| Niavety My Enemy Little girl took a step into the real world Surrounded by fear and hatred Wanted to feel wanted but just got used Terrified of being rejected Saw beauty in a soul and a glimmour of hope But he turned his back and left her Grew older every day but naivety failed her What she felt was wasted A week went by and she started to fade Pining for that dying comfort Tried to revive it but he just looked away Security was beyond her reach Cried out for the beauty, screamed his name Tried to make him believe Dressed up in her best, tried to impress But his eyes were dead At this she crawled away into the black of lonliness But still she held a scrap of hope The kind words of an angel made her believe That maybe she still had a chance Clinging to that hope she waited for him But he hid himself from her Searching for her love who was never hers She would kill herself trying. |
| Grief How could I let you slip away? You never stuck around to change the world with me I need your comforting words I've searched so hard to find you but you're all gone My last glimmer of hope was you A pure but tortured soul to share a lifetime with A fragile but sold friend Without you I can't see my way anymore You kept me alive I tried to return the favour but I failed I can't see the good in me Not a twinkle of light to end my darkness A selfish quest for a little happiness But all I see is a past riddled with hurt I smiled sitting by you But you were ripped away from my side Your demons took you I wanted my best friend to stay with me I pray you're happy Somewhere unimaginable to me Somewhere safe, somewhere free. |
| For the Never Forgotten As elegant, majestic birds strut From grave to grave in search of a meal In turn I search for you Why can't I feel your presence? Not even here by your resting place Perhaps I'm looking too hard Rain falls mimicking my tears The hazy sun disappears behind a grey cloud Casting shadows on my already blackened soul Frustrated by this lack of contact Not an atheist nor a believer I wonder what I'm doing wrong I travelled so far to find you Tired and desperate and you're not here A strom brews inside my heart No comfort in a statue of a child Safe in the arms of god I could scream but you'll never hear As I walk to the cemetery gates I stop and look over my shoulder Try to catch you by surprise But all I see if darkness Stones grey and green and black Decaying in forgotten memories. |
| Blindness Anticipation burns right through me Leaves a hole in my soul that bleeds Stings my eyes so I can no longer see Creates and ache in my heart that never leaves Disappointment sinks to the bottom of me Rips through my body like a hurricane Closes my eyes so I can no longer see Leaves me feeling cold and full of pain Rejection stabs at the core of me Makes me feel like I should be dead Tears from my eyes so I can no longer see Brings back the suffocation to my head Disapproval ruins the pride in me They don't care about the hurt I feel Scorn that fact that I can no longer see I can't prove that my pain is real Loss finally destroys me Forces a part of me to disappear Laughs at the fact that I can no longer see Fills me with lonliness, emptiness and fear. |
| Rejection Steal an integral part of me Strip me of my dignity Rob me of my confidence You make me feel so ashamed My idiotic niavety never tarnished A childish hope never extinguished I can't accept what rationality tells me This problem will never be resolved You seek to fulfil some primal urge I search to mend the abyss in my heart Twelve wrongs never produce a right Your motives will never be pure Love in the twenty first century Is an alien concept to everyone but me Nothing is ever constant Except this nagging doubt in my mind Fake promises too little too late I've already seen through your lies Yet you still carry out the rigmarole Soothe the conscience you never had Your priority always with number one Never a glimpse at what you left behind I am the junk you dispose of so readily Consuming what little trust that remains You leave me here, and empty shell Not considering the hurt I endured Is this all I'm worth and all I deserve? So close to giving up but I can't Won't resign myself to being eternally alone So I continue to make the wrong decisions But if I never try I won't reach my goal Am I really asking for too much? Everyone around me has what I desire Yet they abuse it and take it for granted If it were mine I would cherish it dearly So greatful for the gift I admire To think of what they took from me Causes me excrutiating pain inside Falling for the disguise every time Left for dead by the side of their mind. |
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