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| A Dream Within A Dream -Edgar Allan Poe Take this kiss upon the brow! And, in parting from you now, Thus much let me avow- You are not wrong, who deem That my days have been a dream; Yet if hope has flown away In a night, or in a day, In a vision, or in none, Is it therefore the less gone? All that we see or seem Is but a dream within a dream. I stand amid the roar Of a surf-tormented shore, And I hold within my hand Grains of the golden sand- How few! yet how they creep Through my fingers to the deep, While I weep- while I weep! O God! can I not grasp Them with a tighter clasp O God! can I not save One from the pitiless wave? Is all that we see or seem But a dream within a dream? |
| Alone -Edgar Allan Poe From childhood's hour I have not been As others were- I have not seen As others saw- I could not bring My passions from a common spring. From the same source I have not taken My sorrow; I could not awaken My heart to joy at the same tone; And all I lov'd, I lov'd alone. Then- in my childhood- in the dawn From ev'ry depth of good and ill The mystery which binds me still: From the torrent, or the fountain, From the red cliff of the mountain, For the sun that 'round me roll'd In its autumn tint of gold- From the lightning in the sky As it pass'd me flying by- From the thunder and the storm, And the cloud that took the form (When the rest of Heaven was blue) Of a demon in my view. |
| "Perfection is boring. If a face doesn't have mistakes, it's nothing." -Kevyn Aucoin |
| "Blister" -Jimmy Eat World Take advantage of these times, you said. You let me down. It hasn't been the first time. As I'm falling in the pit of fire my mind's made up. I'm never coming back here. How long would it take me to walk across the United States all alone. The West coast has been traumatized. I think I'm the only one still alive. Is it just a coincidence to see you by yourself with no direction. Now it's time to move on. Don't you know that things aren't getting better. Don't try and stop me. Because I'm falling fast into this pit of fire that surrounds us all. In a blanket of fear that I've been wrapped in for years. You can't stop me. When the world caves in what are you going to do for me. |
| "Just Watch The Fireworks" -Jimmy Eat World Here you can be anything. I think that scares you. I've been here before but only by myself. What giving up gives you and where giving up takes you. I've had and I've been. Here in center frame, there's only air. Just enough space to fit. I said it out loud over and over but what do I know. I said it out loud but it did not help. I'll stop now. Just so I can hear you I stay up as late as it takes, as long as it takes. I promised I'd see it again. I promise I'd see this with you now. |
| "Black Tangled Heart" -Silverchair Maybe your luck has changed Settle down Maybe I'm just deranged And on the rebound Maybe love was the thing Holding me back from all Maybe I'm just the thing To break my own fall Take the rope to my heart and fall You may just be the last before you See the black tangled heart fall Maybe departure's good Makes room for more Start to mass produce For a chance to ignore Maybe you'll kill yourself Before I get a turn Maybe I'll fall in love And never learn Take the rope to my heart and fall You may just be the last before you See the black tangled heart fall Take the rope to my heart and fall You may just be the last before you See the black tangled heart fall |
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| April 19, 2002 Today I choose life- Every morning when I wake up I can choose joy, happiness, negativity, pain, To feel the freedom that comes from being able to continue to make mistakes and choices- today I choose to feel life not to deny my humanity but embrace it. To embrace the fear of not knowing, of not having control over much of anything except my reaction to it but the control I have over my self and my actions. I let go of my sadness over past hurts to make room for today's journey. I've heard that life is a series of old doors closing and new doors opening, but its hell in the hallways. The fear of not knowing- were the next 30 days shown to me, would I want to go through the motions of reliving what I had been shown? Or would I want to prevent problems and change my own destiny? Well, I cannot tell the future but I can choose to direct my heart and soul towards good and loving acts- to say a silent prayer for the happiness and thought, I am redirecting my moment, my day, my life. Today I choose- lol Kevyn |
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| Feb. 14, 1962- May 7, 2002 |
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| "For those like me who loved Kevyn the person, the heart now weeps as if made of water color. Earth has lost yet another light, but perhaps, he has joined the masters who paint our sunsets." -Tori Amos May 09, 2002 (a quote about the death of her friend Kevyn Aucoin) Kevyn Aucoin (1962-2002) |
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