai’s rides became an everyday occurrence. Matt was starting to feel a lot better. It had been two weeks since his incident with his Father’s “friend.” He was actually beginning to forget it ever happened. But bad memories always have a way of resurfacing. One day after school he, TK, and Tai went to his house as they did everyday. But today was different. Matt’s bad memory was sitting at the Kitchen table.
“Is that your Father Matt?” Tai asked.
Matt shook his head no. “Could you do me a favor Tai?”
“Sure, anything Matt.”
“Take TK out and come back in about an hour.”
Tai looked at the man at the table then back to Matt. “Alright Matt.” He said and turned to leave with TK. ::Please don’t leave me.::
“C’mere boy!”
Matt walked over to the man.
The man stood up and quickly backhanded Matt across the face.
Matt fell to the floor roughly. ::Why the fuck did he do that?::
“Did I tell you it was okay to fuck other people, boy?”
Matt stayed silent. ::Fuck other people?::
“Take off your clothes, slut.”
Matt stayed motionless. ::Fuck him.::
The man pulled out a wad of money from his pocket. “Do you want my money or not boy?”
Matt bit his lip. ::Shit. I need that money. I’m almost out of the last “payment” he gave me. I got to do this, whether I like it or not.:: Matt nodded his head yes.
“Then take off your clothes!!!”
Matt slowly began to strip.
“Good boy.”
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“Matt, we’re back!” Tai’s voiced boomed through the house. Matt would have answered, but he didn’t feel like opening his mouth. He especially didn’t feel like moving. Matt decided he was going to spend the rest of his life in bed, where it was warm and safe. Matt heard the door to his room creak open slowly but refused to open his eyes.
“TK, could you give me and Matt a few minutes alone?”
“Sure.” TK whispered.
Tai closed the door and sat on Tai’s bed. “Matt, who was that man?”
“No one important.” Matt mumbled. He just wanted to go to sleep and stay that way forever.
“Matt, did he hit you or is that just another ‘wrestling’ accident?”
Matt laughed and opened his eyes to look up at Tai. “So I guess TK told you about that.”
“Matt, please tell me what happened.” Tai’s eyes were pleading with Matt’s.
::Tell him what happened? If he knew what happened, he wouldn’t want to be anywhere near me. God, I feel so dirty.:: Matt shifted his body so that it faced away from Tai, and toward the wall. “Please just leave me alone.” Matt whispered.
“Matt…” Tai put his hand on Matt’s shoulder.
Matt cringed from the touch, like it was fire burning him.
“Matt, please, tell me what happened!”
“It’s none of your Goddamn business, okay? Just leave me the hell alone!”
“Alright Matt, if that’s what you want.”
::No, don’t leave again. I didn’t mean it.:: Matt heard his bedroom door close. ::Come back Tai. Please. I need you. I love you. Love you…You’ll never be able to love me though. I’m so fucking disgusting now. No one wants trash. That’s all I am. Maybe when I go to sleep tonight, I won’t wake up. Then it wouldn’t hurt anymore. I wouldn’t have to feel anything ever again.::
TBC….
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Chapter 5 done. Yay! Once again, I’m not proof reading. Hopefully it came out okay. If there are any gross errors, please tell me. THANX!
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